B&C's Poetic Side

mind tired,
love drained,
eyes wide,
thoughts liquified.
problems now unified,
no one by her side,
definitely attention deprived.
high tide,
late night ride,
suspicions unclarified,
dying inside.
feelings undefined,
currently tongue-tied,
a silent heartbreak, amplified,
a desire to flee and hide—
she is chaos personified.

- boron

pahinga, pahinga, pahinga,
nasan ka na ba?
ako'y pagod na.
dilat sa kadiliman ng gabi sa dami ng ginagawa,
at iiyak hanggang sa pagsapit ng umaga.
aking pahinga nasan ka na?
pagod na ang aking mga mata.
isang araw pa nang wala ka,
baka maging isa na 'ko mga tala.
pahinga nawa'y di ka na magpatumpiktumpik pa,
bumalik ka na sana
dahil kailangan na kita.
isang pang gabi na wala ka,
baka mawalan na ng hininga.

- boron

Within these walls of stone
Are cries only God and I know,
Doors and eyes closed,
Tears and blood flow.

- boron

nakakapagtaka 'no?
naaalala parin kita 'pag naririnig ang kantang Pasilyo,
sa bawat numero,
sa bawat birong naririnig ko,
tuwing buwan ng Hulyo,
sa bawat estranghero—
tila ba'y lahat ay may nakaukit na mukha mo.

ngunit ang nadarama'y lumipas na.
imbis na kalungkutan tuwing nakikita ka na may kasamang iba,
ay kaligayahan na ang nadarama.
hindi na 'ko nasasaktan pa
sa bawat kwento mong kasama sya.
sa wakas, ako'y malaya na.

- boron

their star went supernova,
their bond is now nothing but enigma.
from two people who created a bond and memories of which were from their mere guises,
to complete strangers.

mixed signals were thrown off everywhere,
which confused the one who'd stare from afar.
for she thought the feelings were similar,
causing dissonance in the air.

if only they had cleared it out,
maybe unnecessary assumptions won't sprout.
if only the two addressed
all the questions they had which were left missed.

the flame of love consumed her,
leaving her drowning in the before.
she's now mere embers
for he left her like some father.

bridges were burned
from the fire he sparked in the other's heart
her feelings were the gasoline
which was left unseen.

more than friends and less than lovers
turned to a friendship that was over.
he loved another,
and she wanted to hurt no longer.

Swollen eyes
Looking at the world it despised;
Lasting taste of wine,
Low tide,
A lot of thoughts to hide.
Livin' life
With death in mind.
She's a failure to this bloodline,
And it's bound to a cause flat line.
The desired line of nine,
Never mine.
No lifeline,
No sunshine,
Enormous waistline,
No, nothing right.
A bird that can't soar high,
A star that doesn't shine,
A burnt out Einstein
About to commit a crime
Of ending her lifetime.
But then the Light so divine
Arrived and changed her mind—
The Son came and turned her life around.
Now, she's no longer bound
To the expectations so profound.
Her mind is now sound,
For she is found.

- boron

It's sad being Jupiter,
Forced to orbit a star you were supposed to be before,
A star to whom you should've been better.
Good but not enough to be great
Compared to those who grew at a better rate.

While Saturn has rings,
Poor Jupiter can only hope for such things
Despite being close to its dreams
Of being the brightest beam—
For its efforts are insufficient, even if they're extreme.

Looking at Jupiter,
It's as if looking in a mirror—
A supposed star
That became a failure,
Someone not big enough to be remembered.

- boron

Our were bridges burned,
But I kept the ashes in an urn,
Used it for writing on the pages you turned—
To whom you'll never return.

Our old chapters,
Are now embers,
Now hopeless.
You clearly can't care any less.

Can't even glance in my direction
Despite the past affection,
A reflection of our hearts' separation,
Something that says I'm no longer welcome.

You're continuing your life.
While I'm here, forced to disguise
As someone who wishes for your demise
To hide these feelings inside.

It's unfair that you've forgotten,
While I'm here left hanging, hoping—
Maybe you're connected to me by some red string,
Maybe it is I who will complete your being.

But then again,
There is a purpose for every event.
Perhaps it's better to go with the current
Than fight it and be with a serpent.

It is for the better,
So I'll move on and see the latter.
Oh well, I guess this is farewell, or maybe a "see you later when we're better",
My beloved stranger.

- boron

oh butuin
na nagniningning,
maari mo kayang sagutin
itong aking mga tanong at hiling?

maari kayang bumalik
ang isipang tahimik?
maging ang ligayang siksik
ay sana'y manumbalik?

pwede bang bigyan ng pahinga
ang pagod ko nang mga mata,
ang isipang gulong gulo pa,
maging 'tong puso kong sira sira na.

ngunit saan nga ba?
kung siya'y nawala nang parang bula,
kung siya'y lumisan na.
sabihin mo, munting tala.

- boron

for those numbers I became an Icarus,
but somehow landed in a circus.
a clown questioning her purpose--
am I made for other's happiness?
or is everything pointless?

we lose what we don't take,
but it's my reputation that's at stake.
falling for you is a huge mistake,
because it's making me shake.
I have to keep these feelings opaque,
even if it makes my heart ache.

I can't seem to break out;
can't even cry, can't even shout.
someone just please set me free
from these chains tied to me.

- boron

kita kaya sa ngiti naming pilit
ang aming kalungkutan na kay lupit?
pansin niyo ho ba na kami'y naghihirap na?
halata kayang kami'y nawawalan na ng gana?

pagod na pagod na kami,
utak nami'y nalulugami
dahil sa ginagawa naming kay dami rami
para bang kami'y magsisimula nang mayumi.

maari na bang sumuko
magpahinga lang at yumuko,
hayaan lang ang luha na tumulo?
ayaw namin ng ganito, maari bang tigilan na 'to?

- boron

her tears are prepared,
for the grades are soon to be compared.
truly, she is really intellectually impaired;
truly, she is just someone who likes to pretend.

an impostor in a world full of achievers,
someone who pretends to be gold even though just silver.
a try hard who'll never fit in that world for she is a liar,
to herself, to everyone around her.

- boron

failure after failure,
causing these tears that I have to cover.
my grades are dropping like feathers.
they keep me up at night, like a toxic lover.
when will this dread come to a halt?
it feels as if my wounds are sprinkled with salt.
I tried and tried,
however I'm still stuck behind.
how frustrating, how disappointing.
I feel like a failure in the making.
was I at fault?
I gave my all and yet this is the result?
how I despise my situation at the moment.
tell me, how do I survive this painful event?
my grades are being pulled down by intense gravity,
and in my chest, it's beginning to leave a cavity.
can someone help me?
I just want to let go of this anchor of failures and be set free.

- boron

as I become confined into this bed,
a feeling of immense sadness gets in my head,
the feeling of regret, of dread.
now come the gushing tears coloured blood red.
the fact that I am now hanging by a thread,
the fact that these thoughts are so familiar like the books I've read,
they're making me feel somehow like being a river bed—
everything else is constantly flowing yet I'm rooted to where I'm embedded.
when will I ever get ahead?
too many chances missed because of the words needed to be said,
but to say them, I can't.
too many "what ifs" in my mind that I hid,
too many opportunities I have to let go along with these tears I shed.
too move on is something needed,
however when I start doing so, my eyes catch a glimpse of what could've happened,
which causes me to return to where I started
these missed chances are what keep my mind haunted,
they're what keep my dreams taunted
they're what keep me wounded.
the past is what I want to keep vaulted,
hidden from every one, every friend, even my own mind.
thinking about it makes me feel daunted,
reminiscing about them makes me feel morbid,
yet forgetting about them is crooked
the past holds memories that I simply can't part with,
for the past is what made me reconstructed
it is what made me, myself.
so despite it being haunted,
to forget it is surely unwanted.

- boron

the constant failures,
I try to cover.
the overflowing water,
that you don't remember.
the tears cried,
'cause you weren't by my side.
you lied,
you said you'd be with me even if we died.
what a horrible liar,
or were you just a joker?
you're just like a fake broker.
you made me a believer,
that you'd be my lover.
but now that it's over,
I'll love you never.
but I won't hate you forever,
despite you using me for your leisure.
I won't hate you forever,
it's for the better.
instead, you'll be my favourite lecture,
a person to remember.

- boron

Alam kong may iba kang gusto,
Ngunit umaasa parin ako,
Mahirap umasa,
Sapagkat alam kong wala na
akong pag asa,
Dahil sa pagiging manhid ko,
Hindi ko napansin na ako'y gusto mo,
Gusto kita at gusto mo ako,
Ngunit hindi natin alam pareho,
Ako'y nag sisisi bakit hindi ko ito napansin,
Huli na noong nalaman ko,
Na ako'y nagustuhan mo.
-carbon.

my blue star,
you're the one I'd like to be with at war
the one I'd choose to be with in every universe,
the one who my atoms will cling to if I ever disperse

I want to be with you, my love
even if life gets rough.
and if there's a decline in your health
I'll be with u, even after death.
-Boron.