Protyus A. Gendher
Reflections as an enby, surrogate, proletarian warrior. Email [email protected] to schedule a ZOOM speaker session.
https://invisiblymisdiagnosed.wordpress.com/2023/07/11/being-realistic/
Being Realistic So, yesterday, I posted my ideal diet moving forward. Ready for some real talk though? I work 40+ hours each week. I moonlight as a performer. I have a huge yard and an HOA. I’m a mom and par…
https://invisiblymisdiagnosed.wordpress.com/2023/06/23/yes-foods/
YES Foods A-ZAnimals.com What are YES Foods? I’m so glad you asked. YES foods are the foods that fuel us, that stabilize us, that heal us. How do we find our YES foods? It’s tricky. For me, perso…
https://invisiblymisdiagnosed.wordpress.com/2023/06/22/the-first-bite-is-the-deepest/
The First Bite Is The Deepest Today was day one. Not really, I’ve been looking into these things for my entire life, so there’s really no such thing as a day one, but eating an elephant starts with that first bite. …
https://invisiblymisdiagnosed.wordpress.com/2023/06/22/being-treated-like-a-hypochondriac/
Being Treated Like a Hypochondriac Inevitably, if a person gets to where I am, they have been treated as though they are just making everything up. Pill seeking. Lying. It’s all in our heads. I can’t imagine coming this …
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Focus on the past until you’ve processed it.
Focus on the past until you don't find yourself triggered daily.
Focus on your past until your present stops repeating the patterns.
Focus on the past until truth and shame become old friends
Focus on your last until you can see a cutie that fits you
Focus on your past to teach yourself what you deserve instead
Focus on the past until your heart and mind move on
Because ignoring it will not make it go away.
Facing it will.
Toxicity Toolkit Because we all deserve healthier relationships
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In case you missed A Date with Dapkus here is the youtube video of our talent packed night.
Thursday Night Live: A Date with Dapkus & Family Adam Dapkus and his family will be putting on their own variety show including music, poetry, and more. After winning the Longmont Public Media Talent Show, ...
I can't believe it's almost here! My drag debut is coming up!
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Brave by Protyus A. Gendher
Don’t you dare call me brave
For existing as myself
For refusing to hide pieces away to be more palatable
I’m delectable in my sovereign uniqueness
And that’s not brave
That’s you having a tiny view
That’s you projecting your ideas of normalcy on me
No need
That’s s**t you can keep
Lock it away please
Keep that off of me
Please, if you would be so kind, refrain from referring to me as resilient
Just because I have a light that didn’t extinguish
From every catastrophe this world hurled at me
I’m not your poverty p**n, so get off of me
I don’t need more situations to “make me stronger”
I don’t need you to praise the fact that I didn’t wither away
Check the meaning behind your words and your privileged gaze
Please put the word “survivor” back in your pocket
I do not wish to see it or hear it
How dare you glorify my pain
And try to assign it some purpose so you never have an uncomfortable feeling
About a world that’s kept me on my knees
How do you feel when you use that word
That erases my experience through misunderstood worth?
These words that you seem to think are high praise
Give away
What you’re really trying to say
It’s not welcome here
Take it away.
Are you a creator? You need to be a part of this!
Longmont's Most Talented - part of Thursday Night Live @Longmont Public Media and Member Drive Watch and comment LIVE as people show off their talents. The winner will headline their own event on October 13th! This event will conclude with our grand pr...
For my heckler
Karens in the Crowd To The Karen In The Crowd To the Karen in the crowd Why are you screaming? What is it that has you in such a tiff? What is it that has this snowflake triggered? What is it that has set this flake a…
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New Developments Life kept lifing I apologize for my absence. The Toxicity Toolkit is still as important to me as ever, and as essential to my life. We had to move in April/May, and life has been lifing ever since.…
Returning From A Pause Life kept lifing I apologize for my absence. The Toxicity Toolkit is still as important to me as ever, and as essential to my life. We had to move in April/May, and life has been lifing ever since.…
New post in The Toxicity Toolkit
https://toxicitytoolkit.wordpress.com/2022/09/10/returning-from-a-pause/
Returning From A Pause Life kept lifing I apologize for my absence. The Toxicity Toolkit is still as important to me as ever, and as essential to my life. We had to move in April/May, and life has been lifing ever since.…
Abortion by Protyus A. Gendher @ The West End Lounge Protyus performs Abortion @ The West End Lounge
The Woman Left Behind
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Abortion
14 years old and had to run away from home
Fighting every day to make it on her own
Each decision made with the purpose of survival
Living on the streets of the belt of the bible
She never knows where she’s going to get her next meal
Or where she’ll sleep tonight, it’s scary and its real
She grew up in a home where she got beaten every day
But it’s ok, because daddy said that it was in god’s name
That she was just a sinner, and nothing she did was right
So, she did what she had to, to have a bed to sleep in tonight
“It’s not that bad” she tells herself, sometimes it even feels good
The warm body she’ll wake up next to, bought her booze and food
She survived another day, and for now has a place to stay
But there’s a price to pay, and she pays it every day
And when she wakes up puking, she’s told she has no say
Her body never belonged to her anyway
Her dad had the right to beat her
This guy had the right to cheat her
And she just wants to be her
36-year-old, mother of four
If she tells him “No,” he’ll call her a w***e
So, she performs her expected chore
This day just like each day before
She’s exhausted, and has no spoons left to give
It’s too hard to fight, she just wants to live
She’s property, she can’t get out, she belongs to him
He doesn’t approve of birth control
But there’s no way she can handle one more
And all the responsibility lands on her
4 kids, 2 jobs, and her feet hurt
In a world that says this should be her place
Everyone but her deciding her fate
She sees an extra line when she pees on a stick
She’s done this before, and it makes her feel sick
Because she didn’t have the right to avoid it
Her body belonging to his enjoyment
36 and not a full person yet
Just a baby factory, whose spoons are spent
She’s 12 and she was r***d in a brutal assault
In her brain feeling that everything is her fault
Told she doesn’t deserve the chance to heal
Because her life isn’t hers, how would you feel?
They’re 28 years old, and married the love of their life
After other personhood struggles, to allow them to take a wife
But these two always knew they were meant to be together
Meant to spend their lives, making each other better
The love story of a lifetime, filled with joy and growth
Finding out they were pregnant, filled their hearts with hope
They watched their diet, exercised, and took their vitamins
They cried when the shared the news with family and friends
An ultrasound with a heartbeat, making a dream come true
They’re planning the nursery, and looking at possible schools
Now they’re 24 weeks along, two trimesters in
But this morning they fell in the shower, and the baby stopped kicking
They called their OB in panicked tears, who told them to come in
For another ultrasound, to look for a heartbeat again
“I’m so sorry,” their doctor said, “perhaps you’ll try again”
And just like that it all came to an end
But what do they do now, because the law says that they must
Carry this co**se to term, it’s 40 weeks or bust
His life is transforming, it’s been 6 months on T
And he hasn’t had a period in at least 2 or 3
Frankly, that was one of the goals
So, it seemed this was the new normal
He was prepared to feel quite different
So, he never questioned where his period went
Or why he woke up feeling nauseous
And he’s been cautious
He can dissociate enough to share a night with someone
But how’s he supposed to dissociate for nine months?
Gender dysphoria is back again
Like a toxic best friend
She’s spent so much money on motherhood
So many doctors said she never would
Conceive a child and live her dreams
She still can’t believe that the line turned pink
But she’s feeling much worse than she should
She tried to push through it as hard as she could
She didn’t want to admit how bad this hurt
Until she collapsed while she was at work
The embryo’s ectopic and now her life’s in danger
While her fate is decided by strangers
Another mom-to-be hears something’s desperately wrong
In an ultrasound, while she’s 22 weeks along
The baby isn’t forming the way that it should
And if carried to term, they know that it would
Die right after being born
Both parents heartbroken, forlorn
They’re not allow to spare it’s suffering
How on earth could this be the right thing?
Stories like these are endless, each with their own circumstances
People with uteruses not really people, allowed to make their own choices
People in real situations not allowed to have voices
Because they’re being controlled
By an external force
It’s not ok to subjugate masses of people
It’s not ok; it’s clear and it’s simple.
What do they gain by taking our choices away?
Why do our lives not matter, why are we not worth saving?
The first two volumes of "The Woman Left Behind" are now on Amazon. "Identity and Becoming," and "Trauma and Rejection" are both available as ebooks, and will be available in paperback later this week! More volumes to come in this journey.
Happy Healing!
https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0BC96FD44
The Woman Left Behind: Trauma and Rejection Explore trauma, abuse, rejection, and the life that comes after in this volume of The Woman Left Behind. In tones of strength and honesty, Protyus A. Gendher examines social and interpersonal trauma to reveal healing, self-worth, and accountability. This volume should have all of the trigger warn...
The Woman Left Behind: Identity and Becoming https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0BC7TFS28/ref=cm_sw_r_awdo_WQW8NG7MCVBZVXYJTSMR
Protyus performs Community, Hands Tied, and Due Process at West End Lounge in Loveland- with a heckler
Protyus A Gender; Public Enenby Number One
Fed up with the struggles of everyday life? Join me as we laugh our way through exploring gender, s*x, parenting, partnership, the patriarchy, and life in the proletariat.