Kape, Ulan, at Ikaw.

Nothing is ABSOLUTE in life. Everything is a constellation of all the lessons learned from the highs and the lows of our existence.

9:09 PM.

I was too tired that I took the wrong bus home. Woke up in a strange place, took another ride and endured three rounds of traffic to reach the right station.

Rain came pouring, but unlike other people's gasps of irritation, I took my deepest breath of the day and once again felt how my heart never ceased hurting - how pain survived my hectic days, how, even in pieces, my love is trying to forgive.

The bus finally arrived. Fighting for a seat momentarily saved me from drowning in my own thoughts. The ghosts resumed hunting tho, it never left.

I am tired. Too tired to even complain how my day went crazy, how work is stressing me (probably killing me), and how I got lost in my way home today.

I stepped out of the bus after an hour ride with your ghosts. The rain stopped and I got home safely. I no longer cry myself to sleep but I surely will repeat the same routine tomorrow and the days after that (except choosing the wrong bus, hopefully).

I'll live on, by the way. Except unloving you, I am sure I can do anything. I'm confident that my heart can brave everything else now that it still beats in the midst of the mess you left me with.

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You know that feeling na gusto mo nang sumuko nalang kasi parang wala ng pag-asa pero hindi mo kaya?

You are enough. You are not alone. You are a conqueror. You CAN start again.

I told you I'd respect your decision to move on with someone new. But my heart says otherwise.

When Olivia sang:

And I know if you were true
There's no damn way that you
Could fall in love with somebody that quickly.

I felt that.

I had to forgive myself or else sayo lang iikot ang mundo ko.

Ain't it funny, how you ran to her the second that we called it quits.

Don't you think the movie My Ex and Whys is so accurate?

Sobrang daming BAKIT sa isip natin to the point of madness.

The grounds for cheating is so wrongly defined. Most of us think it happens when our partner is having an affair with someone else while we are in a relationship with them.

But the truth is, cheating happens whenever we feel betrayed. That feeling of not being reciprocated, knowing you have this huge love but was belittled, unrequited, misunderstood, taken for granted, replaced.

So do not ever invalidate your feeling of being cheated even if you already called it quits. Understand that your love for that certain person is too genuine to be defined in the bounds of a relationship label.

We can never blame someone's action after a break up because our threshold for pain is subjective. What he/she did was to ease the pain, and we are bound to respect that.

Yes, even if they found someone new in a blink and you want to kill the new person so bad.

Falling in love to a complete stranger is magic. That is why every break-up is tragic. Describing it as painful is an understatement.

I don't get why some exes get themselves into a new relationship so easily. Explain!

The funny thing is if you are brave, confident, and can stand on your own, people think it's okay to not choose you. They simply don't know how much of a courage it took to keep yourself together.

And if you are that kind of person, please know that YOU ARE NOT ALONE. There are a lot of us who might have wished to be weaker and be chosen. But don't you ever loose that faith, someday someone will endure the pain with you, and choose to love you, because you are who you are.

Nothing will ever prepare you for the pain of loosing.

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Moving on is like Cardo's Ang Probinsyano, we dwell too much on the NAKARAAN.

Lahat ng naglasing pero hindi nakalimot, mag-ingay!

AKALA.

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