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Nothing to calm the storms in my mind than a new review for my second book. YAY!
I needed this so much! 😊

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Will she ever believe him?
YOUR ONE & ONLY live on KU…

I know that my books are not for everyone
I know that my books are long
I know I have a lot to learn
I know I’ve pi**ed almost everyone off
I know I’m fcked up
But no one is perfect
And no one is 100% bad or wrong

So despite all my flaws
I still think publishing two novels (>100k words each) with a deeply developed world and characters in less than twelve months
is pretty Fckn cool 😎 that is all.

Book 1 Your One & Only
Book 2 My One & Only

ARC Team open…
Have you read book 1 yet?

If you like your books with sprayed edges I am offering mine at no additional costs, just head on over to my website (www.emilielaforetbooks.com (shop link at the top)…
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Please if you have a problem with smex please don’t read this. And please do not report or I swear I’ll give up…

⚠️CSA⚠️

Poem: BJs

I never liked BJs.
The bad experiences
they still haunt me.
(shhh…I won’t go into detail
cause ch1ld abuse is always looked down upon
and blames only the victim)

Plus men taste so salty.
When I prefer sweets.

They almost always tap my temples
because they hear me
tremble and whimper…
I love hearing them say “just relax”
it feels like they’re trying to carry me through the process.
Almost like they give a crap.
Sometimes I panic and push them away, running away.
I cry and tell them I can’t do it. Sometimes they hug me
and say it’s ok.

There’s only one way I love it.
I have to be tipsy
I think it’s because
that’s the only way I can relax.
And forget the past.
It’s the only way I really don’t care
what he wants to do to me,
My mind is a numb blank
Except for him.

ANything he does or says it’s ok.
I’m too busy enjoying the taste of alcohol in my mouth.
It’s the rare moment when
I’m so fCkn happy
All my demons and anxiety gone
I can totally see why people become addicted to alcohol.

Anyways…

I hang my face
over the edge of the bed
so my esophagus is entirely horizontal. And then he f***s it.
It literally almost feels
as good as him F my 😻.
I feel so vulnerable
so dominated
but relaxed.

It makes me so hungry for it
(His d**k)
that I beg when he teases me
by taking it out of my mouth.

He dangles it
and I try to reach for it
my tongue sticking out
by lifting my head off the mattress
it’s drenched
Drops of my saliva falling down.

I get desperate to please him.
To hear him groan and roar
so loud
He groans differently in all other positions,
not as intense.

I think it’s strange my muffled screams are just as loud
and tighten
my esophagus
so he can drench my throat with his juices.

It makes me c***
right away
every time..

My last read:
The Sinner by Shantel Tessier

Review (possible spoiler)

Let me start by saying that I read this book in TWO days, which is fast for me. That means I dropped everything. It means I read it too fast. And I NEED to read it again.
My FAVORITE part of this book is the SUPER RELATABLE FMC who is a CSA SURVIVOR!
Ms Tessier, 🥺☹️🥹😭 there are a LOT of reasons I need to thank you for this FMC… THIS aid the kind of book I needed when I WAS 21 years old! And this is the book I needed to read now that Ove written a relatable FMC who’s assaulted so many times and blamed BY EVERYONE for it. There are just no words…🥺 My heart HURT. So thank you…

The MMC is in some part NOT reedamable but I LOVED HIM. I loved his passion, his unwillingness to give up on her, I loved his craziness and 🌶️🥵…

THIS IS DARK! When I say there’s Child SA and NC in this book I MEAN IT so if you’re gonna be triggered by that RUN the other way.

But again Ms. Tessier had me at ELLINGTON… I’ve read the Ritual. And I’ll be reading the other books too, but I don’t think there’s another book that can stab my heart this deep in this series, although I said the same thing for the Ritual so I’m slowly learning not to assume this with this author….

here are my ratings:
😭
👏👏👏👏🤯🤯🤯
🌶️🌶️🌶️🌶️🌶️
🌞😈😈😈

It’s been a while since I’ve tried to Rhyme…

Poem: My World

When i say you are my world
What I mean is
Your eyes are the ocean I willfully drown in
You arms are the fire I want to burn my body
Your voice is the wind I never want to stop
Your heart is the music that calms my nights.

I never want us to be apart
I need you inside me
all around me
so I can breathe peacefully

My soul is an eternal darkness
Only you can defeat it
like the sun
Only you can warm
the glacial darkness away
Only you can light up my sky
with beautiful stars full of glee and hope
Only you can keep the good growing within me
You’re my only home.

©️2023 Emilie LaForet

Book tile:?Your One and Only
Inspired art.
Yup, it’s official, I’m starting a drawing/graphics/art series inspired by my books…

What I’ve been reading for the past three weeks…

The Ritual by Shanteel Tessier

The book takes you into an alternate world with rich people having hidden societies that hold all the power of what happens in the country.

My favourite thing about this story:
I am grateful to the author for explaining a kink that is sooooo shamed in our society that it is TORTURE to so many of us. Thank you Ms. Tessier. I am forever grateful to you for this 😭…
And thank you for Ryat , who made me feel safe and accepted in a very hard week of my life.

See my review system… here’s my review in emojis:
💋💋
👏👏👏👏1/2
🌶️🌶️🌶️🌶️
🌞😈 3/4

Poem: Don’t Let Go

I’m easy to please
Just put your DCK inside me
And don’t ever leave.

I don’t need the caresses or kisses
I don’t even need sweet words
Just crash into me
pull me
And break me apart.

I just need you like a lock does a key
slip in
Turn my soul
my body
All upside down
all around
Change my world
Cause my love for this world was always lacking.

FCK me so hard
that you crack open my scars
and make me see stars.

Feels weird inside there, right?
Cold, balmy and lonely
That’s cause no one’s been home inside my soul for way too long.
Don't mind all the dried blood from the previous battles
From that last time I died.

I pushed everyone away
Burnt every bridge
Sat here alone
Just waiting for you to be ready for my love.

I tried to burn you
Time and time again
Cause only the strong
Can take this craziness
that runs all over me
inside me all the time

But you never let go.
Why? Why did you do that?

I wish you had
I wish you would have thrown me away just like the others
for some one else to chew and use
and recycle
cause I’m used to being left behind
or thrown out
like trash.

Now I have no more walls to keep you out
Now I’m vulnerable
I’m scared out of my FCKN mind!
I’m cut open
I need you
like the night needs the day
like a match needs to scrape
to light up the dark.

Now it’s too late
I’m so naked and cold and begging you to never let me go
because that would be a fate worse than death.

It’s not that I can’t breathe without you
it’s that
why the FCK would I ever want to
I’m begging you don’t let my darkness scare you away.

©️2023 Emilie LaForet

Live Sunday July 30th. Extra thanks to the hubby for helping me with the back cover!!!

MY FIRST REVIEW EVER on my FIRST BOOK EVER 😭 and it’s a 4 star on FCKN Good Reads!!! IM FCKN ugly crying, guys!
Do you know how many times I killed myself? SERIOUSLY…🥹😭
I’m ugly crying my eyes out. 😭

I cannot believe this. I just can’t. I am sooooo grateful to so many people online and off.

Don’t ever give up guys… Just don’t! Because it CANNOT, I REPEAT,
IT CANNOT RAIN FOREVER!
I love you all. Please take

😭
I miss him so much

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I got INTERVIEWED!!!

So excited and HONORED…

Here’s the link:

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Loliness…

We need to do better.
In the end, we are all humans and THATS ALL that matters PERIOD

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Poem: Stop Categorizing me and just love me

Just because we swim through life together doesn’t mean we have to do it the same way.
Swimming like this, is the only way I know happiness.
Don’t be angry that I’m different
don’t try to save me
Stop trying to categorize me
I am unique just accept it
Why can’t you just accept me
When I love you even though you are so different than anything I’ve ever met
Why can’t you see the beauty there is in my diversity?
Why do you want everyone to be the same?
If everyone is the same then how do you love them for who they are?
Is it that you are incapable of true love?

I can’t change who I am to fit your categories perfectly
When I was made they broke the mold so I do not fit in your tiny box
I would say I’m sorry but I’m not because I love me the way I am
Full of screams
Full of chaos
So stop hurting me
Stop causing all of us so much fCkn unnecessary pain.
You’re supposed to love me unconditionally
But all I see is your self hate and shame.

Poem: Destroy me
And then love me back together

I just want to suck your dick
I want you to chase me
Everywhere needing to taste and FCK the living s**t out of my p***y
Again and again
No mercy
Needing to be inside me
Because being apart is pure torture might as well be burning in hell
I want you to want me so much that you crave to wear my body like a jacket just to keep your soul warm enough to live

I want to hear you
moan
lose your breath
and then whimper
ask me what the FCK
because it’s never felt this good before.

Don’t tell me you love me. I’m tired of hearing those stupid words.
Tell me you love the inside of my torn cheek,
tell me you love the sound of my suffering
to make you feel pleasure,
That I’ll believe.

I want to hear you talking to me as I gag on your dick banging into me drowning on your salty juices
like an ocean wave filling my nose and throat making me think I’ll die
Feeling your strong arms that could destroy me holding my head in place gently but firmly

telling me I’ll always be
your pretty girl
your good girl
No matter how much
of a PMSing bitch I’ve been
that you’ll always worship only me

I want you to FCK me so hard I cry ugly and can’t move at all
but you still tell me my p***y taste of strawberries
I want you to open my soul while you FCK every hole in my body
Tell me my as***le looks so pretty now that you’ve plundered and destroyed it and give me short kisses of love all over while I cry my eyes out
tears, sweat, and cm wetting the whole mattress

Destroy me
And then love me back together

Stop acting like you don’t give a FCK like you’re dead inside
Because you’re just killing me
Slowly the girl you fell in love with is getting buried alive under your fake abusive indifference
You think it’s no big deal you’ll get me back
But you don’t understand
she’s dying
I cannot find her
I no longer know who I am
I’ll never be the same again

©️Emilie LaForet 2023

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Poem: Us Girls, we need to stick together

He broke your spirit
Broke your heart
I’m gonna suck your pu$$y until all your pieces are back together
Until you’ve come so many times you can’t remember what the fck was so important about him.

I want you to feel the electricity going into your body from my sucking at your ni***es. And after every come I’ll let you vent about him. But you will not get off that bed til you’re done with him.

Youre so fcking gorgeous,
so fcking sweet. Your pu$$y taste of mango. Your salty tears season my tongue when I lick them off your cheek. Will you scream my name while you come?

I love the rolls on your belly, more for me to kiss, and your thick lips, so delicious to nip.
Those eyes of yours so round now full of pain. It pi**es me off. No one hurts my girl and gets to breathe after.

Oh I can’t wait to break his dck on the middle with my own hands
hear him beg me to stop torturing him asking me what he did so wrong. They never understand. They never appreciate the value of a girls heart. Once you break that
there’s no going back.

Don’t worry baby.
Tonight he will pay. I’ll let you watch but only if you promise to sit there looking pretty never begging for his mercy.

That’s not nice. It will p**s me off. And I don’t want to be pi**ed off at you, I want to worship your body and mind back together.

Maybe I’ll tell you to be a good girl, dig his grave and then I can bury him alive. Yes that’s what we will do. One less useless a$$hole in the planet. We will do the world a favor…
Us girls, we have to stick together.

I’ve been so overwhelmed editing. But today I HAD to write this. And I can only pray to the empty heavens that some other little girl out there somehow hears my voice…This stranger here loves you just the way you are baby. So you Persist, cause one day you’ll be thriving so much you’ll light up the fields with your blooming. ♥️🥀

Poem: Persist

Persist
No matter what happens little one
You persist
He says something degrading
You persist
He slaps you
You persist
He touches you while you scream
You persist
He doesn’t let you go
You persist
He touches you again, much worse this time

You persist
You fight him get hit harder this time
You persist
You want to die
You FU***NG PERSIST
You try to kill him
But he laugh in your face
And then beats you again
You persist

You wake up one day and you can’t believe this has been your life
A life with no choices
A life where everything has been taken away
Everything
A life where the simple laughs have been erased
A life where the past joy hurts more than the gut punching more than your silence while he f***s you
I know
I know it makes no sense baby

But you persist
Cause I swear one day it will not be you just persisting,
It will be you THRIVING.
One day the sky will turn,
the clouds will gather for you and that thunder will be your anger killing him.
So you persist baby
Go ahead,
Lose your mind,
cry until your tear ducts dry, and almost die, but you persist.

There is no excuse,
there is no world where you deserved this,
absolutely no situation where you deserved this.
So stop searching for it. It’s his shame not yours.
But you persist, baby
Survive, keep breathing
and then one day,
when you’ve bloomed under the warmth of the sun,
he will see
he never destroyed you,
because you were always more powerful than him.

‼️ARC readers wanted‼️
Your One and Only
Due out July

This is a SLOW BURN Forbidden Dark Mafia romance novel….

John has two sides to him, the part that has always wanted to kill Stacy and the part that worships the ground she walks on.

The only reason why Stacy continues living is because of John’s love.

Oh the irony…

‼️ARC readers wanted‼️
Your One and Only

This is a Slow burn Forbidden Dark Mafia romance novel.

When he loves you but he has a dark passenger that he has to protect you from so he denies his love for you to push you away…

‼️ARC Readers needed‼️
Slow burn Forbidden Dark Romance 📕 novel:
YOUR ONE & ONLY

ARC in July…

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For my debut novel, YOUR ONE AND ONLY.
This is a dark mafia romance part of a duet in an 8 book family series. The first book is a slow burn and then the spice will go sky high.

DUE OUT IN JULY.
Triggers:
Lots of cuss words
Kid-n@pping
Stockholm Syndrome
Büllying
CSA
Psychopathy
Brief descriptions of animal unaliving
P$eudo-Ince$t
Children k.i.s.s in this story
Children commit unaliving in this story
YA Smexu@l Activity is described in detail
Multiple s.u.i.c.i.d.e. attempts
Self-H@rm
Clinical Depression/Manic Depression
Voyeurism
St@lking
DB
NC
Somnophili@
A brutal Gr@pe is briefly describe
Cliffhanger
Slow Burn

“Like a moth near the flames of rapture, her murder promised him the zenith of his satisfaction. But he couldn’t kill her. Not his bunny.”

Blurb

The Bunny
Stacy Waters lived a life of opulence and prestige, but it was all a lie. It was a façade hiding generations of secrets and carnage.
No one truly knew her, including herself, and it drove her to the brink of insanity.
Her only comfort was the illicit love of her brother, John.
When he abandoned her, she realized that love was just another distortion. In his absence, she drowned in darkness, waiting for someone like John to reciprocate her love, only to fall into the arms of monsters lurking in the shadows.

The Wolf
John Waters couldn’t reveal his true self to anyone. He was a psychopath who enjoyed killing and dreamed of making Stacy his victim every day since they met.
Through the years, a new craving that defied his nature grew stronger. Monsters like him weren’t supposed to fall in love.
He tried to protect her by breaking her heart — again and again — but that only fueled the fire between them. It only made Stacy more determined and tempting. So, he did the one thing she always begged him not to. He left.
What would you do to protect the one you cherish from your darkness?

Well this came as a surprise. Which I could do the illustrations that ran through my mind but I have Zero time.

When I was a little girl
I was fooled into believing there’d be magic
There was supposed to be
fairies
Goblins
Trolls
Witches
unicorns
Dragons

Sparkling spells that swam through the air
to make the days brighter for those who cared
Or darker for those who misbehaved and didn’t brush their teeth all night and day

But then I somehow took the wrong turn
Found myself in the belly of a giant beast
It was dark inside
I had not packed any matches
It was cold inside
I forgot to wear my jacket

But the worst was
I didn’t Like being so alone

So I hung on to the hands of the first person I saw
Thinking anyone is better than none

I didn’t know he was a monster
Who loved destroying the lives of little girls

I guess you’re not supposed to come Out of the belly of a monster the same Person

There were many things i forgot in the dark cold belly
many things I had to leave to fit through the dark tunnel that I crawled through in hopes of coming
Back
to being me
But the thing I miss the most
Is my ability to see and feel the sun
Everywhere I go the colors are so muted
They never scream in cheer anymore

Now I know
There is no sparkle to make me forget
No witch to help me find the old me
No unicorn to kiss the pain away
No goblins and trolls to play with
And no dragons to defend me
Or to burn me free of this bad dream that I’m forced to keep living

Poem: No magic
By Emilie LaForet ©️2023

I had never written a poem before. Then I started writing this story about two kids that fall in love. I’m a total panster so I found out that my FMC wrote poems. I was not happy. But then I gave it a try and ended up writing more than 200 poems.
A few of them will be in my debut dark novel “Your One and Only”…