Bold and Courageous

It’s more then just a home gym.
It’s where I am rebuilding myself from the ground up.
It’s where I have trainers to educate me along the way.
It’s where I find my peace, and collect my thoughts.
It’s where I am finding the newer, best version of myself.
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Don’t discredit those who use home workouts, or the fitness programs, for some, like me, it’s the only way we feel comfortable digging out of the darkness, it’s the only way we are able, to step out of our comfort zones. The only way we can manage “hard”.

It’s been a minute since I posted on here, I’m in a big season of testing. Really, since august. fighting your own mind every moment of the day, challenging what’s good for you and what’s not is a battle.
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A battle that not a lot of people are strong enough to face, it gets dark, really dark, and some days even with all the support in the world, you can’t help but think you’re alone because nobody can fight the darkness, but you.
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I created this page to be raw, and real. I’m just not going to sugarcoat my bad days, but I will most definitely shout out my good days.
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Truthfully? I’ve had a few bad days recently. Trying to fight a battle on top of being sick is heavy, but Today I’m getting up kicking and screaming because well… I don’t have any other choice. It’s hard as hell, but so is staying the same.

2/21
Breakfast this morning, seriously my favorite go to meal and super thankful for my amazing husband who made it for me! Starting to feel under the weather from all the crud going around so I made sure to really focus on form. I honestly am so thankful I can just walk downstairs and do this while everyone is asleep. So thanodules for the tools I have at home to better myself and the amazing support I do have to help me reach my goals.

Making food, healthy food, apart of my life has been a struggle for me. I’ve always had issues with being mindful about choices I have made to help me reach my goals. Tonight I made a superfood pudding. Helps me with the nutrition I need for a healthy mind and body, and tastes like brownie batter. It’s so good.

Day 1/21 day fix.
Yep. I went all the way back to basics, because basics is exactly what I need right now. Going back to the containers, my shakes, all of it brand new.
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Why? Because I needed to. I need to prove to myself I can do this before I move forward, before I take on bigger goals. it takes 21 days to create habits and I intend to reword my brain in several ways over the next 21 days. 🫶🏻

I had different reasons yesterday to start this journey fresh, but at midnight last night, my WHY changed.
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Madeline woke up, throwing up, refusing to wear clothes. We spent most the night trying to control her body shakes but she refused to let us help her. Finally at 2 she let me clean her nose out give her medicine and she slept the rest of the night. At 6:30 she asked toad down on the bathroom floor with a towel so she could cool down.
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She’s okay, she’s extremely congested and tired but she was so full of drainage last night it was making her sick to her stomach and throwing her body off. All morning I’ve told her “sometimes you just have to do things you don’t want to do, in order to feel better.”
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I was able to get her up and she’s moving around, got a little food in her and she’s doing okay.
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But if we hadn’t start doing the stuff she didn’t want to do, she wouldn’t have gotten better, and it got me really thinking….

If she trusts me enough to know I am asking her to do something uncomfortable to feel better, why am I not showing her and her brother I trust myself to do the same thing with my goals?

I’m asking them to eat healthy
I take them to jujitsu 4 days a week when we’re on a regular schedule, and I limit their junk food to keep them strong and healthy…. So why am I not doing that for myself?
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It sounds so simple yet I don’t make it out to be, because I analyze every little thing it takes to get to the end goal, and never start the work.
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So I am going to try something a bit differently this time and see how it goes. 🤍

Hey y’all.
I created this space to coincide with my blog. I wanted a soace dedicated to my journey where I share my self care, cooking, workouts, and even things I write and read as I heal. I also didn’t want to cloud up anyone’s page incase they just were only interested in dog and kid pictures instead 😂 Don’t worry, they’ll make plenty of appearances on this page as well, because as you can see… Whiskey wouldn’t have it any other way.

Bare with me as I build these pages up, but please like and comment on anything that makes you laugh, moves and motivates. As always sharing is encouraged and welcomed! So feel free to share anything I post if you would like.

Thank you for your unconditional support and I’m excited to start sharing with you!
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-Ash