HerbN' Herbalista

My birthday present to myself this year was a photoshoot focused on embracing and loving myself.

Self love is all about learning to love your perfections and imperfections. My photoshoot was all of that and much more! It was a very fun liberating experience. I love every part of me from the curves to the strength marks. They all tell a story and are a part of my journey.

Your body is a gift from God, love and embrace it ❤️!

I'm so excited about the solar eclipse today! What does this mean? The moon will block the sun. What is the deeper meaning behind the eclipse? What has been done in the dark will be brought to light. The sun will shine its light on the moon and reveal the darkness.

So many secrets that have been done in the dark will be revealed this year. Just like the P. Diddy situation, more will come to light. Mark my words.
It won't happen overnight, but slowly more and more will be revealed.

Peace, love, and many blessings.

The devils greatest tool to keep us in bo***ge is FEAR. If we want to be set free we have to conquer our fears.

This truth is one that has plagued me for quite some time. I have a condition called TMAU.
It's a condition that causes a malodorous gas to be emitted from your body. It's also known as "fish odor syndrome". Even though it may not be presented as a fish odor for all who have TMAU, at leaste not for me. There is no cure for this disease and it's pretty rare. It's not life threatening, but it can be extremely debilitating and isolating.

Basically my liver lacks the enzyme FM03 that most people have. This enzyme breaks down an odorous gas that is produced from foods with choline, creatinine, and trimethylamine. The crazy part about it is that you need all of these amino acids to live.

The amino acids that I need to survive aren't processed correctly in my liver and it causes a malodorous smell to be emitted via breath, sweat, and or urine.

I previously saw it as a curse, but have come to realize it is a BLESSING.

It allows me to see people's true character. When I tell you people can be so cruel, and that's an understatement.

I have learned that people that are cruel have internal struggles that have nothing to do with me.

For those who have always loved, supported me, and never treated me differently Thank you! It hasn't gone unnoticed ❤️. For those who haven't I'll continue to pray for you and love you from afar.

The crazy part about it is that everyone may not notice the odor, which is crazy.

I have met so many people that I am thankful for in support groups. It can be a very isolating disease. At one point in my life I did isolate myself, but I decided to live my life as isolation isn't good for your mental health.

I DON'T FEEL SORRY FOR MYSELF, so please don't feel sorry for me. I am truly BLESSED!

In the Bible Paul talks about having a thorn in his flesh. He says it's a messenger of Satan that keeps him humble. He pleaded with God to remove it, but God said that his grace is sufficient. This is exactly how I feel about TMAU.

Paul also goes on to say I delight in weakness, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, and in difficulties, for when I'm weak, then I'm strong.

Be kind to others. You never know what someone is going through ❤️💛❤️💛.

We will all be held accountable for our words and actions.