Words by JennyG

I’ve been making excuses for you
Ashamed of the things you do
Love can really make a girl blind
Still in the emptiness I manage to find
All the good that you have done
The love I felt when we began
The memories of you and me
The dream of what we could be

But you just break me down
Pushing my love into the ground
You give just enough so I hold on
Things don’t go your way so I’m what’s wrong
You just want to make believe pretend
While I look like a fool trying to defend

And I’ve been making excuses for you
Ashamed of the things you do
Love can really make a girl blind
Still in the emptiness I manage to find
All the good that you have done
The love I felt when we began
The memories of you and me
The dream of what we could be

Just know that this is all on you
And I did what I had to do
It’s so damn hard moving on
But I know I can be strong
No this time you can’t stay
You’ve set a price I just won’t pay

I’m done making excuses for you
So ashamed of the things you do
Love can really make a girl blind
Now my worth is all I’ve left to find
All the good that I have done
The healing that I’ve begun
The strength I found in me
The dreams I deserve to see
It’s taken time but I’m finally free

Can’t Take The Beating

You’re standing at my door
Asking me to try once more
Giving me the same old lines
Reminding me of better times
You say you still see love in my eyes
But you don’t know the tears I’ve cried

My heart can’t take the beating
I’m so done with lies and cheating
And it’s best you get to leaving
Because my heart can’t take the beating

You say you wouldn’t hurt me again
But you don’t know where my heart has been
Every time you changed your mind
Found something better and left me behind
Taught me to play the game
So let me tell you now
That I don’t feel the same

My heart can’t take the beating
I’m so done with lies and cheating
And it’s best you get to leaving
Because my heart can’t take the beating

I’ve put up walls that you can’t climb
No baby you’ll never get inside
There ain’t a thing for you to say or do
I’ve done what I needed to getting over you
Let me be clear that we’re through

My heart won’t take the beating
I’m so done with lies and cheating
So you best get to leaving
It won’t be me that you’re deceiving
And my heart won’t take the beating

In The Dark

Ever been so hopeless
You just sit there crying
Ever lost your focus
That there’s no point in trying
That empty feeling that you get
When all you find is regret

Well I’ve been here for so long
A part of me has up and gone
Someone said they knew my heart
But they haven’t seen it in the dark
No they haven’t seen it in the dark

I’m about to lose my mind
In this day to day grind
I let the hurt get inside my head
Some days I can’t even get out of bed
I surrender to the demons within me
I may look strong but I’m really weak

And I’ve been here for so long
A part of me has up and gone
Someone said they knew my heart
But they haven’t seen it in the dark
No they haven’t seen it in the dark

Live for the future they say
But I don’t see a better way
How do you face the day
And chase the blues away
When every choice is a mistake
And you can’t ever catch a break
There’s a longing deep inside of me
And a knowing that it can never be

Well I’ve been here for so long
A part of me has up and gone
Someone said they knew my heart
But they haven’t seen it in the dark
No they haven’t seen it in the dark

Scattered pieces laying on the ground
Losing all control spiraling down
It’s hard to catch my breath
Chasing after what is left
Someone said they knew my heart
But they haven’t seen it in the dark
No they haven’t seen it in the dark

Let Him Remember

Let him remember how it used to be
The way he remembers it to be
Cause things weren’t always sweet
And he’ll be the one missing me

Slamming doors and walking out
Things he don’t want to talk about
All those late night calls
Punching holes into the walls
Let him get mad let him get sad
Cause he’s the one who let it get that bad

Angry words that used to hurt
Every girl that used to flirt
Those things don’t bother me now
I’ve moved past it all somehow
Even the good times don’t get to me
Everything about him is a distant memory

So let him remember how it used to be
The way he remembers it to be
Cause things weren’t always sweet
And he’ll be the one missing me

Yeahhhh making love out in the rain
The way I used to look at him that way
Let him remember my tender touch
Back when I used to be enough

I know I was the best he’s ever had
So let him be mad let him get sad
Cause he’s the one who let it all go bad
And let him remember how it used to be
The way he remembers it to be
Cause things weren’t always sweet
And he’ll be the one missing me

Brokenness hidden by a smile
Give an inch and they’ll take a mile
Can’t blame them for what they don’t know
But sometimes feelings are too hard to show

So late at night when the sun goes down
You sit alone and in all the hurt you drown
And you wonder why it is they can’t see
They’re the reason that you weep

Promises of forever
Family sticks together
Still you feel unwanted and alone
And there’s no place that you belong

The kind of love they want to give
Is not a place that you want to live
You need a love that’s unconditional and free
No expectations of who they say you should be

So you hide the pain by this disguise
Hoping they don’t see it your eyes
Another joke at your expense
So you laugh and you just pretend

And late at night when the sun goes down
You sit alone and in all the hurt you drown
And you wonder why it is they can’t see
They’re the reason that you weep

They’ll say they are friends for life
Behind your back you don’t see the knife
Just another scar added to your heart
Hold it together so you don’t fall apart

Hide the brokenness with a smile
Give an inch they still take a mile
Can’t blame them for what they don’t know
But feelings are something you just can’t show

So late at night when the sun goes down
You sit alone and in all the hurt you drown
And you wonder why you even care
About those who are never there

I Want

I want you to lay your heart down beside mine
Not just for tonight but for all time
I want your touch to burn my skin
And reach my soul deep within
In your eyes I want to see the love you have for me
In your arms I want to know I’m safe and free

Too many times I’ve been let down by words
And there are days that it still hurts
So when you speak be kind but don’t lie
Don’t make me question the reasons why

I want your kiss to make my world stand still
Love me for me and promise you always will
I’ve never had faith in love before
But I want to believe you’ll never walk out that door

I want you to lay your heart down beside mine
Not just for tonight but for all time
I want your touch to burn my skin
And reach my soul deep within
In your eyes I want to see the love you have for me
In your arms I want to know I’m safe and free