Kerrie Louise Somatics

There has been something beautiful about navigating the loss of my dad in the embodiment I have now

Every day I have an approval for where I am in the portal of loss, something I have worked very hard in my practice to cultivate

The days where I don’t want to do anything, there’s approval

The days when I’m showing up sad, there’s approval

The days I feel good and joyful, there’s approval

The days I feel angry, there’s approval

This approval and acceptance of myself took me dedicated practice to cultivate, it wasn’t what I grew up with

It’s not always 100% approval, there are absolutely parts of me that need convincing that it’s ok to slow down, to reschedule, and to let things slide

Because each day is different, there are things to organise, and people to speak to, and you never know when that next layer of grief is going to hit you

Getting to this place is a result of me checking in with myself every day, acknowledging my feelings, loving myself exactly where I am, and showing up to life with the capacity I have, and nothing more

Knowing this is exactly where I am right now, and nothing about that needs to change

We are often brought up so unaccepting of our range of fluctuating human experiences and energy levels, that we become harsh and punishing towards ourselves

And so we never learn what true love and genuine ease in our system feels like, even when we think we are doing everything ‘right’

My worth used to be pegged to a certain version of productivity and outward ‘success’

It took me a decent amount of internal suffering inside of that reality to realise that all we have is what is in this moment and how connected and present we feel to our surroundings and those around us

If we can, just for a moment, learn to accept ourselves right where we are ❤️

To all my beautiful community here online

I’m heartbroken to share that last week my father passed away 💔

Our family is so grateful for the outpouring of love and support we have received in this time

I have been deep in the grieving portal for the past year as Dad went through his journey with cancer

I always thought my Dad would live many, many more years, but unfortunately this wasn’t his soul’s journey, and that’s the part that leaves a mark on you that you never fully come to terms with

Whilst he was sick Dad and I had many conversations about the nature of life, grief, death and what it means to let go

I’m so grateful for those conversations, they meant everything to me, and without his sickness we would not have found those places of deeper connection that we did

I will continue to be humbled by this experience of life, and the bigger plan that’s being orchestrated that I can’t comprehend

I feel broken and shattered and at the same time trusting and grateful of his journey and my own, and the lessons we came here to teach each other

He gave me so many of the traits I love about myself, and we also had karmic wounds to heal side by side

The last time I saw him I told him this wouldn’t be our last lifetime together and I truly believe that

I’ll be forever grateful that I chose this man as my father, for the incredible parts, and the hard ones

Journey well Dad, and just like we spoke about, I hope you come back and truly find yourself in the next lifetime

❤️

Masterclass tomorrow Monday September 9th

These are the final 24 hours to register ❤️

Link is in my bio 🔥

The way to heal and stop recreating from our pain is to feel it

A lot of the times we will lose connection with the felt-body or split from ourselves inside of our emotional reactions

If there was no repair in our early childhood and onwards, then we will not feel familiar in feeling our hurt and grief in entirety

If there were no boundaries and our personal space was violated, then we will not feel comfortable connecting with our anger

From this place it becomes easier to create a false persona or sense of self that lives ‘above’ the pain and stress we carry inside.

However to truly liberate and connect with our true nature, we must travel within the hurt and trapped emotions as they are part of our natural expression and the movement of our soul through the body

When we do this, and come out of our fractured state, we are able to:

🌹 Develop security in our relationships
🌹 Feel confident in who we are
🌹 Set boundaries and request what we need
🌹 Follow the path that feels most aligned for us in life

All of this because as we begin to feel ourselves, we free ourselves of the emotional co-dependency created by suppressing our feelings

I’m running a once-off free masterclass this coming Monday September 9th

You can join us via the link in my bio ❤️

The felt-body is the key to our greatest power, from our biological needs, to our emotional state, to our intuition and desire

All of it leads us closer towards a place of healing and liberation from the modern challenges and stress we face as a result of dissociation from our felt-body

Our true feelings aren’t the scary part, it is our fear and resistance, and the stories we tell ourselves to keep us out of connection with ourselves

Our greatest power is indeed found in the places that modern society has deemed as unloveable and shameful

That core disconnection from our humanity holds the medicine we need to liberate ourselves from our repeating patterns, if we are willing to listen

I’m running a once-off free masterclass for women this Monday September 9th

I will be teaching you the foundations of my AlchemBody™️ formula to support you to powerfully reconnect with the truth of yourself, and to unlock the medicine and beauty stored in your most unloved places

I can’t wait to see you there, join via the link in my bio ❤️

When I was a teenager I was diagnosed with chronic fatigue…

I had so little resource in my system that I had no steady stream of energy to move from

It was all leaked or extracted from

It left me feeling like this starving and scarce little girl on the inside

Those patterns in me, to leak my energy and let other people feed off it, continued through life into adulthood until I chose to get to the bottom of my trauma and create something entirely different for my life.

Scarcity arises from a place of not feeling enough as we are, it then takes and extracts from others as it is not self-generating, it’s based in survival and fear and relies on unconscious grabbing to stay afloat. There is no receptivity inside of scarcity, it is just taking and leaking.

Abundance arises from the deep knowing that we are enough, it is based in true connection, receptivity and genuine giving from a place of authenticity and love.
There is no taking or getting inside of abundance, there is just overflow from an already full cup.

This is why it is important to heal co-dependency within us.
Those of you who were scarce in any way as a child meaning you couldn’t find nourishment from those around you, whether it manifested in low energy, eating disorders, hyper vigilance, attention disorders, depression, perfectionism, or other body-mind disruptions…

Ultimately need to learn to cultivate true resource and wellness within, so you can heal, and open to receiving true abundance from the world around you

Join me for my next free masterclass for women on September 9th.

Link is in my bio to join ❤️

I looked in all the wrong places to get the love I truly wanted through my lifetime because there was a gaping hole where love was meant to be, but I had no idea how to fill it

I felt so fractured.

It wasn’t until I devoted myself entirely to loving every inch of the part of me that felt unworthy, unloved, and unwanted, that I truly got to experience what it feels like to be filled by love, instead of fear, in this lifetime

This concept of love, a concept I’d grappled with for years, I would feel like I got a taste of love, just to feel it slip away again, leaving me in the same scarce place inside

Guarded and protected by fear.

To walk in service to self-love really is nothing short of courageous, because to become whole is something so unfamiliar to most of us

We are taught to remain fractured, to give parts of ourselves away in an attempt to get a tiny bit of nourishment, to soothe the sense of lack for just a moment

Rather than walk the path of truly returning home to the love and ease we deserve at our core

I’m running a free masterclass for women on September 9

This will likely be the last free live masterclass for a while

Link is in bio to join us! ❤️

This is a conversation about how we relate with death and attachment overall

These moments are an opportunity for reflection and a sign that we need to make radical change in our lives

Death is an opportunity for change, to let go of old physical attachments and ways, and to allow something new and beautiful into our lives

It is the attachment to the old, and the gripping to the pattern that creates our suffering, and therefore the cycles of wanting something to end, or feeling like we want life to stop

Whilst confronting, this isn’t a bad thing, it is your body and mind’s way of moving you in a more positive direction

It is an opportunity to begin to listen to something different within yourself, to orient differently in the way you connect with yourself, others and the world

However I deeply understand the internal pain that causes these moments, especially when severe

But remember that the pain is only misunderstood sensation, and allowing the feeling itself isn’t the hard part, it is the the resistance and avoidance to feeling that is excruciating and what creates hell on earth for people

My next masterclass for women is September 9.

Inside you’ll learn:

🌹 The keys to connecting with your feelings
🌹 How to process the more challenging feelings and experiences
🌹 How to orient to what is good, and what you actually desire from life
🌹 How to resolve painful and self-destructive patterns
🌹 And how to feel deeply connected to your own bliss and true, sustainable joy

Link in bio to register ❤️

Narcissism. Now up on my Substack.

This one is a must read for everyone.
Narcissism exists, but when we live in a time that people would rather weaponise therapy speak than actually understand what causes people to disconnect from empathy and one another

Everything is on a sliding scale, and that scale is connected to our capacity to love and understand humanity, first and foremost ourselves, and then by default those around us

When we understand, it means we have done the work to understand ourselves, it also means that we can set clearer boundaries with the exact behaviours that don’t feel supportive for us without our unprocessed anger and traumas being used as a tool to demonize

This all is reflected back in how secure, intimate, and truly fulfilling our relationships can be, so addressing your unprocessed hurts and pain is well worth it for your overall wellbeing

If you create a secure relationship with yourself based on thriving, this will be reflected back to you by those around you and what you attract

Read the article at:
kerrielouise.substack.com

Link in bio ❤️

Everyone has those parts that they believe so shameful that they want to hide them from the world

Those parts that we are so used to rejecting

We’ll walk around not realizing that there are people that can absolutely love you there, I’m not saying everyone, but the people who have genuinely learned to heal and love themselves

The protection and behaviour mechanisms we carry keeps love out because it’s all we know, it’s not until we turn towards these parts and begin to believe that we are deeply lovable, that a whole new reality opens up for us

And we begin to feel secure, at ease and confident in the world and our relationships

As someone who suffered from a dysregulated nervous system, trauma and mental health issues in my past, it’s my mission to support others to know they are deeply lovable and to offer them the proven strategies to lean into those uncomfortable places so they can transform themselves from the inside out

In running a free masterclass for women on September 9th. This 2.5 masterclass will teach you the proven pathway that you can use to discover what is keeping your dysregulated and stuck, and how to alchemise these pieces to become the most secure version of yourself

And if you are ready for deeper, 1:1 targeted support for your healing and transformation, my 1:1 packages are where that happens ❤️

Links for everything are in my bio, or DM me for more info

New post over on my Substack

kerrielouise.substack.com

I was such a chronic people-pleaser

I felt like a puppet on a string, just waiting for the next person who needed me

I wasn’t used to orienting to myself, to what I wanted or needed

So I would unconsciously set things up in a way that I was constantly needed by things outside of me, and then have no space or resource for myself

It was completely unconscious because I didn’t actually know I was allowed to orient to what I wanted and needed to feel good

I was just trying to get everything right, and then I wondered why I was so burnt out

Being my own person felt entirely foreign to me, but it is the natural result of the individuation process when we are done with living for others and truly begin to come into contact with ourSelves

People-pleasing can often originate from what feels like a jolt in the nervous system, or a sense of fear or panic like something is going to go wrong if you’re not available or ‘on’

People can feel extreme guilt for resting or switching off which leads to burn out, depletion and depression

But it’s possible to heal through learning to reorient to ourselves, taking action to nourish our bodies, recognising what we need to feel good, and being around people who are also working on being secure in their own body and mind and setting boundaries

Where are you on your journey of recovering from people-pleasing? 👇🏼

We all carry some form of wounding around being cared for

Where those around us were too distracted to be present and truly see and understand us

But it’s not the outside world that distracts us from what really matters, those are merely tests to see how strong we are internally

It is our capacity to know what we want, align ourselves with those values, and let go of the things that are purely a distraction

No one wants a partner with wandering eyes or who is easily distracted by the next thing, it shows weakness of character

No one wants a friend who does not open their heart and offer themselves vulnerably to connection

No one wants to work with someone with entitlement who takes their job for granted

It’s all in character and the responsibility we take for serving what matters deeply to us

No one wants flaccid. No one wants distracted. No one wants guarded. No one wants emotionally ungrounded.

It shows lack of self-love, which equals a lack of capacity to love others.

These are thing we cultivate within us, by doing our inner work to truly love ourselves at a core level, and naturally becoming a no to the things that distract us from the depth of love we know we are capable of ❤️

I have been reflecting today on what I need to let go of with this full moon, it is also the first day of my bleed and I am closing off a big cycle both internally and externally

The greatest lesson I believe I have learned in this lifetime is to truly choose what success is to me

I have invited in people who would test me and try to pull me from what I know it means to be successful in this lifetime

Outer successes are beautiful and you should, and will, absolutely cultivate them and shine within them

But for me the inner success I create, the intimacy of my connections, the depth of my relationships, the groundedness in my nervous system, how at peace I feel within myself and what I have created

That for me is everything.

This comes from our capacity to face our shadow and the shadow of humanity, to be able to look the darkness of the void in the eye and discover what it needs to transform into a sense of enoughness.

I held on to hurt and pain for a long time in my life, it made me depressed, frozen, anxious, disconnected and chronically stressed

Things I do not associate with success.

To let go of the past and those internal hurts means we also let go of the force and striving we apply to achieving all the things we hope will solve those deeper pains

And instead we build the capacity to truly create what is true

And serve something far deeper than our own desire for personal gain

❤️

Your foundation is the place from which you will create and hold everything in this lifetime

If things aren’t what you know they could be, then the foundation within you is off

The internal operating systems are moving from your wounds and traumas, ie everything that is NOT YOU

Instead of from your true strengths, consciousness and capacity

The key here is to consistently build upon that foundation

If you build a house without setting the foundation, the first strong wind that comes along has the potential to cause complete havoc!

Havoc that leads to crippling self-doubt, and giving up on your dreams

If you have little foundation for goodness, you will have little capacity to create goodness

If you have a foundation of fear, lack and scarcity, you will create more of the same

Begin each day considering the foundation you are setting for yourself and show up from there

The rest will naturally sort itself out, if you just build upon your own secure foundation

❤️😘

The scarcity wound

It is what I see time and time again causes all kinds of issues, as it is at the core of dysregulation of the nervous system

It creates the core fear and uncertainty we hold around resource and connection

Not feeling secure around money, not feeling secure around love, not feeling secure around people, not feeling secure around life…

It all comes down to how abundant and resourced we are within, vs how hard we try to externally fill the void we feel inside

Understandably life doesn’t feel fulfilling or worth living if we are not connected to the abundance of love at our fingertips

And instead is filled with fear, confusion and anguish

For most people they didn’t feel deeply seen, valued and understood by those around them growing up

That’s purely because most people in our culture are treated as products, not unique individuals with varying needs and desires

And we come from a long line of people that have been treated this way, and learned to treat others this way

Most people see others as a means to an end, rather than people to care for and learn about

And so to heal, we need to learn how to deeply value ourselves

How to love ourselves from the inside out, weird human quirks and all

We have to fall madly in love with our individuality and what we are here for in this lifetime

Only from there can we love abundantly, and receive love in abundance

Before that it all falls somewhere on the spectrum of manipulation and extraction, meaning we do weird-ass things in order to try and get love and attention

None of which actually fill the space we feel inside…

As only truly presence will do that ❤️

We all hold incredible darkness

Shame is one hell of a drug that keeps not only our darkness locked in, but by default our light

The depth to which we can love is equal to how deeply we have befriended our own darkness

I have had to love myself in some incredibly dark places

The pain, the anger, the depression…

Blame it on all my Scorpio placements, but I just had to know what happened if I went head-first into the dark

Maybe I never came out?

Or maybe I would learn to bring myself out one step at a time

By discerning what was truly within my control and what was creating my own pain and suffering

Like most people I’d used things outside of me all of my life to keep me distracted

I’d always wanted to know what deep inner-peace felt like, but left to my own devices I just wanted to hide, curl up in a safe place away from the world and numb out

I was so under-resourced that I couldn’t find it within myself to truly take any steps towards my own happiness, all I could do was just keep getting up, surviving, and hoping I’d make it through

But still my soul’s calling kept nagging at me

Could I truly be great whilst no one was watching?

Could I be great just for myself?

Could I truly become one of those people that lived and breathed their purpose and values?

Could I be the person that didn’t tolerate my own BS?

For a long time the answer was no.

I think back on the muck, the escapism, the avoidance, the numbing and I have such deep compassion for that girl who was just trying to make it through with the tools she had

But even when I was just holding it together, and every step forward felt like I was slammed with more of the same darkness that wanted to consume me, I knew I had something to prove to myself in this lifetime

More importantly I had something to prove to my younger self: that I could become the love that was missing from her life.

I believe that loving in those dark places is by far the toughest thing we can do

You have to love when everything you’ve been taught is telling you to reject yourself

And when there is far more evidence for self-hatred than self-love

You have to show up and choose the light every single time ❤️

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Expecting an outcome that we have not invested in becoming a match for

We are always receiving what mirrors the deepest parts of us, so if we have little of what we truly want, then we are moving in a large part from a sense of entitlement and passivity

Rather than conscious aligned action

If you want to be financially free then you need to work at managing your finances

If you want to be healthy then you need to work at being fit and eating well

If you want to be emotionally and mentally well then you have to do the work to become it

If you want to have healthy relationships then you need to do the work to understand yourself and communicate well

It all starts with your desire, and not sitting on it and thinking you can create things from fantasy, but serving the truth of who you are daily through your devotion

Showing the universe that you aren’t taking anymore of your own BS and that you mean business, is the quickest way to move from where you are to where you want to be

Your intention and the direction of your energy will be the most important thing you ever cultivate in your life

And having an awareness of your own entitlement is crucial, as no one is qualified to be responsible for your life in any way so you can play victim

Because no one cares as much as you

It’s you who has to go to lay in bed each night with your own thoughts and feelings

It’s you who has to live every moment in your own body and mind

No one can transform that except for you

Entitlement is a hell of a thing but it’s easily transmuted through consistently effort

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The last place people often turn is towards themselves

People believe they can heal their trauma by continuing to do most of the same things. But in reality you need to be willing to consistently shift your choices and behaviours in order to take care of yourself

All of those blind spots need to be rediscovered and the stories and patterns unraveled

You get one body and mind in this lifetime, you deserve for it to be an easeful place for you to live ❤️

I think it’s time I reintroduced myself for all of the new people here ❤️

I’m Kerrie

I’m a trained somatic coach & I work with women to heal from their past and create a deeply secure embodiment, so that they can create a life & relationships that truly nourish them 🌹😘

My work came to be because I didn’t know if there was a way out of the pain I felt inside. I’ve spent the past decade actively studying the pathways into the body & mind, from trauma healing, to s*xuality, to mindfulness for metal health, to rites of passage and lots more.

I’ve been teaching for the past 8 years & my greatest joy is walking side by side with women as they come home to themselves & discover their true nature beyond the hurt and confusion they have carried in their bodies

Although I have trained extensively and devote my time to understanding our relationship with ourselves & others, this isn’t what makes me great at what I do

It’s because I have healed myself through this work.

Although I know we are always healing in that we are continually opening to more love, I have brought myself out of survival, created security in myself and my relationships, and continue to cultivate more and more thriving in my body and mind every day

The list of symptoms I have healed within is endless, and for this I am beyond grateful 🙏🏼

This is my deepest desire for the women I work with, the ones that truly want more for themselves & the ones they love ❤️

I have had incredible support in my embodiment journey, and I am devoted to being the best I can be at what I do, so I can truly support those around me to heal and thrive

I am deeply committed to being the best human relationally that I can be, whilst also being very, very human, and that means surrounding myself with people who are truly committed to their growth from the inside out!

This is a place for continual learning, for being vulnerable, and for continually humbling ourselves

If you are attached to an idea of yourself, you may not like it here

If you want to keep your heart guarded, you may not like it here

But if you’re open, you will probably LOVE it here!

Thank you for landing here ❤️

If you need a WHY, this is it

You as a little girl never cared about things, or fame, or achievements

You cared about presence, connection, security, love, and seeing her parents (the people she loved the most) happy

You wanted to know that love and secure, easeful connection was possible

You wanted to know that you could take a long exhale, let go, and that everything would be alright

You wanted to know that joy was possible, that ease was possible, and that nothing was too big for people to handle, together, as a team

You wanted to know that you could trust in the beauty of life.

I have sat in some dark places on my awakening journey, and stared into the eyes of my little girl; shut down, fearful, mistrusting of life

And day by day I had to promise her that I would grow beyond the patterns, that I would not let the fear, closure and patterns of others shut me off from love and service

Because if we vow to heal her wounds, we must open again, we must forgive, not for others, but so we don’t harden and close off to joy, love and connection

We must show her that no situation is too big for us to handle, that no matter what we won’t punish her for the choices she made out of naivety

But that we will help her be responsible for her actions, and to choose better next time

Whatever the wounds that you chose to journey with in this lifetime, if you are truly devoted to breaking the cycle, it begins with opening to receiving love, connection and support again and again

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The mind and body are one unit

Regardless of whether you have brought this connection into conscious awareness or not, they are operating as one behind the scenes

What we know often as mental health issues are based in a control and repression of feeling

The feelings that aren’t accepted become buried and we create mental thoughts, logic, and patterned behaviours to make sure we don’t have to feel them

This then creates our false persona that we live through in order to get approval for this constructed version of ourselves

The only way we arrive home to the seat of who we truly are is to recognise that our body and mind can actually be an easeful place for us to exist

If that’s not your experience, then keep going until you know how to truly cultivate it

A secure, regulated and healthy embodiment is connected to feelings, it is not afraid of them

This requires us to heal from our past hurts in order to show up vulnerably inside of our connections, and be open to way more than those who came before us

Don’t let the patterns of those who came before you, dictate what is possible for you in your lifetime ❤️

ANNOUNCEMENT:

I have 4 x 1:1 packages opening this week for somatic healing sessions

These packages open up only when there is availability

These spaces get snapped up quickly.

If you would like more info, slide into my DMs and I will send you the info before anyone else, so you have the opportunity to secure a spot if it’s for you

❤️😘

I’m down with a cold this week

It’s come right on time, off the back of some huge expansion in my system the past few weeks

I’ve been reflecting on how I used to split from myself and my own felt-body when I was sick

This came from numbing my menstrual pain with pain killers when I was younger, treating my colds with medication in order to suppress the inflammation, and being disconnected from grief and loss

It took me practice to regain a good relationship with pain and inflammation that I could sit with sensation and discomfort and understand what it is here to teach me

And allow it to heal me

I have nothing against people choosing to numb parts of their experience, but numbing something never makes it go away, it will always present itself to be worked through whether now or later in life

Acting as if your body is broken or doing something it shouldn’t be doing, doesn’t bring us closer to connection or liberation

It drives us further away

And it’s just when and how we choose to meet the forgotten parts so we can free ourselves from our own avoidance and suffering.

Liberation within our own body-mind rests heavily in our capacity to remain open in the underworld

To stay present, to slow down, and to find the medicine within that comes in unexpected and mysterious ways

To know that everything that is happening is part of what you are here to meet, that nothing is a mistake, and that learning the language and intelligence of the body is by far one of the most rewarding and inspiring journeys you will EVER take

❤️😘