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If toxic was a person

It would be you
The man with no true intentions
That seek my vulnerability to downplay my emotions
To tear down my value and disrespect my worth

If toxic was a person

It would be you the narcissistic victim
The man who claims to be spiritual yet can’t discern his own flaws to repent

It would be you
the n***a that demeans my character and throw stones yet hide the baggage of rocks to heavy for him to carry

If toxic was a person

It would be you
Someone I thought I could trust
Who turned out to be the “you’ll get what you deserve” 2.0

If toxic was a person

It would be you
The man who has no plan of being with someone yet seeks their love

If toxic was a person

Saw a post that asked “What is life teaching you right now?”

Me: I allow boys to tempt me with words that men say who pretend to be more and want more relationship wise who claim to be God fearing.

I mean tempt me mentally and emotionally with conversation, and physically with their presence.

Saw a post that asked “What is life teaching you right now?”

Me: I allowed for professionals to play in with face with words to act unprofessional

Me: I allowed the desire of love and acceptance of anyone and from anyone to blindfold my eyes, plug my ears, and sew my mouth shut to the red flags.

Me: I allowed my heart to be broken over and over and over to love wholeheartedly for a slice of a heartbeat

Me: I allowed myself to hate me, to blame me, to ignore me, and forget the value of me.

Saw a post that asked “What is life teaching you right now?”

Me: I allowed my mind to accept the delusion of being happy, the hallucination that joy will last, and the fear of wanting everlasting peace because chaos is within

Me: I allowed the stage to drift from under me feet and I’m hanging on to life by a thin thread of hope but the faith a mustard seed is all I need.

Me: I allowed myself to love harder for those who only liked me for a season

Me: I allow laughter to help me cope.

Saw a post that asked “What is life teaching you right now?”

What is it teaching you?

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My feelings are invalid
To you
I have no reason to question your actions that speak higher volumes than the conversations we barely have
But I have no reason
My words of emotion trickle through your eardrums like white noise
Cancelled
I’m not entitled to speak my truth
Because my mind wanders deeper than the tone of your voice
My voice is invalid
I put more feeling into wanting you
Before the “I’m being a good friend” statement
So I took a trunk seat
I started in the back.
I was never who you chose.
You were my potential
My feelings are invalid
I have no right to tell you how I feel
I was never yours
You were mines
My joy is invalid
Had been and will always be
My feelings are invalid

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I got asked why I haven’t been modeling. It hasn’t been any type of schedule change, unprofessionalism or lack of communication on my part.

With that being said I have to find a photographer who will pay me for my services while maintaining professionalism and open communication.

I want to love you until I’m addicted
Addicted to your scent
Your lips
Your hands
Your smile
Addicted to your desire
Your dreams
Your wants
Breathe taking love
Be my calmness
Be my spark
Be my laughter
Love me until I’m addicted to you

My conclusions about people are typically right.

Advice: When talking to your man sit pretty and look him in his eyes

Morning

In a whirlwind
They come, they go
They kiss, bodies flow
They cum, they go
The word thrown wildly
Loses value
Love loses value
Caressed the sound of being wanted
And ran
I wasn’t wanted how I wanted to be wanted
Triggered
Figure triggers
Slip up, slip out, slip on, slip in
Dipped in
And in
And again
And we cm again
Selfish, Desire selfishly
Satisfy selfishly
I’m selfish
Triggered
Teased
Then
Pleased
Mind tossed
I’m lost
In a whirlwind

Now read it backwards.

I hate this

Dear future husband,
In this moment I think of you.
Your caress, your scent, your lips
I think of the tenderness, the roughness, the chemistry, the joy
Dear future husband
Find me

Sit with me

When hands caress your skin

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