desyr.it

MY BODY. MY GREATEST ENEMY.

I've been in a continue battle against myself during my life.
A battle between acceptance and changing my body.
There are times when I love myself for what I am, and others where I hate to see myself at the mirror.

Showing my body has always been an issue, in front of many or even in front an only person.
Putting a swimsuit was impossible for me so for years I skipped sea trips or pool days with my friends.

I tried to follow a workout program many times, I have putted myself on diet that much times that I can't even count them anymore.

People tell me I'm beautiful, that I'm not fat, that those kg don't change the fact that I'm an amazing person.
But I can't believe them, even if I want to.. I CAN'T. I have never been able to believe them.

I'm still in this battle. Even if I'm a little bit more confident than before, I still have many issues when I have to buy clothes, choose an outfit to go out or know someone new.

I wish I had had another body.
But I can't change it.. only work on it!