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Anyone else ready to just give up on EVERYTHING anymore or is it just me?

Facts!

It's not the things you say that hurt me. Knowing your words and actions will end up haunting you later on is what hurts. I know that pain!

There is a group of ladies put there that are pretty awesome. You should check them out on Facebook, tik tok or Spotify! They are The Talk S**t Podcast. Anyhow... some of their banter kinda popped into my mind when thinking New Years resolutions. I'm sure a s**t ton of people are still doin that s**t but... I kinda do a good enough job at not accomplishing tasks or reaching goals. Lol So I'm not saying I have the traditional resolutions and all, however I am gonna give it a good shot of making each of the years to come better and better. Not really in exactly specific ways atleast that I would like to share but damn sure gonna give her a shot. Lol that said if anyone else would like to join me along the way.... there will definitely be plenty more to come...

Lmao says it all

Well... this one is to 2 of my kids. (Maddison, Joey). The end of the year is damn near here. The start of a new is right around the corner. Since your mother has made it her priority to do everything in her power to turn both of you against me, there's a great likelihood I won't hear from either of you. But no matter what I want both of you to know that I will never stop loving amd caring about both of you. Maddison, you said it your self in messages between you and your mother... it's pretty sad that not one of you siblings are under the same roof now! You might hate me but I am still going to do whatever it takes to continue to fight for what is best for all of you kids!! It might not be what you actually want at this time but being in the toxic environment you currently are in isn't good for ANY child. Maddison... just remember... you actually had hopes, dreams and goals. You've thrown away sooo much but I am still wanting to help. Joey, I know you was getting in alot of trouble in school and then your mom started the head games with you. But now..... All I've wanted is to repair whatever it is between us and regain a healthy relationship with you again. You use to beg us to not make you go to your mom's house and then suddenly you, your mom and her attorney got you to be with her. Clearly that didn't last, am I right? How in the world you or anyone can see it as being normal for you to be living with your grandparents is baffling to me! I'm still going to try texting you from time to time but it would be really really nice if you'd talk to me again. And... Joey.... believe it or not... my interest in continuing to reach out to you has nothing to do with the courts or the crap your sister and mother are currently pulling. I honestly love and care about all of you kids more than anything and I've tried to give you space and cooling down time but now that the courts are involved and all the other things are being pushed like they are.. I am also pushing to regain legal rights to you and your sister again because non of this is right. Anyways... my whole point to this message is to let you both know that regardless of what you think or what your being told or anything else... I will always love you all and my goal for the new year is to hopefully get the courts to see what all is being done that is complete wrong and set things right, and also just as importantly if not maybe even more importantly... I'm going to do whatever I can to find peace. I'm tired of hurting and being hurt by the ones I love so changes will be coming but hoping for a good new year. Love you guys and happy new years..

Up to this point I've been cautious to use people's actual names however after looking into it more.... there is not a single thing wrong or that I would have to worry about by really putting it out there... so that said, my ex has went by MANY names started with Brittnie Montell then Brittnie Gueulette (unfortunately) then I forget her next actual husband's name was that she met in a mental facility! Then to keep up with things she has changed her FB name multiple times. She definitely has a pattern. Meets a guy, instantly moves in with him, after a while of dealing with her s**t they typically catch on to all of the non stop lies and get tired of paying for her lawyer and then they suddenly become abusive and a drug addicted piece of s**t. Ironically she met one of the guys and he ended up knocking her up. So now she has another baby daddy his name is Greg Nichols. Naturally he didn't like me from the beginning and thought what she told him was true I was kinda wrong in making a comment about their child but didn't mean it how it came out. The bitch was harassing me non stop and she has a disabled child because she was clearly drinking and lord knows what else while she was pregnant. But next thing I know he supposedly tried killing her in the livingroom one day and my older son had to call the police on him. Next thing you know he was abusive and on all kinds of drugs. Just like most of her damn ex's he even got ahold of my wife trying to say he will help us out and such with info and everything. Well that is before he asked my wife if she wanted to f**k!! The crazy thing is going thru my daughter's icloud account and her phone I seen just the types of conversations she was having with my daughter. Basically she is collecting social security, disability for her new daughter, getting paid from the new baby daddy, then she has started her self a craft store type of thing and started cleaning people's houses. But I am sure she will take him for everything she possibly can.... pretty sure she move to Michigan with the new guy because she ran out of guys here in Ohio.

So I will back it up as far as I can remember because the funny fact about the TRUTH is you can't change it no matter how hard you try! Yeah you can make s**t up like she continues to do but deep inside she knows... lol but I actually met my ex at a place my dad worked at. She was leaning over a filing cabinet with ALL her t**s hanging out and I definitely made a comment to my dad and next thing you know I am talking to her because forgetting all about it my dad called me up saying someone was there that wanted to talk to me which could understand considering I use to work there. I just got out of a longer term relationship and honestly should have seen the signs early on. As people usually do during a relationship... you find things out about one another. Well I should have ran from the beginning... she ended up getting fired shortly after we met. Then I got her on at my second job. She didn't last very long there either. Not long after I ended up taking her father and brother in because her dad was having problems with his wife. I was kinda mainly looking for fun which seemed to be what she wanted as well. We went to parties, threw big parties and went out and did stuff alot. Her brother was and I'm sure still is a funny guy kinda joker or whatever. He was still young and for the most part we all were really. But after being together for a little while and going to places I learned little by little some disturbing things. Like apparently she lost her virginity to one of her dad's friends at a shop he worked at and the guy was married.... when she was younger she fooled around with a hotdog and got the things stuck if you k own what I mean... 🤢🤮 she fooled around with one of her cousins and was r***d or molested by her uncle and her step brother... but shortly after us seeing eachother we split up. My father's wife was Naturally still friends with my ex girlfriend and naturally she tried that I'm pregnant bulls**t. So I split up with my ex and even explained everything. I would get messages from her friends saying that she wasn't eating and was so sick and everything else. After a while I decided I couldn't go back to my ex girlfriend. I invited them both over to my house and sat them both down and talked to them both face to face and then me and "Brittnie" were a couple. After a while we got married. And basically instantly had our first child Maddison Gueulette. From that moment I knew being her father was my purpose in life. As happens with young couples we wasn't very financially stable at all and moved back in with my dad. I came home from work one day and she is packing her bags and of all things making sure to grab the box of condoms and all she would say is she is going to her mom's. NO explanation or anything. Naturally I did what I could to figure out what the f**k was going on and got ahold of the cellphone carrier and started tracking her phone. Found out she had been lying to her family and everything. Then I get a call from her mom which she was s**t faced and could hear maddison screaming at the top of her lungs and her mom said I needed to come pick my daughter up she was tired of her screaming and couldn't get ahold of her mom. She had blew off going to places with her brother and his now wife and nobody knew where she was or even where maddison was because by time I made it to her mom's maddison was gone and so was her mom. ALOT of s**t went down and I found out naturally she was meeting up with this f**king guy. Her step mom and dad recommended a counselor at their church which is how I found ALOT more out. She Naturally claimed it was the postpartum depression. Which I didn't know turned a person into a w***e but ok... next thing I know she is pregnant. So I've always said very little at all but you do the math and put the pieces together.... I guess part of me had and has ALWAYS been afraid to know the truth but I also didn't care because to me regardless of what anyone said he was my son! She made sure to use that against me over the years because she apparently figured it was too painful for me to even mention or bring up? But we did try supposedly working things out... several times actually. We discussed many times not wanting any more kids until we were more financially stable and such well next thing I know I find her birth control above the kitchen sink up with the spices and s**t. Naturally about the same time I'm f**king pregnant AGAIN. Landen knows so it's no surprise to him or anything. But he also knows he is what keeps me fighting still and everything else. But naturally each time she had the depression excuse. She never got off her ass and did anything really. She didn't work and supposedly that was my fault. Well then she got into this real world role-playing kinda game and started making "friends" on there. It got so bad even her drunk mom, brother and sister inlaw sat her down for a intervention because of it. Shortly after I got a weird feeling so I got into her email and other things unaware that she was on her damn laptop upstairs. That's when I found out she was talking to and sending naked pictures to like 30+ guys all over the US and talking about taking the kids and moving with them and disappearing. I also found out that she had been telling her friends and some family members that I was doing things and was controlling and that I was abusive and everything else. At one point she took a entire bottle of Tylenol or ibuprofen and had to have her stomach pumped. The whole time I didn't run my mouth to any of my friends or family and tell all the s**t I was going thru. But she made sure to tell anyone that would listen how abusive I was. The actual end of me and her was when I found out that she was talking to this dude on the west side of Columbus that was living with his parents, was a every day every minute stoner, didn't have a job, didn't have a car like... a real prize winner. But after all the years of the s**t I had to go thru my only concern was always the kids. I felt that I was trapped. Well I got my s**t together, sold everything I owned and paid a good attorney because I knew that I wanted to and was able to provide the kids with a stable life and she clearly was more about partying and her self. Well I knew that since I didn't go saying all the bulls**t throughout our relationship that likely no one will believe me. So that's when one drunk night I came up with the plan and idea based off of a flyer one of the layers gave me warning me of FB in divorces. I took that warning and ran with that s**t! Not just me but my closest circle at the time made a fake FB built it up with random connections to the bitch and eventually friend requested her. Her thirsty ass took the bait immediately!!! So during this whole damn divorce I not only could see everything she posted talking s**t about me but also knew what she was supposedly doing and when and where and because I knew EVERYTHING I got her ass to admit to it ALL. It ALL came directly from HER!! The funny moment was when her attorney said to me that she would love to know why I am so confident and showed her just 1 of the hundreds of communications I had of her talking to people about having me killed! That was a Friday, Monday I got notification that her attorney dropped her all together. Naturally I am giving the Guardian EVERY bit of information I got right up to him writing up his final decision. Knowing that the case was basically over I said f**k it. I kept seeing where she kept posting that I was so worried about her and all of that kinda s**t so it was right before Christmas a d I called her up knowing she likely was at her mom's house. My buddy has a car audio shop near there and I knew there was cameras out back so I asked her to meet me behind that shop to talk. Finally she agreed. We both got out of our cars and leaned up against my car and I just flat out told her that I knew she was still talking s**t on Fb and everything which at first she tried denying it. She the asked calmly and politely how I thought I knew what she was posting and that's when I told her this is her early and last goodbye Christmas present and me showing that all I wanted was to each be able to move on and do the best as parents as we could and flat out told her.... I am Kyle Linch or Lynch I can't remember. Her f**king jaw broke! She went from laughing to crying to laughing again she kneeled down like she was gonna collapse and I honestly held her. Like a hug or whatever. I straight got my phone out and showed her and told her from that moment on I was done. Done with the fighting, done with the worrying about the s**t people are saying about me and told her if she just went her own way I had no intentions of outing her to EVERYONE. Well here we are YEARS AND YEARS later and the bitch has not one time stopped f**king with me, making up lies and trying to play the victim so over time I will be releasing ALL of that s**t too. Thing is she thought that because she had Joey steal my 1 external hard drive and they destroyed it that I didn't have backups.. well all you've done is f**k with me and I've had enough of your f**king s**t. Now I am coming for you! And to make it clear I don't threaten violence or bodily harm or anything like you've tried doing towards me and my wife. No BITCH make your self a good house bitch for your new guy buy you better have your list of lies straight and organized because you have just become my newyears resolution! But rest assured it WILL all come out! Should have left me alone when you had the chance years ago and not f**ked with my kids.

Ok so... if you haven't checked my latest post yet give it a read first. Today's current topic..... FOOD! ok admit it! Finding daily meal ideas for a house full of people who each has their own unique things they like and don't is a bitch most of the time... we are going back with this one a lil bit however it has come up many times so here we are. Yeah your normal meals can be tricky but specifically let discuss SNACKS AND GOODIES. I know as a fact that our house cannot be the only house that if we leave ALL the snacks out no matter how many you've bought they will be gone in a day am I right?? My oldest son would literally ONLY eat cheese pizza rolls, little Ceasars and chicken nuggets maybe a couple few select things outside of that. But we would go to the store and buy like 10 bags of chips and they would disappear over night it seemed. So the first time being accused of not feeding the kids is back when my ex was really working hard on brainwashing Joey. She gave him a damn phone knowing he got like 3-4 detentions within like a 2 weeks time period and tells him to hide it in his pants and then belittled basically everything that he had and compared it to one of the other kids. Well we had a party/get together coming up so naturally we go to the store and buy a bunch of different pops, chips and snacks she gets Joey to take pictures of it all when we had it all sat out and says we have all the food in the house hidden.. my ex brainwashed the hell out of him with literally every text they sent back and forth. The brain washing went even further because by this point she has her parents and all of her family convinced that I am a evil s**tty father. Not only that but thanks to my Father's wife... s**t only ever got worse. She couldn't have kids of her own so she has to be involved no matter what the conditions are or how it effects the kids. But that's another story... my question is how do other parents handle the whole food control crap to where it works out but your kids can't spin it to where your abusive..?

So... I've been thinking and surely I can't be the only parent that has been accused of abusing your children by either a split "parent" or even by your own child??? I know I started all kinds of s**t when I was younger because I was pi**ed I got what I deserved! Unfortunately both of my gma's have passed but as a adult looking back I wish I could thank them both for that ass whoopin's and tons of soap I got to eat. I still have the foul vulgar mouth but those times I cried because my ass felt like it was on fire... that s**t in my opinion is the best thing to put my ass on the right path. I didn't remotely learn my damn lesson for one hell of a long time. And it wasn't just my gma's back then it didn't matter who's kid you were, you needed a ass whoopin by God you got a ass whoopin. I remember my Aunt Karen Snyder coming after me several times lmao. That bitch didn't f**k around. And for those of you that don't know... I say that with all the responses the world. Ask her your self! She will tell you she's a bitch.. although she likely won't admit it... she is what you think of when you hear bad bitch or bitch in charge.. lol I was a terrible damn kid. I was that kid didn't learn RESPECT until later in life. The point is that back then I was a as***le and didn't see it as helping me get where I needed to be. I was too young to remember the specific details and can't remember if children services got involved or not but I definitely caused a fued and I have to live with doing the dumb s**t I did when I was younger. Other than having the guilt.. I'm not "damaged" from getting my ass whopped when I needed it.

Now Unfortunately we live in this world where the judges, magistrates, counselors feel they should have the power to tell you how to raise your children. If you call the damn cops because your kid is out of control the first thing they ask is if you whooped their ass but then the legal system can lock you up for doing that very thing. However if your kid steals a car and runs people over or does some crazy illegal thing they look at the parent and the parents can be held responsible. I don't know about anyone else but it seriously seems like the courts are interfering with our rights to parent our children? Am I wrong? My wife and I have been accused of practically anything and everything a person can imagine. So what my honest hopes are to actually get some of the actual facts out there and let people hear/read my side of things. Over the years I have always known my ex was and is running her mouth to who ever will listen to her BS stories so that she can play the victim. When I say play the victim... let me tell you! For YEARS she has been telling the same lame ass lies to her parents, her brother and his wife, every single guy she has been with and everything else. She now collects some form of social security because she has mental disabilities, lives out of state and all she does is try to turn kids against me.. the sad part is that I'm sure she has her family and "friends" and whoever she is with at the moment fully convinced that I am just evil and that's what the problem is. So I am really kinda hoping Rick Montell and Lisa Montell catch wind of this so they can know more facts about how things have been going as well as whoever else assumes they know the situation based on what they have been told... all that said I plan on making a few more posts with specific details that I have been accused of with hopes of getting anyone else's opinions of how they handle things. Thanks if you stuck around to read this and I will be back real soon.

You'd be surprised at how many times a man sits in his car, on his bed, in the bathroom, in the living room and holds in his tears because he’s so stressed or lost or confused or hurt or ready to give up...But when he shows his face again he looks perfectly fine, unbothered and he still manages to smile and go about his business like nothing happened... Men are some of the most resilient, overlooked, and in the mind underappreciated to go through so much…Can I speak to your spirit for a second? You are the glue that holds everything and everyone together, your very presence is power, when you speak it resonates and yet your silence is deafening... in all that you go thru as you fight for not only who you are but who you are striving to be, just know I See You!! If you're a man and you're reading this I just wanna say I Love you and I appreciate you!!

When you can't win the day, just keep winning the moment and know that I see you!! It starts from the inside out!!!

Stay strong Brothers

Up to this point my posts have been more focused on the negative and bad sides of my life story.... I feel too many people are caught up in what people might think or say and censor their lives. I know I have had my faults and I'm no where near perfect BUT... I am not afraid of my faults. I will own them and grow from my mistakes. I will say that I have been going thru the hardest s**t but what today's post is a out is the positive things that keep me going and helps me make it thru all the bulls**t.

Melissa Gueulette (my wifey) has been by my side thru pretty much it all. Not only has she been a amazing wife, friend and mother... she has unfortunately had to go thru some pretty f**ked up s**t her self. I still remember the day I told her I love her! Yeah it might not have been the romantic situation or anything like that but my grandma was passing away and every afternoon after work and everything else we went up to hospice to be with her. I looked at her and saw ALL of her heart by the way she was trying to help take care of my gma and help me hold it together. I remember I looked over at her and knew that she was special. There is actually a pretty funny story about how we first met but save that story for another time. Over the years we have been thru ALOT together! Another extremely cool and awesome thing is that she brought me another daughter!! I may not have been there for her birth but I will forever and always be there for the rest. The weird thing is that I definitely don't EVER consider my self a "step" parent. To anyone that knows me you all know she is MY daughter!
Then there is my son Landen. Me and that kid have ALWAYS been extremely close. As a parent I have always tried to do what is best and right for all of my kids. Unfortunately there was actually one time I remember having a pretty heated heart to heart with him. He came home from his moms and had a major attitude and just was acting sooo different. Apparently his mother tried the brainwashing BS she has always done on him and I had to set him straight and kinda prove to him that I wasn't bulls**ting him. Besides that tho, he has actually done extremely well with how he handles everything. He has his own phone, his own Facebook and plenty of ways to keep in touch or get ahold of whoever he wants. I will say that I do feel very bad for him in so many ways because NO child should have to go thru the stuff these kids have. But I will say that yeah he is my son but he is also literally my best friend! I enjoy ANY time we are able to go camping, fishing and just hang out together. He truly has a HUGE heart and for me... he is my purpose. Yeah I am in a pain that I don't know if anyone out there can understand because of my older 2 children and even my family BUT I know that I no matter what cannot let the pain and darkness take over because I can't let him down. Although I can say that this page will give a pretty clear picture of my dealings with my ex, I can still say that it isn't fair for any child to go without a father OR a mother. He has made the choice on his own to have nothing to do with his actual mother. Although it's comforting that he considers my wife as his actual mom, despite everything I just wish his actual mom had her s**t together and could actually be a real mother...

These are the people that keep me going. I often think it's kinda unfair for them to have to settle for a lesser version of me but I am actually working to be better in ways that I can. Love you guys!

Me and the boys...

Yelp...

Man... for being so abused it sure looks like a pretty big smile on her face to me...

So here we have a pretty good picture. Let's see if anyone notices...

Figured I would share a pic of the kids minus Joey...

Why let those that don't deserve it have a good weekend..? :/

This one is a throw back... this is back when she did the same s**t with my son. Constantly checked in on me thru him and degraded everything we did for him.

😂🤣 oops guess I wasn't supposed to have this stuff...

For those that have any doubts this one is a amazing read!?! Smfh

Figure I would go ahead and start sharing a little bit of information at a time.. your more than able to read for your self but I decided to share this one for a few reasons. My kids attend the Bloom Carroll school district and want to make it clear that I am not at all trying to attack a student or cause any issues for them at all which is why I won't mention last names but I will say that if your son or daughter are friends with this person on their mother you definitely might want to keep your kids safe and away from those type of people. If this sounds like it could effect you or your children feel free to message me and I can tell you more details. Also I find it funny how a mother can even suggest this type of s**t. How in the hell can any of that be good for ANY child?!? Please feel free to like and share.

Down time at work kinda sucks. Yeah I can multitask and try taking care of other things while I am just sitting and waiting but it also gives your mind time to think and for me that usually leads to over thinking. I've decided that I will use this time to make a slightly different post. Unfortunately I often times feel as if it is wrong for me to even have a good day or for me to be doing ok. I find my self dwelling on the past and the things that I hold close to my heart like my kids. I have pretty much pushed anyone and everyone out of my life because either I don't need the added drama or unfortunately I don't want to be their drama. But today I want to talk about some of the actual good things that keep me going and I care about more than anything in life. MY KIDS...
Yes I have a total of 4 children. I have 2 of them that no longer live with me unfortunately which I can guarantee I will be discussing alot over most of my posts. However I still have 2 that live with me. Unfortunately they are off and on under attack by outside people in the form of accusations and such. Bella is my youngest. She is EXTREMELY smart, she is caring, has a big heart, has no problems making friends no matter where she goes. Any time she takes on a new challenge she doesn't just do the task but goes the extra mile to push her self to always do more or do better. For instance she is in accelerated classes in school, she has been a Cheerleader for several years. I have personally seen her put so much effort into all of her different Cheerleader duties and likes rising to all of the challenges. She definitely is stronger than she thinks! As it is with most teenagers... she spends a good deal in her room but overall she continues to make me proud. My son Landen is not just my son! Without a single doubt I would say he is my best friend. He also does really well in school. He really loves riding dirtbikes, working in the garage, hanging out with his friends, gaming and so many other things. The kids has such a compassionate heart and cares for others, he enjoys helping others and his eyes are open to everything this world has to offer. He has been thru ALOT of stuff that no child should every have to with regards to his mother and siblings but despite all of it he keeps his head held high and is positive about most everything. Lately some people have been trying to put words in his mouth and assuming how he feels which is shameful. I can say that hanging out with him makes me not really want to do anything else. I am extremely excited to see where life takes him! He has shown interest in learning how to weld so we got a nice welding setup at the house and we have started a few smaller projects which he really seems to be really good at. These two kids really have no idea how good they make me feel and how much the give me the will to continue on each day. I love them with all my heart and always will!

As far as my other 2 kids go... I know their mother has spent most of their lives trying to brainwash them as much as she possibly can. Their mom already brainwashed my other son a while back which resulted in him not living with me anymore but the sad fact is that he doesn't even live with his mother either. He lives with my ex's parents! Which if that doesn't show people that this kid/court/custody battle bulls**t is purely about coming after me and not about the kids then I don't know what will. I miss him every single day and I actually been keeping a journal of all the things I would say if I actually was allowed to have a relationship with him. Not a day goes by that I don't hurt from not being able to see him. I'm pushing and working to change that tho. And finally my oldest daughter... it's funny how things change. Maddison was ALWAYS extremely close to me since birth! Even when she was a baby she would constantly cry non stop but when I picked her up she would all the time fall asleep on my chest and laugh. I still remember ALL of them days. After the divorce the courts pretty much gave me custody. They word things differently but that's basically what it was. Their mom could not stand that! I had a good support system and was doing my absolute best to raise the kids the best I knew how. I never tried to restrict any of them from being able to have relationships with ALL of their family. Sadly the only thing most of their mom's side of the family was interested in was bashing every single thing I would do. The kids absolutely could not have a healthy and good relationship with their mom without having ill feelings towards my self. When I was fortunate to meet my wife... things drastically changed. Their mom wanted to bash everything that either of us would do, forced them to sit at tables for hours on end until they would tell her things going on in our house. She would tell them all these stories that wasn't true and did whatever she could do to put any kind of wedge between me and my kids. The thought of my wife raising our kids literally made her go crazy and I'm talking admitted to hospital kinda crazy... over the years we have been accused over and over again of abusing our children and each time it had to be proven that we weren't bad parents. Ironically the last time we went thru court both Maddison and Landen had to do a in camera interview with the magistrate at the court house. Each of them stated they wanted nothing to do with their mom and wanted to stay permanently at my home. Things didn't start going south until Maddison started doing things that she knew she shouldn't have been doing. But at the same time started rebuilding a relationship with her mother which I have copies of their communications. It is absolutely clear that the objective was to shatter Maddisons life just to hurt me. Her mother even went as far as discussing how to f**king kill myself and my wife. I know as a fact that Maddison has no interest in having a relationship with me because her mom made damn good and sure of that. Naturally that's why we are yet again in court. However what scares me the most is that Maddison had a good head on her shoulders, she had life plans and goals and dreams and all because her mom was promising a Disney land type of lifestyle... she gave it ALL up! Just before the last court BS ended Maddison had came to us and said that her mom's boyfriend at the time tried "inappropriate" things with her. Maddisons mother's response was calling Maddison a lying bitch! Like can you even believe that s**t?!?!?? So I think it kinda goes to show EXACTLY how manipulative their mother is.. what's going to happen when their shared hatred for me wears off and they have absolutely nothing in common besides that? I just hope with every fiber of my being that both of my older kids wake up and see things with their own eyes and before I'm gone. For clarity I don't mean that in a sinister way I'm simply saying that we aren't on this earth forever..
That said... if this message ever got to them all I would want them to know is that I want them to have the help they need, be healthy and happy and most importantly I would definitely want them to know that no matter what I miss them both every day and I will ALWAYS love them with all of my heart. I would also want them to know that just because I have decided to start telling my truth, my story... doesn't mean I'm doing so to bash you or make things worse off. I simply am on this journey so that I know without a doubt the truth is actually out there and maybe stop people from being able to judge me based off of things that are being said that aren't true. Again... I will always love ALL of you kids with all of my heart!