Today Is The Day

2 YEARS AGO TONIGHT…

Two years ago, at around 7:00 pm, I was in an ambulance being taken to SHARP HOSPITAL (ER) 🏥 about to be admitted to the hospital (for 3 weeks!) with severe COVID19, Pneumonia, and a collapsed lung. I also coded not once, but twice the first 3 days I was in-patient.

I lost the ability to walk, to talk, and to care for myself. I had to be rehabbed befor they could let me go home. I also now suffer from Long-Covid, which affects my memory, my balance, and many other things.

This is a picture of me, in the ER, where I received the WORST CARE in my life. The nurse who treated me (and my family!) like crap that night later learned that I was a nurse at SHARP, also. She was fired within the month I was released from the hospital.

But this night… THIS NIGHT… I will NEVER forget this night and the following 3 weeks to come…

Thank You God for answering my prayers and getting me through COVID. It’s been a long, difficult, struggling recovery over the past 2 years.

I am so grateful to You, God, because You know how close I was to not leaving that hospital alive 🙏🏻

This is FIBROMYALGIA. This is what I deal with daily, 24/7.

It’s not easy; some days I fake my way through the day, but some days I succumb to the pain and fatigue, and just stay in bed.

It’s not an easy life; but I will continue to push through, with God as my strength and healer 🙏🏻🙋🏼‍♀️💋

“TODAY IS THE DAY THAT I ____”

I did a huge thing today!!! 🙋🏼‍♀️

Today is the day that I finally worked up the courage to sell my last remaining possession tying me to my past… my car!!!

She’s been such a good ole car to me! She’s never left me stranded. She’s always been there for me through thick & thin, gotten me from point A to B and back to A safely… she’s been a steady trooper and friend.

I’m so sad to see her go; but it was time.

So-long, my Kaptain mobile. You will be greatly missed. Thank you for the memories 🙋🏼‍♀️🙏🏻💋👋🏻

“TODAY IS THE DAY THAT I ____”

Get back to meal planning!

Yes, today is THE DAY that I start meal planning again, with fresh whole foods & lean meats/poultry instead of just eating whatever I want.

How did I get so far off-track? 🤷🏼‍♀️

I’m not sure, but it’s not the first time it’s happened, and it definitely won’t be the last! I will not look back and be hard on myself; I will simply move forward and do better.

I’m going to do myself a favor and start journaling again, too~ I used to journal faithfully, day & night. I guess life got in the way of me finding comfort in writing, and somehow it started to feel like a dreaded chore.

TODAY IS THE DAY THAT I GET BACK ON TRACK!

XO ~Kymberly 🙋🏼‍♀️💋

“TODAY IS THE DAY THAT I ____”

Today is the day that I RESTED.

Yup! I took a “me” day! I had so much stuff on my to-do list today, but as I was drinking my coffee while reading my Bible studies this morning, I instinctively knew that my brain and body were telling me that I needed a rest day.

I postponed my chores until tomorrow, and just relaxed all day. Did some reading, crocheting, and a little bit of writing.

It felt good to rest and put myself first.

XO ~Kymberly 🙋🏼‍♀️💋

“TODAY IS THE DAY THAT I ___”

I ate a healthy breakfast again AND sat down & made some new goals for myself!

Small, attainable goals. Health goals WITHOUT calorie counting, WITHOUT stepping on a scale, WITHOUT restricting macronutrient groups, WITHOUT STRICT RULES.

Today is the day that I take accountability for the weight I’ve gained since January (20+ pounds) and stop making excuses for it.

Today is the day that I took action by creating a solution to get healthier.

•Healthy Food 🥗 🍲
•A little movement 🏃🏼‍♀️
•A whole lot of Jesus ✝️🙏🏻

XO ~Kymberly 🙋🏼‍♀️💋

“TODAY IS THE DAY THAT I ______”

Worked through pain when I wanted to quit. That’s something good, right? I didn’t give up. I didn’t give in.

Today is the day that I kept going instead of succumbing to my comfort zone. I utilized discipline instead of motivation to finish something.

I am proud of myself 🙏🏻🙋🏼‍♀️💗

“TODAY IS THE DAY THAT I ______”

Today is the day that I regroup and take better care of myself.

I have become used to “babying” myself due to health issues, which has only left me with a “comfort zone.” Somewhere along the way, I have completely stopped eating breakfast 👀 and that’s NOT good! It’s bad for your body AND your brain to skip meals every day!

Today I took action and stepped outside of my comfort zone. I took a baby step that my body will thank me for later.

What did I do? I cooked a pot of oatmeal for breakfast instead of skipping eating it.

Yep. That’s my baby step.

One full pot of whole oats, cooked down with mountain spring water, freshly diced apples, pecans, coconut chips, a pinch of sea salt, a tablespoon of raw honey, a teaspoon of Cinnamon, and a dash of Allspice.

My bowl 🥣 had 1/2 cup of the cooked apple spice oatmeal, and I topped it with 1 tablespoon natural peanut butter for healthy protein & fat.

Sipped on 20 ounces fresh cold water, and opened another bottle. I definitely need to get back to drinking my gallon of water daily. I’m way behind on that.

Today is the day that the Lord has made… my body is a Temple that He ☝🏻created~ and it belongs to Him. I am merely the caretaker, and I admit that I haven’t been doing a very good job taking care of it lately.

Today is the day that I do BETTER…
For God, and for myself 🙋🏼‍♀️

XO ~Kymberly 💋

TODAY is THE DAY.

Today, I’m ready to transform into my next new chapter.

I started this journey as ‘Finding Me At 53,’ and today I am finally ready to move forward.

TODAY IS THE DAY 🙋🏼‍♀️

This is what I shall call it. Today is the day, for no particular reason other than I just know intuitively that I’m ready for a new journey.

TODAY IS THE DAY THAT THE LORD HAS MADE; I WILL REJOICE IN IT AND BE HAPPY ✝️🙏🏻🙋🏼‍♀️💗💋

🙋🏼‍♀️🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻💗✝️

“When you have gone thru a very hard season. When you have walked a path you felt no one else has walked. When you have cried silent tears in the middle of night. When you have prayed thousands of prayers even though you haven't seen the answer yet come. When you felt you have come to nothing- but empty, broken and alone. You discover what real beauty is. You find that Jesus is closer than a brother and a best friend. You smell the fragrance of victory. That God did not allow you to be defeated. But your struggle made your faith strong. You hear His voice so close to you like never before. Everything around you looks beautiful and glorious. Because You experienced His grace and mercy. When the dark night of the soul is over and you feel His radiance upon your face. There is nothing like it. ❤ He truly turns our ashes into beauty. His riches of His love overflows and the pain and sorrow fades away like a distant memory. And all that is GOOD remains. This is how we know How good God is. ~ Jenny Williams, A Modern Day Ruth, ©2012”

Beautiful 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻✝️

A day is not lost if you failed to tick off a list, or a diet was broken.
A day is only lost if you forgot to say something kind to yourself, or another.
If you forgot to pause and search for a tiny spark of beauty amongst the drudgery, glimmering like gold in the mud.
A day is only lost if you forgot that life, even in the worst of times, is still a gift.
A gift you so very much deserve to live through
and not just survive.

Donna Ashworth
‘Wild Hope’ https://amzn.eu/d/08apIDA

Art by one of my favourite artists Bettina Baldassari - BettiPigna.

DAY 29/100:

H A I R 🙋🏼‍♀️

A year and a half ago, I lost all of my hair due to a health crisis. Most of you know how much it negatively impacted me; I loved my hair!!! Without it, I felt so very ugly 😢

I’ve always had a LOT of hair 😂😂

Blond hair, long hair, pink hair, bleached hair, curly hair, straight hair, short hair, layered hair, thick hair, messy bun, long waves, bangs.

You name it, I’ve had it. And thank you to my bestie of 40+ years, Marsi Engle, for always keeping my hair on-point!

My hair has always been a big part of my identity. Some people worship idols other than God; I worshipped my hair 👀😂😂 Which is probably why God took it all away from me, and continued to send me on the 2nd most difficult journey of my life this past 2 years.

Baldness… it’s where I needed to be in order to realize my worth, inside and out. Sounds stupid, I know 🙋🏼‍♀️

Many lessons were learned since I went bald; some good, others not so good. I can tell you with full certainty that I do not rely on good hair and makeup days anymore to make me feel good about myself.

My focus is now placed on living for God, and doing what He wants me to do every day. Am I doing it perfectly? Nope! And that’s OK!

I’m very grateful that my hair has grown back, in all of its natural state. I even have some gray now, and I absolutely love it!

Hair serves a purpose other than just sitting on our heads and “looking good…” I never knew how COLD it can be without hair!!! Hair keeps us warm in Winter, and cooler in Summer… it also prevents painful sunburns on a bald head!

I never thought that my own HAIR would teach me lessons, but it did. I’m just so happy to finally have hair again, and that I’m no longer attached to it and dependent on good hair days to feel good about myself.



Don’t ever take it for granted!

XO ~K 🙋🏼‍♀️💋🙏🏻

(Bottom right corner is me now)

I am a PERSON; not a PROJECT.

Me: Hello God.

God: Hello...

Me: I’m falling apart.
Can you put me back together?

God: I'd rather not.

Me: Why?

God: Because you're not a puzzle.

Me: What about all the pieces of my life that fall to the ground?

God: Leave them there for a while.
They fell for a reason.
Let them be there for awhile and then decide if you need to take any of those pieces back.

Me: You don't understand! I'm breaking!

God: No, you don't understand. You're transcending, evolving.
What you feel are growing pains.
You're getting rid of the things and people in your life that are holding you back.
The pieces are not falling down.
The pieces are being put into place.
Relax.
Take a deep breath and let those things you no longer need leave you.
Stop clinging to pieces that are no longer for you.
Let them fall.
Let them go.

Me: Once I start doing that, what will I have left?

God: Only the best pieces of yourself.

Me: I'm afraid to change.

God: I keep telling you:
YOU'RE NOT CHANGING!
YOU'RE BECOMING!

Me: Becoming who?

God: Becoming who I created you to be!
A person of light, love, charity, hope, courage, joy, mercy, grace, and compassion.
I made you for so much more than those shallow pieces you decided to adorn yourself with and that you cling to with so much greed and fear.
Let those things fall off you.
I love you!
Don't change! Become! Don't change! Become!
Become who I want you to be, who I created.
I'm going to keep telling you this until you remember.

Me: There goes another piece.

God: Yes. Let it be like this.

Me: So... I'm not broken?

God: No, but you're breaking through the darkness, like dawn.
It's a new day.
Become!!
Become who you really are!!"

-John Roedel

DAY 3/100:


Today, I honor my beautiful late daughter, Breanna Ray Morgan 💗

I am so extremely & eternally grateful for my daughter! I’m grateful for (1) God blessing me with her on 8/28/88; (2) Her choosing ME to be her Mommy; (3) God gifting my family and I with 13 1/2 beautiful years with her; and finally, the most DIFFICULT thing to be grateful for: (4) Jesus taking her home to Heaven.

I’m sure you’re thinking to yourself, “How in the world can she be grateful for #4?”

Yeah. That last one is an unimaginable thing to be grateful for, I know. I never wanted her to leave!!! But her disability (Cerebral Palsy/Lissencephaly) had other plans 🥺☹️😣😖😫😩😭

God didn’t end her life; her disability did. Jesus rescued her from the pain and suffering caused by her disability and took her to her rightful home, her beautiful pain-free, illness-free home (for eternity) in Heaven.

I struggled with that for years. I was angry at God because I had prayed to Him, every single night before I closed my eyes to sleep, to please 🙏🏻 please 🙏🏻 please protect my children from harm, and to please guide them into living long, healthy, beautiful lives.

After all of that praying, how could He take my precious daughter???

I was very angry. For a long, long time.

But Jesus began working in my heart; He never left my side. I prayed to Him, day and night, for many years after Breanna’s passing to please bring me the understanding I needed to finally be able to attain some sort of “peace” after the overwhelming tragedy and trauma of losing my daughter.

One morning, about 5 years ago, I was reading my Bible for a Summer Bible Study Challenge I had signed up for. One particular verse/scripture unexpectedly hit me out of the blue. That verse was Matthew 18:14~

“So it is not the will of my Father who is in heaven that one of these little ones should perish.”

Wow!

In awe, I started to research more scripture regarding the passing/mourning of a child. I never knew there were so many “positive“ scriptures and verses regarding death!!! I kept searching my Bible and found this familiar verse:

‘He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death’ or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.” ~ Revelation 21:4

“Ok! This is really starting to make sense now,” I thought to myself… and from that second on, I sought out/found/researched EVERY SINGLE VERSE I COULD FIND in my Bible regarding my situation, and then I studied them every single day until finally, FINALLY….. I finally had a sense of peace knowing that God didn’t want my daughter to die, nor was He responsible for her death! He was actually responsible for blessing her with ETERNAL LIFE IN HEAVEN WITHOUT ANY FURTHER PAIN OR SUFFERING!!!

How beautiful is that?!!! I can’t be mad at God for that!!!

And the best part of it all is that God assures me, through my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, that I will one day be carried to Heaven by God, and reunited with my beautiful daughter!

HOW CAN I NOT BE AT PEACE WITH THAT KNOWLEDGE?!

Here are just some of the Bible verses that helped me work through the trauma, pain, and anger of losing my daughter:

“I have no one else like him, who will show genuine concern for your welfare.” ~ Philippians 2:20

“But Jesus said, “Let the little children come to me and do not hinder them, for to such belongs the kingdom of heaven.”” ~ Matthew 19:14

“Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid.” ~ John 14:27

“The righteous perish, and no one takes it to heart; the devout are taken away, and no one understands that the righteous are taken away to be spared from evil. Those who walk uprightly enter into peace; they find rest as they lie in death.” ~ Isaiah 57:1-2

“Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our affliction so that we will be able to comfort those who are in any affliction with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God.” ~ 2 Corinthians 1:3-4

“Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” ~ Isaiah 41:10

“For they cannot die anymore, because they are equal to angels and are sons of God, being sons of the resurrection.” ~ Luke 20:36

Those are just a handful of the many scriptures I found and researched throughout my journey through grief thus far. I’m still finding them today as I journey through my one-year Bible study plan; it still takes my breath away to read how much Jesus loves us, and how He suffered a horrible, painful death on that cross just so that we could all be freed from sin, and saved eternally.

It’s been 21 years now since Breanna left us. But I know in my heart and soul that she has left us for a much better place! Sure, I will forever mourn her passing, and the grief will never fully go away. I’ve learned to navigate through the bad days of grief in a more positive manner now, but I still have days of immense sadness and pain.

Sometimes I just smile and cry at the thought of her actually knowing Jesus, and being in His presence every single day instead of still being in this God-forsaken world, in a body full of pain and suffering.

I CANNOT BE ANGRY ABOUT THAT!

I love and miss my daughter so much that it still knocks the wind out of me and blows me away. But I know she’s SAFE, HEALTHY, WHOLE, and in the presence of JESUS!!!

I am eternally grateful for that!

XOXO~ Kymberly 💋

Below: My beautiful, precious, special, perfect daughter, Breanna Ray. 8-28-88 to 3-20-02. Forever in our hearts, our love, and our memories 💋👼🏻 👱🏻‍♀️👸🏼🧚🏻💗🙏🏻🙋🏼‍♀️

Day 2:

Today I’m grateful for answered prayers: A renewed relationship with both of my parents 💗💙

As I’m aging, I’ve realized how much time has been wasted on arguing, blaming, accusing, hurt feelings, and not speaking to each other.

I’ve been praying for God to repair my entire family, and to help bring us all back together again.

This is a start 🙏🏻

Thank You God, I know you hear my prayers, and I know that in time, you will work this all out for the good of Your plan for us.

Grateful for my parents, and grateful for God 🙏🏻

~K 🙋🏼‍♀️💋💖🙏🏻

7/01/2023

DAY1/100: 100 DAYS OF GRATITUDE

19,674 days is the exact number of days I’ve been alive.

It might sound a little cliche, but today I am extremely grateful for God waking me up, and giving me another day of life. “Wanting” to live hasn’t always been at the top of my “want” list, if you know what I mean…

19,674 times God has awakened me from rest 🙏🏻

He keeps waking me up, day after day, because He’s got something great in store for me~ even if I don’t know what it is yet. He’s not even close to being “finished” with me here on earth yet! He reminds me every single day that He is with me through my storms, and He will see me through them if I continue to have Hope, Faith, and Patience… and that something wonderful is on the other side.

He restores me, every single morning~ without fail,through His Word 📖 and through my prayers to Him. He hears me; He knows my agony & pain, and He provides my strength through the struggles.

He wakes me every morning and provides rest every night.

My strength comes from God alone and I am very, very grateful to Him for waking me up this morning.

He’s been answering my prayers; Today is one of them 🙏🏻 Thank You, God! Thank You, Baby Jesus! I am so very GRATEFUL to & for YOU!

19,674 DAYS OF GRATITUDE to You, Jesus~ My Lord & Savior 🙏🏻🙋🏼‍♀️✝️

XO ~Kymberly 💋🙋🏼‍♀️

THE FEMALE BODY

The female body was never supposed to be smooth, firm and flawless.
It was designed to create life, to host life, to feed life.
Yes there are many other amazing aspects to us all and this design in no way defines us, but…underpinning our fight to retain a ‘figure’, is a whole network of genetics, science and an entire evolutionary process which wants to create, store and produce fat for protection and hormonal health.
So, if you are losing a battle for slimness, do not for a moment think this is all your fault.
You are trying to blow away the wind.

Feed yourself well, physically, mentally and spiritually, and then enjoy your life with the vessel you inhabit.
It’s a one shot only thing.
Peace, laughter and acceptance are the best medicines around.

Donna Ashworth
From ‘I wish I knew’: https://amzn.to/3JVMJlZ



Art ‘Hilda’ by Duane Bryers

I have been on a Journey for 53 years with this woman...

I have allowed her to be broken.

I have allowed others to treat her disrespectfully.

I've seen her fall and STAND BACK UP SEVERAL TIMES and be a light for the world, and love others despite all of it.

She has been bullied.

She stood paralyzed by fear while she fought battles in her mind, heart, and soul.

This woman has made many bad decisions as a partner, mother, daughter, sister and as a friend.

She has trusted and believed in people who didn't believe in her.

She has a smart mouth, a stubborn streak, and can be a bit feisty.

She has scars and combat wounds.

Some people love this woman, some like her, and some don't care for her at all...

She has done good in her life, and she has done not so good in her life.

Every mistake, failure, trial, disappointment, betrayal, success, joy, and achievement has made her into who she is today.

She’s not perfect.
She is unstoppable, gracefully broken, but beautifully standing.
..and she will never stop learning, growing or moving forward...

she is me .......💗
Age: 53

𝙻𝙰𝙳𝙸𝙴𝚂 I challenge you to put this on your status with your age and a picture of yourself.

(Sharing from my friend Dawn’s FB post)

Thank You, Lord, for giving me the strength to turn my day around 🙏🏻

Today was a successful day, and I’m feeling really great about it!!!

Thank You Jesus!!! 🙌🏻