JamieLynn Best Selling Author & Coach

Poem continued…
Since he left
The world looked different
Scary
The panic hit like a monstrous wave
Breathing was now a chore that needed reminding
I questioned everything
Including my existence

He knew my struggles
And went from supporting and loving
To spouting off my fears

Over time i thought
Hoped
We would settle into a few agreements
Communication about the beings we created

The more he breaks the rules
The more I struggle
The more they struggle

Who is this man become
I don’t recognize him

Is the man i love still in there?

The emotions took hold
Be calm
I repeat a thousand times in a day

I never felt enough
The pressure was always on to be perfect
To do what everyone said
To ignore them all
Oh but except…

It all kept getting louder
Until i let him go

Then it became even louder
I still for now in a moment in time
Fight and try to inspire communication

One talking does not a conversation make

-age 38-

I once had the love of a man
who felt i was amazing
and one day he said he was done
20 years of commitment
2 wonderful girls
He was no longer the prince he promised to be
He no longer saw me as amazing
Nor beautiful
Nor the love of his life

Now he sees me how i felt about me
Dirty, wrong and a burden
A user who manipulated
Who hurt
Who destroyed him
Who took his young years

And now he is running out of time
To be the man he needed to be
The man i didn’t allow him to be

He drank way more
Broke court appointed rules
And pouts because its my fault
Not his choice
That i sucked the life out of him

He once told me we would figure it out
That what i had done didn’t matter he just wanted to be w me
He wanted to support my healing

And instead his years of silence finally spoke up

What took you so long to heal?
Wont you ever be done with you past?
You disgust me

He yelled as he left

-JamieLynn age 38-
-3 years divorced after 20 years together-

Always do your own reaserch

Here is a challenge for you, as often as u can just feel good today. Don’t get upset when i don’t, just bring yourself back to feeling good as often as you can. Train ur brain💜

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no one is at fault for anything that you have experienced in your life.

The hardest book to write could be the long one, or maybe its the one about personal experiences.

I have been working on this book on and off for over 20 years. I was waiting for the ending or the moment of inspiration to hit.

Well I did get my ending and now I just need to for the habit to write.

I also need to figure out what style I would like to use.

Short stories with powerful questions?

Long and detailed so it sucks you in and leaves u wondering?

Merry Christmas 🎁🎄
Here is a gift for you

Make a tea
teaspoon tumeric
teaspoon cumin
Tablespoon honey

Drink this once a day for a week and notice how ur mind feels

Such a cool story

Inseparable best friends ❤️

Im so excited! Im working on my book again. I started it when I was 15 and now i know how the book ends.

My intention is to create understanding and validation around s*xual abuse and trauma. I read somewhere thst 60% of s*x abuse victims end up in divorce. Some do drugs and alcohol in excess to escape the psin. Selling their bodies for s*x because they know how to turn off their minds and just deal with it. Conditioning, PTSD, depression, suicidal thoughts or follow through, victim blaming are all parts that one would deal with and even struggleing to identify or just simply love their body. Some are too skinny others are obese.

The movments that have come about have allowed people like me to have a voice and speak out, i do truly believe I am here to be part of these movements for freedom. Freedom from the past. Alot of what I listed above I have struggled with. I am free now and am getting used to idea of it.

I have coached others to a life they love, now its time to get back to work on continuing creating the life I love.

I have been blessed to love deeply, twice now am i am only 37! These two amazing men have gifted me love that I felt I didn’t deserve. With my husband we have two beautiful and intelligent girls. My boyfriend loves them so much and luckily has been in their lives already so the girls and I were gifted a foundation during a time when our foundation was being shaken.

My life has been an amazing adventure and I know my triumphs will make a difference for others who need to hear them.

Have a wonderful day♾️💜

Hi everyone, JamieLynn drew me upside down but then saw me as a cat.