Unheard Perspectives

What seems far away is now so very close,
Now every single thing matters so much ,
That I simply can’t afford to mess it up .
It is my life has been building up to this moment ,
And now I am just so fed up of it ,
A single mistake will trash my future
Reducing it to a fragment of what It should be,
A percentage on a paper will define me ,
My pocket and my place in the world ,
You just have to be prim and proper ,
I keep wondering ,confused and wilted,
The thoughts swirling inside my mind ,
The disparity between wants and needs
Regret and confusion takes over
Like leaving your love in the last train
You imagine things which could simply not be true
And the heave a sigh where the sadness escapes.
Only to come back again.
I hide behind the heaps of fake smiles and laughs
Never really showing my true self
Which is broken , sad and tired
I’m in a delirium and
No , I am not okay

Artwork and caption - *ta_0322