Sophie -wordplay

THE BABY INSIDE
I'm pregnant
No ...not like that
I'm pregnant with a grown baby
Who has never grown
She got stagnated
By promises that never came through
She never healed
From the double -edged words
That cut through her flesh
and confidence
This baby is pretty
But she doesn't believe so
She's strong
But has never pieced her parts together
She was broken...
She is still broken
Blood became her betrayal
So she is choosing peace over blood.

THE DARK SIDE OF THE MORNING
When the sun shines in the morning
And the birds renew their choral notes
Tunes of high and low notes
Verses and choruses intertwined
And the worlds wakes up with a smile
Ready for the new day
But for others
Those unlucky...
The leftover piece at the bottom
Who wake up to a nightmare
A grinning and welcoming hell
I call it the dark side of the morning
And they wish they never wake up
To face the darkness all over again
Greater darkness than of night
Tell me
How to deal with this side
Of the morning
How to hold on to keep the night stand still.

WHEN THE OLD AWAKENS
The stinking smell of the old
Creeping back to its place
After what seemed like an eternity
It seeps through the spaces
Between my wooden walls
With it a dark ,dense and brutal air
Hunging above my head
Seeps from under my door
Jogs my soul of the sorrows of the old
The patterns of the old
Restablish themselves once again
More firmer this time
Draws with it the tears...tears of the old
Hurts more this time
The scabs of the old
Start dripping of blood again
Turned into a fresh wound
As if it never healed
The ways of the old
That threatens my shortlived peace
And causes my heart to scamper
In panic
As it tries to prepare for what is coming.

MONOTONY
We wake up...
Eat
Sleep
Wake up the next day
Just the same
No new light
The same old hazy rays
That burn my eyes.
Same old
Golden evenings (well ...it stopped looking that golden )
Birds chirping now sounds like a deja vu
Happens in the same pattern
The monotony...
Of piano sounds from the street artists
Sounds shrill and rusty
Guitar tones are invaried
And it annoys
The once therapeutic sounds of the sea
Is now a nuisance
Its all boring.

DIFFERENT BREED
Forgive me
When i don't feel as enthusiastic as you want.
Forgive me
When I'm not your happy little mouse anymore
Blithely jumping from one corner to another
To make you happy
Forgive when i don't let go easily
I don't forget the wrong done to me
Forgive me
When i don't feel the same
I cloak my appearance
To suit the occasion
I hide my feelings deep down
The abyssal depths
Forgive me for I'm not the kind of person you want
Constructed in your thoughts
And built with blocks of perfection
My kind of constituents are not strong
They break when need be
And cannot be repaired
So forgive me
When I give you a cold shoulder
For iam a different breed

TO BE YOU
No one has an idea
Of what it takes to be you
The different kinds of masks you put on
Before you leave the house
The struggle you go through
Trying to detach from the monster
That has now become your buddy
And to wear an artificial smile
To seem okay
The moments when you cry
And at the same time console yourself
But that only makes the pain scaldier
The moment when your soul takes a leave temporarily
And the whole body downs its tools
And you become only a walking dead
Piece of you
And you desire for it to leave forever
For an eternal peace is better
Moments when you have to try to look okay
Only for the monsters to overwork
And bring you down
What it takes to be you
Only you can relate
So let them cut you some slack

MY HALCYON
I want to come home to you,
My peace
Your arms ready to absorb my day's problems
I want to come home to you
My amity
Preparing for me a cup of hot chocolate
And sweet aroma of vanilla cake
Greeting me from the door
I want to come home to you
My home
And tell you about my day
I want to come home to you
To relax at the taste of your lips
And its warmth warm my cold cheeks
I want to come home to you
At sunsets
To you my therapy
And leave all my anxieties
At your chest
I always want to come to you
In winter and summer
You and only you

WE SLID INSTEAD
We promised we won't fall in love
But we slid into it instead
In it with all of our fears
With all of our insecurities
We promised we would look away
When our eyes get caught in an intimate fixture
But here we are
Looking deep into each other's eyes
As if searching for something😂
We promised we won't confess
Of how our hearts yearned for each other
We promised to hold it in
Even when it scalds us
But here are
Unable to stay without each other
We promised it would only be a fling
No strings attached
Here we are fascinated with each other
All our emotions intertwined
To swing us into a couple
We promised we would be just friends
Only in a friend -like relations
Here we are
Proud to have become more than friends
And we can't wait for the skies to approve
Before we wake up together

WHEN ITS TIME
When my time has elapsed
Don't mourn me
If you knew me not
Don't pretend and speak highly of me
When you barely knew my name
When my breath has expired
Send me off with sincerity
Clothe me with honesty
Let my coffin be glazed with realistic attributes
When I have to go
Let me go uniquely
Unstained with feigned words
Of the people who rejoiced my demise
Let me go
Uncontaminated by your precious food
Which seemed too costly for you
When I begged for food
Let me go
Clean from your phoney-baloney tears
Claiming you lost someone you love
Yet you rooted for it
When I have to go
Place not a flower on my grave
If you couldn't shake my hand
While I was alive
Avoid me the way you used to
When I have to go
I will only cherish honest people
To send me off
To a better place.

THE WAY I HATE YOU (This is for everyone who has struggled with something they never want to experience again especially mental health related issues)

My body cringes
To the sound of your footsteps
Everytime you walk into my house
To cause nothing but chaos
My Olfactory receptors disfunctions
When it senses your scent from afar
A premonition of blood shed
To come
My bowel becomes restless
To the click and creak
Of you opening my door
I can't keep still
Knowing you are a door away
From wrecking havoc
My legs...
Oh my legs , they die instantly
Leaving me helpless
And crawling on the floor
To save myself
My whole body fades away slowly
To a breathless helpless creature
Fighting for dear breath
I hate the way you kill me temporarily
I hate the way you make me feel
The way I hate you

I LOVE IN UPPERCASE
If i get a chance to be yours
I promise to suffocate you
And even sometimes' kill ' you abit
With deep kisses
Gentle but demanding
As your fears melt away in the warmth of my lips
Serenade you with sweet poems
Where you are always the persona
And sing for you our favorite song
I'll be everywhere buzzing around you like a bee
After nectar
You can guess ...I'm clingy
You'll never be bored trust me
I'll surprise you with an intimate dance
When you feel low
And we get high together
On ma*****na
As we dance in the serein drops
Of the golden evening
And we do what lovers do
The listening ear when you need me
I'll be here in darkness
When you are lost baby
I'll be your true North
Your lighthouse to guide you
The first person to share your joy with
And when it gets messy
We fix it together
If I get a chance to be yours
You'll be proud

SHE'S DOING JUST FINE
Don't let my presence disturb you
Forget that you ever saw me
Lest i distract you from your' noble' calling
Of back biting
Erase me from your memory
Lest i put a bad taste in your mouth
And you fail to fill your gluttonous stomach
I heard what you said
That iam naive
A girl so fragile and vulnerable
Dumb and spoiled
That i know little of day to day life of a human being
So before you stain your holy soul
Mr saint,
forget that you ever knew me
And ooh...
That money you talked about
That i cannot even differentiate types of notes
I make more more of them now
Did you hear that
Your Silly 'bedbug' makes money now
Funny isn't it 😂
Well this is just a reminder
That tables do turn
And now you're under that table
Hiding away from shame
You thought you got rid of her
But guess what
SHE IS DOING JUST FINE

ITS 3AM
The world is quiet
Not even a late Owl can be heard
I hold a meeting in my mind
The attendance is quite low
For even My imaginary friends
Are long gone to slumber land
Yesterday's minutes i go through
Last weeks' as well
And the month before
All of them i review every single night
Over and over again
Trust me it isn't much work
For iam a book addict from birth
I review the wins
I review the losses
I review my love letters
I review hatred notes from my enemies
I review empty stares from my crush
When I poured out my heart to him
I review my stubborn bosses' reaction
When I rightfully demanded my salary
And he ignored me
I review my happy moments
When my heart knew peace and laughter
I review my sad moments
Where i had to thread through them a loner
Its 3AM
But i still have much work to review
Because this is my only free time
Where i get to deal with them
Since sleep left me alone
Back then when workload to review
Broke its banks
And swept away the insomnia free me.

JUST DO IT!
(For those who are afraid to take a bold step)
Wait for me
I need to pick my bow and arrow
Before we go to war
Wait for me
I need to find my boots
I can't risk being pricked by thorns
In the battlefield
Wait for me
I need to pack enough food
Lest hunger kills me
Before the enemy does
Wait for me
I need to bid my parents goodbye
I need to wipe tears in their eyes
For they are hesitant to let go of me
Wait for me
I need to kiss my lover goodbye
And be locked in his embrace one more time
To lay with him one last time
Wait for me
Am not yet ready to go to the battlefield
Wait for me
I need to go to the chapel
To consult the gods
And pray for victory
Against the enemy
So wait for me...
Am not yet ready
Life waits for no one
JUST GO

MY OTHER WORLD
Come ...
I give you a sneek peek
To this part of me that isn't visible
My imaginative world
Here iam in control
I create scenarios
And break others too
Here the sky is not my limit
Its only a mere obstacle to my real potential
I only cherish the sun to bar me
Here i can unleash the girl in me
And tend to the baby within my grown self
Here is my escape room
When the real world becomes unbearable
There i find people like me
Tired and helpless
They soothe me and help me relax
This part of me also can fall in love
K -drama romance type
I imagine crying for someone too
Like in Philippines soaps
Sadly this is just fantasy
Since I traded the butterflies in my stomach
For a career
Which is not yet forthcoming

WOMEN LIKE ME
Women like me
Witty yet serious
dangerously beautiful
Women like me
Our goals greater than us
Proud slaves to our dreams
We took an oath
At the altar of feminism
To defy the notions they had placed on us
Bold enough to fight for ourselves
With or without an army
Tirelessly we chase that bag
The lucrative' curse' of this world
Competitive spirit wired in our DNA
Women like me
Hungry for more
Even with several achievements already
Our happiness is when our names appear first
Precious broken pieces of us
Is a heavenly gem
To whoever is willing to fix them
With Tenderness
Women like me
Always there for others
But who is there for us?
To share with us the pains of the day
And bury them underneath fiery passionate association
To take off the burdens we carry
Even if its for a while
Who is there?
For women like me

FUTURE ME
I address you through a holocaust
And promise you this...
We are gonna start over
I'll make you a toddler
Soothe you when you cry
I'll buy you ice cream on a sunny day
And when you spoil your sweater with it
I will not scold you baby
I promise
When its cold, I'll dress you warmly
And prepare a sweet cup of warm coffee
And when its hot, I'll wipe your sweat
I'll sing you sweet lullabies and hold you to sleep
And when you become a teen
I'll tell you i believe in you
I'll attend all your important days
Baby I'll be there
I'll tell you i love you a million times
I'll protect you
From the eyes of the evil one
And from the shameless men
Ogling at your blossoming luscious body
I'll fight for you
When you become a young adult
I'll still be there baby
I'll be there to wipe your tears
After a bad day
I'll not let them mock you
Or rudely address you
Baby you'll know what soft life means
The struggle now would be worth it
Baby I'll be there for you
Even when no one else is
I'll believe in your dreams
And support you
You'll live better

HE STOPPED MY WONDER
I wonder if he stays awake too
Unable to close his eyes
As the sweet mementos
Dance before him
Memories of me...
With him
I wonder if he smiles at the sight of my text
As i do
Deeply examining a mere text
And building castles of our forever on it
I wonder if his heartbeat loses track
When his phone is buzzing
With my name on display
I wonder if he stammers too
When he's asked about me
Unable to explain the immense
Heart capture expedition
Wait!...
Or maybe he stammers
Because he isn't sure of what to say
Maybe he's afraid
That his 'friends' will know
That iam h...i...
H..i..s🥺
See,
I was so blinded by his smile
Everytime I opened my door for him
The agility of his hands
As he made me' put his name on it '
His gifts and surprises
That ceased not
To notice that maybe
He wasn't charmed by me
As i was charmed by him
Foolishly blushing
When his name is mentioned

DEPRESSION
So it came by your house too?
The dark enemy
With its claws out
Picking and pricking our future
So it stopped by your place too?
It came over here
And killed every ounce of hope i had
Cleared every meshwork of friends in my life
It took my best friends too
And drowned them
In a river of suicidal thoughts
It gave them a rope
To fasten their death
And some...
It purchased a bottle of poison
Helped them gulp it down
And fight for dear breath
As the pain teared every intestine in them
One by one
And grinned happily
When their lively vibes ceased down
And their hearts stopped beating
So it called on you too?
Depression i mean
Lucifer himself
Craving our blood and souls

to the young souls we've lost to depression,May they rest in eternal peace

SAFE IN ME
When the world gets loud
She's the silence i need
When the going gets tough
She's a haven to me
The only trustworthy person I know
In pain and hate
Life and fate
And whispers from hades
She knows how to calm my soul
'Hush baby girl '
'its gonna be fine 'she says
When living gets hard
She's creative to spice it up
And when believing gets harder
She gives me a reason to live for
In the middle of the inner storm
All she says to me is...
'Hush baby girl '
'its gonna be fine '
pages and pages
Of my dreams
Answered and unanswered prayers
Tears of the hurtful days
Secrets that liveth
In the deepest part of me...
All in her able strength
She says to me
'Hush babygirl'
'its gonna be fine '
She's within me
My safe space.

SORRY BABY
Sorry for the late nights
I overused my tears
To let out my frustrations
And caused hurt to you my eyes
Sorry for the cold rainy days
I ran around without thinking about you
Sorry for the days
I misused you my smile,to please
Those who didn't appreciate you
Sorry for the days
I used my mind so much
And it got sick
I turned it to a villain
Ready to destroy the whole body
As i wished my breath away
With every dandelion that took flight
To the heavens
Am sorry most especially
For harassing my baby heart
To trust ingrates
Am sorry for the days i came up with a scheme
To appear sober
When i was dying inside
All these times
You stood by me
You didn't snitch
You didn't give way
You kept holding on...
For me
Even when it was intolerable for you
You did your best all those times
But from now onwards
I'm gonna take care of you baby
You deserve so much more
You are my baby
My responsibility
THE QUEEN.
_wordplay

IN LOVE WITH MY REFLECTION
My only true friend
My confidant
She who hides my secrets
In the unsearchable depths of my heart
She who corrects me when I wrong
encourages me to be different
And wipes the tears that I shed behind the world
I talk to her because she listens
listens keenly and i trust her for good advice
For she only knows the true me
Strength and weakness too
All she fathoms
She presses the right buttons in me
When am sad
And reminds me of my most truthful laughter
Tells me it was last week...
No last month,or was it last year?
Ah !
I can't quite remember but its okay
She says its okay
Because atleast I had such moment
To reckon
And i almost forgot
How much of a cheerleader she is
"She's like damn girl
Thats my girl"
And thats pretty much all i need
To stay sane in this insane moments
Builds a bridge with self confidence
For me to cross over
To the other side of life
Happy life
She is me
Iam she
My reflection
-wordplay

DRAGONS SHE DIDN'T SLAY
Dragons she didn't slay
Memories she didn't erase
The pain she didn't forget
When she saw your inhumanity
The replays she can't forget
And the tears she can't hold
As she tries to appear okay
The constant prayers she makes
In hope for better days
She saw you treat her like a beggar
When you supposed to be there for her
As a father
For her to come to you when she needed to talk
You created a wall so insurmountable
That you pushed her away
She has learnt to be there for herself
And not for anybody else
You made her believe
That she was not worth of love
She believes that she is better
By herself
She desires intimacy
But cannot trust a man
Thanks to your example
She is confused
She loves to make others happy
Doesn't hesitate to put a smile on their faces
But she regrets
The experience she had
The dragons she didn't slay.
-wordplay INSPIRED BY GINNY

AIN'T EASY
Now
Its hard to sleep anymore
I keep fighting with myself
Till morning
And only if I'm lucky
Fall asleep when am supposed to be up
Its hard to think straight
Because whenever i blink
Wherever i look
I see the monsters in my room
Growing bigger with my every breath.
Its hard to play happy pretence anymore
My heart and soul are about to give way
My smile isn't covering up for me anymore
The once strong
Superwoman is falling apart
The he**in of many
With tears of many rested on her shoulders.. she's falling
Its hard to bounce back again
Not after all this
Maybe this is the destiny already mapped
You never know my pain
Until you are standing infront of the mirror
Begging yourself to be strong
Not to cry
And to fake a smile
Atleast for those who depends on our strength
But it ain't easy anymore
No it ain't.
SophieSophie -wordplay

ON AND OFF
On...
On... and off
Again and again
I fall back into the entrapment of my mind
One moment i charm the world
The next moment i loathe my existence
I cry and laugh in the same occasion
The switch of life in me
Fell in the wrong hands
Of Lucifer himself
In form of depression
It switches it on and off
Playing with me
With my soul and mind
Spinning my head with confusion
Pain in my chest
As i struggle to breathe
As if its on a payroll
Deeper it hurts this time
Last time i triumphed over it
Little did i know
That it took a break
To rejuvenate itself
And come back
Knocking me down and sitting on me
My cries from under it unheard
And I'm suffocating
This round it has the upper hand
I told my friend
She told me to pray
Seems that it is resistant to prayers
Others told me that its all in my head
But how can i explain
Pain in my body and heart?
The struggle to breathe?

DO YOU WANNA TALK ABOUT IT?
No i don't
I don't want to talk about it
With people like you
Knowing that when you are gone
And I'm all alone
My world caves in me
When you are gone
Am back to default zero
Voices in my head
Louder than before
More present like they never left
Bursting my earpods
With loud music
Trying to silence them
I don't want to talk about it
But I wanna be okay
Trust me I'll give up anything
To feel alive
Because I'm tired
I'm really exhausted
Of fighting
Of crying
I don't want to talk about it
With you
You have no idea what it takes to be me
You don't know how it feels to want to live
But still don't know how to
How it feels to want to be better
But not knowing how to be one
You don't know
So spare me of your emphaty
Your emphatetic stares
I don't want.
SophieSophie -wordplay

SOS
This is me again
For the fifth time this week
I just wanted to inform you that
That...
It came back again
It came back with a force unmatched
And it knocked me down this time
Every second of my existence
It gnaws around me
Maliciously sharpening its claws
To dig deeper into my being
To destroy my peace
Though it was temporary but it was good
Its claws dig deeper in to my personality
And with its deep scary voice
Whispering to me that iam not
Me ...
Iam not who I think iam
That iam not that great after all
And you know i have tried to hide it
This past few days
With my ever charming smile
But i don't think my poorly used lips
Will allow me to use the smile anymore
As my mask
I don't know what to do
How to quieten its annoying voices in my mind
I don't know how to 😭😭😭
I don't know if I can fight a day longer
You always tell me that iam your superwoman
'Your one of the strongest Champion'
And that i always win
But at now I doubt this words
So am writing this
Maybe you'll come across it
On your way to helping others
This is my SOS.

MINEFIELDS
In every step
There is fear
The fear that i will not make it to the next
In every step
I smell the horrible
Horrifying smell of death
In every step iam afraid of the unknown
That they will take my breath
Forcefully
In every step i prepare to flee
But how can I escape
From this field
Full of traps and bombs
Set
By those who smile at me in public
But dig my grave behind my back
And practice how they will mourn me
Ofcourse in pretence
By those i call family
By those we eat from the same plate
And drink from the same cup
But spike my drink when iam blinded
By their charmness
These voices...
Voices in my head
Voices increasing with my every breath
Some warn me from being with them
Some push me closer to them
Iam scared
My mouth is dry
My heartbeat uncountable
Every time i wake up from my nightmares
Where iam standing in the minefield of life
Scared of this life.

SAY SOMETHING
Say something please
Because I'm tired
I'm tired of this silence
I'm tired trying to be good
Just bless this mess
Because iam tired of being stressed
I'm tired waiting for that day
And deep down my heart
I know 😭😭
I know its gonna be okay
But I'm tired waiting for it
Say something lord..
You know the other day
I dialed your number for heaven
And when you picked the phone yourself
I was so overjoyed
That finally you would relieve me of this burden
But you went mute
And closed your ears to my constant beckoning
I know they are annoying..
Yes they are
But its really hard you know.
And the other day too
My friend asked me who i was waiting for
Before I gave up
Well,she was sort of a friend
She clearly was short of friendship
Because normally friends help each other in need
And I said you
I was waiting for you
Iam still waiting
Incase you hear this cry
Before I give up
Say something.
_wordplay

WHEN CAMERAS ARE BLIND
I don't want love
Only expressed in a photo booth
With matching outfits
As a symbol of our amorousness
I despise love
Perfected Infront of a camera
Forced and faked smile
Exaggerated love
I don't want love
Only when people are around
And we have to dance to their tunes of love
And trying to measure up
To the so called couple goals
I don't want you to love me
Only when the lights are on.
Love me also in the dark
When my skin isn't glowing
And my smile isn't visible
Don't only love me when my mascara is on
Love me also when am plain
Love me also when my emotions are running wild
And are untamed
Don't just love me when am your perfect doll
So delicate and fragile
Needed to be taken care of
Don't love me only when am whole
Love me also when am broken
Love every incomplete piece of me
And fix me with your tender touch
Don't just hold my hand when people are looking
Hold my hand too when we are alone
Let me feel you around me
The genuine you
I hate love in pictures
I want love when cameras are blind.
- wordplay

LIKE PIANO KEYS
Like piano keys baby
We rhyme
Together we form a sweet note
For other lovers to refer to
Like piano keys
We have rough patches
Like the black keys
We have good times
Like the white keys
But despite the rough patches
We create a rhythm of love
A song sang in the streets
When we take a walk holding hands
A song sang by those peeping through their windows
And the holes on their walls
As they whisper about our great amorousness
The bachelors on the street
Speak of how they would want to be like you
The spinsters profess of how immense your devotion to me is
They tell me even my skin has become
More soft and supple😅
Since I found you
Like piano keys we play together
We form a tune unique
Like piano keys no tune formed is totally wrong
For it can be played all over again
Iam not afraid of the days we are stark mad at each other
I know we can always make it okay
As long as we are together
Like piano keys

IS IT ME YOU LOOKING FOR?
I see you
Stranded on a path of give and take
With a rose in your hand
But no one to give to
I see you
Hesitant to choose love
Afraid to take a step
Afraid for your heart to bleed
When the sweetness is no longer sweet
I see you
Preparing to share your freedom
And lay your loneliness down
And dare in to the world of passion
I see you
I can read in your eyes
The pain you have in your heart
The pain of a heart mended over and over again
And you are tired of trying anymore
Am i the one you are looking for?
I hope so
Because iam here ready to build a home under
Your wings of love
Before we take a flight to land of endless passionate days and nights
Am ready take over the healing of your heart
And to widen your smile
I see you
And I like what I see
Even with your bruised smile
You are still cute
So tell me..
Is it me you are looking for?

FOREVER TODAY
I know in that passionate night
I promised you forever
In between our sweet kisses
We made a pact of forever
When we lie down on the grass
In the cold of night
Your embrace assured me of a forever
Oh
And how could I forget your eyes
Your eyes...
Eyes that penetrated my insecurities
And calmed my anxieties
They also portrayed a forever
A forever
That i long for
And I know my love
That we will get to it
Even if winter comes in between
Please love me even when my heart is cold
And when summer comes
We will both join our hands
To tie a knot on the beach
A forever is what we planned
But before then my love
Lets enjoy the moment
Lets live our forever today
Tomorrow will plan itself.

ONLY YOU
Only you i will love
Only your beat i will dance to
Your tears I will wipe with love
And your aching heart
I will soothe with a kiss
Under the cruelty of the sun
Your face i will cover with my skin
And when finally the night falls
I will gladly dance with you
Under the moonlight
We will lay together
Under the light of the stars
And draw a pattern of love
With the sweet smell of our perfumes
Mingling and collaborating
To form us as one
Only you and me
US
Baby
How i love you
How i love how you treat me
Of your warm breath on my neck
Everytime you are leaving
And then follows the uneasiness
Of missing you
And your masculine arms around me all night
Only you i will give my heart to
For you have proved
Your love for me
Only you mi amor 😘

2022 GOODBYE
From the moment I laid my eyes on you
I hoped for nothing but the best
I dreamt of prosperity and happiness
I wished for a depression free mind
I kissed away my fears
To usher you humbly to my life
But what!
None of these happened
Instead you showed me your true colours
You showed me lack when I needed to survive
You showed me pain when I needed healing
Did you know that I badly needed to smile?
To clear the wrinkles of pain on my face
But instead you took that away too
Alot happened to me
When I was with you
You did nothing but to bring on more painful events
That overshadowed the few good moments
Which were like droplets of water
In a sea
Only few days remaining
Before you let me be
I don't know...
I really don't know how 2023 will treat me
But I know it will be better than you
Am not really great at goodbyes
I'll just stop here then
Am sorry to resent you
But you really hurt me you know...
Goodbye

DO YOU?
Do you even have a clue
Of what it feels like
To go under
To fake a smile Infront of everyone
And run to the haven of a pillow
To let your pain out?
Do you?
You don't know how it feels
To be everyone's hero
And be a monster to yourself
You don't know how it feels
To fight the dark enemy
Trying to take your breath away
Running to a closure
To find yourself again
No..
I mean to pretend to find yourself
Before stepping back
To this cursed earth
With a heroic posture
You don't know...
How it feels like
To try and feel alive
When only you are decomposing inside
anyone going under
speak up and fight depression and anxiety
yes to a healthy mental experience

SIX FEET NEVER FELT THIS FAR
I wish I could trade my breath
With your six feet depth
Or even more...
Share with you the depth of the pain
When you left...
😭😭😭
When you left
Everything crashed down
Even the stars stopped shinning brighter
And the moonlight stopped being special
The rain...
The rain we used to dance in
The drops changed their pattern
And it annoys now
Its beauty faded
And when you left...
I kept calling your name
In the garden in beautiful evenings
Hoping that you could come out of your hiding
And then we laugh until our ribs ached
When you left...
Your presence Fades day by day
And six feet never felt this far

the souls gone back home
keep poetry alive

TO LIFE
Heh
Dear life
With all due respect allow me
To complain
You've made my life a series
Of unending events
Every episode of it is a bitter pill to swallow
And it hurts me bad
To see you producing more and more episodes of this
My life has became a play
Where iam forever the protagonist
And you being the antagonist
Always eager to hurt me
😭😭😭
It even hurts me more
When you make me watch my own life...
Crumbling down
Over some popcorn and a pinch of salt
From your store of suffering
Dear life...
No i shouldn't even call you dear
Over the few years that I have lived
You have made it hard for me to smile
Let alone to laugh
And now this is my humble request
Please change the script of this play
And let me live happy ever after