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It’s Not The Wrong Way. It’s The New Way. History Will Never Repeat Itself In My Time. I Fear Nothing Or No-one. New World Orders.

Welcome To The Graveyard 🪦
It’s Here You’ve Come To Die.

Oh!
You don’t like what we are to ourselves
We got front row seats
And you’re on the bottom shelf.

Always A Method To My Madness. My Fights Were Never In Vain.

The positivity that we will not Rest In Peace But Live In Peace. The Pure Will Win.

ONLY THE PURE WILL SURVIVE.

Creature Jelly Roll · Song · 2020

What shall I be?!? Tonight, tomorrow, the day after and everyday for the rest of my life I shall be free! I shall be free to enjoy the company of like minded people who know their own worth and know mine. I shall be free to reach my dreams. I shall be free to love and be loved. I shall be free to have peace in my heart, mind and soul. So what shall I be? Took me 40 years to finally know what I shall be. I shall be free! 🌈🌎🌾🐸💙🐣🦋

“Ratatat smack smack.”

Ain’t nothin but a crack attack,
But we got a different smack around here,
I left an imprint,
Like the foot print,
That will be on your skull
Cause you couldn’t accept
That you were void and null
Now you’re under attack
Like ratatat smack smack,
We’ll put you flat on your back
We got the good kinda smack
Like ratatat smack smack
You won’t get off ya back.

But….. As Always…! I’ll Be Back.

“You taught me a lot of things but you did not teach me love”

You taught me how to talk
And how to walk,
How to ride a bike
And worstly how to fight.

You taught me how to count
And how to tie my shoes,
You taught me how to protect my heart
From all of your abuse.

You taught me I was bad
And nothing I did was right
Everything I did was wrong to you
Even the fact you gave me life.

You taught me no one would ever love me
That’s what you used to say
I should of been an abortion
It would’ve happened if you had your way.

You taught me to doubt myself
With everything I do
Cause even when I got straight A’s
I was never good enough for you.

You taught me abuse was normal
Cause I grew up with it
And told everyone I was crazy
When I’d speak of it in a fit.

See if all the things you taught me
You did not teach me love
That feeling came from my own heart
And the ones that I could trust.

Like I’ve said before
I hid the best parts of me inside
And you will never see those parts
Those parts they gave me life.

You taught me a lot of things,
But you never taught me love
It was a feeling in my heart
That’s the one thing you’ll never touch.

“Somebody Else’s Daughter”

If I was somebody else’s daughter,
What would I have been,
The first 14 years of my life,
I did not want to be seen.

You touched me in ways,
No little girl should be!
Abuse in every way,
Invasively, physically and mentally,
Yet, I was the bad one so you’d say.

Nobody would ever love me,
That’s what you used to say!
At first it broke my heart,
But I don’t give a f**k today.

I hid myself from the world,
And still can to this day.
I kept the best bits deep inside
That was my only way.

Abuse was normalized,
From the people who should mean the most
So I abused myself in every way,
And was abused by everyone who I got close.

I thought it was the only life,
Cause it’s all I ever lived!
But one day I woke up to myself
Although your s**t always made me livid.

I walked away from you all,
But “some things” kept me close,
Yet out of all the ones who abused me
It’s you I hate the most.

I was your little girl,
Supposed to be you world,
Yet you hated every part of me,
So for so long I couldn’t see..
How worthy I really was,
Maybe it’s you that’s unworthy,
For abusing me.

Yet your abuse did not stop there,
My girls copped it to,
Cause you lack the ability to care,
You filthy f**ks, one day we’ll be through.

Then as I got older
And had my baby girls,
I soon started to realize,
We come from different worlds.

I long before that started shouting at the world,
And raising my voice up,
My fists I often used
Cause for you type I couldn’t give a f**k!

I fought every abuser,
Not just to save myself,
But to save others as innocent,
As I once was myself.

Sometimes I turn into,
A nasty f**kin mouth,
But my kids do not deserve this,
That s**ts only for a coward!

Your words came out my mouth last week
And I nearly took my own life
But when I said hey Trudie you will fix this,
So that got me outta that strife.

See the difference between you and me,
Is I don’t enjoy this s**t,
I won’t to change for the better
Not keep living like it.

You seem to thrive on the abuse,
But you don’t have a problem,
Blaming everyone else is your putrid excuse, we are the crazy ones,
We are the f**king liars
But let me tell you my truth here
Your abuse is fkn vile.

I wonder what my life would be
if I was somebody else’s daughter,
But that’s ok it was never my favourite thing,
My favourite is being a mother!

I always strived to not be like you
And I will do my best
To make sure you don’t come out my mouth
Cause I’m not like “the rest”

Yes I nearly ended my life,
But realized my life had begun,
Cause me and my babies will do better
Than you both and “everyone!”

For we have a love that’s pure
And that will never end!
The day I had my own daughters
Is when my family began!

See those best bits I hide inside
Were saved for my daughters and me
So I’ll keep working hard for us
And those best bits you’ll never see!

So I don’t need to be somebody’s else’s daughter,
Cause the best 3 are mine
I need to be the best Mother
And I’ll be just fkn fine.

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I was 14 when I found the love of my life 💙

“I Ain’t the Villian”

I ain’t the villain
Cause I fought back.
You’re the one who abused me
Now you’re under attack.
You didn’t think I’d come back so strong,
After you made me weak
For wasting my love on you for so long.
But legends always fight for what’s right
And as the saying goes..
“Legends Never Die.”

“F**k All The Rest”

I hate myself for who I became,
After what putrid c***s put me through.
I’ve been her since four,
And I don’t wanna be her no more,
But I don’t want to fkn change.
She gets me through,
She made me survive,
But now I hate her so much I want to die!
She is my power,
She is my weakness,
She is my strength,
And yet she is my sickness.
Lately I’ve been wondering what it would be like..
To have not been through so much
And what my life would be like..
If this was such!
But that’s something I won’t know,
But I’d like to know how it feels,
To of not suffered so much.
And know love that was real!
But right now I feel like scum, filth and dirt,
And I fkn wish you dead,
For all of your hurt!
It’s fkn you that’s the dirt!
And for what I am worth,
Cause Until I wrote this..
I wanted that to be me and to leave this earth,
So I could feel free!
But if I work through this s**t with all of my strength…
I will win in the end!!!
And f**k all rest!!!!!!!
Cause I know my own worth!!!
And I won’t stop fighting til I can keep at my best.

“I’m filth, I’m scum, I’m dirt - but I’m free!”

I really thought it’d be me that won,
That I’d finally come out on top.
But everything I did, and everything I tried,
I failed.
I failed every fkn time.
No matter how hard I tried.
I failed at being a mother,
My favourite thing of all,
But I failed myself at that,
And my babies even more.
I fkn sucked at life
After all they put me through,
I turned out filth, and scum and dirt,
Just like they wanted me to.
I really did, I really tried,
To be the best I could
But now I’ve come to realize
After what I’ve been put through I never would.
I never see my friends
And my family you couldn’t trust
And I just kept fighting all the scum
Cause I liked the fkn rush
I couldn’t keep a job
And although I got off the drugs
I couldn’t keep on the straight and narrow
Cause I was a dirty f**kin thug.
I couldn’t stay in one place,
I went from friend to friend,
I thought I knew who I was
But I didn’t so I found out in the end.
I caused a lot of hurt cause I couldn’t handle mine,
And when I look at how I’ve lived,
It’s really fkn vile,
Here I’ll sit with that a while.
Cause all I can think of right now is
I’m dirty, I’m scum, I’m filth
Just like they wanted me to be
And if I left this world right now I’d finally be fkn free.
But that’s not me so you’ll see
So I remain on this earth filthy, scum and dirty..
YET, FREE!

“My Kind Of Fairytale”

(More to come...)

“You can’t redeem your sins.” - (to write later.)

“You’ll Be Through”

You didn’t think I did it in vain
Or for the fame
The thrill
Of the kill
Was not the only reason
For the open season
Today I woke up feeling amazing
My mind no longer hazy
For the truth had come to light
For why I always fight
Sometimes I feel for Jesus Christ
Who suffered for your sins
Cause the pure are suffering too
But your sinister can’t touch within
Within the pure the power lies
its in the sinister it comes to die
Like I said my fights are not in vain
I fight for the day the world won’t be the same
Judgement day God won’t forgive
Nor in hell will you live
Cause neither want your evil truths
They’ll deplete your soul and you’ll be through.

~TMJ

Go ahead and bring up my past like it’s a threat. I don’t live there anymore. Some people like growth. Some don’t. Obvious.

This!!!!

“All for one and one for all!” 💙

“Intro”

If your demons are pure,
Introduce them to me,
We can understand each other’s insanity,
For we are the core of humanity!
I may not let you see the entirety,
Of all of the demons inside of me,
Cause sometimes they go to the extremity.

“Ready to play.”

Like I said you push and push to get what you need/want knowing that even though you don’t like them my demons will come out. Now my demons want to play with you. Enjoy!

“THE ORIGIN OF MY FAITH!”

The reason I have faith in Satan is because Satan burns evil. 🔥

The reason I have no faith in God is because he forgives the evil that makes the innocent suffer. ❌

Also Satan choose to walk the Earth with humanity while God sat on “his throne in almighty heaven”
(Kinda like sitting’ on your high horse to me.)
.... And this all started years ago when I felt unsafe... I prayed to God to help me. Nothing. So after praying and begging to God for so long I cried to Satan to help me and s**t started getting burned. I then felt safe!

Edit- and for 20 years i worshipped every God known to mankind including Satan and one day after that 20 years Christian God restored my faith Afknmen 🙏 hallelujah 🙏

“Some call it the awakening!!!! I call it the f**kening!!!!” 😇👿🥊💙

I’ve been fighting for peace in this world since 1981. “Truth” is like anybody else all I ever wanted was “love.” That is a hard truth for me to admit. A very hard one!!!! But all I ever got was abused and taken advantage of. If you’re “pure” please break down these walls. My walls are high, but please try! Cause I am tired. My soul is tired. I’ve been begging Satan for months to take me. Satan will do anything for me, like I will do anything for him. If you’re pure please love me before Satan baby does take me. For I am tired. My soul is tired. Please for once somebody fight for me. 😇👿 🥊

“Meant to be alone. A demons meant to burn! 👿 🔥

Nobody minds the show. Nobody minds the show at all. You don’t mind getting what you want. You don’t mind the entertainment. You don’t mind walking all over me and taking. Take, take, take. Everybody knows my demons will come out. Everybody pushes til they do. You didn’t mind the show. You didn’t mind the pushing. You didn’t mind the grabbing. You didn’t mind the take. But you didn’t like when the demons come out even though you knew they would. Like I said you didn’t mind the entertainment even though you knew the demons would come out. Take the show that’s all I got. Take it all. All take no give. A demons meant to burn. That’s all there is for me. Satans baby. That’s all there is for me.👿🔥

Sorry if my s**t is painful.

‘The Echo’

The echo of my life surrounding me
Like an animal in a cage
Slowly dying to be free.

My life I hear all around
Like a death threatening f**king sound.

Echo echo all around
That’s why I will never be found.

‘Home Invasion’

As I slept peacefully
One summer night
My girls in their beds
Not a sound in sight...
But suddenly I was awoken
By the sound of multiple footsteps
A stroken’
Tearing up my stairs
And running straight for me
I grabbed the weapon of my choice
A tomahawk lain beside me
In front of me
And at the end of my bed
Stood four men
Ready to attack me
For you will know
That as we slept
My ex was in jail
And wanted for dead
After laying yet again his dirty hands on me
That dirty runt set this up
Thinking putting fear into me might f**k me up
I went to strike
The first c***s head
I’m going for life
Said a voice in my head
So I hesitated
And took a breath
And across my head
I copped my own weapon instead
I don’t know how long I was out
But I woke up my body shaking about
And some c**t lay on top of me
Said I’m trying to warm
You up and bring you back to life
But I knew
It was for r**e he tried
The next days or weeks
I’m not quiet sure
Were a complete daze
But I remember laying on the floor
My girls were there
I couldn’t awake
Just conscious for them, my life at stake
Comatosed
And when I arose
Some time not far down the track
The pigs come knocking at my door
And said you’re not at court for your ex and we’re not quite sure
I said that I have been attacked
And thought I’d finally be able to kick back
But as you’ll see
Their corruption f**ked me
Said I was drunk and drugged out when all I had was a head injury
From that moment my world fell apart
I lost everything it broke my heart
So broken I was barely existing
Felt so alone that I needed assistance
So back to my putrid ex I went
And for the next 11 months I spent
My time getting high
And copping the worst floggings of my life
I was to weak to leave
That’s where the weak specimen wanted me
If I remember this time it was day 3
Of having the life beaten out of me
I went f**k this I’m done
What have I become
So tired sore and beaten
I packed my bags
And left that dirty c**t of a rag
I never looked back after I set my self free
Barely existing was not the life for me
I worked on myself to bring back what I could
From living a life that I never of should
Some things that are lost can never be found
But you won’t keep me on the ground
To this day I still fight for my kids and I
Still everyday hoping my weak specimen ex will die
Cause the world would be a better place
Without your kinds abuse and utter distaste!

‘Bleeding Lies, Bleeding Eyes’

I’ve got no peace in my heart,
I didn’t from the start.
Abused in every way,
From young until this day.
My soul has had enough,
It begs to leave this world,
To young to feel like this,
So what I see and feel must be told.
Protected too many people,
For far too fkn long,
But to protect me was the last thing they did,
Yet til this day they say it’s me in the wrong!
I was a little girl,
So pure and innocent,
But who’s eyes were wide open,
Hence why I’m so f**ked up and bent.
Truth is what I am,
Truth is what I seek,
But those who don’t like their truth told,
Call me crazy rather than admit defeat!
See if you don’t like your truth,
There’s one thing I believe,
That you will live a lie,
For the world to see.
But if you have s**t to hide,
Like dirty truths from deep inside,
My crazy mind will see through you,
And speak so the innocent can walk free.
A special mind I have,
With dreams and visions that I see,
On my path of destruction,
For a world that lives peacefully.
I am not a child of God,
I am satans baby!
For god will forgive your putrid sins,
While Satan will burn you eternally!
I push people to their limits,
To see deep into their soul,
For my eyes can see right through you,
And if you’re evil they’ll burn a hole.
I’ve always been a fighter,
A f**kin warrior,
It’s been war on sinners,
Since the day I came into this earth.
Although that I am tired,
It’s what I’m born to do,
I want to stop, but I just can’t,
Until my time is through.
I find it hard to love,
Or let people love me,
Love can make me feel like an animal,
In a cage that wants to be free.
I cannot be tamed,
I cannot be caged,
I may never be found,
Cause with passion I say I am hell bound!
I do this for pure love,
I do this for your freedom,
I do this for peace in your heart,
Cause you know I loved you all from the start.
I cannot nor I will not stop,
Cause this is my calling,
So if you pass me by
And see that I’m falling,
Just smile, say hi and walk on by.
Although sometimes I feel like I’m in a cage,
And I’m often full of rage,
I am a free and true spirit,
Speaking so many truths you’ll hear it!

TMJ ~ 💙

My soul is really tired. Again. Truth is I hate this f**king world. Must’ve been Hi**er in a past life. As a kid I was always told I was Satans child. Maybe that’s more the point. God hates me and I hate him. You could kill an innocent person or mo**st a child or whatever and God will forgive you. F**k that s**t. Satan will burn you instead. Much rather Satan. To hell I’ll go when I die. Been burning all my life anyway.