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As my body radiated with pain I looked at the phone. It was 4:12 AM and I needed to be up at 8 AM to do the photo shoot

“No, please, why today?”

All night I couldn’t sleep. Nerve pain is a hell of a drug.

“You’ve done this for a decade now, you can do this”

I told myself as I took prescribed pain meds, and got out of bed after 2 and a half hours of sleep

As I did this photo shoot I smiled genuine smiles, genuine laughter, I actually had a lot of fun, but not from peace nor comfort.

I smiled and laughed knowing that I could handle fear, discomfort, pain, trials, and tribulation and make it look fun.

You see fear and pain is the only barrier between you and what you want.

I’m an absolute decorated General when it comes to pain tolerance.

The photographer told me mid shoot “you’re one of the happiest and nicest guys I’ve ever met, I’m having so much fun”

I hugged him, on the spot, even though I had never met him. That hug was the applause to myself in my head, “you’ve done this over a decade, you did it again, no one could even tell”

Now let me break the fourth wall on this little story I’m telling:

I don’t want anyone’s pity for battling uphill for over a decade against pain and a chronic condition. In fact, I can’t stand pity

That said:

F*** social media highlight reel lives and the effect that has on people’s mental health.

You’re perfectly good enough

F*** not feeling handsome or pretty enough because of filters, angles, and fancy photos

You’re a gorgeous life form, not only pretty or handsome, but miraculous in a million other ways

F*** not feeling like your life isn’t “fun” or “good” enough because of social media only showing one side of things

You never see what people are truly fighting with nor against from social media

So before you go and be jealous of someone because of social media portrayals, don’t.

It’s all a game

You’re effin amazing

Salutations to those who see through sickness, who refuse to quit, who pick up others even on their bad days

I love you

This has been one heck of a journey

I’ve been gone from live streams for a minute, and I will be back, just wanted to fill many curious people in

A) I’ve picked back up in business and gotten a mad rush of people wanting to get in on my fitness and life coaching services

B) I’m working to further research for the ME/CFS community and volunteered to be a subject for a new compound

I believe this will just be a waiting game, my comprehensive metabolic panel (blood work) looks good, I’m just getting extra rest, staving off some gnarly side effects, and excited to be with you all again soon

Be kind out there, we’ll keep releasing media we have on back log, and if you believe, say a prayer for me and the whole community

Never quit ❤️‍🩹

CRAZY!

That’s how it’s been this past month. So much work, particularly in regards to research and application for the chronic illness community

Next Friday we will be back for trivia night, yay!

Please anyone and everyone say a prayer for me, and this community, this has been the hardest thing I’ve ever done

I can’t wait to see you all soon, kick back, laugh, and have fun

Until then, let me leave you with some powerful words I sure hope you hear ❤️

To be honest, life has not been easy. I don’t want to come on here and flaunt how perfect my life is, it isn’t.

More trauma than an ICU

This road has been long and arduous, but conquering has left me with amazing skills as well as a vast appreciation for everything people take for granted

I’ve always wanted to have a hyper transparent, honest profile

People say to me all the time, I don’t know how you do it. Work output, impact, and drive

That is a complicated answer, but if I may say one thing

Most people have no concept of time or the impermanence of life.

If they do, they don’t show it

Go visit a nursing home. See the look of regret in the men and women’s eyes.

It’s one of the ugliest things you’ll ever see.

Life happens once. Many of us for whatever reason, seem to miss the invite.

Never present, suspended between worry of the future and regret of the past

Look down. Those legs will cease to function.

Spread your arms out, those will go away.

You see how your reading this? Your sight will be gone too.

This existence is impermanent.

Every day, slowly towards the end of this limited, most precious experience we’ll ever have.

Everyone you love will go or you will go and leave them. No other options, I’m sorry.

I’m never going to produce lazy content, like:

“everything happens for a reason”

Because, you see, this mindset, understanding the fragility of mortality, is a super power.

We don’t have time to be ugly towards, or fight with people, when we live every day with the knowingness it could be our last.

It’s the highest freedom there is.

Take the words of a man who’s died and been able to come back, many times, boredom is an unacceptable emotion.

Do the things you love

Know the most lasting happiness comes from what you do for others, a sense of making the world a better place

Be you, accept the judgment, who the heck cares?

Take care of your health ❤️‍🩹

Be kinder to you. Nobody hates you ❤️

Don’t take ANYTHING for granted

My purpose is clear, I’m reminded of it every waking moment 🙏

What is yours? Please, comment and tell me

Praise God my blood work came back surprisingly good!!!

I honestly cannot believe it. We have done everything, medicine, diet, intense supplementation, IV’s, stem cells, meditation, and more money than my home to preserve life

I know a lot of you asked me to fill you in, and this will be easier than sending messages back to everyone

It seems I’ve done it again, and this means a lot, but most importantly more energy to serve and help the less fortunate

I want to thank the doctors and medical professionals who have bent over backwards to keep me on my feet, I wouldn’t be here without you ❤️‍🩹

COMING BACK STRONGER THAN A POWERED UP PAC MAN

P.S. please take care of your health. If you don’t take time for your wellness, you’ll be forced to make time for your illness 💪

Health is a crown only the sick can see 👑

Tonight we were able to raise funding for PolyBio, and so many suffering from chronic illness

By gambling my facial hair in charity chess 🤣
(Video in comments)

Thank you to everyone who has gotten involved.

I was taught at a young age not to trust words, but to put a heavy emphasis on actions ❤️

I had fun. Legitimately.

We have followers of the channel finding better health through biohacking that I will keep putting out as well.

So happy to be able to share such a passion/obsession with others 🧠 🧪

For anyone interested, I truly believe PolyBio will be the answer to ME/CFS, POTS, Alzheimer’s, Dementia, Stroke, chronic inflammation, IBS/IBD, super scientists :

https://polybio.org/donate/

Feeling unmotivated? Scrolling often? Tired?

🧠 🧪 Sulbutiamine + ALCAR 🧪 🧠

Sulbutiamine (brand names Arcalion, Enerion) is a synthetic derivative of thiamine (vitamin B1). In France, it is used to treat symptoms of weakness or fatigue. It is also sold as a dietary supplement. Sulbutiamine was discovered in Japan as part of an effort to develop useful thiamine derivatives.

DOPAMINE is a major issue for many. It’s not just a reward, happy, s*x chemical. It makes us want to get up and go, and too little, and we find ourselves watching p**n, scrolling social media, eating crap food, list a slew of other issues

If it gets too low, we can have get Parkinson’s, dementia, heart issues, and feel like s**t

When my dopamine is low, the world is grey, like a layer of saran wrap in between me and reality. I do things on discipline, I workout fiending for endorphins and enkephalins

When my dopamine is high, I’m researching like an animal. My body is warm, my brain is alive, I’m connected

The crucial issue with dopamine is neuroplasticity and down regulation. Take a dopaminergic and your body senses it as toxicity and begins to down regulate receptors to feel normal.

When we stop, our receptors are down regulated and we feel withdrawal, this is also the basis for addiction and dependence as a physical disease model

Research suggests that sulbutiamine modulates the dopaminergic, cholinergic, and gluatmatergic transmission systems and upregulates both D1 and D2 dopamine receptors. Anecdotal evidence and personal experience abounds for sulbutiamine being anti-fatigue and augmenting attention, cognition, energy, and learning

So long story short we get more dopamine release acutely, while bolstering the receptor to naturally pump out more over time

Win win

It is absolutely possible to become a meta human with the administration of smart supplementation. Why doctors don’t venture here = $$$

More bio hacking goodness will continue at Magic Mark

EDIT: the second part of the stack is ALCAR, Acetyl-L-Carnitine 🧪 🤘

To all my friends gone, the product of chronic apathy, RIP

To those still here,

There’s people out there fighting for you every single day

Got email responses from Chuck Schumer’s office, and plan to discuss resolution, funding and hope for a dying community

Could you imagine what we could get done if we stood up for, and loved one another, with the same fervor we drive wedges and exist in ideological conflict?

One love ❤️

20 lbs down in 2 days, heart choking on lack of blood volume. Blood pressure was at stroke levels (first photo - left and right are two days apart, this weekend)

We loaded in electrolytes and water as fast as we could, I snorted anti diuretic hormone, I kept calm and spoke with God as I shook, feeling my heart skip beats and flutter frantically, watching my BP cuff go over 180/130

“Please, not yet. There’s so much work to be done”

As nuts as it sounds, I was calm through and through. Your mind is very powerful, and I need all of it for the fight ahead

I started peeing and peeing, and I knew immediately I was in for a ride.

My autonomic nervous system lost control of my fluid regulation, and was going to dump until it got very messy

Yesterday- outside all day. Enjoying every single human function I have

I wake up to this nightmare of a body every day. Never knowing what I’ll get

First thing I do is pray, and then I get to it. I’ve been living this way for over a decade

For much of it, I kept it hidden, as although I know I can run circles around “healthy” people when it comes to work ethic, I didn’t want the prejudice or assumptions until I built my career and my name was known

I built my businesses this way. I’ve taught classes with an oxygen cannula up my nose.

I’ve loved this way. Ive found happiness this way. I’ve advocated for my community this way.

What people don’t want to know, is that we walk a line daily, that would send a shudder down most peoples spine.

Many of my peers cannot get up and around at all, for fear of things like what happened to me this weekend

You see, living with chronic health issues is not a set, constant experience. No, these people aren’t histrionic, they don’t pretend to be sick, they pretend to be well

“Wait, so you weren’t able to stand four days ago, but today you’re outside all day?”

Yes.

Go to the hospital right?

Hah, you guys have no idea how little they know about this condition, because they don’t typically have any education in pre and post grad

Hence why I travel to, and have distance meetings with doctors to aid them. Hence why our research group is always steps ahead of medical institutions

My buddy Scott Daniska's body tries to kill him daily, but a hospital trip ends in gaslighting, a 20k bill, and people saying “you seem fine, good luck”, as he loses motor function.

He literally brings slides and data to show the doctors when he goes

I will walk, play, and fight for this community until I can’t. I’ve had enough of the bed. I won’t take a single moment for granted

When dealing with this complex disease, we have to be ready at all times to intervene to preserve. We must be insanely educated, and work 10x as hard for everything

I make this post for three reasons,

1. You are not alone. Mental health, physical health, you’re not alone. Most just refuse to show anything other than their highlight reels

2. Even with great barriers in your way. You can still do amazing things

3. To tell you never to accept someone treating you poorly because they are having a hard time. I can assure you lovingly, that kindness knows suffering

“Sorry I treated you poorly, I had a stressful day” will never fly with me. Four years choking on my life in a bed and I was never mean to anyone

I don’t need pity, I’m a hardened warrior, but I do want you to be kind to everyone you ever meet, as they are likely facing a battle you know nothing about

I want to tell anyone and everyone fighting a battle, that you’ve got love and a friend in me

P.S. unfortunately fighting for this community has been one hell of a battle, as data shows Myalgic Encephalomyelitis to be THE MOST neglected disease in relationship to its needs, but if you’d like to fight along side of me, you may do so here

https://polybio.org/donate/

If not, thanks for reading. Thanks for seeing my community. Be kind to you and others today ❤️

P.P.S. I’ve got the weight back, and I’m to hopefully make a full recovery in time

Throwback Thursday: OMG, found this gem 🤣

*Caption this photo*

Winner gets a prize 🎁 😭

NI****NE

Ni****ne is an incredibly misunderstood chemical

As a biology and psychopharmacological nut, this one is CRAZY how much misinformation there is

Ni****ne is less or equally as harmful as caffeine.

Which both of them aren’t harmful very much at all, unless you overdose, or have health conditions making you extremely intolerant to stimulants

Both caffeine and ni****ne have some insane benefits, and even long term health benefits

Am I telling you to smoke or dip? Hell no. To***co is incredibly s**tty for your health.

Ni****ne, isn’t

I use ni****ne in my stack, let me give you a few reasons

1. Short term energy. While engaging in constant research, and sometimes 16 hour days, I need a push at 7/8PM but don’t want to deal with the long half life of caffeine. Sometimes I also use dynamine

2. This one is wild. Ni****ne works as a monoamine oxidase inhibitor. This keeps more neurotransmitive chemicals in my brain. Some people can’t quit ni****ne, not because they are addicted, but because their brain doesn’t function as well without MAO inhibition. I have a dopamine deficient pathology , which can lead to a tremors, pain, the inability to stand, even bedridden status if I let too much monoamine break down to occur

3. I can take up and quit ni****ne at my leisure. I’m actually taking a month off today to resensitize and upregulate my receptors

Am I telling you to take it up? No.

I am telling you that if you don’t educate yourself on how the body works, you’ll be running around in circles and even possibly doing what you think is healthy, which isn’t, or avoiding things you like thinking they are unhealthy when they are not

It’s the to***co that kills, not the ni****ne. I use ni****ne as a very good agent with sustainable long term increase in quality of life

P.S. I posted this off the cuff to my main. People loved it and asked for more, so I plan to bring more biohacking exclusively to this channel

Life’s been insane. Which has turned into a radical way to live, on many fronts. One that I find very hard to explain, but I hope this post helps

Scrolling through 300 texts to find which ones are related to this community, and getting them help.

Which ones are researchers and doctors, and who wants to catch up

Not working for profit, but rather working to send money and aid to supporting an effort to get 60 million people out of the desert

Research, activism, awareness, speaking with Gov reps, compiling protocols, then spending time with doctors to help educate them as this isn’t covered in pre or post graduate.

Working with the ones I can to keep them from jumping

The mental toll is astonishing, you break down but know you must grieve fast, because you’re needed

People telling you to “take a break” which is a luxury you cannot afford, when you’ve touched death a dozen times, and any day could be the one you don’t win

When there’s 60 million people on the other side of your leisure time, I just can’t make sense of it

I couldn’t in my heart not help

Let me give you some insane statistics about the people I’m fighting for with Myalgic Encephalomyelitis

What was once estimated at 850,000, is now estimated to be 50-60+ million

90% of them are undiagnosed

80% are completely out of contact with doctors, because they’ve grown afraid, due to many cases like Sophia Mirza where she was accused of faking, the police came, kicked down the door, handcuffed the mother, and took Sophia to a psych ward, and killed her

This story is far from uncommon

When quality of life studies were done on these people, they used AIDS, MS, cancer, etc for QOL comparison.

They found sadly that you just couldn’t compare the suffering of severe ME/CFS patients, and landed on “the last week of your battle with cancer, deep into chemo therapy, before you die”

What almost took my life 3 times, over 18 months, was considered “moderate”

Whitney Dafoe is severe, and hasn’t eaten, drinken, other than through tubes, or moved much at all in 8 years

These diseases used for comparison are horrid, and that should say something

25% are confined to a bed, living an existence much like being burnt alive

The su***de rate we do not know, but could be as high as 50+%, and we really have to have a talk about humane euthanasia, but that’s a post for another time

It’s been called a genocide of apathy, and those words aren’t used lightly

These people live in our streets, all around us, but as soon as you fall Ill you become a ghost

I won’t quit, I can’t quit, even if it’s a handful international network and me carrying this all on our backs

I want to thank everyone who realized the absurdity of this persisting in a modern world and has gotten involved

We sent another 4 figures today to PolyBio to support their alliance

Due to our combined efforts, funding has been increased over 30,000%

Studies went from nothing to 576 papers from Jan 1st -> Dec 24th

Doctors have been reprimanded and held accountable internationally

Watching friends go on a regular basis is hard.

Watching them pushed to non existence by the medical system is hard

I’m not afraid to die, I am actually somewhat excited to break these mortal coils and be with God. Don’t confuse that for not being grateful or happy

I am terrified however, of not finishing this mission, seeing as nobody since the birth of man, up until now has cracked the code.

I don’t know how the world keeps turning without massive outrage. I don’t know how the population so large and so forgotten, with such an underprivileged status got left out of the equation

But just know I’ll never leave us. I have one mission, and I’m not afraid to stand up for every last person

Until the end, I will speak for the voiceless

I’ll fight for the defenseless

I’ll stand for those who cannot

P.S. not everyone has resources to donate, but even interaction on Magic Mark, sharing content, helping us raise awareness, would be nothing short of heroic

Throwback Thursday

To when I used to stare longingly off bridges with shirts that were one size too small

Fitness modeling was “fun”, but looking back now 8 years later, I honestly have no desire to ever do anything like it again

No days off

Pushing limits of your body every single day 😅

Doing insanely unhealthy things to look “healthy” (being more dehydrated than a piece of leather left out in the sun) ☠️

Weighing my food on a scale 👨‍🍳

Having a chin strap 😱

If you asked me if I would have ever ended up streaming, I would have definitely said no.

Fitness was always my rock. Having that taken from my life was devastating. That said, it’s what brought me to one of my favorite things, streaming

I’m genuinely curious what hardship showed you, that ended up positive.

I’m not going to be toxically positive and say everything happens for a reason, but what 💩 have you polished into 💎?

Yesterday the universe seemed to align in a validating way.

I got drowned in voice memos, and messages (many which I posted) of people saying that tuning into my stream

Drastically improved their mental health 🧠

Encouraged them to launch a business 💰

Introduced them to amazing friends 👩‍❤️‍👨

I’d like to celebrate that.

Tonight, it’s open forum. Ask any questions, on any way I can improve your life or give insight, mentorship and coaching

I am so impressed by this community,

6pm EST, I’ll see you there

Let’s grow together

1. Super proud to have gained back 38% of the weight I lost over 18 months, in 5 weeks

2. Super amped to have my body somewhat back, even if it’s never full function again

3. Super ready for some work then R&R, so this dude can recharge and keep giving you my absolute best in content

P.S. make an extra effort to pick folks up on social media if you will. Spend 10 minutes a night doing it.

There’s seemingly a wild level of dissatisfaction in people on social media that’s making people dump their emotions angrily at people

Kinda craaazayyyy 😜

Oh yeah, smooches 😘 ,

PEACE ✌️

When I started this project I figured it was going to be goodbye

Having company, after such prolonged pain and isolation, was heaven sent.

It’s crazy, if you go back to earlier streams I’m so pale, shaky, and fighting to hold it together. You can see my coming back in real time.

I suppose it wasn’t my time yet.

I can’t deny that the stream could have played a role in my current health status, as I truly believe health is physical and metaphysical

Human will is a savage entity

I didn’t expect to love streaming anywhere near as much as I do, and also didn’t expect the stream to become such a lifeline for so many

I am excited and proud to announce that based off the pilot season, we are going forward into SEASON TWO:

🤩 A plethora of whacky, uplifting, heartfelt, and comedic content

🎁 Trivia nights with prizes, and season long giveaways for those who interact, like, comment, and participate

💰 The techniques I’ve taught over many years, that led to the formation of over 100 businesses, that has allowed me to pay my medical bills and live freely

🎶 Getting back into music, live performances, including fellow artists who want to join the cause

📻 Interviews with some of the wildest stories from around the globe. From deep conspiracy, to unbelievable adversity

🧪 13 years and 18,000+ hours of supplementation, health protocols, training, and bio hacking knowledge that everyone can use to better their sleep, energy, mood, and overall health

📰 An honest and refreshing, and dare I say “real” side of news, cynical and comedic, honest, and sometimes spooky

📖 Opening pages of wild stories I have yet to tell, mainly due to me actively being a public figure, and contracts relying upon my image

All of this in the name of raising awareness, and hopefully solving one of the most devastating diseases effecting 40-60+ million people

It’s going to get real, it’s going to be fun

Buckle up 🚀

PS: I still haven’t come up with a name for the crew yet. It was Team Magic, but that’s not doing it for me.

Whoever comes up with the best name, wins a prize

Send them at me 👇

Throwback Thursday:

Boy do I miss Cosplay and Cons 👨‍🎤

One of the things I miss the most from being housebound was all the nerdy meet ups

This stream is going to allow me a medium to get back into it, and that’s got me amped 🎉

On a similar note, I know the isolation wasn’t just felt by me this year, and the one prior.

What do you miss most/what are you looking forward to the most when the world gets back to business?