R.I.P. Chuckles 7/15/88-7/9/10

I miss this sweet face every minute of everyday. R.I.P. my beautiful son.

Miss you everyday

Thursday is our 10th Anniversary. That was the last day I danced with you. The last time I got to hug you. I miss you so bad it literally hurts. I try everyday to do something to honor you. Your death will never be in vain. Rest easy son.

It gets better with time. That's what people say.
They say the pain will ease a little each and everyday.
The loss of a child is different from the rest,
It takes your soul, when you lose your best.
It seems the pain gets worse as the years go by.
People don't know, they just don't see me cry.
We learn to hide the pain and hold back the tears.
The truth of the matter is it gets worse through the years.
I miss your smile, the laughs you gave us all. I miss your hugs, your beautiful face hell, I miss it all.
9 years ago today we were forced to say goodbye, that is not how it's supposed to be.
No parent should ever have to bury their child. But, these days it seems to be all we see.
You will live on everyday in my heart, you will never die in vain.
As long as I can speak, I will speak your name.
I'll never let you go as long as I live.
In your honor I will continue to help others. I will continue give.
So until we meet again my beautiful son.
I will keep fighting for you, I'll never be done.
I can't express the pain you've left behind.
But please know here on earth you will still continue to shine.
Always know John, you were my first whole heartily love. You will continue to be so for the rest of my life even from up above.

Well the holidays have passed. They will never be the same without you here. You are so missed everyday. I still work hard everyday. Helping those in need. I'm tired though. We fight and fight addiction. I don't know if we are helping or harming. There's people with chronic pain who can't get their meds now. Some talk about going out to streets to get it. It's a big mess. I will continue to do what I can to fight. I love you and miss you so much R. I. P. my son

John this year has really been hard on mom. I've tried so hard every year to put a fake smile on so I don't bring everyone else down. With Aunt Connie Lowman being with you know had made it even harder. I did get my trees up for you. My heart aches everyday for you. I must say your name had been kept alive and making many people happy on Christmas. I know you would love it. Love you both Merry Christmas In Heaven.

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We are keeping your memory alive John. You were and still are my heart. This year we are close to 400 bags baby. Even though your not here with me. Your in my heart always. Mama will keep fighting till I can't fight no more sweet boy. I know your looking down on Ry stay with him Baby watch over him. Love you baby R.I.P.

I want to share some pictures with you all who loved John. Hope you enjoy. Your so missed everyday. Randy I'm not sure why it tagged you but it won't let me erase sorry.

5 more days will be 9 years since you left us. Seems just like yesterday. I miss your smiling face, your personality although I see it in Rylan all the time. I see your pictures and my heart breaks all over again. I hope Aunt Connie Lowman gave you the hugs and kisses I sent. R.I.P Son.

Hey baby I know Connie aka from you .......A Grade A mess and she mentioned that the day before she passed, You are so greatly missed John. Your sense of humor was AWESOME and I'm sure it still is. Give Aunt Connie some love. She is supposed to give you hugs and kisses for me R.I.P. Son LOVE YOU !!!!!!!

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