Michael

i apologize to those people i left without a warning. the people who didn't have any clue what happened to me. it's just that disappearing was my only escape. i needed to be alone to be able to find my lost self again. i don't have the energy to open up and disturb anyone. for the people who i lost and the people who i'm losing i just want to apologize but now i couldn't think of anything else but myself. i'm sorry but i'll choose myself this time.

let me guess - you're in the stage where you're not sad about it but think about it often. you regret it but also glad it happened, you're not angry but disappointed. you don't miss it but miss the feeling it gave you.

i feel insecure when someone starts to laugh looking at me. when i don't even know why they are laughing.

this cheating issues spreading in the internet made me realize that it is so rare to find a person who is really committed to you. someone who is faithful, someone who respect you with or without your presence. because in this generation, even the strongest relationships could ruin, even the most loyal person could lie, even the sweetest person could cheat, even the most trusted person could change, even the most person you love could be gone. nah! this story is becoming too rampant and normal on the streets of relationship. so, if you find someone who truly loves you, treasure them.

i want to cry, but i don't want people see me as a weak person.

i have this moments in my life where i feel ugly and insecure, i can't even post pics cuz when i do, i overthink, when i story my pics and some people don't react i regret posting and i'll delete it instantly, i also get insecure and compare myself to other girls online, like "we're about the same age but she looks so much better" then i'll feel like I'm just an ordinary girl, can't even take pictures cuz i'll just feel ugly and unfortunately i'm dealing with this rn for almost a week

hoy, this is a sign to leave our super-understanding era because sometimes people just take advantage of the kindness that we are giving. I'm so done with being okay with what they are doing and feeling sorry for myself afterward.

been cheated on multiple times, mistreated, lied to, left for someone else and yet i'm still trying to love like i've never been hurt 'cause at the end of the day i'm still a good woman and i know my intentions are always pure.

always remember if a man wants you‚ he will pursue you. no more mixed signal. no more overthinking nights because he knows you deserve the risk.

kapag talaga financially stable na ako ihe-heal ko inner child ko. bibili ako ng cake kahit hindi ko birthday, kakain sa labas with friends kahit walang okasyon, pupunta sa amusement parks with family kasi laging nasa bahay lang kami, mamasyal sa mga lugar na hindi ko pa napupuntahan, bilhan ang sarili ko ng mga bagay na gusto kong bilhin, at higit sa lahat gusto kong i-fulfill lahat ng mga bagay na hindi ko nagawa pero gustong-gusto kong gawin noong childhood ko..

how anti-social are you? i can stay in my house for 1 week straight without getting bored as long as i have food and good internet.

sometimes as an adult you have to decide “this is the last time these people are gonna make me feel this way” and stand on it. rather that be family, a relationship or a friendship.

pretty girl is everywhere, but a woman that supports you and pray for you is a rare.

paano malalaman kung greenflag

kung papipiliin ako between coke float and mocha float, mas pipiliin ko yung may emotional intelligence, hindi sinungaling, kaya mag update without asking, hindi ako tinatanggi, never ini-invalidate my feelings, giving me assurance, ako lang gusto, sa akin lang clingy, mahinahon lang during argument, pero mas preferred ko talaga yung Iced mocha float ng jollibee.

i don’t have time for arguments if you don’t like me, ok likewise.

after all of disrespect, i was still kind.

ganda siguro ng slow burn type of love no? yung tipong di niyo need irush ang mga bagay bagay between you two, parehas niyo binibigyan ng oras ang isa’t isa para mas makilala niyo pa ang bawat isa more deeply, di niyo kailangan madaliin kasi you guys both taking it slowly with full of love, assurance, and consistency.

"you handled it so well" yes, because no one noticed those tears, no one heard the loud screams in my head, no one offered a shoulder where i can lean on, no one saw me crying my heart out. with all those silent battles, i'm deeply glad for surviving.

someone can be a dean's or top lister yet can’t answer some academic questions; someone can be an honor student but can’t remember some mathematical equations, science terminologies, or terms. a magna cumlaude can fail a job interview and still be intelligent; a suma cumlaude can fail a board exam or bar exam and still be intelligent. do not invalidate and question people’s achievements and hard work just because they failed once or made a mistake. not because someone is an achiever means that they aren’t allowed to fail sometimes, and on the other side, not because someone doesn’t have any achievements yet means that they have no future. you might have failed once, twice, or even three times, but that doesn’t mean you are nothing but a failure.

i want to
make you feel
that you always
have me when nobody
was there for you.

ofcourse, i’ll cry about it. i’m a huge crier. i'Il skip meals, isolate myself, and even stay in my bed for days. but i know i always rise up above it. i always find my way to get through it, somehow

so, i'm just going to let my bad days be bad days. that's life, after all. bad days are always going to come. but, they're not going to last forever

to my old self, i'm sorry for allowing people to hurt you so many times. i'm sorry for all the wrong decisions that you've made because you were not wise enough before. i hope you'll learn to forgive yourself someday. i hope you'll heal from all your trauma. and i hope you've learned from all the mistakes that you've made in your past. someday, i hope you'll learn to love yourself after all the heartbreaks that you've been through.

at the ages of 16, 17, 18, 19, 20, and 21+, you will start to realize that life ain't easy. your circle of friends will start to become smaller. you lose yourself, you become frustrated and lonely for no reason, you will develop trust issues; you cry silently at night and wake up in the morning, like nothing happened. you think about giving up many times, but in the end, you find yourself fighting again because you realize that this is the stage where you must be strong to fight your fears and possibility that everything will leave you.

i don’t really claim myself as a mature individual due to the fact that i have this character development‚ broad knowledge about some personal stuff‚ and can educate people sometimes. i am also still learning‚ seeking things to be understood‚ and i won’t deny that there are still immature and childish side of me ; but i can say that i’ve improved a lot from who i used to be before.

strangers being kind to you is one of the best things ever because you know that they gain nothing from it and they probably will never see you again but they just choose to be kind.

no one tells you how calm life feels when you become friends with girls who are never jealous, you can talk to about anything, don’t make things competitive, understand you have your own lives, who you can exist with in your purest form doing silly things or just sit in comfortable silence.

soft hearts suffèrs the most.