Bleeding inked emotions

Never in my life have I felt such a deep, demanding, soul suffocating need for someone to look me in the eyes, REALLY, TRULY, DEEPLY into my eyes, while I scream at the top of my lungs "I AM NOT OKAY!" Using every last drop of Love, hate, and guilt,
Every single last drop of belief, faith, and hope,
EVERY SINGLE GODDAMN LAST DROP OF MENTAL, EMOTIONAL, AND PHYSICAL STRENGTH I BARELY HAVE LEFT IN ME! ....
Because at the end of the day even the strongest of strong have a weight limit of what they can hold before they bend and they break....
~ A .

Having my baby made a woman out of me. I’m not the same female I was years ago. Shoot I’m not the same female I was yesterday.. everyday I learn something new when dealing with my baby. I think different, move different , love different, I think more independently on how I can be the best mom I can. A lot of things are different. Don’t expect the exact same I was years ago , I have someone looking up to me , everything I do is for mine. My baby depending on ME 🤞🏽🌍 ~ A .

I post things that speak to my heart and soul ....
Doesn't mean its always something I'm going through right this second though.

It may or may not apply with a heavier weight for my past,
It may or may not apply with a heavier weight for my present,
It may or may not apply with a heavier weight for the unknown of my future,
It may or may not apply with a heavier weight in nothing more but the dreams that project themselves in my head, lay deeply in my heart,
and dance the walls of my soul while the darkness steals the night ....

Then again,
in all honesty,
The mystery of exact accuracy is for me and me alone to know ....

So stop digging,
Stop guessing and "investigating" for clues,
Instead take a step back to see where it might possibly apply to YOU ....
~ A .