Lippy legs and me

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Home - Talk Lipoedema Lipoedema is a chronic condition, it causes fat to build up around the hips, buttocks, legs and arms often causing the affected limbs to appear out

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Lipoedema Find out about lipoedema, an abnormal build-up of fat in your legs and sometimes arms, including what the symptoms are, when to get medical help and what treatments are available.

2 and half years I am.blown away .

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Lipademia is often mistaken as obesity.
So it's obvious I am over weight however a great percentage from the waist down is a direct effect from the condition Lipademia.
This condition looks completely different to how society depicts what a good image should look like.
Lipademia is a very painful condition that affects your ability to walking cope with the pain.
What a lot of people don't talk about is the direct effect LIPADEMIA has on mental health and the constant stigma conjuction to other people's opinions. I had a derogatertive statement made surrounding this exact same image just a few days ago. The comment said ate all the pies.
It's not about what you eat it's a genetic diposition and is not a result of over eating. I am aware thou my size would have worsend the condition. I am unable to lose a lot of the weight that is directly associated with the lipademia . So my arms and legs will stay over sized and have a lumpy appreance. The only treatment that could directly change a person's life with lipademia is liposuction. Liposuction for lipademia is not available th NHS. Thr treatment is so expensive, and I'd never be able to be free from the suffering and the stigma attached. There is compression that could give some relief to the pain. However, compression is painful. It's self and has many limitations and possible breakdowns of skin tissue.
I am me, my lippy legs, and all not my condition, not my size just me.

Lipademia is often mistaken as obesity.
So it's obvious I am over weight however a great percentage from the waist down is a direct effect from the condition Lipademia.
This condition looks completely different to how society depicts what a good image should look like.
Lipademia is a very painful condition that affects your ability to walking cope with the pain.
What a lot of people don't talk about is the direct effect LIPADEMIA has on mental health and the constant stigma conjuction to other people's opinions. I had a derogastatement made surrounding this exact same image just a few days ago. The commentho ate all the pies.
It's not about what you eat it's a genetic diposition and is not a result of over eating. I am aware thou my size would have worsend the condition. I am unable to lose a lot of the weight that is directly associated with the lipademia . So my arms and legs will stay over sized and have a lumpy appreance. The only treatment that could directly change a person's life with lipademia is liposuction. Liposuction for lipademia is not available th NHS. Tye treatment is so expensive, and I'd never be able to be free from the suffering and the stigma attached. There is compression that could give some relief to the pain. However, compression is painful. It's self and has many limitations and possible breakdowns of skin tissue.
I am me, my lippy legs, and all not my condition, not my size just me.

Lipademia,fibromialgia, osteoarthritis, hypermobility, fatigue, chronic asthma,lymphedema, diverticulitis, varicose veins, migraines ganglion to my withered hands trapped nerves bulling disc's, words to describe what causes me to crumble or stmble gasping to breath. Just me!

Churning goes the edge of pain
Stabbing goes as the blades as lipademia set in.
Legs look like you should not have eaten all that fat
My diet is healthy ,living for wellbeing, I hear you eat much as I am snarled at.
I am not that. Not just fat, let's talk about that.

Eyes weep my skin creeks. My bones crunch as the bones whine
My nerves are on edge as the pain is ingrained within every breath I take. Awake again in the midst of the night.The knife of lipademian as I try not to shout out with the strain of the pain imprinted upon my legs.

I'm lying here in bed.
No, do I sleep an hour or too.
Wake with sadness
Nor do I sleep the night through
Every night, every waking minute
Twists the knife that stings with its bite
My kegs feel so heavy, and tears drain it lipidemia, and I. Sleep what is that I ask. 😴

IMy legs
They are tangled with the strain
Twisting at every dint and upon my skins uneven surface.
Tree trunk, you may say,
I listen, and jip lip it rises with anguish
No, do I care how they or seen
Pain is all I feel, weighted down heavy concrete. No freedom from the pain

No pity do i need ,no whitty comments from you to me
You see, the sea saves me
Purpose and smiles luaghter my mind unwinds from the pain, the tear, the sniggers, the stairs,
I feel just me in the sea, not the list i weite above for you to read
Defined by so much, labels inprjnted upon the surface of me.
Just label you see as inside i shine with a warth of humanity.
No, do i jusge a book by a cover
No, do i judge your opinion of me . You see, i believe again in me
I know my heart is true to my cire.
I pass back any judgement of me
I ask only one thing do you see me
I am just me
Im not my disabilities or illness
I do not pretend that without all that
I would fit into society without a blink of an eye without a stare or or a glare .
So see me see past the things that or inpeinted upon me
Look at the real me.
The persons who try's hard to live with all that. The person who cares about you and me.
You sea the cold north sea helped me make semse of all that. The cold north sea holds me no different than you are me.
Its apendipty of clouts ao vobrant and dark sends its waves of beauty to me and you. It helps me to forget that my body is weak and my mind is struggling with all ghat.
Just me. I am, after all, just me, free in the sea.

My legs
My legs carry me like your legs carry you.
My legs are weighted and at tomes feel to heavy to take a step.
It takes strengh from in to lift my feet
Ot takes finding peace from the anguish and despair that tortures me
I do not care that my legs don't fut society
I care that I am the best of me.
I share my plot so openly to bring awarness that what you see is from the heart of me
I don't pretend that am happy with me
I tell you truths and will not lie to you are me.
I have to embrace the goodness that lies deep within.
My happy place is submerged with in the cold north east waters so vibrant blue and grey
Am at ease within the sea. It holds me so gracefully
I can move so freely my legs and me.

Just me
Stares and glares , opinions, opinions given by onlookers who do not know me
My history is hidden wrapped up in my mind like a warm woollen mitten.

The wool becomes loose and unwinds the pain and hidden truth
I did not choose to be obese no more than I chose to live, life in chronic Pain. . I did not allow it to become ingrained within the lines upon my face. I chose to smile why you stand and stare and glare and embrace all that is directed towards me.

My legs are withered and beaten , others deem unsighlty and should be hiiden.
So let me tell you this with a warm growth of living and loving life in it own entirety.

My legs may not fit in modern-day society.
You judge your stare and often over the glare.
I found this unfare judgement without knowing what hides within my warm woollen mitten.

So pull at my strings and let me show you how my story should be truly written. So keep your stare or glares? It should be forbidden.
I do not judge you, so why do you judge me.
Legs like melted candles, withered, and shrivelled wiped out with its strains. Yet, do you see me, or do you see a non societal expectation of how I should me.
Do you see the heart that beats inside the pain I endure and heartache that i feel when i see th look of dismay
The thoughts of sadness that you judge without permission i do not keep as i send them right back to those, then do not see my charm and warmth of being just me.

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Two years from swimming in the sea. The joy in my eyes now, makes me well up. I'd given up and just wanted to sleep an eternity. Until that day in July lockdown and I find the courage and strength some how to take the pain and get into the sea.

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Grounded unable to feel free in the sea.
Rugged frame of mine is creaking 'crackling striking me down in pain.
I try to be the best of me boom bang here I go again. Stood still waiting for the pain to stop raining on my parade and let me get back backside back in the cold north east sea.
I tried to beat it just the other day the relief was amazing floating away. With a struggle and tears unable to move smoothly, I struggled to get dressed. Tears become ingrained in me and left me feeling really drained. I say yes and my frame says noway wishing it would just go away. Rest is the best is all I can do. I am lay here typing feeling the pull of the ocean beckoning me to feel free, full of shimmering glee. Pain oh! pain go away so that I can go and play within magic tide. When the tide of pain hits its lowest theres only one way to go and thats up and back standing happily. The sea is the best pain releif for me its a magical submerge within the deep blue sea. So I will wait until my body says yes whilst longing to get dressed in my swim ware . I stand proud swim ware with not a care in the world. Within comparison to my day ware I feel worried what others think of me. I feel jusge when im dressed up and keep trying my best to stop guessing what other might think of me . I never thought is a million years that I'd stand at my local beach full of happiness, not caring if others judge me. My confidence is growing slowly my smile is dancing and beeming a beautiful light. I found my place and my community, where I can be just me for all to see. A new feeling omerged when I joined in the fun with the cold water swimming community. I learned that being just me is enough for me and I am proud of the person I grew to be. Compassion and respect cost nothkng to you or me..With this the next time you see me by the sea I know you will see I beleif in you and me. Smile and believe in the peron you are and me. Opinions of others is theirs to kèep so iknowing this I will never recoil and weep again. I guft negativity back to thous who judge me. Stay safe sending postive thoughts and energy to you all.

Stuck solid to the ground
fighting to remove these invisible weights anchored around my heels.
Fear and despair overwhelm me
Maybe I will never see another sunrise
or even another day.

My body is suffocating me as the lipids overtake
accumulating at what feels like the speed of light.
I have no strength to break out and find the energy to slow the uptake.
I leave the house and I swear I can see - and hear –
the stares and glares become me,
I am fat
I cry and hide away to protect me from the evil that overtakes me.

I hide and cry
and wonder why
people can't see past the size of me.
My family snigger and Jeer at me
I am their pawn in a game to make their time funnier for them to enjoy.
Oh why can't the world see the real me, see past the size and my unsightly legs
These thing do not define me.
I am big and its what others call fat,
oh this is the exact fact.

Six months on -I no longer care how you all see me
I can feel and hear what's really inside
I smile
I laugh
I go out doors

If only you had never sniggered at me
Can't you see it is so mean.
Just look at me now
I don't see how mean you can be,
I am smaller
I stand taller
and guess what
I am proud and delighted for being just me
lipids and all for you too see.

Photo shoot all dressed up at my favorite place.

⚠️⚠️so my change in medication has been messed up I've been delivered the wrong weeks and been feeling very sluggishly. I eneded up having a fall in result if being light headed. Anugush and dissapoitment has made me feel less positive today .

Two years difference. I am overwhelmed with the difference in my legs. They half the size.