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Just wanted to show you what 15 days of radiation looks like on the skin, I’m 5 days post finishing treatment today and it’s getting redder and itchier 🥲 the whole breast is red but I won’t treat you to that sight 😂😂😂😂

They said it will peak at 10 days and then should start to settle.

But aside from that and some fatigue, I’m feeling good 👍 and counting down the days till New York xx

ITS THE LAST DAY 😆

After my last treatment later today, I will be consider NED (No evidence of disease).

Today is the end in some ways finally ❤️❤️❤️ to me it’s also the beginning of the end, it’s when my “normal” life can resume, but it’s the beginning of 5 years (or probably a lifetime actually) of checking and hoping that this thing never makes it’s way back to my body 🙏

43 hospital appointments this year and it’s been the most emotional and mentally challenging year of my life! It’s changed me in ways, made me more determined to do the things I have always wanted to do and not wait! To love even harder than than I already did! (George says I need to stop telling him I love him and how gorgeous he is) 😂😂😂 and overall it’s shown me that the people around me are incredible, I honestly have the most incredible tribe, family & clients, all the support has meant the world 🌎

So tonight I will FINALLY pop my bottle of champagne 🍾 and if anyone has a little bottle of fizz, join me 🥂🥂

I’m emotional 🥲 I’m excited 😆 and I can’t wait to get on with my life ❤️

Day 10 of 15 ❤️ 2/3rds done, almost champagne 🍾 🥂 time ❤️❤️❤️ but f**k me is my b**b sore! It’s as hard as a brick, swollen and red 😣😩

I don’t care though! If it brings an end to this god awful journey, then that’s all that matters.

Looking at a little getaway with my siblings to celebrate 🎉

Have a great week everyone xx

Day 6 of being blasted, so nearly half way through!

The actual treatment is nothing, I don’t feel anything but my breast feels very hot afterwards and my implant has begun to feel strange, it feels heavy and almost like it’s crunchy or crystallising inside perhaps!

They did say my skin will likely start to blister so I’m lashing on the potions to reduce the risk of this.

The drive is the worst part! 110 miles everyday is a little endless, I could never be a lorry 🚛 driver 😂😂😂 (I mean I probably wouldn’t be able to see over the steering wheel anyway 😂😂), also it’s so warm this week and I’m just spending it in a car!

I’m going to go jump in the sea for a swim when I get back later tonight 🌊

Have a lovely sunny weekend everyone xx

Day 3 of 15 today and I’m shattered!

My skin is sore 😣 and I just want to lie down all the time and sleep 😴 😴😴😴😴 🛏️ 🛌 🛏️

That is all!

Day 1 done ❤️

Steve came with me today for my first session, which I’m pleased he did as I was feeling a little nervous in all honesty.

When you lie there on the bed waiting for the radiation, you have to lie completely still and it’s bloody Sod’s Law that every part of my body started to itch 😂😂😂

When they administer the radiation you take a deep breath and hold for a count of 20 seconds to move your lungs 🫁 away from the breast bone I believe, it’s the longest 20 seconds ever when trying not to move or breath!

Anyway day 1 is done, it was fine, needed a little nappy nap 😴 when I got back though, think more due to me not not sleeping well the last few days xx

Night everyone, I’m off back to bed 🛌

My baby girl is on her way home from Scotland with her grannie 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁳󠁣󠁴󠁿 she’s been there for 10 days on her holidays and has made the best memories with her cousins, auntie Bryany, uncle Jamie and spent time with both her wee grannie and her gorgeous wee papa ❤️❤️

Grannie (my wee mama) is staying in Cornwall for a week with us, which will be fabulous ❤️
We’ve got lifeboat weekend coming up this weekend, ultimately the best day in Bude of the year, always loads on and loads of fun. We’re also heading to cirque de vulgar on Saturday night, so that’ll be an eye opening experience for my mum 😂😂😂 last year was fab.

Steves gorgeous cousin Dale is arriving Thursday for a holiday with his gorgeous other half Leanne and my girl kryssy is heading down for the weekend, we’ve also got the fishers arriving and the coopers are here so it’s looking like a busy and fabulous week ❤️❤️❤️

Mum leaves next Tuesday and my radiotherapy starts Wednesday so that’ll keep me busy in the run up.

Have a fabulous week everyone xx

I will try and get more regular with these blogs 🥰😩

CT scan for radiotherapy planning is done ✔️
I have 3 new tattoos, not my usual fancy ones! Just little blue dots for lining up the machine ✔️
Radiotherapy starts 3 weeks today on 30th August and will run every week day until 19th September ✔️I’m going to be able to drive the Exeter road with my eyes closed!
AND hopefully I can ring a friggin bell 🛎️ after that 🙏🙏🙏

Last night in tenerife and it’s been just what I needed to get me ready for 15. Sessions of radiotherapy.
It’s been a lovely break with my man and 2 of my perfect little creations and I also got to spend 3 days with my favourite cousin Cllaire Rro-ss ❤️

Steve and I were saying earlier, life can be really hard and the most important thing in any of our lives is happiness, this year could have been so different! Does money in the bank matter? (No) Does memories matter? (100%) Does happiness (genuine happiness) matter? (Yes)
All that matters is that we are happy, loved and that we live life to the fullest ❤️
Live your life, do the things you want to do!
It can so easily change in a second ❤️❤️

Oncology this morning in Exeter, 15 sessions of radiotherapy to commence in about 4 weeks.
Next appointment will be my CT scan and little tattoo dots for radiotherapy and then it’s all go.
Hopefully by mid September it will all be over and done 🙏

But first I’m off to Leopallooza festival this weekend for a wild time and a little bar work 🍺

Have fun all xx

What a lovely weekend I had, safe in the knowledge that my cancer is contained and hasn’t moved it’s nasty ass to anywhere else!
We attended the Culdrose Royal Navy ball with our gorgeous friends and I finally got to ride my motorbike yesterday as everything has healed ❤️ 🏍️, lots more practice needed!
My baby boy has left this morning to return to his Navy ship in Gibraltar for 3 months 🥹.

I have the surgeon this afternoon to check my scars and discharge me to Oncology in Exeter to arrange my radiotherapy, hopefully I’m on the home run!

Have a great week everyone xx

Steves gone away for the weekend rowing in Brixham, I love how dedicated he is to Bude Pilot Gig Club and how extra sexy all this rowing 🚣‍♀️ is making his big shoulders.
However! I used to love weekends alone and infact any little pieces of time alone, I loved my own company, but I can’t stand it anymore! It’s when my head takes me places I don’t want to be.
When I say alone! I Ofcourse have all my beautiful babies here, but they all have their own little things going on.

I’m busying myself with having a major clear out and I’m going to go see some of my gorgeous tribe for a cuppa ☕️

I’m absolutely sh****ng myself about next weeks results! (Monday 17th) I feel like I’ve been waiting ages already!
I’m sure they will be fine but I also have a little voice in my head that laughs everytime I say it’ll all be fine! Nothings been fine at any point along this journey, it’s always worse than I expect, hopefully this will be the time that it’s better.

I hate being vulnerable at any point, but this is what this blog is for, it’s somewhere I can vent and at the same time show everyone that it’s ok to break occasionally and that no cancer journey is the same as another.

If you’d told me last year that this was going to happen to me, I would have laughed at you, but it’s happening and there’s no way out of it, I can’t run and hide, I can’t ignore it, I’m not brave, I just have no choice and it’s 100% the hardest thing I’ve ever done in my life, it’s there every minute of the day, the fear, the what if! like mental torture!

It doesn’t help that Mother Nature likes to bless me with huge emotions once a month! What a bitch!

Have a great weekend everyone and check those b**bies # # #

Tomorrow (Wednesday) is surgery day, round 2.
I’m going in for a sentinel node biopsy, which means another general anaesthetic and being cut from one side of my right axilla (arm pit) to the other.

I’m not nervous at all, infact I want to get in there and get it done, I need the results from this to know what’s happening, whether the cancer has gone to the lymph nodes or whether it’s just remaining in the skin of the breast and ni**le.

I cannot believe how hard I have had to fight to get these answers, that someone thought it was ok to not give me these answers and just leave me in limbo until secondary cancer arose as a tumour in my lymph nodes or cancer in another part of my body.

In my heart I know I’ve fought this hard for a good reason and I’m proud of myself for not just accepting the options I was given.

Every stage of the last 6 months has been a shock, at every point the diagnosis has been far worse than predicted, at every point I have thought it would be a good result and it has never been, so this time I’m going to expect the worst and hopefully it will be the good result that I need.

If it’s not then a full lymph clearance will be required and possibly chemo, if it is a good result then I can carry on and have my radio therapy and keep my fingers crossed 🤞 that it doesn’t undo all the excellent work that’s been done on my reconstruction.

Once again thanks everyone for all your support xx

Anyone else just love a cuppa and some banana on toast? ☕️ 🍌 🍞

My heads a little clearer this morning, hopefully get the answers I need tomorrow 🙏

My reconstruction is sore though, clearly been doing far too much this last few days! It’s hard when you feel ok to tell your body to do nothing!

Steves been out early yesterday and this morning gig rowing 🚣‍♀️
He shot off looking all sexy on his motorbike early this morning 😍😍😍so I’m going to take it easy and just cook a nice summery roast for him getting back 🤤 😋

Went food shopping last night! £201 for a weeks food shop! 😱 usually about £160 but clearly prices are creeping up! How is that even sustainable??

My gorgeous George isn’t himself, he’s quiet and moody and very cuddly, so I think he’s worrying about me, going to have a good chat with him today and see what’s going on in his gorgeous wee head.
My biggest ethos about being a mum is 100% open dialect about everything, and oh boy do these boys like to tell me EVERYTHING 😂😂😂 Steve can’t get over what they tell me sometimes, I love it 😍 😂😂

Bit of a random post today but have a lovely Sunday everyone # # #

I’ve been carrying around my drain in a horrible grey floral bag that the hospital gave me (not very me) but my lovely friend Sarah sent me my own bespoke drain bag ❤️ 🐆 much more me 😂

8 days post op - just been to see the surgeon who did my operation, she’s removed my tape bra and wow what a good job she’s done ❤️ you’d never know, it’s so symmetrical and is healing well.

I’ve been respectfully told off for doing too much and moving too much, that I MUST relax.

It’s such a difficult thing to do when you’re used to being so crazy busy all the time but I must try harder 😂😂

So I need a new series, I’m off to search Netflix

Love ❤️