Ms.anaïs

They paved paradise and put up a parking lot. - Joni Mitchell

Today I turned 32 years old. Birthday 🎈

I’ve always loved the trees in Australia.

i hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas and that you all appreciated it and your blessings just that little bit more this year if you were lucky enough to get through this year unscathed... 🎄now get me the heck out of 2020... 💃🏽

cannot believe I am going to be 29 years old in a couple of weeks... where has the time gone? numerology says that my 29th year will be the most pivotal year of my life... whether you believe these things or not, I find that interesting...

i always feel so much better about myself when my hair and eyebrows are done...

https://www.nationalgeographic.com/magazine/2020/10/stolen-lives-harrowing-story-of-two-girls-sold-into-sexual-slavery-feature/ — if you consider yourself a feminist, then fight for girls and women who don’t have a voice.

as time passes and you take a step back, you will clearly see who your real friends are... even if you miss someone who used to be there, it doesn’t mean they need to be there... demand respect for yourself... don’t ever let it be one-sided...

i feel like people take care of others better than they take care of themselves. we look at the people we care about and give them advice about how they should cut back on the bad habits, eat right, exercise and treat themselves with respect. meanwhile, we don’t take our own advice. i guess we have to look at ourselves as someone we also care about... talk to ourselves like we would talk to someone we care about... love ourselves the way we love the ones we care about...

sometimes you have a slump for a few days and you feel bad because there are those bad habits you’ve been trying to avoid. it’s a fight with yourself that isn’t easy, but you have to keep doing it. keep bettering yourself. always have hope.

a bunch of photos I took a while ago...

made some banana bread because yum.

enjoy the little moments.

moon appreciation.

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birthday cake from from a few days ago. It was so yummy!

created a small meditation space. got my candles & my incense. I just want to practice meditation, preferably daily, just to shush my mind & be in the moment. I also have issues with anxiety & insomnia; so the hope is that it will start to help me with these problems as well. I think it’s good to stop for a second & just be, but I’m not very good at it; so I’m going to learn to.

before & after. cleaned up a bit today. all organised & sorted. there’s also more room on this other shelf to spread things out so it’s more accessible. now I just have to keep it this neat.

last day of the new year challenge - day 10: dedicate today to your health. today I did the one thing that I know makes me feel so good - especially mentally - I went into nature. my mood always changes for the better when I’ve been in nature & around trees & water & animals. I feel at peace & I smile without even thinking about it.

last set from today. went to a cute little secondhand bookstore. I did restrain myself so I didn’t come home with more books than I could carry; which I have done in the past.

would it be bad if my house had that many books though?! 🙃

new year challenge day 9: sign up for a class or activity you want to try for fun. lately I’ve been wanting to be more consistent with my yoga practice & there are loads of free yoga classes around Melbourne surprisingly! & I’ve been wanting to go to one of the outdoor ones, which is usually a morning yoga practice. also, a very good way to get me out of bed because it’s easier to get up when you know you have to be somewhere at a particular time.

new year challenge day 7: plan a self-care getaway or retreat for myself. I’ve actually booked in some beauty for me tomorrow - getting my hair done & some waxing & my first ever facial! so that should be awesome; & I may get my nails done I’m Friday cause they’ve gotten too long for me. I’m also thinking I may actually cut my hair short tomorrow... bit lazy when it comes to my hair; I like low maintenance. Plus all I seem to do is tie my hair up in a ponytail anyways 🙃

the birthday haul. I seriously cannot believe I’m 28 years old today. I feel like the last 5 years passed by in like a haze or something. I’m in a very reflective mood today.

today I got angry at myself for not doing something right. I took a moment & tried to talk to myself as if I was talking to someone else. a friend who’d made a mistake like I had & was beating herself up about it. i said “you can’t expect yourself to change overnight. it doesn’t change into a new year & all of a sudden you’re a completely different person. it takes time & effort; & shaming yourself for not doing it perfectly is never going to help.” it helped to be gentle on myself & to look at it from a different perspective.

I’m doing a New Year Challenge & today I was to take one action towards making one of my goals a reality. I did a couple things: I wrote using a writing prompt to get myself back into writing again. & I did some yoga with one of Yoga with Adriene videos on YouTube to get myself moving towards a healthier body & a healthier mind.

Top 3 Goals that would change my life if I accomplished them this year:
1. Write my book & finish it because I’ve wanted to write one since I was a kid.
2. Start going to auditions & really take actions on starting an acting career.
3. Be healthy - emotionally & physically to the best of my ability.

today was a slow, but productive day. even though I was up late because it was New Year’s, I still managed to get up early & go to the gym & eat a proper breakfast & have a decent, healthy morning. I wasn’t as efficient today as I’d like to be in the future, but that will come with the as I become more consistent with my good habits; plus I was obviously tired today. I managed to do almost everything on my list of ‘to do’s’ today & even wrote a letter to myself in 10 years. It was a nice reflective exercise on the past decade & who I hope to be & what I hope to have by the end of this decade. I even did some exercises from the 2020 Artist of Life Workbook, which I’m so excited to keep doing. here’s to making this year a good one.

10 year difference photos. it’s been a hell of a decade - literally. I’ve gone to hell & back & it burned. I like to believe everything happens for a reason so I hope all the things I’ve gone through has a purpose for the future. sometime you can’t tell until some time has passed. I feel like the next decade is going to be pretty tumultuous, but in a good way. I’ll take what I’ve learned & remain hopeful for the future. The highlight of the decade was meeting my best friend & partner ❣️here’s to 2020 & the next decade 🥂🍾