alexandhammy

I am so thankful that I got to have Jake Jesse Blazek as my best friend for many years. He was the funniest person I have ever met. To say I am Heartbroken, anguished…. Would not be accurate as no words can describe the intense sadness that I feel
We talked everyday, we played Xbox and he was my favourite person to play Minecraft with. He called me pal al and I called him d**k. We made a sign that said Sandra sucks farts and hung it on my house to egg on neigubors. We were such s**t disturbers together. He was truly my best friend. We had so many sleepovers, he would show up at my door at my lowest times with his arms wide open. That’s gone now and selfishly I want it back. I want to be with him but I would never want my child to feel this horrendous feeling.
…..above all, I feel so blessed to have been loved by such a kind hearted, sincere, hilarious, and incredibly unique human being. I love him with my whole heart and I always will. I have cried every single day for the 90% of the time I am awake. Time will not heal this, I will just have to learn to live without my best friend.

When we would play among us he would always change his tag to “unclebadtouch” and I would change mine to “retattedmom” and we would get banned from every single lobby. we would fight 12 year old boys on call of duty and get our butts kicked and still we wouldn’t stop running out mouths.
Nothing will ever be the same. So many times I want to send him a meme. Or tag him. Or call him. Or message him.

Hug the people you love, be kind, and remind those who are important to you that you love them.
One thing I can say about this situation is that Jake knew I loved him with my whole heart. I know he loved me too because every single time we said goodbye, or just spoke….we reminded each other.
Jake and I could relate to so many things. We both suffered mentally however the other one always pushed the other and cheered them on so they could carry on. I don’t know how the hell I am going to do this alone now. I am thankful you are no longer suffering, I am thankful you lived life to the fullest until your last day, I am thankful that so many others know the love I got to experience. Jake will forever be missed by many.
Jan 20 1996 - Sept 30 2023

09/28/2023

I lost my art stuff but new s**t came in the mail

09/25/2023

I googled “how to draw a raven step by step”
And that’s what I got so far
I left my pencils at my sisters so I have to go pick them up before I can continue this piece

09/24/2023

All orders are on hold or cancelled because I have the worst mental health lately. I can’t draw. I can’t function. All deposits have been refunded.

09/17/2023

Sparkles In the dark

09/11/2023

I scream in my sleep

09/10/2023

In progress

08/20/2023

08/07/2023

This took me 30 min by memory from start to finish

Chrollo Lucilfer (Japanese: クロロ゠ルシルフル), is one of the main antagonists of the anime/manga series Hunter x Hunter. He is the leader of the Phantom Troupe.