Ambient Healing

Ready, steady, go, the website is live!

From a project that was dreamt of in Winter, started in Spring, created in Summer & ready to launch in Autumn.

The journey has been another invitation to work through blockages and barriers of myself that want to keep me hidden.
Another invitation to befriend the parts of myself riddled with self doubt. The parts that overwhelm of being out of my comfort zone hit me with brute force.
Like the phases of the seasons this journey has been a transition of change, areas of shedding, making room for growth. It’s been an eye opening ride!

I am so fortunate that I discovered Susan from http://www.springrayhq.com/ who accompanied me on this journey and turned my vision into reality. This side of creating your own business is definitely a labour of love for me and wouldn’t have happened without the knowledge, support & guidance of Susie. Her expertise is second to none and I highly recommend working with her. I’m so grateful for her and proud of the creation of this project.

Link is in the bio ….

I’m off to work through another layer of vulnerability!

Happy Autumn Equinox. I hope you can take some time to reflect on all you’ve achieved & overcome so far this year.

I can’t believe we are approaching autumn already, especially as it feels like summer has only just arrived!

As a lover of autumn I’m so excited that the next circle is to welcome in my favourite season. (Not wishing the sun away just yet, but excited for all the feels this magical season brings)

Join us as we connect, reflect, share & witness each other, setting our intentions for the transition into the deeper months of the year.

This is an intentionally intimate circle with limited spaces.
DM if you would like to join us in this beautiful space.

Sunday 24th September
7pm - 9pm
St Stephens Community Centre
£20pp

And how the environment mirrors it back to you is if the parents are happy around you and they can see you. One of my teachers, whose name is A. H. Almaas, he talks about his theory of holes. And what he means by that is, we are born, he says, with our essence intact or our essential selves intact: clarity, presence, love - these are all aspects of the essence - value. An infant does not think of themselves as worthless. This is not conscious in their part, that essence has to develop but it is there. However, for the essence to develop the environment has to mirror your essence.

Dear Dad,

Father’s Day has rolled around again and this one feels harder still.

Last night I played the one video I have of you talking, the lasting memory of your voice. At first you sounded different, but then I realized it’s because I haven’t heard your voice now in such a long time. It scared me, but I listened again and felt your presence grow.

Everyone says things get easier with time but days like today are the reminder of the enormity of losing a parent.

Losing you changed me in so many ways.

Navigating the pain of your death, has taken me on the deepest path of self discovery. A path I’m grateful for but one that will forever be bittersweet.
I see it now as your parting gift.

You gave me so many gifts through my childhood. You showed me what a truly kind person is and how to love unconditionally. You were my champion, my safe space and my world.

Your love, consistency and gentleness in my earliest years gave me the foundations for all the best parts of me and I’m forever grateful.

I knew how much you loved me and believed in me. How you didn’t judge me and would always be there for me.

I didn’t understand the importance of that until after you were gone.

Thank you for all you have given to me and all I hope I can now to give to my children. Your love is your legacy and I see that growing in your grandchildren. You will always be my biggest inspiration.

I love you and miss you always.

Amy x

Heal yourself, and those around you are more likely to join you. They may not. They definitely won’t heal at the pace that you do, but your healing is like an invitation for others to heal themselves.





angermanagement

On 21st June we cross the threshold into summer. A time when the natural world around us is in full bloom as it’s flourishes in the energy of the summer season.

Join us for an evening of connecting to our own internal energy of the season, as we take time to explore what is coming into fruition within us.

As we lean into the fire of the sun, you are invited to pause and look inward to what passion and purpose needs to be ignited within you?

Through guided mediation, intention setting, sharing & stories of summer, in the presence of an intimate group of other women. You are offered the sacred space needed to provide you the safety to explore into your soul. Allowing your deepest desires to burn bright and be seen.

Summer Solstice Women’s Circle
Friday 23rd June
7pm - 9pm

St Saviours Community Centre
£20pp

Message if you would like to book and join us for this beautiful evening of connection.

Fall in love with the darkness.
With the p**s and the s**t of life.
The shadows, the hidden parts.
The bits we hide out of shame.

Fall in love with the innocence.
Our childhood fears of the dark.
Of being exposed. Of showing ourselves,
being seen, coming into the light.

The doubts, the secret pains,
our strange fantasies, feelings we
just don't know what to do with.
Terrors of the night-time.
The rage that bubbles just under the surface.
The fear that we are not loveable.

The feelings and thoughts we conceal
to maintain the image of 'me'.
To be good, to be nice, to be spiritual.
To be 'the one who can hold it all together'.

Fall in love with this secret humanity.
Know that darkness is NOT darkness,
only scared fragments longing to come into the light,
beings who want love, and attention,
and breath, and inclusion in the larger picture of Self.

Do not seek the light, friend.
Simply be the light. Be what you are.
The light of life.
And have the courage to shine fully
on the sore places, the tender places.

Illuminate. Radiate.
Make it safe for the little monsters
to come out of hiding.
Let them know they are beautiful.
And worthy.
And not monsters at all.

- Jeff Foster

A few days ago while at the pool I watched a young Mama and her little daughter enter the pool area dressed in very nice coordinating swimming suits. The mom, with her perfect loose curls tied up in a coordinating scarf, spent the first few minutes talking loudly on her phone to a friend while her daughter stood waiting to get into the pool. Mom ended the phone call and proceeded to spread out pool toys and sunscreen on a matching towel. Then after finding just the right angle and the right light, Mama pulled out her tripod and took a few selfies with her daughter. Little One asked to get in the pool. Mama said wait and then posed her daughter in front the pool, then going in to the pool and then coming back out of the pool. Little one smiled big and said "cheese" like she'd done it a million times. Then Mama told her she could play. Little One walked in and swam around for a couple of minutes. Mama called a friend on her phone and began another conversation while Little One politely and repeatedly asked "Mama, can you come in the water with me, please?" She was ignored. "Mama, come play with me?" she asked 4 more times. Mama glanced over at her but never got off the phone. After 10 minutes Mama ended her call, collected the sunscreen that was never applied, the water toys that never touched the water, and then her daughter and left the pool.

I sat there thinking about what I'd witnessed for awhile afterwards. I imagined the photos she took being perfectly edited and posted to social media with a caption like "Pool time with my girly! ".

Somewhere another Mama is going to be at home with her children, the house a mess from their play, her hair unruly from a day of mothering and her clothes dirty with spit up or peanut butter. She's going to be tired because she's spent her day cooking, caring, cleaning and playing with her children. She's going to look at that photo and she is going to compare herself to the perfect Mama at the pool. The Adversary is going to whisper into her ear "you aren't good enough... You don't look like that Mama at the pool... You don't have money to buy expensive swimming suits like that and you don't have time to make memories like she is" and that young Mama is going to believe it. She's going to feel like a failure. She'll never know that how she spent her time that day was so much better in her children's eyes than that "perfect Mama" at the pool.

What we see on Social Media isn't always real. Sometimes and often it's a complete set-up. It's staged and filtered and it's counterfeit.

Sometimes we do see absolutely real photos of vacations and beautiful homes and freshly done hair but it's only ONE moment. It's the very best moment out of a whole day spent much like our own. Working, cleaning, and messes...

Mamas, don't compare yourself. You ARE enough! You are amazing and the very best part is that you are REAL! Your dirty shirt and your messy house and your happy children are real and they are proof that you are doing it right! ❤

I used to try to be Good.
Good was my go-to in everything.

But Good got me nowhere.
Not like Truth.
Truth,
she tore me to shreds,
devoured me whole and spat me out shaking and new.

Truth keeps a box of matches in my pocket.
While Good made me afraid of transformative fire.

Truth keeps me real,
even if it makes everyone in the room uncomfortable.

And Truth,
unlike Good,
doesn't let me bow down to anything.

Truth doesn't let me give in to bullying, misguidance and fear-based criticism
or cowardice.

Truth is a queen and a humanitarian,
while Good,
she's a silent,
scared little sheep.

Truth knows that Good dulls my already radiant, fierce and loving soul.
Good showed me how to hide my wings,
my words and angel vision.

Truth taught me to be brave.
Truth taught me how to respect myself.
Truth allows me to hold impenetrable space for any story,
but first and foremost,
for my own.

— Tanya Markla

Yesterday was a reminder that even on a gray day there’s still so much beauty and vitality all around us.

The first quarter of this year has felt so slow and an uncomfortable. It’s resurfaced old beliefs I hold about myself and really made me question the purpose of a lot of things.

In flow with Mother Nature, as she finally steps into full spring bloom. I can feel my own energies shifting and the stagnation lifting. This uncovering of another layer of old beliefs, conditionings and old patterns has been a hard one.

I felt I let the ball slip in many areas and then had to deal with negative internal voice telling me I’m not good enough, as a mum, a wife, a friend, an employee. Imposter syndrome for who I am in this space has been rife.

Today as we reach Beltane, the shift around me and inside of me is evident and for that I’m so grateful and will be embracing all the energies of this midway point.

I’m thankful for the continued growth and ready to embody the latest lesson shown to me and utilise this in the ways I work with and support women.

A website overhaul is incoming, my head finally feels more active with ideas and inspiration.

Happy Beltane Blessings, I hope your internal fire and passions are ready to burn bright 🌷🌻🌺

Are you ready to nourish your soul & join us for our next Womens circle?

“When a woman tells the daring truth of what she has endured, she moves away from being mired in individual fear toward a new emotion—love. She declares, “I love myself. I am worthy of being heard. I am more than the sum of my past. I trust my voice.”

― Shefali Tsabary

Come and be seen for all that you are in this beautiful sacred space.

Sunday 16th April

7pm - 9pm

St Stephen’s Community Centre

Exchange £15pp

So much love for best friends, hill climbs, laughter, chatting the night away and time out.

Last week I had the best overnight stay in a quaint (slightly quainter than anticipated 🙈) little cottage with my best friend.
It was my first proper off the clock childfree night in nearly 2 years. The last one also being with my bestie and climbing the Tor. Hill climbs and extended detours are now our tradition, never ask us for directions 🙈

On the drive to our cottage (little room) I felt maxed out, mum’d out, burnt out.

A total contrast to how I felt the next morning and how I feel a week later. I have more capacity to function, more energy, more patience, more appreciation for my needs.

As a mum we often struggle with the justification of time for ourselves. There’s always so much to do, right?! The never ending to do list and responsibilities.

Did I feel guilty knowing my daughter got upset at bedtime when I wasn’t there, yes absolutely. But as a result she’s had a far more receptive parent out of me this week and hopefully for a good while longer.

Geography prevents child free nights with my bestie from happening often. But I’m 100% going to make time for myself in different bite size ways. Remembering prevention is better than cure. My body was screaming at me to slow down, step out for a while but I ignored it and carried on, making me snappy, unmotivated and fueling that mum guilt and vicious cycle.

My point to this post, if you need a break, if you need to “fill your own cup” do it. You’re important too and ultimately your kids benefit from a recharged & refreshed version of you.

Gemma Major forever grateful for how you fill me up ♥️

Going offline for a few days to soak up all the time with family and friends and hoping to come back feeling recharged.

Life on a small island away from a family support can be hard at times. I’ve definitely been feeling the burnout lately. I’m looking forward to a much needed child free night with my bestie tomorrow and lots of connection in the present moment.

The exit from winter has been slow and as much as I can feel the stirrings of spring, that spring energy still feels inaccessible to me at the moment. Which has been unnerving as my ideas and creativity is usually in full flow by now.

I’m surrendering to the rest and recharge my body & mind is still carving and grateful I get to soak up all the nourishment of being with some of my favorite people.

Looking forward to coming out recharged and ready to take some beautiful souls through Healing the Sister Wound next week.

There’s still time to join us in this sacred space of healing. We will journey as a small intimate group, collectively connecting through our pain & experience of this wound, held in a safe and nurturing space.
please email [email protected] and i will reply Tuesday.

Have a beautiful weekend, I hope you can do something this weekend that fills your cup ♥️

from time to time we all need the reminder, it’s ok

IT’S OKAY…

It’s okay to be tired

It’s okay to say no

It’s okay to cancel plans
(Without giving a reason)

It’s okay to “just not feel like it”
(That’s a good reason)

It’s okay to not know anything

It’s okay to leave
It’s okay to walk out

It’s okay to take time to decide
And to take space to feel

It’s okay to mess up
It’s okay to be as awkward as hell
It’s okay to tremble

It’s okay to be down
It’s okay to be low

It’s okay to rest

The negative
The shadow
The “unwanted” bits

These are your friends
Not your enemies
(It’s okay to not understand this)

It’s okay to learn as you go

It’s okay to be imperfect each day

It’s okay to forget who you are
and where you’re going
and begin
again.

It’s okay.

- Jeff Foster

Our Women’s Circle for March is online, due to returning to the UK for my Nans funeral.

Join us as we acknowledge the last few days of winter and the transition through to spring.

“You think winter will never end, and then, when you don’t expect it, when you have almost forgotten it, warmth comes and a different light.”
― Wendell Berry

This a free circle - please message or email [email protected] for the zoom link.

*Date Change*

As I will now be back in the UK for my Nan’s funeral on what would have been our second week together.
This journey will now be starting on Thursday 30th March and running for 5 consecutive weeks.

There is still space to join us, as we heal the wound that is inherent in most women.

This journey is a deep dive into exploring how our own wound limits us in our daily life & the impact it holds.

We move past the fixation of our story. Way beyond a blame game and into the imprint in our body. Exploring how we take accountability for how our pain and suffering has also impacted and hurt others.
Together we forge a safe space and regain trust in sisterhood.

*Testimonial*

I joined, Amy and the sisters who signed up to the course not knowing in the slightest what it would bring up for me. It’s safe to say it was a mixture of pleasant surprise, revelations, laughter and just total and utter trust that I never expected to feel. I came away from that course with, not only honorary sisters that I hold VERY dear - but also in complete awe of Amy. Her ability to hold space at the same time as showing her own vulnerability is like nothing I’ve ever seen before. Amy I am so glad to have found you, you’ve helped me in ways I can’t even express. I’d encourage anyone who’s been wounded by a female in their life to commit to this amazing experience 🤍 thank you Amy 🖤

Are you ready to join us?

We start Thursday 30th March 8pm - 9.30pm. £50pp.

DM or email [email protected] to sign up or for more details.

Last Sunday my lovely, gentle, kind Nan closed her eyes and peacefully passed away.

This week has been very reflective of the ebb and flow of life.

My lovely Nan, Cynthia was my last living grandparent.
My thoughts have been, how I’m currently in a contraction of life. Where my family circle is getting smaller, before my children start to grow families of their own and the expansion of family life begins again.
Roles switching and generations changing. Ebb and flow.

Grandparents houses can be a hub of the family. I remember summers with my cousins in my grandparents garden, making mud pies and hoping the ball didn’t hit the greenhouse! A front room full of family, that often the only space left was to perch on the arm of a chair or fight for the spot in front of the fire.

My other reflection as I realized I only have one photo of my Nan, (this one with my eldest son taken nearly 19 years ago), Is that I need to make copies of the photo albums my mum has.
Photos bring comfort and can tell stories through generations. I will remember my Nan but for my youngest child her memory of her will fade & will come back to life through that of a picture.

Sharing stories & pictures through generations helps bridge the space between life’s contraction and expansion of our family circle.

My last reflection, make time for your grandparents, ask them questions, ask them to tell you about their life, their parents & grandparents, their favorite memories. Their challenges & triumphs. I’m lucky my grandparents were a huge part of my childhood but I wished I’d taken the time as I got older to know them better. To ask all the questions it’s now too late to ask.

Nan, I will always remember cocoa before bed, tea made in a pot (and the mouthful of tea leaves if you drank the last gulp!)
I’ll remember you gentle soul and kindest nature. Love you always xx

Healing the Sister Wound Women’s Circle is starting again Thursday 16th March.

At the start of 2022 my sister wound was deep. I had recently been betrayed by a friend and my trust in others was ruptured.

I knew it was important to heal, I didn’t want this experience on top of others to make me bitter & untrusting and knew part of my healing journey was to call in a group of sister also ready to heal and address this wound.

As we embarked on this journey together, we courageously faced our pain, took accountability for ourselves and faced our fears, as we healed through the sister wound.

Now is time to put out the call again, to share this circle with others ready to heal.

Over a 5 week online journey, we will deep dive together, exploring the wound that as women we all carry.

The sister wound affects us all in different ways and can show up as

•Jealousy
•Judgement
•Exclusion
•Trust Issues

We will explore the individual origin of our own wound. Not fixating on the story but bringing our focus to the pain & restriction it has created for us.

As we travel through the weeks together we will rewrite our faith in sisterhood. Healing the parts of us that not only store the wound inflicted on us, but taking ownership of the ways we inflict this to others.

Cutting ties to this toxic pattern and making space for us to reconnect to the sacred sisterhood that we all need.

“Every woman who heals herself,
helps heal all the women who came
before her and all those who
come after her.”

~ Christiane Northrup

Healing the Sister Wound starts Thursday 16th March via zoom, every Thursday for 5 weeks.
8pm - 9.30pm

£50pp

DM or email [email protected] to join us.

My book collection is developing a theme.

Note to self, always check before adding to my collection 🙈

It really comes down to this.

Life is about our people.

Not what kind of countertops you have, or how long it’s been since you’ve mowed your grass, or how many likes you got on your vacation picture, or what position your kid plays on the travel team, or how good or bad your new dinner recipe turned out, or the brand of car you get to say you drive.

It’s about the person whose heart felt seen as she sat across that countertop from you sharing her struggles over coffee.

And the conversation you have with that neighbor as you’re putting your mower away.

And the long-overdue life heart-to-heart chat you had with your spouse on the balcony during that trip you went on.

And the kid you get to hug on the way to the car after the game.

And the family with whom you shared that meal and everyone laughed when they realized it was safe to say mom didn’t ace her cooking.

And the friend to whom you gave a ride to the car shop who is impacted more by the gesture than the logo on the front of the hood.

Life?
Its about … people.

And I’m guilty as anyone of forgetting it sometimes.

But then I have those invaluable moments with the ones who matter most, and suddenly the “stuff” seems so trivial.

And I remember that it’s worth fighting past all of it — to live life where it’s meant to be lived…

… with the people who make it fuller by being in it.

🌿 The Thinking Branch 🌿

Hey mom why are you so tired?” ⠀
Because. Because you are most likely the keeper of every emotion of all of your children and most likely your entire family, because you are most likely the sole organizer of your entire families doctors, dentist, ortho, dermatologist, tutors, haircuts, birthday parties, parent teacher interviews and on and on and on. ⠀
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You are most likely the keeper and maker of all the special moments, vacations and family times that they will store in their memory bank forever. Because you most likely take care of a house while simultaneity stress about bringing an income in to relive the financial load in the house. ⠀
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You most likely know what each and every one of your children is feeling and what they need without them having to utter a word but you can tell by their facial expression or response exactly what they need.....you are most likely the one that somehow manages to cram a full day of work into hours so you can cook dinner, help with homework, be their cheer leader, therapist, boo boo kisser and emotional trampoline. You are their emotional barometer for “ok”, even if you’re not you show up as if you are . ⠀
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“Hey mom why are you so tired” , because you are the thread that holds it all together while barely holding yourself together but making it look like you have to all together for everyone else around you, because you don’t have the space or the time to not be together. ⠀
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You are so tired because you wouldn’t change it for the world, ever. Every night, every mother knows this. ....The insane gratitude of checking on them as you crawl to your own bed after a more than insane day, wondering if they know how much you love them and if you did it ok. You will lie there and wonder how you can do better ....
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But just so you know you are a dang freaking super hero, even if you’re more than slightly tired.

- Via Nat & Cat

Join us for an evening of connection with other beautiful women and immerse yourself in the sanctity of circle.

Honoring the ancient practice of being in circle, we come together in unity as we share from our heart.

Spaces are limited as I hold a small intimate space, allowing you to feel seen & heard in a safe non daunting atmosphere.

Testimonial ~
“Amy has the most calming and nurturing vibe, she really is a wonderful soul. I’ve done a few circles now and can say that after each one I have left feeling relaxed, calm and positive towards myself and any situation that may have been going on at the time. During the circles Amy is compassionate and approachable and the atmosphere is so loving.
I cannot recommend her enough and cannot wait for more circles this year!”

DM or email [email protected] to join us

Sunday 12th February 7pm - 9pm.

St Stephen’s Community Centre

Exchange = £15pp

“The manifestation of your desires is the first step to creating your reality.”
~ Shakti Gawain

What are your desires for the year ahead?

We only have a couple of spaces left for our first circle of the year, a perfect place to explore your dreams & desires.

As we come together in circle we will share the beautiful heart opening elixir cacao, relax through a guided meditation, allowing us to drop into our most creative, intentional, heart opening flow, to bring to life our 2023 vision & dreams.

With various templates, boards & resources all provided. I trust that even those of us that usually shy away from creativity will be able to let our vision ripple to the surface.

“Imagination is everything. It is the preview of life’s coming attractions.”
~ Albert Einstein

This beautiful manifesting circle & workshop is £35pp
with all vision board resources provided.

Sunday 22nd January 2pm - 5pm

DM if you would like to sign up for one of the last spaces.

So excited to start the manifestation of the year ahead in circle with you.