The Holistic Pain Clinic

Another wild trip around the sun for me☀️ 🎂 🎁 🎈

This last year I have seen powerful growth within myself and I continue to lean into (and leap from) huge edges. I can honestly say I am the happiest I have ever been and I thank all of the dear friends I have met over these past few years. The mirrors, the ones who speak their truths and encourage me to do the same, the ones who show up with loving support and help me see my shadows and embrace my beauty. The ones who hold my hand and give me long squishy loving hugs. Those who dance with me, sing around the fire and celebrate and tend to this beautiful Earth.

I am currently sat alone in a field with the sun on my face. I’m barefoot, tears on my face and covered in mud. And it is blissful.

🙏 ❤️ 💃 ☀️ ⛰️ 🪶 🔥

Love this picture of me captured last weekend by

I have always a love hate relationship with photographs of myself. I love to look back and remember the moment but I also can really feel a big ick! I have been incredibly unkind to myself over the years, particularly about my body and my appearance. I have compared, berated and self harmed. It’s been a big area of self growth over the last few years and I am still working on it.

I am fresh off the back of a very powerful retreat where I got in touch with my body and practiced true self love. On the day this photo was taken I danced naked in a room full of people and fully embraced my beauty for the first time!

And I look at the photo and am glad to remember the memory and feel no ick. I see a beautiful strong woman softly standing in her power. And that feels pretty nice 🙏

Free online mixed singing circle. Comment ‘sing’ for the link!

Tattoos have become a powerful medicine for me. My relationship with my body has been complex throughout my life. I have struggled to love it. I have neglected and mistreated it. I have hated it. But as I learned to understand it, I have grown to love this beautiful complex vessel that houses my soul. The markings on my body each represent a part of my story. They symbolise the beauty that can come from pain. Sitting for each of my tattoos has been a practice of self-love and consciously connecting with the pain. Tuning fully into the sensation. The artwork marked onto my skin with intention and reminds me of my strength, my passion and my beauty. These feathers, the most recent addition represents the element of air and freedom. Freedom to be fully me. Just as I am. Beautifully me.

Adventure is the word for sure

The truth will set you free 🙏 🦅

5 years ago today I was told I had ‘the spine of an 80 year old’ and offered a spinal fusion by my neurosurgeon. I was in so much daily pain and looking at my body language in this picture from back then I’m reminded how much of a struggle it was for me to enjoy life. I’m trying to smile for my children but inside I’m screaming.

However, I refused the fusion. Something in me just didn’t think that fusing parts of my body together was a good idea. So that left me with a choice. Either I accepted the pain was never going to get better or I find another way to heal. I chose option 2. Today I am mostly pain free, take no medications, I’ve done 2 marathons and I’m thriving. I’ve spent all summer camping and dancing at festivals and I am loving life.

The medical world kept me sick. I have no doubt that I would still be immobile and in agony if I had done that surgery or remained on the medications given to me by the doctors. I healed myself and now help others to do the same. Life is good 😊

Exactly 7 years ago I bought a mobility scooter thinking it would lead me to freedom. I’d been told by doctors I would be in pain for the rest of my life and so I thought my journey was to accept that I was disabled. I’m so glad that I refused to believe it and am now thriving on a very different journey, (mostly) pain free…and the mobility scooter is gathering dust

Wildsoles for our wild souls!! So excited to receive these today! Have upgraded myself to purple Badgers (launching soon) and got some happy sandals for my kids’ happy feet! You can get a 10% discount using my code THEZENMUM at checkout. Thank you

Come play this weekend! Message me to book your place!