What's the Reality of Life?
Uif qbhf dsfbups't mjgf jt xpsuimftt. A dump for thoughts I have no one specific to share with.
J tibmm ejf fbsmz.
10/10 this is ๐ฏ% me
Dirty water doesn't stop plants from growing, dont let negative stop your progress
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๐ ๐ต๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ฌ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ฆ ๐ด๐ต๐ฆ๐ฑ๐ด ๐ถ๐ฑ, ๐ ๐ง๐ฆ๐ญ๐ญ ๐ฏ๐ช๐ฏ๐ฆ ๐ง๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ต ๐ฅ๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ฑ. ๐ ๐ต๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ฌ ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ฆ ๐ด๐ต๐ฆ๐ฑ๐ด ๐ถ๐ฑ, ๐ ๐ง๐ฆ๐ญ๐ญ ๐ข๐จ๐ข๐ช๐ฏ ๐ข๐ด ๐ฅ๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ฑ ๐ข๐ด ๐ต๐ธ๐ฆ๐ญ๐ท๐ฆ ๐ง๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ต. ๐ ๐ฅ๐ฐ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ฌ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ธ. ๐'๐ฎ ๐ข๐ญ๐ธ๐ข๐บ๐ด ๐ง๐ข๐ญ๐ญ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ. ๐๐ท๐ฆ๐ณ๐บ๐ต๐ช๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ ๐ต๐ณ๐บ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐จ๐ฆ๐ต ๐ฃ๐ข๐ค๐ฌ ๐ถ๐ฑ, ๐ ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ญ๐บ ๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ถ๐ฑ ๐ฃ๐ฆ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ช๐ฏ ๐ฑ๐ญ๐ข๐ค๐ฆ๐ด ๐ฅ๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ฑ๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ฏ ๐ฎ๐บ ๐ฑ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ท๐ช๐ฐ๐ถ๐ด ๐ง๐ข๐ญ๐ญ. ๐ ๐ด๐ต๐ช๐ญ๐ญ ๐ง๐ช๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ฎ๐บ๐ด๐ฆ๐ญ๐ง ๐ช๐ฏ ๐ธ๐ฐ๐ณ๐ด๐ฆ ๐ฑ๐ญ๐ข๐ค๐ฆ๐ด ๐ฅ๐ฆ๐ด๐ฑ๐ช๐ต๐ฆ ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ณ๐บ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฃ๐ฆ ๐ด๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ธ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ฆ๐ญ๐ด๐ฆ, ๐ธ๐ฉ๐ช๐ค๐ฉ ๐ช๐ด ๐ด๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ธ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ฃ๐ฆ๐ต๐ต๐ฆ๐ณ. ๐ ๐ข๐ฎ ๐ต๐ณ๐บ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ. ๐๐ถ๐ต ๐ธ๐ฉ๐บ ๐ช๐ฏ๐ด๐ต๐ฆ๐ข๐ฅ ๐ฐ๐ง ๐ฎ๐ข๐ฌ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ฑ๐ณ๐ฐ๐จ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ด๐ด, ๐ธ๐ฉ๐บ ๐ฅ๐ฐ๐ฆ๐ด ๐ช๐ต ๐ง๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ญ ๐ญ๐ช๐ฌ๐ฆ ๐ฆ๐ท๐ฆ๐ณ๐บ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ช๐ด ๐ณ๐ฆ๐จ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ด๐ด๐ช๐ฏ๐จ?..
โDML
You should.
๐๐ต'๐ด ๐ด๐ฐ ๐ฉ๐ข๐ณ๐ฅ ๐ต๐ณ๐บ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฃ๐ฆ ๐ฐ๐ฌ๐ข๐บ
๐๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ฏ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ฌ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ธ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ'๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ง๐ข๐ณ ๐ง๐ณ๐ฐ๐ฎ ๐ฃ๐ฆ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ฆ
โ๐๐๐
๐ ๐ต๐ข๐ญ๐ฌ๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฎ๐บ๐ด๐ฆ๐ญ๐ง ๐ข๐ฃ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ต ๐ค๐ฉ๐ข๐ฏ๐จ๐ฆ
๐ ๐ต๐ฐ๐ญ๐ฅ ๐ฎ๐บ๐ด๐ฆ๐ญ๐ง ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ค๐ฉ๐ข๐ฏ๐จ๐ฆ ๐ฎ๐ช๐ฏ๐ฅ๐ด๐ฆ๐ต
๐ ๐ต๐ณ๐ช๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฃ๐ฆ ๐ข๐ด ๐ฑ๐ฐ๐ด๐ช๐ต๐ช๐ท๐ฆ ๐ข๐ด ๐ ๐ค๐ฐ๐ถ๐ญ๐ฅ ๐ฃ๐ฆ
๐๐ถ๐ต ๐จ๐ถ๐ฆ๐ด๐ด ๐ธ๐ฉ๐ข๐ต, ๐ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐ฌ ๐ช๐ต'๐ด ๐ต๐ฐ๐ฐ ๐ญ๐ข๐ต๐ฆ.
๐'๐ฎ ๐ธ๐ข๐บ ๐ต๐ฐ๐ฐ ๐ค๐ฐ๐ณ๐ณ๐ถ๐ฑ๐ต๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ฃ๐บ ๐ฎ๐บ ๐ฐ๐ธ๐ฏ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ถ๐จ๐ฉ๐ต๐ด
๐ ๐ค๐ข๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ฆ๐ด๐ค๐ข๐ฑ๐ฆ ๐ธ๐ฉ๐ข๐ต'๐ด ๐ช๐ฏ ๐ฎ๐บ ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ข๐ฅ.
โ๐๐ ๐
๐๐๐ ๐๐ผ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ฝ๐ ๐ฝ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ผ๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ผ๐
๐๐๐ ๐๐ผ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ฝ๐ ๐ฝ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ผ๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ผ๐
๐๐๐ ๐๐ผ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ฝ๐ ๐ฝ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ผ๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ผ๐
๐๐๐ ๐๐ผ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ฝ๐ ๐ฝ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ผ๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ผ๐
โ๐ฟ๐๐
๐ต๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐
๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐, ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐
๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐.
โDMLโ
๐ฐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐
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๐'๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐
๐๐๐๐ ๐๐.
๐ฅโนโโ
๐๐ฐ ๐ฎ๐ข๐ฏ๐บ ๐ฑ๐ฆ๐ฐ๐ฑ๐ญ๐ฆ ๐ด๐ฉ๐ข๐ณ๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ช๐ณ ๐ฑ๐ณ๐ฐ๐ฃ๐ญ๐ฆ๐ฎ๐ด
๐๐ฐ ๐ฎ๐ข๐ฏ๐บ ๐ฑ๐ฆ๐ฐ๐ฑ๐ญ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฐ๐ญ๐ฅ ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ช๐ณ ๐ด๐ฆ๐ค๐ณ๐ฆ๐ต๐ด
๐๐ฐ ๐ฎ๐ข๐ฏ๐บ ๐ฑ๐ฆ๐ฐ๐ฑ๐ญ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ณ๐ถ๐ด๐ต๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ญ๐ช๐ฌ๐ฆ ๐ข ๐ง๐ณ๐ช๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ฅ
๐๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ฆ ๐ฌ๐ฆ๐ฑ๐ต ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ช๐ฏ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ฅ.
โDML
Just a safe space but never a home
I always think that no man in his right mind would want to have me for a long, serious relationship or to spend the rest of his life with me. I always think that they are just bored, or maybe, lonely, and I am just the one they think they can easily discard at any moment right after unloading all their suppressed emotions that they had no one else to open up to. I am like a dumpsite where they can just drop and leave the baggages they all want to get rid ofโa place they'd never want to visit ever again once they have finally moved on. I think I quite get it why they leave, though. There's nothing else that I can offer or do to make them think I'm worth it to be a part of their life any longer besides being a baggage keeper. So when someone tells me that they won't forsake me, I already knew it. It's either they're just sad, or looking for some kind of distractions.
โDML
I have grown up being not the ideal type; I've never been ideal as a partner, as a friend, as a child or never even will become an ideal parent, and I've learned to accept myself in that wayโfor being that way, so now I'm growing older with less and less people in my life because I choose to settle for being my authentic self rather than suppressing what I truly am behind my ideal visage.
โ DML๐ญ
โBe yourself,โ they say.
Be yourself and see who stays and who don't.
But what if no one stays?
Then learn to be okay with being alone, but don't lose yourself when you start losing people.
โ ๐ฅ DML
I tried speaking my truth, and I see how it's driving away the people who've had the chance to hear it.
โDML
I'm trying to be good
I'm trying to be positive
Little do you know, I am trying.
Why's that?
๐ฉ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐
, ๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐, ๐๐๐
๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐'๐๐ ๐๐๐๐.
โDML