The red mist

Hey everyone
So where am I today

I finally managed to see a doctor .. actually she wasn’t a doctor, can’t remember her til toe but higher than a nurse but not a doctor but anyway she was very nice
I explained the whole situation which took quite a while as I’ve had 20 years of problems in my lady area!!
She said it was awful I was having to go through this and was shocked and apologised for me having to wait nearly a year to see a gynaecologist.
She listened carefully and gave me various ideas and advice but also wanted to do more research and look for other options. So far she has organised a blood test, suggested a go on a progestin only pill to counter act the hormone imbalance which she agrees with me it’s likely I have based on the symptoms, and thinks I have too much estrogen which can cause weight gain, breast problems and the actual polyps themselves. She said the only thing they prescribe for severe pms is anti depressants but wants to check which one specifically.
She also told me about my polyp was 17mm which is a fairly big size.
So I do have some answers but I’m very very wary of 1) going back on the pill after 20 years does not put me at ease as going on the pill is what started my crap periods to begin with snd
2) I am not feeling anti depressents as I’m not depressed but I’ve heard horror stories of people getting addicted to these type of pills.

With the extra weight she said to write everything down and try and cut down on sugary snacks or bad foods as I will need to lose the weight naturally and I can’t do more exercise as I’m already doing so much, then the pill should stop the estrogen which should stop me putting on unnecessary weight again

I have also started my premeeze natural tablets but don’t think I will feel the effects of these for a while yet.

So that’s where I am today .. trying to stay calm but still knowing I’m very grumpy and snappy at times!!

So another tip for moms today …. I know it’s a bit late for the summer holidays now but Info could be useful for October half term.

Kids days out bargains

Kids pass - a website/app that if you join offers some really good discounts - we got tickets for Warwick castle and safari park for over 30% off
You can join as a first time user for £1 but you often see promotions for it for 3 months free - I’ve used it repeatedly from dolmio jars, Lidl app partner deals and is currently on if you sign up for e mails and offers from hungry horse pubs
It does offers for seaside centre, farms, Drayton manor plus many more

Also look out for when places do free returns
National forest adventure farm did a free return this summer to use in September and wheelgate park did a return for 5 people for £19.99 which would usually cost well over £50

Erewash museum does free activities regularly - particularly good in the summer holiday

Sorry I also forgot to say if anyone has any tips for me I’m happy to listen .. I have purchased some natural remedies which have good reviews in helping pain and pms plus mood swings and anxiety for when I’m on so I’m going to start taking these as soon as I’m home .. I didn’t take them before holiday as I don’t always react well to tablets so didn’t want to be I’ll on holiday , I’m also taking vit d.

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And by the way the name of my page may be starting to make sense now … the red mist is what my husband says I have when I get super angry during my period and I can’t control myself …. Funny but not funny!!!

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So as I’ve said I’m on holiday - now I know not everyone is but I am very anti gadgets not entirely of course Zac gets his on long journeys and as a treat or if he has to come to work with me etc but we never ever let him have it at a dinner table as food is also family time. In fact he now tells us off if we answer a text to put it away as that’s our family rule (know it all 7 year old but he is correct lol)

Now as I said everyone is different but can’t you just put headphones on? Aghhh if you are someone who feels they need to just use the I pad to keep them quiet or entertain them then please use headphones!!! All I can hear in the hotel restaurant is 10 different kids cartoons on full blast literally blasting out of giant I pads plus every teenager blasting out bloody tik tok. I don’t get how these parents don’t think it’s really rude to force everyone in the hotel to listen to pepper pig for hours on end.
And yes I know there are always circumstances surroundings reasons why etc but I’m sorry I really think the sound should be banned in all restaurants.. use it if you want (personally I find it lazy to use all the time ) yes I know that will trigger lots of people to get angry at me … (but do remember I’m literally a walking stitch 187 (start of the movie not end) ) do what we did as children - talk, play games we have so many small easy to carry card games that are great. We know adults get severe addictions to social media but kids get addicted to screens too .. Zac gets obsessed sometimes and the first thing he loses is the tv .. he screams at me for 10 mins but then soon realises he can find other fun things to do (and that’s in a 12ft caravan) so I really hope restaurants start banning the noise which they would if people kept complaining about it

Thanks for reading my Tuesday annoyance!!

So where to start?
I was going to start at the beginning but thought that’s a long time ago so might start where I am now and have flashbacks like in the movies.

So I’m on holiday in Cyprus having a lovely time but at the same time hating myself due to my weight… I’ve always hated having big b***s and as I’ve put on weight (a lot for me) my b***s have also got much bigger. I don’t know why I’m putting on weight at the rate I am as I literally exercise all the time.,, I’m talking 20 000 steps daily, a very physical job and at least 3 big workouts a week so why I am still getting bigger… I mean my diet is no Victoria beckham ( fish and salad every day) but I eat everything in moderation .. I still have takeaways but I also cut down on snacks and bad stuff so why?
Well I don’t officially know .. is it because I’m past 40 now is that it can I just not eat if I want to stay slim or is it due to me having polyps (recent diagnosis will come back to that later)
I’ve googled it a lot and it says it’s not linked with weight gain …. But it is linked to hormonal imbalance and that can cause weight gain so that’s where I am … really down not wearing a bikini, covering up with a t shirt in the pool and hating myself.
It doesn’t help that I can’t ever get into my doctors to actually talk to a professional about this. It’s a years wait list to see someone about my polyps … yes you read that correctly a year to even see a gynaecologist that’s not the operation to have them removed that’s just to be told how many I have, me asking if they could become cancerous (which they can the longer they are left) oh and by the way I was told in June via text message - good morning you have polyps … no phone call or letter just a short direct text message .. then a letter saying if I don’t hear from anyone by Aug to ring them. I ring them in aug and they say that letter is old it should never have been sent out and it’s a years wait to even see a specialist .. when I questioned this with my personal symptoms saying I can’t go a year on this much pain she just laughed and said well if we had 20 more gynaecologists employed then you would get in sooner. I’ve always been on the side of the NHS and I understand they have a back log but this is rediculous. My marriage and family will not make it a year with me being like this because my symptoms are the weight gain which really makes me feel down, the insane pain before and during my period, the never knowing when my period will come - nightmare for just trying to get through life in general and the absolute gushing of blood coming out of me during my period including extremely large blood clots - sorry for TMI but it’s important to be clear. I am walking on egg shells thinking I’m going to bleed through my clothes and bleed all over the floor like I did one night when we had to call 111. I’m forever taking spare clothes with me and the pain I’m my pelvis brings tears to my eyes… but the worst pain is how I’m behaving to my family. My PMS is through the roof.. I’ve always struggled with this as I’ve always struggled with bad periods but this is taking the mick. I’m like an angry hyena on speed who hasn’t been fed for days I just scream and shout and throw and argue non stop, I’m like a new born vampire who needs to make her first kill (massive twilight fan back in the day) I can sort of see myself doing it like an out of body experience but yet I can’t honestly control it, how is my husband supposed to put up with this for a year without divorcing me?
So that’s where I am currently trying to keep my chin up but struggling and after having 20 years of troublesome periods, pregnancy loss, painful and sickly pregnancies, awful birth … I’m finding it hard to be positive.

Please feel free to comment and share any experiences .. I know lots of people like to keep these things private and that’s fine but sometimes sharing can help too!!

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