Hannah Margaret

whenever i meditate in silence - that is, without music or guidance - my mind always conjurs up a ton of analogies for what it feels like. per usual, the brain wants to make sense of *everything* and relate *everything* to irl. 🙄

but one thing i actually like to do, is imagine myself as a turtle. a super cute adorable one, ofc. probably still the snapping kind tho. 🙈 but i imagine myself as a turtle, making the deliberate choice to retreat from the outside world into the stillness, silence, and privacy of my own shell.

this is similar to what we do in meditation - we choose to take our awareness away from our minds, our thoughts, what's happening in our lives, and turn it inward to what's happening inside. this is a practice, like i'm always sure to say, so the first few times might not feel all that profound.

but if you keep making the choice to retreat, you will find that this place that exists within us, is one of the most beautiful places you can be in this humanly experience. it's lush with overabundant love and sweetness, full to the brim with possibility and excitement.

imagine how it would feel to be in the most perfect moment of your life... *that* is what meditation gives us. and i meditate at like 6am so that's a pretty great feeling to have that early in the day. 😂

i'll never stop sharing the wonders and majesty of meditation with you because i really hope, in my heart, that one day i'll be able to "convince" at least one person to begin their own disciplined practice. 🧘🏻‍♀️☯️ if you find yourself drawn to this notion of inner peace, bring meditation into your life and your cup will runneth over.

Before I started my meditation practice, I believed I had no discipline. Partly because I've heard "You have no discipline!" mannnnnny times in my short life lol.

But also because in the past I relied on motivation to get me through. Unfortunately motivation is fleeting. The only way to continuously feel motivated is to sometimes give motivation a break and instead draw from discipline. 🙇🏻‍♀️

So how do you "become" disciplined? Well, you need to pick something to stick to. For me, it was meditation.

After you pick something to stick to, you need to come up with a reason. Why do you want to stick to this?

Once you've come up with a reason, you need to really sit with yourself and fully develop your "why".

In my case, I journaled about it. I let out all my frustrations about why I was so tired of the life I was living in my head and why I so desperately wanted a new beginning. I poured my heart out with total and complete honesty.

This is from where I created my "big picture". I daydreamed the life I wanted to have. This, too, I wrote about in great detail. I soaked up all the feelings of this new life and then I planted it firmly in my mind's eye. When motivation left me in the trenches, I turned to my reliable friend Discipline and I got my daily practice done for the day. 🧘🏻‍♀️

This can be done in ANY area of life for ANYthing you desire. ANYTHING. 🔮 Finding a new job, getting a degree, starting a business, taking charge of your health, being a better friend... ALL of these things can be accomplished with discipline.

Create a big picture of the life you desire. Make it as detailed as possible, truly feel how wonderful it will be to obtain it. Write down the steps it takes to accomplish this. And on the days where you feel no motivation, go back to that big picture and ask yourself "Do I still want this?" If the answer is yes, turn to your reliable friend Discipline and get it done. 🖤

I want to talk about quitting.
I am a quitter. 🤷🏻‍♀️

Since I was a kid, I've quit everything. Girl scouts, talent shows, every sport you can play in high school, musicals, jobs...

And I used to be really ashamed of this. Any time I quit something, it was not without a lot of anxiety. I knew people would be disappointed, I felt like I was letting people down. 💔

But through my spiritual awakening I've come to realize what a blessing it is to be a quitter. 💫

I have tried SO many things. Being in clubs, singing publicly, playing tennis, running cross country, joining the soccer team... I even started my own spiritual health coaching business last year. And I quit all of it! 🥳 And I'm so happy I did!

I now know I'm not into clubs. I'd rather dance and sing for fun than pursue it professionally. I like tennis for a couple hours once a year. I run, but stick to 2-3 miles at most. Soccer was so hard, it's impressive that people do it tbh.

I followed my intuition to try these things and then followed my intuition about how I felt after trying it.

I know a lot of people who never try anything new for fear of failure, wasting time or money, and finding out they don't actually want it.

So what if you don't want it? Every thing you try gets you one step closer to what you DO want. Trying things and quitting is the only way to get to the bottom of your purpose here on earth. ☁️

On October 18th, I'm opened a new business - a crystal shop. I resisted this call from my intuition for months because I was so tired of quitting things and starting over. But something told me that this was this was the destination of a trip I've been on all my life. Everything I've learned from everything I've tried has lead me here. If I fail, I'll live. 🧘🏻‍♀️💜

So I say, if you're doing something you don't enjoy, go ahead and quit! Try something else. If you don't like it, quit that too! ♡ You won't truly discover your purpose if you're not willing to answer the calls of your intuition.

I'm one of those people that is always second guessing my intuition. Sometimes I don't trust myself, my desires, my daydreams. Even through my spiritual awakening, I still find myself returning to this same spot over and over again. ☁️

I find it difficult to believe that I can accomplish what I want, even though I know it's 100% possible. Even when the road is laid out before me like a detailed map.

My intuition tells me to be strong, to stand up, to embody my highest self because THAT'S who I am. 🧚🏻‍♀️ My ego cowers away... too afraid to take a step. Too afraid to go all in. What if I fail.. what if someone else will beat me to it and do it better? What if I lose all my money?

These are the hard questions and fears we face when the time has come to do something hard. Whether that's getting up on stage, quitting a job, or spending a lot of money to open your own business. The ego is so crippled by fear, you would think these things could actually kill us.

But they can't. 🤷🏻‍♀️ Even if the worst case scenario occurs: we get booed off stage, our new job isn't as great as we thought it would be, or we lose money and fail at business... it won't kill us. We will survive. Bruised and sad, sure, but alive and smarter nonetheless.

It's almost as if when we are the most afraid, that's when we should put the pedal to the metal and just fu**in' go for it. 🤘🏻 Something really spectacular might come out of it. Those strong butterflies, and yes even the fear, is your intuition telling you that this is a part of your journey and maybe even a part of your purpose. 🖤

"Do you truly know what you are trying to accomplish?" 💭
This is a journal prompt I found this morning. Even though I didn't know my answer at first, I was happy to encounter it because I have been wondering this myself.

Most of us live in our heads. 🧠 The stories and the thoughts that we hear tumbling around are the driving force of how we lead our lives. Sometimes we have a ton of ideas floating around in there about what we truly want, but we never stop to truly set the intention to accomplish them.

So I'm sharing with you my response below. I didn't think, I just started writing every word on my heart and this is what I came up with.

Afterwards I felt a lot more clarity on what my next steps in life are. I just needed to sit down and allow the true desires of my heart to flow through my pen to paper. ✍🏻

I challenge you to answer this question for yourself. Sit down and set solid intentions to achieve what you desire. 🌤 It all starts with setting your mind to what you want. The steps to get there will reveal themselves to you.

🖤 Do you truly know what you are trying to accomplish? 📝
"I'm forming it as I go.
I am trying to accomplish financial freedom.
In the way that my work frees my soul and also pays my bills.
I am trying to accomplish a life well-traveled. Trips to here and there every year until my last.
I am trying to accomplish optimum health and true, lasting confidence. Fitness and wellness are at the center of my life.
I am trying to accomplish a strong family life. Close relationships with my relatives, both living and passed.
I am trying to accomplish inner peace. Becoming connected to all and every thing.
I am trying to accomplish my experience. What I came here to do."

The other day, I had one of "those" experiences during meditation. I've been sitting down to meditate daily for over a year now. I've had pretty amazing experiences doing this.

🗺 I've created entire worlds in my own mind
🔮 I've met and spoken with my spirit guides
🖤 I've worked through my darkest secrets and fears

But this was the first time I had the experience that people often talk about. I was sitting there, cross-legged, eyes closed, hands on my knees. I was doing what I always do during meditation - flow back and forth between focusing on my thoughts and then rerouting my awareness towards my breath.

Then suddenly, I felt outside of my body. I felt as if "I" was floating just above my own head. And even though I knew I wasn't in my body, I still felt connected to my Self. More importantly, I felt connected to all that Is.

Love and joy and brilliant light filled up my entire existence. I felt no part of my Self or my body was untouched by this perfect grace.

And I had been waiting for this experience. I have sat down daily to meditate for many reasons, but I kept a strong discipline because I knew this would be the reward.

When it was over, I felt total bliss. I was at peace with even the hardest parts of my life. It's all a part of the journey. Some of it hurts real fu**ing bad, and other times you get to experience absolute perfection in a single moment of solitude. And you remember, all of it lies on the same path. ⚘

I was reading a post in a Manifestation Facebook group, where a woman was mourning the sudden loss of her dog.

Her pup fell from a high rise building and passed away in her arms. 💔 and before this happened, OP was struggling with awful and intrusive thoughts about something bad happening to her dog. She believes she manifested her dog's death. 😞

People with authority in the Law of Attraction community tend to be grossly irresponsible with their following. Sorry not sorry, it's true, and I see stories like this all the time. They tell a large audience "Everything about your life, you have manifested."

The whole time, people in that audience could have lost a child, been born without one of their limbs, have been abused by someone, or any number of things.

I'm here to tell you that it is NOT your fault. It is NOT possible to manifest a horrible circumstance for yourself.

SWIPE to see my response to her post.. I wanted to share it here because it really resonated with the OP and I can bet some others need to read it.

As someone who has dealt with tragedy of an unspeakable nature, loss so profound it changed my entire family, this is a hill I will die on. All my love to those who this resonates with. May you never again feel a single ounce of guilt for something that was totally out of your control. 🤍

Over the last couple of weeks, I've felt this pull to stop spending so much time on social media.

Ever since I quit posting on youtube, I have felt this insane sense of relief about everything in my life. I've realized the power of maintaining a certain lifestyle for nobody else but ME. It really begs the question: Why am I doing any of this? Do I workout + eat well + practice mindfulness + meditate because it's good for me? Or because I want to show it to others?

Switching my focus to instagram has been a lot more fun but I have still felt those similar feelings of burnout. And I realized it comes from my constant commercialization of my own thoughts, emotions, and spiritual journey. When I make every moment a post, I fail to fully observe what it felt like to be in that moment.

Sometimes I'm reading my oracle cards trying to get ahead of what I'm reading because I'm already trying to figure out how to paraphrase it. Sometimes I'm taking a walk thinking about how I can explain to others how beneficial it is to get out into nature. Instead of just reading my message and abosrbing its meaning, instead of soaking up nature's gifts, I'm more focused on how I can frame it for someone else's consumption.

I absolutely love sharing what I do these days. Finally, at 28, I have a strong hold on my identity, my worth, my purpose. I know what I want and where I'm going. But I need to stop and take a step back and be with it all while it's actually happening. If I can't post something profound, so be it. If I fill my feed with "filler" like old pictures with a friend, reels showing a recent trip, or posts about crystals, that's still valuable to me because it's simply enjoyable.

Even if you work instagram into a side hustle like I do, you can still be conservative with the time you spend on here. I've placed time limits on my social media using my phone and I already feel a lot lighter. My time on social media will be to share what I want to, see what you're up to, and support other creators. After that, I'll be busy with the present moment. 🤍✌🏻

Any other women out there feel like you struggle with being feminine?

Sometimes I feel like I missed some instructions somewhere along the way. I find it hard to be naturally intune with my body, to be open to receiving, and to fully relax and enjoy life.

But the truth is, our society simply values masculinity over femininity. It's all about the grind, the hustle, the control, the force. Even those of us that wish to have more feminine attributes tend to get stuck in this masculine flow.

So lately I've been challenging myself to be softer. To slow down and let go of control. To melt into love and desire and sensuality and sweetness. To stop producing a life and instead begin creating one.

I invite you to lean into your feminine. I invite you to explore the desires of pleasure and joy in your heart. Seek out what makes you laugh, what gives you butterflies, what simply calls your name.

Love and light abounds when we finally balance these masculine and feminine energies. You might be surprised at what flows more easily for you once you tap into this. ♡

I truly believe most people have not felt the present moment since they were children. And when they were children, they hardly knew what the present moment was.

As adults, our thoughts keep us everywhere but "here". We're always thinking about what's to do next, where we will go tomorrow, what we did in the past, where we went wrong before.

What you don't know is, if you're able to actually step into presence, and bring your full awareness to only what's happening in front of you... you will experience the most delicious, satisfying, relaxing moment of your life.

Yes, the present moment feels like perfection. It feels exact and purposeful and deserved. It feels open and expansive, yet limited to this very second. And every following second is an equal feeling of ecstasy.

Practicing your awareness through meditation is more than just dealing with anxiety or slowing your tumbled thoughts.

It's the gift of true and honest experience. It's the gift of committing even the most mundane tasks to memory. It's the gift of feeling so whole, of feeling like love and gratitude and light personified.

Meditation, presence awareness, benefits every single one of us. Not only personally, but externally as well. We are calmer, nicer, more forgiving because we know in our hearts all we have is this moment. And when you truly know that from the bottom of your heart, you will always choose loving kindness.

Start your meditation practice today. Download the Insight Timer app or look up a guided meditation on YouTube. Choose a 5 minute meditation to get you started. And then promise yourself you will do it again tomorrow.

It's a long game that lasts for life. But the more disciplined you are in your practice, the faster you will evolve into a portal for the present moment. Your DNA will change, you will change on a cellular level. This is the gift of the present moment... being truly here for every moment we steal of our borrowed time on earth.

Being in a place, mentally, where I can show you this picture of my body exactly the way it is... is nothing short of a miracle for me.

I have lived my entire life hiding under clothes, good lighting, weird poses, other peoples' bodies... anything to prevent me from having to show up as my true self.

You might think this will be a post about body positivity but it's not. It's about body acceptance.

For so so so many people, being able to just exist without extreme shame for the way they look is an imposibility. At 28 years old it is just now becoming a part of my reality.

I hiked in a sports bra around a lot of people. I took photos just standing there. I felt perfectly fine about my natural body. No need to change or pose or cry over what I wish I saw.

Just acceptance. This is me. This is my time on this plane. I am going to exist as I am and let the rest go. 💜

These pictures are from our time at Starved Rock this summer. 🥰

I'm pretty shocked about how much of what I know now has been whispered to me throughout my entire life. 💭

My parents have passed down advice to me about creating the life I want, never giving up, being bold in my pursuits. I use the same mantras through my manifestation practices today.

I wrote poetry years ago about my soul ties to this planet and finding meaning in the small joys of every day. I sing the same tunes in my meditations today.

When I was a child, I would fantasize about a life where I found recognition for my unique ideals. Where my natural gifts would bring me a community of like minded people. I use those talents in my presence online today.

Our lives are a manifestation of what is possible in this universe. When I look back I can clearly see the seeds for my awakening to this have been planted all the way.

And everybody has been a part of it. Each person who has passed through my awareness falls within the plane of yin and yang. For better or worse, they all have been a part of the journey that led me here. 🔮

If you're feeling lost, if you're not sure you're surrounded by the right people... keep that idealic life you dream of in the center of your mind's eye. Give grace to yourself on this journey. Your purpose is being revealed to you now. 💙

Letting go of all the control I thought I had over my life. In some ways it feels pretty terrifying. Following my intuition with full trust sometimes makes me feel like I'm more likely to fail. It's really hard for me to put my heart above my head.

But in other ways it has truly transformed my entire life. There have always been deep desires that I've had or things that I just wanted to DO but couldn't because I was afraid of xyz.

Now I trust that my desires and my intuition are coming from my highest self. And since I want to embody my highest self, I have let go of trying to control every outcome, and instead stick to planning what I can and letting everything else fall into place.

Holding my gorgeous new lemon calcite sphere from 💛 and wearing my new crystal rings from ☁️

I want to quickly touch on stillness. 🌫 Never in my life have I felt more compelled to fully relax. I don't mean that I'm not focused on or working towards my goals. I have plenty and they're always a priority.

But after months of being in my masculine energy, with focus like an arrow 🏹, flying towards a specific target at a specific trajectory... I know it's time to stop.

It's time to relax into the stillness of my feminine energy. Instead of an arrow, my focus becomes a wide reaching puddle of still water. I am open to new ideas and epiphanies about myself and my purpose. 🌌 They will come to me as I make joy and pleasure my top pursuits for awhile.

This is the power of listening to your intuition when it comes to when to work and when to relax. When to produce and when to create. If you've been in one or the other for too long, you might feel a great imbalance inside.

Stay tuned for my video tomorrow I'll be posting on IGTV, which further explains the feminine and masculine. ☯️

It's exhausting.

The shame and the emotional pain that comes from hating your body... it's exhausting. Every dressing room, every reflection, every photo is like.. "this s**t, again?" 💔

I have spent so many years hiding my body. Even as a young girl I'd spend every sweltering summer wearing hoodies, long pants, and tennis shoes. Even my feet wouldn't make the cut.

Years later, I gave in to my urges to buy cute clothes. Yet I put these on and in the mirror I'd feel this rage welling up inside of me - "This is NOT how this is supposed to look."

I'm just tired. I don't want to play anymore. I just want to forget about it. I just want to see something I like, put it on my own body, and move on. It's not that I want to be perfect, I just want to not punish my SELF because of the condition of my BODY. They are not the same thing.

I bought this swimsuit feeling that way. I was cautiously excited. When it came, no, it didn't look the way I hoped. But I wore it anyway. I was only going to be with my boyfriend and my best friends, so I just told myself "it's going to be okay."

My back fat spilled out of the back. My bu******ks and sideboobs saw the sun for the first time in my life. I got sunburnt in the places that have been kept covered since I was a little girl.

And guess what? I survived. Our ego will have us in such fear of "bad" feelings such as shame and embarassment that we will avoid it as if it's a death sentence. Shame and embarassment are fully surviveable. All you have to do is just put on the suit and see for yourself.

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Hi everyone, happy Monday! ❤
I made this weekly calendar just to give me and my girls a little motivation and I thought I would share it with everyone!

Let me know if you decide to follow along! I can possibly make one of these every week. 🥰

Hello everyone! I hope you're all doing well. The concept of the "self" - particularly the loss of the self - is something that has fascinated me over the last several years. Once I came across this article (linked in the description of this video), I was struck with the realization that I had lost my sense of self and I had completely lost my personality.

In today's video, we are talking about how to recover from this and how to cultivate a rich, beautiful personality. In the end, I hope you can rediscover your sense of self. I truly hope you get something out of this one and, please, don't hesitate to share it with someone who might need it! xo,Hannah

https://youtu.be/HldP4NZMlpc

The Loss of the Self and Personality ♥ Mental Health / Bipolar Disorder Hello my loves, I hope you're all doing well. The concept of the "self" - particularly the loss of the self - is something that has fascinated me over the la...

Hi friends! Today I'm taking on a topic that has been discussed many times over. I thought - this might be a bit generic - but as always, TalkingBrat has some valuable and unique advice on this common problem.

ALL of us have experienced periods in our lives where everything is out of order and we have lost our direction entirely. In today's video, I'm giving you all the tips on getting your life back together. How to spot the problems, how to change them, and how to make it last. I hope you enjoy! xo, Hannah

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How to Get Your Life BACK Together ♥ Mental Health Hi friends! Today I'm taking on a topic that has been discussed many times over. I thought - this might be a bit generic - but as always, TalkingBrat has som...

Today I'm trying my hand on a pretty sensitive topic: how to set boundaries. Many of us find ourselves lost in certain relationships that drain us or harm us emotionally and mentally.

In today's video, I talk about how we can cope with that and how we can set boundaries to restructure our relationships to be more healthy for us. As always, my DMs are open over on Instagram if you want to chat privately! xo, Hannah


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Mental Health ♥ How to Set HEALTHY Boundaries Hi friends! Today I'm trying my hand on a pretty sensitive topic: how to set boundaries. Many of us find ourselves lost in certain relationships that drain u...

Hi friends! In today's video we're talking about another one of my favorite topics - the Ego. I first learned about the ego last year when I started my spiritual journey and it changed my perception of my entire life. Now, instead of leading with fear, I lead with faith in my abilities and confidence in my work. I do things that scare me but it's because I know that they are for my highest good. All of this is possible because of the work I've done with my Ego. I really hope you enjoy this video! xo, Hannah 🤍



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Spiritual Healing ♥ What is the Ego and How Do You "Kill" It? Hi friends! In today's video we're talking about another one of my favorite topics - the Ego. I first learned about the ego last year when I started my spiri...

Hi guys! Today's video is actually super personal but something I wanted to chat about. I think it's very common to struggle with intrusive thoughts and even believe in them as if they are truth. Today I want to talk about how to get out of that mindset and find peace in the present moment. I hope you enjoy! xo Hannah

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Mental Health ♥ Intrusive Thoughts and False Narratives Hi guys! Today's video is actually super personal but something I wanted to chat about. I think it's very common to struggle with intrusive thoughts and even...

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I have a new video up!

If you are the person that thinks meditation is the complete absence of thought or a totally empty head- PLEASE WATCH!

Not only do I tell you what meditation is NOT (hint: see above sentence), but we go over what it is, how to do it in its simplest form, and WHAT'S THE POINT OF IT.

Meditation has completely and totally transformed everything about my life and I can't express enough how beautiful of an experience it is. Do yourself a favor and start a meditation practice today! And if you don't know where to start, watch this video!
xoHannah

https://youtu.be/Rk3Ta-BYAjk

Meditation 101 ♥ What Is It and What's the Point? Hi guys! In today's video we're talking about the basics - and I mean BASICS - of meditation. This video is really for the beginner but I know all my viewers...

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Men, you are worthy of deep spiritual, mental, and physical healing.

You deserve to feel at peace with no anxiety.
You deserve to feel confident and sure of yourself.
You deserve to feel healthy and strong.

You don’t have to have a girlfriend or a high paying job or a five-year plan in order to be worthy of any of that. No matter where you are right now, you can choose right in this moment that you are going to start putting yourself first.

Start doing things for YOU:
- Start a meditation practice.
- Begin a workout program.
- Pick up a journal and start writing about your thoughts and feelings HONESTLY. Nobody is going to read it, I promise, so be honest when you write about how you feel.
- Practice gratitude for everything going right for you
- Look into the mirror and say affirmations such as, “I am going to have an amazing life. I am worthy of all that I am about to receive. I am attracting the most loving and loyal people into my life. I am good and kind and the universe rewards me with love and abundance.”
- Pick up a new hobby.
- Love yourself. Nobody will have your back like you.

And if you have deep rooted mental health struggles, find out today where you can go and talk to somebody. Why? Because you do not need to be wandering around in your one and only life feeling depressed and hopeless. Give yourself the chance to make deep, cognitive changes in your mindset. Give yourself the chance to change your story.

Your best self is waiting to take the reins in your life. You just have to make a choice that that’s who you want to be - your best self. You will make mistakes and stumble along the way, but you will figure it out. Keep that big picture in your mind’s eye and you cannot fail. You are intelligent, capable, strong, and worthy. Live your one life to the fullest.

And be a good man. They’re hard to come by and the world needs more of them.

All love,
xoHannah