Oliver Fenelon Chee

Something a little bright and bittersweet to HAHAHHAAA balance out the violent themes so far.

I started writing this song back in 2015 and over the years it’s been building as I’ve grown as a songwriter. If you look at the lyrics I think you can really pinpoint a slight shift in my maturity level through the song.

When I wrote, ‘It was fun to pretend it was hard’, I was honestly just hinting to how I wasn’t putting all of me into school. I didnt value the lessons more than I valued appealing to people. Even if it made me look dumb, I got a response and I loved that. (toxic lol)

When I wrote ‘I regret not saying good-bye’, it was a good one year later. Things got really emotional between the friend group and I definitely handled it poorly. I still it's safe to say, we all did. But I could have done a better job at communicating. A WAY better job.

Bringing us to today; I’m releasing all these songs after making the decision not to go to a college (constrictions a type of student visa places on me). Ironic considering the line, ‘Afraid to move into a fortuned dorm, yet I’m just not too satisfied’, was written last year.

What’s nice though is the line where I acknowledged how i ‘performed’ my identity. In alot of ways, we all still perform to each other, but I think I’m learning to react naturally nowadays instead of reacting how i believe i should. if that makes sense. omg.

Overall, this is what I love about this song, it’s a short timeline of my transition from a kid to young adult, always still a little naive, but trying his best.

link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cry76-2z0xc

Warning : Paragraphs

The night before the release i finished a version of the lyric video that did not have the animojis. it was ready to be sent to the public and I went to bed at 2AM after editing and choosing to drop the animojis for some much needed rest.

But on the day of the release i woke up and whilst in the shower, realised i made a mistake dropping the anomji section. I needed the cute, adorable characters singing such dark lyrics over the background of my mouth vomiting toothpaste, that was the only reason i even took the toothpaste footage. not to mention the high-pitched vocals need these cartoons, the symbolism of the whole scene drives the message of the whole song home and also the SUPER CUTE ghost in the beginning was there to allude to this section. dropping the animojis was the worst thing to do.

so i finished working at my job and rushed for 3 hours, just moments before the release. i filmed/edited all the animoji sections and honestly the cuteness of all the animojis gave me the energy to keep going, because i was running on very little sleep and sum stress, which the animojis just *snap* took away. i sat there with my tired eyeballs and thought to myself like ‘wow. i really get to sit here and make my art.’.

I ended up finishing it and then putting it out I believe at 2PM, 2 hours after the song was on streaming platforms. I just looked at that cute lil octopus wiggling it’s tentacles and I truly felt happy. The video was complete, the song felt complete and I knew I had a bunch of promo, plus another music video to make; but this video that I just exported, this one is finally done and it’s really special.

I’m looking down cuz my phones in my hand.

This is a recurring thing in most of my photos. If you go back and have a look at my ‘convinced’ EP cover or even the ‘walking' cover you’ll notice I’m looking right down. That’s me looking at the phone to see what the camera sees, I control the autofocus, I adjust my body to get the pose I want and then I click the capture button.

https://youtu.be/tSiFiE2Wlww

I’m really proud of this lyric video.

The original plan was to spread all the 'butcher-knife' shots throughout the whole video, but I ran out of them by the first chorus. And looking back, even though it was a lot of work to add on literally everything else. The video is packed with some many different segments of symbolism and imagery and I'm just honestly really excited and happy about it cuz I'm PRETENTIOUS.

lol also I'm not using this duct tape on my mouth again, the glue on it is like... it tastes wrong.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tSiFiE2Wlww

all this cassssh https://youtu.be/9CAQaE8Wx0c

🚫❤️ here’s the link to the lyric video: https://youtu.be/4FZPfEwa3Nk

keep your validation is out now 🚫❤️

https://open.spotify.com/track/6oz5LcOTLUTzU2OLSTKStN?si=C6SR9Rz9QY6rAw1tcrS8dQ

r we excited?

as u can see by my dancing and wrist movements. i am okay.

my macbook charger is broken so

pick it up if it bothers u 😝✌🏽

well... i must say this remaster is pretty lit.

https://open.spotify.com/track/2rDCPwJUlhoq893q00gxLv?si=Homyo8v7TluSaP26SheK0A