IFWYF

Ikaw ba ay kagaya ko na nawawalan na ng pag-asa sa buhay,dahil sa paulit -ulit na kabiguan?

Ikaw ba ay nahihirapan ng magbagong buhay, dahil sa ibat ibang temptation na kinasasadlakan?

Isa ka ba na kagaya kong walang ibang nakikita kundi ang kadiliman ng buhay,
Dahil sa hindi mo na rin makita ang daang dapat mong lakaran?

Anu man ang ating pinagdadaanan sa buhay,lagi nating itanim sa ating puso at isipan.

Ang Panginoon ay hindi tayo iniiwan.
Tandaan natin na kahit tayo ay bumitaw.
Siya laging hawak ang ating mga kamay upang mawalan man tayo ng Pag-asa pero laging nandun ang kanyang habag upang tayo ay wag bumitaw sa ating Pananampalataya.

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In every way, be thankful to God for Everyday!

Living Dis Able:

* Taking time to understand my setuation

In my younger year i dont know about my disability because im living just like a normal child, in my teenager year thats the time i realize that i am different from my other siblings.i didnt know that time that i became bullied from other children because of my setuation.i have remember this one setuation in my younger days when i was a kinder when my classmate hide my bag but i didnt know that time the reasons. But now i realize that i experience such thing because i dont have courage to fight my setuation.

* Having a normal life is not easy

I have this hardship in my everyday living even if i try so hard to live just like other do.i do house chore,i know how to cook,how to clean,i do carpentry,i am blessed because God give me passion that i can enjoy doing such as drawing,writing,and an ability to cope up in a defferent setuation even it is good or bad. i study and in God grace i graduated of 2 year course in college,i had different kind of work,i became all around maid, all around saleslady,but dispite of my deepest desire to live normal.there is always a truth that i cannot live behind and that i have limitations.

* Coping up with different environment around me

Its hard to live with people who is different from you, the acceptance ,the understanding,the judgement eyes,the discraminations.i experience this fair of sharing my thoughts.i have shame to face other people.im afraid to fight back when someone mistrait me, because i know im fragile enside.

* Rejection comes my way

I meet alot of friends,my family accept me, but i have this hole in my heart. The security of accepting who i am.in other people eyes i am bad example when it comes to achieving dreams.or even in my appearance, I seek for help to different people whom i thought , have the capability to help me but sadly,someone tell me that i am not one qualify of thier help because my disability are far from those people who need the help.its painfull to be judge even if they didnt know the real me.at the back of my mind after someone told me that" i am dis able whom needed a help,because i didnt ask for their help if i can,or i have that capability" but i can't,and i don't have . And i realize that time im hurting, not because they didnt help me,but because of losing their fair judgement before helping.and even in looking for oppurtunity sometimes people are always looking outside of me,not inside in me.

* Feeling of not capable

In so many aspect of my life,i have this fair in my heart that i am not enough. The feeling of living with normal person where didnt understand my setuation."its the reality that when you are with someone who is capable of everything you always have doubt in yourself".i experience to quite my job because i felt like i become a burden to them even if i know to myself i didn't.but even if i work so hard and believe to myself that i can,but my senses told me that i am.the way they look,they act,they speak,its so amazing how God gave this gift senses in me,or maybe to someone like me.that this sense tell me that i can feel them in a different way.i feel it when i know that i need to do this and that.I try so hard not to become burden to my family,i do the things i know i can.or even i try so hard to do even if i cant. I have this pain in my heart if i know to myself that i become a burden to other.or i try so hard to do the things like normal do can,but even if i try so hard i believe that this able person can be disable sometimes.

The strength to hold on

Dispite of hardship living in limitations.there is desired here in my heart that telling me,i want to live normal. I always have this strong hold to become more productive. I believe that yes i am disabled but i dont want this disablity end like this."I didnt end being disability only but being Dis Abled". I am disable where i can use to help,encourage,share and embrace my ability.

: jam