Ayanna Nefertaari

My client struggled attracting new clients/sales into her business until she healed her toxic feminine energy.

Until she stopped:

- Feeling guilt around receiving help (be it through a team or a partner).
- Relying on validation rather than her relationship to Source to support her
- Carrying so much hidden self-doubt and shame that it prevented her from allowing herself to show up, receive, or scale her business (maybe past what her partner makes or parents consider ‘not greedy’)
- Not being the boss irl (setting boundaries with her family/friends/lovers) the way she was in business

For my client, once this unconscious toxic feminine energy was healed, she was able to expand her business and attract the clients she had been desiring.

I can teach you how to heal toxic feminine energy in my digital courses. 2 more days to catch the flash sale. L!nk below. 😘

*yes I see the product struggle, but I was still too cute 🥰

If you are a female podcast host (or know of one) talking about these topics:

- business energetics
- feminine energy
- women empowerment
- feminism
- spirituality and business
- manifestation

Please let me know ! Message me or comment below ♥️🥰

That overnight success is not always overnight 💕

And the type of success that is sustainable- usually requires a level of consistency and discipline that is not ‘sexy’.

I’m DONE ✅

The manuscript is complete !!!!

Even if I do nothing else, and hand this off to an editor - this book is on its way to being held in actual hands !!!!

Manifestation pending…

Oooff.

This will end up being an almost 200 page manuscript.

Oooff.

How did I do that in 2 1/2 months 💕🥰🥹


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Instead of worshipping your coach - realize that the only reason you can even perceive them in your reality is because there is a part of them that is in you.

You deserve answered prayers ….

Even if they come in the form of visions on manifestation boards instead of closed palms.

You deserve to be supported by the divine ….

Even if the way you love romantically is not traditional. Even if you curse a lot . Skip church. And have learned enough about the Bible to know it’s a scam.

You are worthy of a good life and to be loved by the divine - even if you didn’t blindly follow a religion that did not fully align with you.

Even if you found God outside of church walls. (What many call the Holy Spirit, I call the vibration of love inside of me.

I can feel God/dess too….sometimes she is loud; sometimes silent.)

You can still believe in God - and not religion.

You can be overcome with the presence of something divine without ever having read about it in a book written at the Council of Nicaea.

And anybody wishing for your downfall because you aren’t Christian- isn’t a ‘christ’ian themselves….

And any God who abandons you for thinking - isn’t the omnipresent source of love ♥️

The true Source is undying love. It’s nothing you can study to separate you from the omnipresent undying love that holds us all within her womb.

♥️

I just finished editing a part in my book called ‘The Heterosexual Agenda’

And I’m almost finished editing chapter 6 of what is now an almost 200 page manuscript.

I love all this for me 🥰

Unexpected things that grief and death have brought up in me:

Another layer of people pleasing - because I have become intimately connected with the shock of losing something/someone you love - whether forever or temporarily - the shock is a trauma in my body (one I know many people have)

No matter how many books I read, workshops I take, or attempts I take at growing myself psychologically, spiritually, consciously, or somatically - no matter what the trauma stays to remind me that I am human. I just get better and better at carrying it along with my power.

Anyway - I found that when it came to family and people I love, I found myself afraid to speak my truth in order to avoid an argument. And then I found myself thinking this morning that ‘all we can do is hope that we have enough time to be angry at somebody.’

So I let things go easy, but it also created a space where I was afraid to speak my truth as to not upset and risk missing time with the people I care about.

I am still finding this balance.

The place where I authentically express my truths, even if it bothers people - and value everyone I love while I can. It also requires that the people around me have a certain consciousness as well. The balance between loving people as they are and having boundaries (though I think what this conversation lacks in a lot of spaces is L O V E and honesty about our desire to maintain connections.)

There is so much cut off energy. Which is sometimes necessary - but I just want to encourage you, don’t forget to love too - while you are protecting yourself. And don’t go overboard with it (self-defense). Go overboard with the love. It’s who you really are.

Self-defense is not really necessary when you are protected by the Goddess within and without. You are more than enough.

Your children’s lives are NOT about you.

Your top concern is not:

- are they embarrassing you or making you look bad

Your top concern should be their happiness.

So many people should have NEVER been parents.

They are too busy trying to have their ego strocked rather than actually be a parent that respects the autonomy of the child while still being willing to be a parent.

Someone having to choose between their autonomy and having your support - is bizarre

O, how life will teach you to carry both grief and joy.

To be both heartbroken and in-love.

Such an intriguing school...

Toxic feminine:

Tries to convince the wrong people to love her. They tell her to her face that she is not wanted, yet she sticks around just to have somebody/some form of validation

Healthy feminine:

Loves the people who love her. Is not here to convince anyone of her worth and value. Stands 10 toes down on what she knows and let’s the people who are aligned, be naturally magnetized to her.

Let’s anything else fall away.

(Try this in your marketing and love and watch miracles happen 😘)

Are you depressed or is your body processing a lot and letting you rest while it does so 💕

I just came across the most interesting philosophy that assumes that most people are seeking the love of their mother (the person who originally provided all of their needs.)

The philosophy argued that the only true love that exist is when you can know how to be alone AND with another person. (Because if you're with another person but incapable of being alone, then you're putting your love need onto them - asking them to do all the things your mom did or didn’t do.)

You’re putting that love need on them, and expecting this one person to provide all of your needs.

The only way true love can happen is when you realize that that person is not your mother and it is not their job to provide all of your needs (it’s no way they possibly can be everything) and you can exist with them in a space without expecting that of them or projecting that onto them.

Your reactions change. What you get mad about changes with this revelation.

Blew my mind and yet reaffirmed what I already knew.

My type of conversations.

(This also applies to non-romantic relationships as well. What are your expectations and why?)

Almost got offended by your negative opinion…

Then I realized there is never a day I’d want to have the life you have …

So your opinion 🙃 👎🏽

Y'all gotta stop saying things like, “Okay, my baby daddy acting jealous of my new man; he done jumped into his feminine.”

Nah, he done jumped into his ignorance. He done jumped into his emotional immaturity.

Actually it’s more accurate to sayso he jumped into his masculine behavior than anything else. (The masculine has to beat his chest and stand its ground and prove its fu***ng worth and be the leader of the motherfu***ng clan. That is who is jealous of your new man.)

Let's stop associating emotional immaturity with femininity. These are not the same things and I'm sick of y’all 🙃.

Feminine energy is not just about receiving:

- It’s about creating things from scratch and bringing them into wholeness (think the womb)
- It’s about prioritizing pleasure (think the c**t - the secret to humankind’s entire evolution)
- It’s about sustaining and giving (think breast milk)
- It’s about holding things together (think magneticism to electricity)
- It’s about expanding and making space for other people (think how the woman body molds to make space for her coming youth)
- It’s about change (think about the woman and her cycles)
- It’s about taking the lead (Yin-darkness-the womb comes first - then all things are born into the light-Yang . And everyone starts off a woman.)

I decided a while back I wasn’t arguing with y’all anymore about what feminine and feminine money is because a lot of y’all are just listening to the patriarchy tell you what feminine is - not realizing there is so much feminine in so many of the traits people have deemed as masculine.

And I won’t get started on the alpha male bs.

S**t literally does not align with nature.

Still not here to argue but y’all be all wrong af and loud.

Not respecting the mother 🙃🙄🧐

But not surprising.

Sometimes I don't want to fight anymore.

I don't want to fight to become a billionaire. Fight to be successful.

I don't want to fight for anything, and I can't tell whether I'm becoming wise by sort of accepting my present moment and becoming grateful for just being alive instead of always seeking, trying to fix things, acting as if something is broken?

Who told me something was broken ? capitalism, society, telling me I should be further along or making this much money to deem myself successful?

I don't want to fight anymore to become something that I didn't even define myself, that somebody else gave to me.

And I can't tell whether that is growth or me becoming unmotivated.

But I also don't want to even fight a boss. S**t, fight traffic.

I just don't want to fight. I want all things to be at ease. And even if they are not - it doesn’t have to be a fight.

There's so much about the way that things are set up. That just rubs me the wrong way.

It forces us to move counter-intuitively to the path of least resistance, and a lot of us are forced into levels of stress, exhaustion, and self-doubt that no human being should ever really have to carry.

Most times the doubt is not even ours. The doubt is some label that society has made about us or tried to force us to internalize.

Or some label that we are fighting to achieve.

When we really didn't have to fight at all. We could just lean back be grateful and let what is ours come to us.

I cannot tell whether I am being apathetic or tapping deeper into the mother; into some deeper wisdom of life.

But source told me to tell you to: Stop fighting.

Me remembering how I spent all last summer, including my birthday, in a hospital with my sister.

Every night for 6 months I slept there.

She didn’t get out the hospital until last year October.

(This is the woman I grew up with - she is 1 year 5 months younger than me, basically the same age, and honestly 1 of 2 people in my family who didn’t make me feel like a black sheep.)



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You hear of people talking about healing from Traumatic brain injuries in 2 years, 5 years, 10 years.

We, are around the year mark of her coming home - 1 year 6 months since it all happened.

My sister makes small improvements…

And I will continue to believe in her full recovery. (She already healed all her other organs - she is taking her time with her brain.)

And I am thankful she is fighting.

She is so FU***NG POWERFUL.

(Though watching her in this state - can be very very painful - I honor her choice to fight - not sure I would have made the same choice when given it in the spirit dimension.)



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You want to talk about being ‘shook’

Most days I still am.

Just earlier this week I was telling myself I shouldn’t make a post about this - I should be over it, it shouldn’t bother me any more.

But this is my Saturn return, and Good Gawddess why such a fu***ng intense one (I just turned 30.)

I go back and forth between feeling like a powerful Goddess / wondering why the HELL I would sign up to exist in such a wild place.

Between depressed / and feeling like a literal God.

(Goodness - what a Gemini I am. Most days I experience both sides of the spectrum within 24 hours.)

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But…

Here I go. I pick myself up again.

I move forward again.

I resist the urge to give up on it all again.

And I keep believing in miracles. I said I wanted to teach manifestation- Goddess said okay - but how deep can you believe in miracles and for how long (this is about more than money.)

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This is my hero’s journey - whether it’s harder or easier than anyone else’s doesn’t matter (I don’t need to abuse myself and say other people have known harder things or why are my lessons always hard blah blah blah)

I may fall down. I may lay down. I may even get stuck there for a little while.

But may I always find the strength to get back up again.

Slavery - corporate - toxic parenting:

Teaches us that we can only show happiness

(Even if we are being abused.)

We would be punished if anything else was expressed - especially towards a ‘master’’parent’’manager’

Manifestation hacked that toxic teaching.

Stop spreading it.

Decenter men: if you have not done this work of decentering men in an already patriarchal society, and I catch you talking silly in a post - I will delete you.

Like ew. Read something besides the Bible and ignorant masculine vs feminine teachings that aren’t based in anything truthful rather societal labels and misogyny.

(Also, I promise you - no matter how much you kiss that man’s behind - if he wants to cheat or leave - he will.)

You trying to be picked won’t save you from the statistics of their behavior.

Actual numbers.

Woman abuse of THOUSANDS of years.

And let’s pray he is kissing your behind just as much 🙃

I’ve been slipping - not sharing my opinions (that are based on facts) out of fear that most of the world won’t get it.

But I’m realizing now that my purpose was never to be for the entire world - but for the people who need me - despite my people pleasing and desire to fit in with everyone - that group is probably smaller than I think.

It may only be q***r women or men with a feminist edge.

That might eliminate a lot of people from my audience who embody or internalize misogyny but at least I will be being true to myself.

I build powerful women who are not afraid to be powerful 🌹

Stop (trying to be meek and palpable just to be chosen by society.)

Mind the business that is your own 😘

A Frequency:

My clients love to pay me, and receive just as much benefit as I do when the money flows 💕

“Something is formed in the chaos, which existed before heaven and earth. It is quiet and profound.”

Fear is a thought with feeling….

Feelinized thoughts can be powerful (and fear/stress destroys your cells anyway)

Choose trust instead of fear.

Hope instead of fear.

Choose a feeling behind the thought that can serve you rather than torture you 😘

Who I am is not what I do to make money…

My worth is not based how much money I am making

It is not the sum of my mistakes,

My successes,

Or how the nuances of my journey…

Who I am - my worthiness - is just implied

No matter what I do.

No matter what I feel.

No matter how I look.

I am worthy.

No longer correcting false opinions about me

Think what you want

✨

Love every woman you once were 🌹

If you could hire me for anything - what would you hire me for ?