lxholguin

These verses get me through how I been treated but my anger on how my kids are being treated is wat I need help with. All to serve am adulteress. Sad that a Christian so called Christian family shows truth of their hearts. Only God can judge me don't get it twisted. I have my all and it will back fire the preminitions are all to clear and only weeks away.

This guy. Lol. What a lover at best. When the one in charge of them now gets over the poor me attention looking everywhere for it. Hurting those that don’t give it by taking them from there daddy’s care to place Indy care randomly so later can say he is doing so well why take him from it. But he was already doing well and he was ripped from all he new. I hear upset in his voice as I barely get to talk to him. I hear unanswered questions. Left alone to process feelings he has no idea of what he is feeling. But because all around that support says I don’t have a dad he’ll be alright. It’s ok then. Ok. Your right. Screw the youth with whatever your life was robbed of. Twisted way. I want my kids to have more than me and do beget than me. Being jealous of a kid then playing strong and poor me neglecting their true needs with all the power in your hands to do so but doesn’t. Says a lot about my one that can do this. And in my case it won’t be this way always. Duh. Minds like such only see a very limited. Trust. Leaving the defeated by their own actions. No outside influence ever needed. Because blame is the game. It runs unnoticed. Poor guy I love toy and I remeber your lil Pep in your step last time we talked. Liking up at me. Now you can’t even see me. I have to go through hurdles and wait on the system. Plus I now work lots of hours to be a better man for you when this airbus of nonsense and jokers ends. No time for that in your lives only tine for growth.

I wish I was with you guys as I know you love Disney land but that would jeopardize our future. I can’t trust anyone at this time. Because my love for you will be used to hurt me which in turn naturally hurt you. I can’t afford you to be in anymore discomfort. I am working with kids going through similar situations and boy do these little people hurt when divided, especially the way you have been. Just know daddy is a way better man without a partner. You three saw that the past 6 months when I took it in myself to keep rules and discipline the way I wanted without much cooperation from anyone. Yes daddy seemed exhausted at times and grouchy, never t you only at unjust causes to throw daddy out. It finally worked but I thank it for happening. God needed me for another reason temporarily. I’m helping kids all day whom are in pain due to divorce and being held fro the other parent. These kids suffer and from my experiences latterly I know what you need and I’m going to give it to you. As there is no reason it wounds be allowed. It worlds in the beginning of divorce but as one stays away there is no confusion of emotions to make one parent look how another needs. No contact makes me look like me. Being around keeps me involved in a nonsense game I want no part of ever. Daddy is a we’re daddy this way more in my heart to give and I’m thankful for the way it is as I was never the sole problem. But now my soul has no problems. It wil shine Over you forever more because my pain I endured these past few months. This is the easy part trust me as you do because I never lied to you before. I promise you will be happier too my loves. See you when the time is right.

Daddy’s that much closer to filling my promise to make sure your needs, emotions, thoughts amd feeling and desire to be by me are never ever over looks again.

Work like this keeps my mind on the price. Not the circus that one creates to feel how I always feel. On top of the world.

My wife cheated on me for this guy. His name is .... lol. He must have a nice personality. She is the one who told me his secret.

When the world turns a slight shoulder and the demands you turn the world back while the world watches and waits at a cold distance what do you do? Give the world the universal language is what you do?

A few weeks before I aimed for what’s right and fair to be made a bad guy. These lil eyes are looking for me and I hear it in their voice. I shouldn’t feel guilt for what I didn’t not decide to do and that’s co dude them and keep them from a parent to hide lies. I could careless about those lies or false truths. They are smaller than me and not worth my time. These kids are smaller than me but bigger than me at the same time.

This is from a old post telling the world how the kids love and adore me. But now that same mouth spits poison and lies. Only god can judge.

Daddy and baby girl.

Literally days before I was cheated on and then framed now kids have no idea why daddy is gone. Truly he is gone because he found out info by gods grace and someone needed me silenced. But they don’t have to know the details. They know they need me though.

A few weeks ago before I was lied on and shamed