Skinw_itch

skin is, at the most obvious physical level, the layer that separates the "self" from the "other".

separation is a condition inherent to the human experience ; and simultaneously so is interdependence.

so while skin is our natural boundary that holds our insides together and separates and protects us from the outside world (bacteria, pollution etc) it is also permeable by nature, absorbing sunlight, nutrients and vibrational medicine through human contact, physical touch, pleasure.

on the energetic level, if our "protective layer" is over-permeable (ie our boundaries are weak or inconsistent), the energies of others leech into us without our consent

if we are overly rigid with our boundaries, we separate our selves from the outside with such stiffness that we can't absorb the medicinal qualities of that external world.

skin conditions carry an auric quality in this way.

we might have the tendency to lack discernment with who we allow in to our energetic spheres, over-sharing and infringing on the boundaries of others.

or we might stiffen our boundaries and not let anyone in at all due to distrust, which creates unhealthy relationships both with others and with our own bodies.

skin serves the mechanism of both separating and connecting us to the outside world.

it is both protective and permeable by nature and we need to embrace both of those qualities to remain engaged, whole and human.

skin is, at the most obvious physical level, the layer that separates "self" from the "others"

separation is a condition inherent to the human experience ; and simultaneously so is interdependence.

so while skin is our natural boundary that holds our insides together and separates and protects us from the outside world (bacteria, pollution etc) it is also permeable by nature, absorbing sunlight, nutrients and vibrational medicine through human contact, physical touch, pleasure.

on the energetic level, if our "protective layer" is over-permeable (ie our boundaries are weak or inconsistent), the energies of others leech into us without our consent

if we are overly rigid with our boundaries, we separate our selves from the outside with such stiffness that we can't absorb the medicinal qualities of that external world.

skin conditions carry an auric quality in this way.

we might have the tendency to lack discernment with who we allow in to our energetic spheres, over-sharing and infringing on the boundaries of others.

or we might stiffen our boundaries and not let anyone in at all due to distrust, which creates unhealthy relationships both with others and with our own bodies.

skin serves the mechanism of both separating and connecting us to the outside world.

it is both protective and permeable by nature and we need to embrace both of those qualities to remain engaged, whole and human.

skin health = gut health is widely accepted as true, but what is gut health?

the gut holds the charges of our emotions.

gut health = emotional health

because the manifestation of skin conditions is so physical, the tendency is to seek "healing" on the physical plane.

Western medicine has very little to offer chronic skin conditions, a full-stop of "steroids or you're stuck with this", an ultimatum i have heard from allopathic doctors all over the world. the narrative is deeply disempowering.

so many folk turn to more holistic approaches, diet being a big one.

and this foray into understanding one's body as a more complex vessel than western medicine will let us believe is a vital step.

but it is easy to get lost in the holistic labyrinth riddled with conflicting advice and miraculous promises.

of course, in changing your diet you will naturally also change other habit and thought patterns. this is why people can and do improve their symptoms even if they only consciously address the physical dimension of their issues.

but skin conditions are often rooted in deep internal imbalances, undigested emotional charges expressing themselves externally.

diet alone may help, but it is more than likely that those with chronic skin conditions are holding on to long-term emotional material that hasn't been metabolised.

this material might have accumulated from childhood or adulthood trauma, but also intergenerational and cultural/social energies that we pick up and absorb unknowingly.

it can be very subtle.

and the thing about eczema is that it is NOT subtle.

so while the skin is trying to be the emotional messenger, the physical symptoms tend to send us into panic or depression before we have the chance to tune into those subtle emotional cues, and instead numb or suppress them.

we try to find empowerment through diet or exercise instead, something that feels "easier" to confront than the rawness of the internal pain raging inside.

but we can learn to listen to the messages our skin sends us, before they grow into demons or worse.

sensitivity is a gift.

we can learn how to use it, not resent it.

skin health = gut health is widely accepted as true, but what is gut health?

the gut holds the charges of our emotions.

gut health = emotional health

because the manifestation of skin conditions is so physical, the tendency is to seek "healing" on the physical plane.

Western medicine has very little to offer chronic skin conditions, usually coming to a full-stop of "steroids or you're stuck with this forever", an ultimatum i have heard from allopathic doctors all over the world. the narrative is deeply disempowering.

so many folk turn to more holistic approaches, diet being a big one.

and this foray into understanding one's body as a more complex vessel than western medicine will let us believe is a vital step.
but it is easy to get lost in the holistic labyrinth riddled with conflicting advice and miraculous promises.

of course, in changing your diet you will naturally also change other habit and thought patterns. this is why people can and do improve their symptoms even if they only consciously address the physical dimension.

but skin conditions are often rooted in deep internal imbalances, undigested emotional charges expressing themselves externally.

diet alone may help, but it is more than likely that those with chronic skin conditions are holding on to long-term emotional material that hasn't been metabolised.

this material might have accumulated from childhood or adulthood trauma, but also intergenerational and cultural/social energies that we pick up and absorb unknowingly.

it can be very subtle.

and the thing about eczema is that it is NOT subtle.

so while the skin is trying to be the emotional messenger, the physical symptoms tend to send us into panic or depression before we have the chance to tune into those subtle emotional cues, and instead numb or suppress them.

we try to find empowerment through diet or exercise instead, something that feels "easier" to confront than the rawness of the internal pain raging inside.

but we can learn to listen to the messages our skin sends us, before they grow into demons or worse.

sensitivity is a gift.

we can learn how to use it, not resent it.

the fact that eczema is not terminal is hardly consolation when it makes life hell.

when no-life feels preferable to life.

not in a suicidal way necessarily, but in a way that spirals the very premise of existence to a vortex beyond the base of a whirlpool

days weeks months years have passed where i have been terrified to show my face, even to myself.

when chronic adrenal fatigue x kidneys x digestion x skin all flare at once, you would think shame seems low on the list of issues to confront

and yet i would have traded anything, anything, to just have a face that i could face.

I would have accepted any pain, any discomfort, if i could look in the mirror and not recoil in horror.

to clarify, i was in immense pain and discomfort too. showering could make me scream. opening my eyes a struggle. movement blood-curdling. and i would have accepted more of that in return for a face that (in my perception) could be loved.

i had the face of a monster. sometimes, people would see me and cry. it was horrific, for them, for me, i lost sense of who it was worse for.

it's only when i reached the ultimate point of helplessness that i was offered a nudge into the abyss, my avoidance of which was what had created the illness in the first place.

all illness, whether physical, mental or emotional, stems from fear

"fear of what we will discover when we discover there is nothing to discover"

in our society obsessed with solution-finding (and problem-creating), there is little room for the body to rest into the unknown.

my physical conditions were rooted in an attempt to find a solution to the paradox of my existence

in an attempt to make "sense" of my unworthiness,
the shame of being in a body,
"i" gave myself a reason
to be ashamed
by creating a skin condition

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is devoted to taking a nuanced, layered look at healing skin conditions on an energetic level.

Skin sensitivity = suppressed energetic powers.

There is more beneath the surface. And healing is *always* available

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(first pic last week, second pic from 2015)