Hope for Nikolai

"Enough! I want to go home! I don't understand it...What's happening to me? What are they doing to me? What are all this machines and why do they make so much noise? "
My sweet Nikolai is only 4 years old, he is so small. But he speaks, he understands... Nikolai has always been smart, too much for his own good.
He asks me so many questions, and I stay speachless. What can I tell him? He is only a child, I can't tell him his life is in danger, or how I am going crazy trying to figure it out a way to pay for his treatments.
"Mama, what is cancer? Why everyone is saying it and you make a face...is it a bad world?" - How do you answer to that?
He tells me "I want to go back to my kindergarten. To my house!" - Me too my dear, that's all I could think to myself.
I have no other choice but to try to speak to your heart, good people,
My Nikolai is only 4 years old, cancer is stronger than anything. I can't sit and do nothing, this means simply surrender to cancer, letting it have what it wants.
Please, any donation helps us give him the care that will bring him back to life.
I beg you, be with us!
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Today my Nikolai underwent a very difficult treatment.😔
Before they took him for treatment he decided that today he wanted to get dress in ordinary clothes. Not of the hospital gown. It gave him like an injection of energy and a reminder of the once-before-life we had before cancer. He got dressed all by himself and he was so proud of it. I knew that in a few minutes he would be told to change into the sad hospital`s clothes, but I gave him a few moments of happiness amidst all this madness.
but then, he came across a mirror in the bathroom. I will not forget how he shouted: "Mama, what happened to me???"😰
It was the first time he saw himself, no hair and the yellowish face. It was quite shocking for him.
Everyone who was there and saw it had to wipe away a tear. There is no way to explain what it is like to see your child in this horrible reality.
But somehow, it made me want even more to keep going on my fight to save my son, to do everything in my power to bring my Nikolai back to the life he deserves, to the life of a regular 4-year-old boy.
Please, I need you with me in this war. Together we can defeat cancer. Show it that we are stronger than it.
I beg you, help us stop Nikolai's suffering and bring him back to the life he loved and misses.🙏
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"At least you have your health."
People are used to say this phrase, without giving it much importance.
Only those from whom the health has been taken away from them, can truly know its importance.
Health sounds to us like the most obvious thing ever. I know, I used to feel like that too.
Until cancer came to my Nikolai and showed me that our whole life would be put on hold because of health.
Nikolai was an amazing baby, everyone used to fall in love with him, a child who was just a joy to be around.
but then, suddenly he's laying in the hospital bed. Weak, yellow skinned, yellow eyes and begging for help.
It's not something you can get over it easilly, seeing your child lying in despair in bed; Cancer brings with it horrible moments of hell. The hardest of them were the moment I heard my son's diagnoses and the moment I was told his body had rejected the transplant.
My world fell apart, I was certain that we'll go through the transplant and then be done with this cancer.
And now, my Nikolai is sick with such a dangerous disease that can take it away from me at any moment, this cancer is just waiting for an opportunity. For a moment of weakness.
And my hands are tied, there is nothing I can do except pray that my Nikolai will be able to touch your heart, that you will help me save him.
Please, Nikolai must undergo an expensive treatment to recover from this cancer.
help me! Don't let cancer take my Nikolai!
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