Earth to Self
Spiritual and Emotional Empowerment for Soulful, Heart-led Women.
As a Spiritual Guide & Mentor I guide women on a personalised healing journey towards greater Self-healing, trust and alignment with their Soul work.
12/10/2023
This week's art project.
18/06/2021
I've learnt so much about trauma and healing from this documentary and the work of Gabor Mate (and others). Free screening of the documentary has been extended an extra 3 days, plus access to a whole suite of inspiring interviews with thought leaders and professionals in this field. Highly recommend the interview with Sia. Inspiring stuff!
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17/06/2021
What happens when you choose ‘Surrender’ as your word of the year, closely followed by ‘Rest’ as your modus operandi?
It’s been half a year, so I thought I’d come out of hiding and share a bit about what that’s been like. Partly to express myself, partly to connect with you out there and partly to document my process.
So far this year I’ve removed myself from all projects, commitments and business endeavours. I’m not currently seeing clients or hosting circles. I’m not actually doing anything to further my career or make a living. What I am doing is taking super good care of my family AND myself and allowing there to be S P A C E and T I M E for whatever is next to arise from *within* me.
This is a huge and confronting time of de-conditioning, healing, exploring, feeling and being. And according to my astro informed mentor, this is the completion of a huge cycle for me. A 42-year cycle. Boy, am I feeling it!
This is also a time of deep listening. The kind you can only access if you slow down. Way, waaay down.
Turns out when you stop doing all of the time, suddenly there's space for all of your ‘stuff’ to rise on up to the surface like some kind of cork bobbing about on a sea of uncertainty. Unprocessed grief, shame, fear, trauma. No wonder most of us keep busy all of the time!
But so far, I’m leaning in and welcoming the s**t show that wants to be cleared. This is GOOD! This is also HARD. But I’m here for it. Because I know that what is on the other side of this *Mountain of Unknowns* is going to be totally worth it.
Surrender, as I am learning, is fairly significant spiritual practice (!) One that will probably take a lifetime to master.
So if you’re also going through your version of *s**t show*, then know that you are not alone, you are transforming and THAT is so damn courageous of you.
As I heard today when I watched a moving interview with Sia: ‘I love you, keep going!’
Those words are as much for me as they are for you. x
17/03/2021
Rest is an act of rebellion.
That's how I feel today as I toss away my to-do list along with all the 'should's' bouncing around in my head.
I'm rebelling against my tendency to keep 'doing' even when I'm bone-tired and exhaustion is threatening to take me over.
I'm rebelling by *giving in* to the exhaustion, rather than resisting it. By surrendering and seeing where it takes me.
I'm rebelling by going back to bed in the middle of the day, surrounded by books and journals and maybe a sneaky episode of Outlander 😉
Friends, since I last wrote, I've been on a bit of a wild ride. I surrendered to where my energy was called (which was not on my business 😱) and I have been thoroughly stretched and expanded by a community project I'm working on.
And here I am in the other side. Weary and wondering what's next.
But first R E S T. Decompression is well and truly in session!
Rebellion against old, outdated patterning is the best kind of rebellion, don't you think?
27/01/2021
(Part 2/2) So in the spirit of Surrender, I’ve tiptoed into this new year with a rather ambitious declaration - to not make any plans.
Considering I’m a natural born planner, this for me feels like new & uncomfortable territory.
Instead I’m experimenting with letting life show me where to direct my energy.
In part to hone my responding skills as a HD Generator but also to let the f*ck go and learn trust in the flow of life.
I’m not sure whether it's instagram algorithms or genuine collective consciousness, but I have been supported by the fact that so many are easing into this year with a sense of allowing and slowing down, resisting the urge to set goals and pursue them with the regular rah rah that the new year usually inspires. Perhaps you’re feeling this way too?
For me, this sense of moving slowly into the new year is not just because 2020 was the year that it was. When I look back, I’ve been playing with the idea of surrender for years, skirting around the edges of the concept, but not really knowing ‘how to’.
My attempts have been short-lived as I’ve succumbed to old patterning, reverting to pushing and doing and then landing in big ol’ burn out town.
But this is the curious thing about healing and growing. It’s a cyclical thing. Each time you get on the merry-go-round of an old pattern, you learn a little more, go a little deeper, until you’ve had enough and are ready to do the work to shift it.
And that’s where 2021 has landed me.
‘Surrender’ is something I’ve resolved to explore and experiment with this year. Because I’ve come to the realisation that having plans and expecting things to work out a certain way has me missing the magic.
It has me not trusting life.
I’m ready to experiment with getting comfortable with uncertainty, listening to where I am needed and how I can serve right now and following where the energy of life is directing me.
What about you? Is any of this landing for you too?
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Photo by Ethan Hoover on Unsplash
27/01/2021
(Part 1/2) At the end of 2020, I fell into a heap as everything seemed to come to a head. The year that was pouring out of my eyeballs like some kind of dam breaking.
A lost pregnancy, covid lockdown, the BLM movement, uncertainty and disappointment in spades.
So when it came time for my daughter to finish preschool in December - I was a literal puddle of tears. Unexpectedly devastated that her early childhood years were ending & feeling a sense of loss over a precious stage that I’ll never get back.
Plus, projects coming to a standstill, our renovation at its most painful ‘nearly-there’ stage. The impending arrival of family into a house that resembled a construction site.
It was just too much and I crumbled.
Thank goddess I did, because I can see now that this messy end to one of the most challenging years ever, was transformation in action.
It led me to SURRENDER as a spiritual practice.
Surrender is not giving up.
It’s not a sign of weakness.
It’s letting go.
Not just of situations and circumstances external to you (because you have no control of that anyway).
It’s letting go of and healing your inner responses
Thoughts, emotions and beliefs
that rise up in resistance to life.
Surrender is trusting life.
That it is actually working in your favour at all times, if you’re willing to let go of your s**t and embrace what is actually happening!
*Especially* if it’s unexpected or not on the ‘agenda’.
In the last month I’ve inhaled Michael A Singers work: The Surrender Experiment, The Untethered Soul and the lecture series Living in a State of Surrender (all on audible).
And I’ve melted back into the relief that only a regular meditation practice can bring.
I love the simplicity of the teachings, the way it can be woven into every day moments, not just in meditation.
SURRENDER is the word and concept I’m playing with this year. But I have a feeling it’s going to be the foundation on which I build upon throughout my life.
(cont next post)