Losin' It with Tabbs

Officially down 25.
How? Well, I stopped stuffing my face and got off my butt. No gimmicks.

I kicked ass today! ♡

Sleep is supposed to be one of the most important parts of health. However, I maybe get 5hrs a night. Today, I woke up and then went back to bed and it was still "poor" sleep. I practice good sleep hygiene, I've had studies and I just have insomnia. I refuse to take sleeping aides because I need to hear my insulin pump alarms. I know exercising will help a little but any suggestions outside of melatonin and sleep apnea?

I'm not hitting protein goals so, I'm now blending cold brew, protein powder, heavy cream, 2 sweet n lows and ice for my morning coffee. SO FRIGGEN GOOD!! 5g net carbs, 30g protein, 230 calories

Day 6
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SW:286
CW:280
GW:165

I find it hard to meet my fat and protein amounts. I have NEVER been a big protein person. It will be my goal the next 2 weeks to get that protein in while I start to implement chubby lady chair exercises 🤣😂 maybe I just need to add a SF whey option to my day. Hmmmm

A thai inspired keto meal.

2 Chicken tenders cooked in thai curry seasoning and coconut oil, served over steamed colored cauliflower, topped with a SF peanut sauce and cucumber bell pepper salad.

9g net carbs, 471 calories

SF Peanut sauce Ingredients: peanut butter, soy sauce, water, sesame oil, chilli paste, sweetener. Season and water to taste and consistency. 2 tablespoons is 3-5g net carb (dependent on type of peanut butter)

10pm after the kids are finally asleep. 😂🤣

Day 2 off to a good start. The family eats whatever during the day but they have agreed to eating what I need to eat for dinner. ♡♡

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Carb Manager Username: UpbeatKale728349

Be my friend!! And according to this app, that's how much I've ballooned in 3 years... 🤷🏼‍♀️🤦🏼‍♀️

Well, here I am. I'm 41, and my BMI is the same. I never imagined I would see such a number when I stepped on the scale. It's been a rough couple years and like every high functioning career woman, wife and mother, I swallowed my stress. LITERALLY! I made the sneaking stops in drive-through, hid junk in drawers. Ate food in the pantry in the middle of the night with only the dogs staring up at me.

I've always stayed busy and felt I could do anything I put mind to. And honestly, I have. Growing up with not a lot, food was something we just ate and when we got our hands on something good, I devoured it. Food and I created this codependent relationship when I was in elementary school. I was ahead of my class, had weird tics and generally just tried to avoid people. Kids could be mean and I was weird. But, when teachers or grandma feels empathy, a sweet treat was something offered to me to bring me joy.

I love food. I love making it, eating it, watching people make it. Everywhere I have ever traveled, I remember the food. I had not been to Washington DC for 15 years and all I wanted was an giant egg roll and duck sauce from a truck in downtown. But, food has a dark side too. He's like the friend that you think is just trying to cheer you up, but is slowly consuming who you are as a person. You start to find that it's what you seek when happy, sad, stressed.

Out of a pandemic with multiple foster kiddos, I delt with compassion fatigue the only way I knew how. Cupcakes at 3am, bacon burgers and fries. Grand BBQs and dinners. I could get lost in my head while I cook. Think about life and take that time for me. I was trying to suffer in silence, because I'm suppose to be a strong woman. Women aren't weak, we can do everything a man can do plus more. I can have the career and the kids and save the damn world right?!

But, little did I know, I buried my feelings under 104 pounds of fat. That as I grew, so did the number of clothes in my closet I couldn't wear. I've resorted to sweat pants and 4 shirts that still fit.

Several months ago however, I went to a doctor and we got my anxiety on track. I just assumed I'd get mentally better and I'd just want to hop back to diet and exercise. Well, 3 failed diets later, haven't lost a pound. Still too big, feeling defeated and honestly apathetic to my body.

About 2 weeks ago, I found out I could apply to be part of a stem cell infusion trial program to cure type 1 diabetes. I haven't been so excited in a long time. This life changing disease could be gone. I could get rid of the insulin pump. I could feel normal again after all these years. HOWEVER, yesterday they told me, I have to have a BMI between 18-30. I was devastated.

So, here I am. Again. This can't be another failed attempt. This can't be a journey I half jump into and crumble 8 days in. I need to do this. I need to be real. The good, bad and ugly of it. No filters, no "good angles."

I haven't really left my house in a year. I've been ashamed of who I've become. My social anxiety is high and well, I'm terrified of what people may say about me. I still feel like that weird chubby 8 year old with tics on the playground. Maybe that's my demon to ultimately win the war with, but this battle I can take on. I've always been able to do anything I put my mind to. I can do this, right?

I have no idea how long it will take. I'm so afraid of failing again, but I need to try. I have to for a cure. I have to for my family, my kids, my friends, my work and MYSELF.

I have no idea if anyone will read this, and honestly it's just my declaration. I'm putting it out there in the universe so it can manifest into fruition. If you've made it this far in my story, thank you for taking the time. I hope you're not in the same journey but if you are, you're not alone. I'm here too, and, well, I think we've got this.

SW: 286
CW: 286
GW: 165

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SF Teriyaki Salmon over portobello cauliflower rice, cucumber salad and a full artichoke. And yeah, it was bomb ♡♡ 14g net carbs, 9g fat, 28g protein, 348 calories

Food from the last couple days and calorie count. Keep in mind these are smaller plates. I just feel diet food doesn't have to taste "like the ground." 😂 I did go over my 1200 calorie goal today, but, I got in a few bike cycling sessions to get me back down to goal. 🚲💪

Dinner tonight: 3 whole chicken wings (cut), cooked in coconut oil, topped with franks red hot and a small amount of bbq sauce, with a low calorie homemade waffle and SF syrup.

Lunch Yesterday: mushroom cauliflower rice cooked in coconut oil with seasoning, with pan cooked shrimp with lime coconut milk and red curry

Dinner last night: sweet potatoe warp with egg and bacon and a swip of mayo, with cottage cheese and tomato

Breakfast today and yesterday: pumpkin, PB2 and lite coconut milk soaked Oats with cinnamon and apple.

"But if you replace the junk food with just broccoli and water? Look the f**k out friends and family — this one’s coming in bloated and pi**ed."

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I went over at dinner, but my over all for the day is at 1315 for food and Fitbit days I burned 254 calories on my 20 min walk.

Lunch was AMAZING!
I'm convinced people trying to lose weight eat salads because it is the biggest bang for the buck (well, calories) I went a little over my lunch goal but, I only ate about half of my breakfast which opened up 200 extra calories.

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Prepping for a power breakfast manana!

Matcha and Kale Oats w/ Fruit and Pecans

Makes 2 servings
401 cal, 42g net carb, 11g Healthy Fats, 25g Protein

Put 1/2c quick Oats in each of the 2 containers

Sprinkle 1 tsp of milk fruit sweetener on the Oats

Blend 1c Kale, 1c kiwi, 3/4 nonfat plain yogurt, 1/2 Kombucha of choice, 1tsp matcha powder

Pour mixture over the Oats (split it into two basically) and then stir it in each one.

Top with a mix of 2c of fresh or thawed berries and peaches (fresh cantaloupe works well too with berries!)

Top with a 1/2 teaspoon of unsweetened coconut and a few whole pecans or pistachios.

Put in fridge over night to soak the oats!!