Alison Aicard

With help of AI i wrote this poem. Its about my spirit and a man.
His aura is faint, a shadowed spark,
His psyche’s dance, erratic and stark.
Chaos in his energy, a storm's decree,
Brings anxiety, a storm roiling inside of me.

An weakend soul , a truth so bare,
A realization that burdens me with care.
The baby's future, a path so clear,
Yet helpless, I stand, my worries sincere.

Insecurity not mine alone,
But part of an experience I've come to own.
A thin line of projection, a delicate seam,
An unhealthy spirit, a twisted dream.

It feels so unstable, a nauseous plight,
A sadness deep within the night.
Why must love entwine with such pain,
A torment unending, a soul's cruel chain?

Her, too, with a spleen undefined,
Will face the same storm, the same anxious bind.
Society's blindness, a veil so thick,
Ignoring the pain, the heart’s tragic trick.

Systems of ignorance, their masks so clear,
Drugs and labels, solutions mere.
Support is scarce, on the cliff’s edge they tread,
Voices unheard, with no path ahead.

To warn them of peril, ignored and shunned,
The sadness deepens, respect undone.
His choice is known, no heed to my plea,
A belief in the known, dismissing what could be.

The pain of my struggle, so hard to mend,
To touch their hearts, to make amends.
Did I hope to save them from their plight?
Or merely dream of a glimmering light?

Sin merely means without love

"The great joke about self-hatred is that you hate the wrong person. You have no idea who you are."

Ra Uru Hu

If you always do what sounds good, looks good, or pleases other people that doesn't make you good, agreeable, an empath or loved. It makes you unpredictable and volatile. The most loving thing you can do for the world is take some time to just do whatever you feel like, whenever you feel like, it for however long it takes for you to understand what it is you want and need.

You must know what it means to be selfish so that you can choose to not be that in an unhealthy or extreme way. Why do you think that this is an essential stage in child development?

Narcissists aren't selfish self-serving people. They are people who don't know what they want and need. And if you've ever been in a relationship with one its because you both didn't know what you want or how to get your needs met. This means that by just getting out of the relationship you are not free. You still have to heal that within yourself.

People expect that just because we are adults that we automatically know how communicate and be respectful to others. When we are dealing with childhood wounding we can't expect our adult skills to save us. When there's any type of stress or conflict what you are getting in that momentum is a toddler. And the worst relationships are where you have two adult toddlers fighting to be heard.

Just wanted to share this bit of a conversation I had with my dear friend.

The first and most impactful relationship we experience in life is with our mother. This foundational bond sets the stage for how we navigate all subsequent relationships. If this relationship lacks the essential elements of love and support, the effects can be profound and enduring. Many individuals I work with have struggled due to early maternal relationships that fell short of providing the nurturing they needed.

In therapy circles, there's a humorous nod to the idea that "it's all the mother's fault," though blame isn't the goal. Rather, it's about understanding how our initial experiences shape our interactions with others throughout life. Often, we unconsciously seek to fulfill unmet needs through other relationships, sometimes without even realizing it.

Even if your mother was caring and supportive, it might not have been in the precise way that resonated with your individual needs. This nuanced dynamic is crucial because it forms the basis of our emotional blueprint.

I firmly believe that these experiences are not accidental but rather part of a larger design that guides our personal and collective growth. Addressing these early wounds can lead to profound transformations. Life becomes more harmonious, relationships deepen in love and understanding, and inner peace and happiness become more accessible. Ultimately, you can embody more of your true self, liberated from the constraints of past conditioning. This journey is about healing and evolving towards a more authentic and fulfilling existence.

I just want to take a moment to really appreciate the complete transformation I have experienced in my life regarding my health.

I was walking my dogs today thinking,Im finally healed!

Two years ago I was taking 90 mg of Adderall every day and Ambien every night. I was tired all the time and my sleep was terrible. I honestly couldnt see how my life would ever be any different but my intuition told me it was possible and to keep trying.

The journey seems like a blur in retrospect. I mean, i wasnt "unhealthy". I ate well ( so I thought), i was active ( i forced myself to be), and the doctors certainly had zero clue as to what was making me so tired. But i remember being soooo tired all the time , like i was on high doses of va**um. I couldnt think straight, work, stay awake, nothing.

By age 30 I was finally able to live a semi-functiinal life and that was only because I was taking Adderall. And yet I was still tired. And moody. And physically weak.

Since doctors were of no help I had to take matters into my own hands and at one point I almost went to medical school just so I could find out what was wrong with me.

I learned everything I could about the body and what could be going on. I learned everything I could about medicine, metaphysics, natural healing, neurology, NLP, karmic lessons, you name it, it was part of my research.

It would be nice to say that I cured myself but really I just found someone who could help. And let me tell you that was not easy!! It was a combination of the internet and the doctors who basically have gone rogue that laid the breadcrumbs for me to follow, as well as my dog getting sick and my determination to heal her. Long story short I found Dr Sam Shay who ordered a bunch of test through independent labs which revealed a list of imbalances that together taxed my immune system which depleted my adrenals and threw off my hormones.

He prescribed a bunch of supplements to rebalance and kill infections naturally. It all cost me a pretty penny, more than some would spend on a car but there is nothing more important in your life than your health!

I feel like this is start of my life, stay tuned......

There are people that cant afford housing.
There are people that would like help around the house.

If only there was some sort of solution...

Cooperative living has always been a challenge for humans. Why is this? Aren't we suppose to be smarter than animals?🤨

So what have we come up with so far?
Option 1: The family: a group of people living together, contributing what they can. Pros- more hands are better than two, implied commitment, and companionship. Cons- source of trauma, poor relational skills create tension.
Option 2: Live alone and outsource everything. Pros: reduced stress, things can be just how you like them Cons: requires money, life focus becomes about acquiring more money and less on relationships, spiritually unfulfilling.
Option 3: live separate lives under the same roof (roomates, some marriages) Pros. Less financial stress, companionship, share in household chores. Cons: not an efficient use of energy and resources.

From what I see, people think they know what they want and they are very insistent that it happen the way they think it should. This leads to nothing but power struggles.

From the home, to the workplace, to the way society is run all we have is power struggles and idiocracy. People are not doing what they are designed to do, enjoy doing, or even contributing to a better world. They are just recreating what doesnt work. And they are teaching others to so the same.

I look around and EVERYONE is pushing boulders up hills. Some becuase they choose to and others because they are at the mercy of the ones who set up the conditions for that to be the only way.

The thing with stress and overwhelm is that we rarely recognize it until its too late. That is by design. Every species has that built into its being. Its a survival mechanism.

But we are not meant to merely survive, we are here to be aware. Some may call that thriving because when you can get beyond survival, that is when you can really thrive.

So many people have allowed themselves to be burdened with so many stressors in their health, mental wellbeing, and within their environment. And its almost as if you are seen as abnormal if you are not living at your breaking point. I often feel like the people around me are trying to get me to be stressed and anxious about things.

The thing about stress is that we are designed to be able to ignore it so that we survive. When it comes to health, by the time you are diagnosed with an illness you are in critical condition, your body has been stressed and out of balance for decades and can no longer compensate.

The same is true for mental issues. That is why childhood trauma often becomes a real issue for adults. Everyday stress which doesnt get dealt with will compound on top of that original stress and lead to an inevitable breaking point.

As I move around in life, in and out of other peoples homes I see so many stressors that people dont recognize because they have become accustom to them, so then when one small inconvenience occurs there is an overreaction.

It might be worth considering a coach to help identify blindspots in your life and psyche. No one should be living their life as a ticking time bomb. That is certainly not thriving, regardless of the material success you may have.

One thing my painfully difficult life has brought me is the ability to truly understand anyone and their perspective.

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Is it any wonder why people don’t know who they are?

All around us we have people, programs, institutions etc. showing us how to be like them.

It’s much more difficult to find people who will show you how to be more like YOU and teach you how to be successful as YOU .

Absolutely! When we are sick we need more sleep. Sometimes we don’t know we are sick, as was the case with me my whole life. I knew something was wrong but doctors couldn’t find anything (not surprised😖). I use to sleep 12-16 hours a day💤. Now it’s 7-8 hours. I won’t use an alarm because they are disruptive. I prioritize sleep!!

💤🧠Sleep is self-regulated. Self-regulation implies that complex adaptive intelligence will try to find a way to acquire what it feels is important with or without our help.

Each of us will have a specific target range of sleep. This target range isn't the same for everyone and it isn't the same under all circumstances.

Curious? We break it all down in our latest podcast: https://neurohacker.com/weight-loss-neurohacker-science-team-complexity-science

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Picking grass to feed my friends ❤️

Happy Emotional Needs Awareness Day!

A thought on emotional needs within a social species…..

In the intricate dance of existence, I've come to realize the profound impact of healing, extending beyond mere physical restoration into the realms of emotional support. There's something incredibly transformative about having someone by your side, understanding and supporting you. It's not always about grand gestures; often, the simple acknowledgment that you're not alone can be enough.

Reflecting on my own experiences, I've found that sharing vulnerabilities, such as childhood wounds, can be a powerful act of self-expression. Voicing the impact of past hurts and seeking understanding from those I care about has been a way to connect on a deeper level.

From my perspective, the root of many health and mental health issues lies in the subtle, everyday traumas we inflict upon one another. The way we treat individuals who haven't had their emotional needs met as children can perpetuate a cycle of seeking attention elsewhere, leading to misunderstandings and emotional discord.

Rather than placing the burden of self-worth solely on individuals, I've started considering the idea of fulfilling each other's emotional needs. It's not about coddling or enabling, but rather offering genuine understanding and support. Instead of withholding compliments or avoiding those in pain, I'm exploring the power of empathetic responses and providing what someone may have missed in their past.

In navigating relationships, I'm learning to approach boundaries with a newfound perspective. Rather than setting them hastily, I'm focusing on deep introspection, understanding my own emotions and stress levels before expressing limits. Communicating boundaries with compassion, I aim to avoid rejection and foster understanding, realizing that honoring my needs doesn't have to come at the expense of others.

In the tapestry of psychology, spirituality, and self-help, I'm beginning to see these concepts not as rigid doctrines but as flexible tools. Every situation demands a unique, empathic response, allowing for a more organic and dynamic approach to interpersonal connections.

As I navigate this journey of self-discovery and relationships, I'm coming to understand that our collective well-being depends on recognizing the interconnectedness of all individuals. It's about finding a delicate balance between self-care and compassion for others, acknowledging that each piece contributes to the shared picture of our existence

Did my New moon intentions, and….

Not really, just thought the meme was too cute.

To be awake and aware, and to survive, you must be fully present to the moment and authentically yourself.

There is not a right order of operations for your path in life.

There is not a single trajectory.

Many people would agree this is true yet when trying to help someone else navigate their life they give them their map rather than helping the other person read their own map.

We are not all starting in the same place or desiring to reach the same destination or to see the same sights.

Who’s with me?

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Awareness is the first step in Transcending Dysfunction.
Not just in your personal lives but in the collective as well.