Who am I? What grand glorious adventures am I going to have NOW?

That is exactly what I am asking myself..WHO AM I?
then I muck around a bit before I choose to ask: WHAT FUN AM I GOING TO CHOOSE FOR ME TODAY?that second question takes me longer than is fun for me?

I do alot of facebook..for what reason? For practice? To meet new people? When I accept new friends invariably they are hustling me..scam me...

Am I on to free write? Yes.
What am I choosing for me?.what am I choosing for my life?
What am I choosing for my living?

What am I creating here in this moment?

My head is full of sh*t..crap...aches...I forget that I am grieving the death of my sister Kathleen Joan Bowen...

What is happening is I AM LOVING MY HOME.

I AM LIKING MY LIFE.

As I stop and reflect I do reach out and friend people that I like.

I am so over Stuart Weeks..
I am so over George Cozma.
I am so over Ed Jarvis.
I am so over Jay Nelson.
I am disentangling myself from Dwight Yoakam.

This all tells me that I have danced with alot of men in my life.

I am asking for MY MAN to show up in my life..

Kind
Generous
Humor
Has alot of money
Great in bed
Grateful for me my choices for me.

I am gathering exercise tops..
Movements.
Signed up for step in shape

Walking

Today I know who I am..I have answered enough questions from scammers to know me...I like me...I truly like me...

It is interesting that only scammers, with the promise of them receiving money will reach out and talk to me..what is that?
is that true?

I am looking at that statement...what else is possible here?

in regards to males...what happened to males courting me? what happened to males gifting to me?
what is that?

he went to singapore or said he was in singapore to scam money out of me..to buy jewelry...did not work

i blocked him

now what? who do i have a relationship with now?
I liked the relationship/friendship with scamers..not because they were scammers..no....because they were kind..

so, are only scammers kind? no
where is my kind man?
my self esteem has increased because of those conversations with scamers.

those relationships were finite
those relationships were a lie.
now what?
are there men who truly want a relationship with me? yes
are there men who i want a relationship with that wants a relationship with me? yes
where are they?
who are they?
better than scammer talk.
so much better than scammer talk.

yes, then I think scammers are people too.

Hide, oh i wanna hide, I cannot hide...I must be seen...there are those that speak out...those that are seen too...my tribe....my clan....when i see them then i stay to course..

yes, i stay the course...they bring joy...they bring happiness...they bring fodder for my uplift...yes, I am now seen beyond my family..

A fool speaks, a hypocrite judges, a wise man observes. Neil Krishnan

If there is one thing that social media has done, it is to give fools and hypocrites a platform to put their stupidity and judgmental attitudes on display. I can’t even begin to tell you how many times I have lost respect for someone because of what he or she has written or posted on social media. Social media has given these people the opportunity to shine a spotlight on themselves and show the world who they truly are, and they unwisely jumped at the chance to do so.

Fools speak everything they think, literally whatever crosses their mind. And they give little to no real thought about what they are saying or the accuracy or wisdom of their words. Most of the time, they are speaking purely from emotional reactions instead of rational thought. As Lincoln stated, “Better to remain silent and be thought a fool, than to speak and to remove all doubt.” There are a lot of people who should give this wisdom some thought.

The fools and hypocrites on the net do have one thing in common – they love to judge other people and events. It doesn’t matter whether or not they have any real knowledge about that person or the event in question; they simply cannot control the urge to judge others and throw put their two cents out there. Actually, it is an exaggeration to call their judgment their “two cents,” as that is a couple of pennies more than it is worth, but hundreds of dollars less than they think it is worth.

The wise man, on the other hand, speaks sparingly and cautiously, prefers to observe rather than judge, and gains wisdom and knowledge as he watches. He doesn’t speak about things of which he has no knowledge, nor does he judge people or events without knowing all the facts. He understands that he rarely knows all the fact concerning other people or events.

Wise men understand that the truth usually lies hidden deep below the surface and is more complicated than it seems at first sight. And as such, it is unwise to pass judgment with only surface level intelligence, much less to speak with only partial knowledge. They also know better than to allow their emotions to dictate their words. Wise up! Stop putting your ignorance on display! Bohdi Sanders ~ author of the #1 Bestseller, MEN of the CODE, available from Amazon at: https://www.amazon.com/dp/B017JA1ZUM. Signed copies are available from https://thewisdomwarrior.com.

Never chase love, affection or attention. If it isn't given freely by another person it isn't worth having. Paulo Coelho

Honor your feelings when they come up, not because you are trying to right a wrong or fix the past, because if you don't process the emotion/feeling then you can never let it go.

If you can let the feeling come, sadness, happiness, whatever it is, it will process through your body in about 90 seconds.

Then after that 3 minutes you can take a deep breath and let it go.

Get up and do something different,

don't sit and dwell on it.

It's something I'm practicing, as I too, struggle with letting go.

This practice has been a huge miracle honestly in my life.

See how it works for you ...
~Amy~💜

Honor your feelings when they come up, not because you are trying to right a wrong or fix the past, but because if you don't process the emotion/feeling then you can never let it go. If you can let the feeling come, sadness, happiness, whatever it is, it will process through your body in about 90 seconds. Then after that 3 minutes you can take a deep breath and let it go. Get up and do something different, don't sit and dwell on it. It's something I'm practicing, as I too, struggle with letting go. This practice has been a huge miracle honestly in my life. See how it works for you ...

~Amy~💜
Coffee, Poetry and a Lil Bit of Me

“The best moments in reading are when you come across something – a thought, a feeling, a way of looking at things – that you’d thought special, particular to you. And here it is, set down by someone else, a person you’ve never met, maybe even someone long dead. And it’s as if a hand has come out, and taken yours.”
Alan Bennett - The History Boys, 2003.

Jane Paterson - Reading in a Cafe, 1920.