Pinit Dreaming

Title: Fragmentation

keynotes:
- floating colourful stone fragments
- colorfully illuminated portal
- the person is taking steps towards the illuminated portal

Messages:
- Each of the colourful stones is the person’s life experiences, the mistakes, the hardships, the proud, the shameful, the detours etc, the person is leaving them floating as stepping stones for others
- because the fragments are part of the person’s life experiences, the person has the ability to pull them together to solidify as well as have them floating around. - symbolising how we are only big if we pull everything together if we push everything away, we are small

Title: Healer's Heart

keynotes:
- Calico cat in heart space
- tortoiseshell cat
- balance
- bush

Messages:
- the tortoiseshell cat is representing inner sight/intuition, protection as this is the ultimate sight that sees through the illusion
- the calico cat curled inside the heart space like a wheel transmuting/turning grief, guilt and shame into love, joy and peace
- the person is extremely focused to maintain the balance

Background:
I received part of this card’s image when I was doing Entrust, that partial image was called Lurking. After I started the card Ancestor, I laid in my bed experiencing heartache then my cat came and curled on top of my chest, she entered my heart space, I quickly entered healing state or maybe just asleep. She asked me to do this card first, it was going to be something called heart maybe cat heart. While I was listening to Spotify and I came across this song the vision became stronger, I checked the name of the song - Diamond Heart. So the actual name for this card is Healer’s Heart. Due to how segmented this card came together, I was doubting whether this is just a simple art instead of a part of the card deck, but now I know how powerful this card is.

In progress, Healer's heart

If something comes from me is not weird it is PROBABLY not from me

keynotes:
- pink fetus
- earth mother
- fern nest
- foliage

Messages:
- all babies regardless of species are born toward the earth, head first towards earth.
- in the fetus state, which for humans is 9 -10 months, if in this state the fetus is dreaming all the life path and gathering all the strength it needs for the next phase of life. This year 2020, it feels like we are thrown back to the fetus stage, re-contemplating the next phase of our life, our movement is restricted, everything is slowed down, but we can still dream and plan, making decision on the life we want after this “REBIRTH”.
- Mother earth is watching over us as we go through rebirth, her hope is for the fetus to inherit her beauties, her equality, her generosity, her love for all beings and her abundance.
- her right hand is holding the fetus feet, when we walk bare feet on earth we connect to her her heart pulsates when we touch
- her left arm is protecting the fetus’ head from external impact to reduce brainwashing from turning the development of the fetus to turn against her.

Background:
I didn’t receive this card until I finished Entrust, never thought I’d be asked to paint a fetus, since it hijacked the original planned card spot, it is very significant.

Title: entrust

keynotes:
- the green cushion is heart chakra green
- the red dress is root chakra red
- the red dress lady is entrusting a task to the lady standing
- they are the same person representing two aspects (action self and wisdom self)

Messages:
- the red dress lady is not handing her hand to the standing lady because she needs to stand up, she is comfortably sitting on her green cushion, she entrusts her actions to the standing lady.
- she is like a high priest channelling her messages to the standing lady (her action self)
- the standing lady holds the red lady hand, she trusts the red lady, she is confident and she is ready for action

Background:
A few months ago when I received this vision I honestly thought the standing person is a male, I received the title “entrust” I didn’t even know this word so I checked the dictionary. As I was rendering this card and doesn’t matter how I looked at the standing person she looked very feminine, so I realised, the red dress lady was never entrusting her voice to a male, she was entrusting her voice to herself.

Title: Surrender

keynotes:
- The bird is a Pheonix
- The person is naked
- Ground is burning

Messages:
- This card is all about rebirth and faith. I have never imagined surrender can be so extreme to the point of complete rebirth. If I time travelled to see the person I was 7 years ago, she would not even recognise me because at that time I did not believe people can go through transformations like this.

- Have the courage to undergo any kind of transformation, don't worry if you resist, when the process has started, you will resist so respect your feeling but also strength yourself to continue with the process. If you cry every day, hug yourself, because saying goodbye to every bit of your old self is worth your kindness and love. When you reach the point of you don't know who you are anymore, you won't care what mask you wear what clothes you wear, you will have only one focus and that is who you truly are, this is when you truly can see the light at the end of the dark tunnel.

- Be proud and demand the universe to send people and abundance to match your new vibration when you complete the transformation.

I lost a friend, I knew the day was coming, but I still took it hard, I couldn't bring myself to work on Tuesday, I rode all different buses just wanted to release this sadness, I cried on the bus and I saw this series of images, I decided to draw them for anyone else who is grieving loss of a friend.
This particular friend, when she found me, we shared the same belief, same value and same life vision. In the last few months, I became very different, we don't agree on anything anymore, I was upset and happy at the same, happy that I have pushed beyond but upset that I no longer come into agreement with this friend.
The loss of this friend is so significant, it is actually me saying goodbye to my old self, I treasure you and but I must keep going. A few weeks back I experienced a huge resistance, I knew the journey ahead is lonely, it will just be me and my guides until I arrive at the end of the dark tunnel where I will unite with the people who will walk with me for the next chapter of my life.

Excited for this Saturday, retouched my art Unmasking, should be print quality now, Can't wait to have it in my hands!

Title: the happiest day of the year
Author: Inner child
Theme: Receiving

When I decided to draw this picture in this style I thought I missed boxing day deadline anyway, may as well just finish it and tick the box. It only took 1 hour to do, the lines are not refined, the colouring looks fairly messy, very similar to something a child produces.

The more I look at this piece the more happier I felt. As an adult, I am not excited about Boxing Day, drawing this piece would trigger no feeling. But I know for certain as a child I would feel super excited about this day, probably waking up very early and not able to sleep the night before.

I decided to share this piece as it aligns with this page, although it isn't something I dream of at this age, it is something my inner child still dreams of.

Title: Thorn
I started painting this card a few weeks ago, the last few weeks were extremely emotionally turbulent, my right hand became partially paralysed, crying every day, feeling anger every day, I was stuck on this card, but I have released this trauma from childhood. Today is the day, I put a closure to this process.

Keynotes:
- The room is dark, the girl is partially undressed
- Two candles burning
- Thorn vine

Messages:
- This card is all about vulnerability, fear and the truth.
- We all have a side of ourselves that was hurt and only the extreme close people knows/sees. That side of us is extremely vulnerable. When anyone tries to touch this side, the thorned vine will grab them to attack both parties. It is a double-edged sword, protection and harm.

The story behind this card:
Earlier this year someone was willing to be hurt in order to help me remove this thorn vine. It was painful for me and I wasn't coping, I was aggressive and I couldn't help it. Eventually, this vine fell off and everything was restored. Later I was thinking about it and I realised, to heal this level of damage, there must be someone who is willing to be hurt. If this isn't love, I don't know what is.

Title: Unmasking
Received the vision in a different angle but due to my limited art skills, this is how I was able to paint it. The vision was super clear about the bright red jacket and yellow buttons. He is leaving the lonely hideout walking down the spiral stairway.

Keynotes:
- Red and yellow attracts a lot of attention, you can't hide anywhere in those colours,
- He isn't wearing shoes

Possible messages:
- Red and yellow are often related to royals, perhaps something he was very royal too has caused him grieves and he is leaving, he isn't leaving without his royalty, he is simply taking his royalty to somewhere else. We often get into thinking my royalty was betrayed and from today I will live with no royalty, but royalty is part of who we are, take it with us and find someone who is worthy of our royalty.
- My ancestors, in fact, my mother's grandma had tiny feet due to feet binding, force a child/teenager to wear tiny shoes which deforms their feet and instead of growing long it grows into a round shape. I always hated wearing shoes, the message here is likely freedom.

What's not on the image:
- what's on the end of the stairway
- how long is the stairway? is there light or is this stairway actually very dark
- what material is the mask, is it already cracked or is it becoming transparent?

One day I was feeling very down I walked around and ended sitting in the change room on the bench by the shower rooms. No one else was in the change room, no water was running, but it had enough water energy to help me. I sat there hiding from the world, suddenly the suppressed sadness started to surface, I cried - I released the sadness in the change room.

Supply all the energy back to ourself to generate light, then focus the light to pe*****te the darkness. Instead of being an ordinary light source, become laser light so our light can reach deeper into darkness.

"A light bulb when powered can light up a room, with enough focus light can turn into laser and break through any obsticles" - Venerable Master Chin Kung

"Ordinary light is divergent and incoherent whereas laser light is highly directional and coherent." - scientific quote

When I was sending distance healings to someone who was angry, I tried to connect but was guided to take off my jacket and put in on the person, then the vision stopped. It has been a few days but I finally have the artwork finished. The room in the art is based on my childhood's room and the warm feeling of mum covering my body with a jacket.