Abstraction

Sometimes i want to leave this city, country and go somewhere, where nobody knows me. Live a different life with a different name. Not for the rest of my life. For like a few months or a year. Where Every morning inhaling fresh air i will deliver newspapers or milk by riding a bicycle. Then work on a small flower shop or a walmart. Cook for myself, live for myself. Meet new people. Fall in love with people. I badly want to love someone. And do all the things i wanted to do in my whole life. Build a HOME where i can breathe freely and feel safe.
Sometimes i really really want to leave this city....

I always thought I was the object of his desire but today i realized i am also the object of his resentment!

I still believe he exists somewhere and i will find him and love him with my everything. My heart and soul knows 🖤

And yet sometimes his back is warm.

Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Saviour.

Sometimes i feel like dying but i am not, it’s not even an option. Then again sometimes i feel like dying!

Now think of it, I know what his back means!

I think all the emotions i am feeling nowadays are mostly guilty.

My dear soulmate,
Do you know i have a tragic love story with you? Do you know how many years i had waited for you? Do you know how many fights I had went through because of you? Do you know how many times i cried for you? Do you know how much i needed you in my life in all those years? Do you know people called me abnormal for believing your existence? Do you know any of my loneliness? Suffering? Pain? I thought if i wait some more you will find me. I thought you were not just in my head only. I thought everything was real about you!!!
BUT you didn’t come.
You didn’t come when i needed you the most.
You didn’t find me at my worst. So i give up on you. Finally!

I might never be going to feel completed and you might always be in my heart but i hope we will be fine.

This is my goodbye letter to you. From today i will stop being curious about you. I will try to remove you from my head but not my heart. Coz even if i try i can never remove you from me. You will always be in me as my only true love/great love/pure love.

I hope you know we have a tragic love story 💔

Yours,
Not yours anymore 🖤

Abstraction Writer

If you don't risk everything for love, YOU RISK EVERYTHING!!

People like people because of their qualities and people love people despite of their qualities.