Alexandra McLash

As some of you know, I’m becoming a certified coach. Today in our class, they asked us to answer write down the answer to the question, “Who am I?”

I wrote down the first thing that came to mind : “I AM the one consciousness fragmented into multiple bodies, existing simultaneously in different dimensions and planes of consciousness.”

The teacher asked us to share our answers, and I thought it was interesting that everyone used different characteristics to define themselves. Some described the qualities they think they have, while others spoke of their roles in the world.

It made me think of how society makes us try to define ourselves by who we think we are in the world, yet I believe that we are constantly changing and evolving, so any characteristic we identify with, doesn’t really make sense, because we might be that during a certain period of our lives, but it doesn’t always hold true.

I can identify with being honest and loyal, in relation to my current relationships, yet I have definitely been the opposite as well. To everything I believe that I am, I have most likely also been the opposite.

How would you define who you are?

Shine bright, shine far. Be a star 🎶⭐️

Lately, I’ve been thinking about how the collective conditions us to always aspire to have and be less.

I’m currently in a coffee shop, and throughout the past hour, I’ve been listening to a woman in a fur coat closing a business deal.

Once she closed the deal, the client left and a man that had come in with the woman in the fur coat started praising her for her vision. “Your mind works in a marvelous way. The fact that you were able to see how much this area would grow and invested maybe 1/10 of what it’s worth today is amazing!” Apparently she owned buildings.

Usually when I used to hear things like that, I’d start thinking stuff like, “Well, she probably inherited.” I’d create separation between ‘those people’ and me, instead of aligning myself to the possibility of having that and even more.

Now, when I found myself trying to justify her abundance, I stopped myself and thought, “We’re in the same space. I’m clearly aligned to that woman, if not I wouldn’t be sitting next to her. How can I receive more from her? Whatever it is. Her knowledge, her luck, her ability to receive and generate abundance, etc.”

What else is possible, that if I allowed myself to be aware, would create and generate more life and abundance for me?

Being judged if not a bad thing. The problem is when we try to avoid it. When we avoid it, we can’t be our true selves.

During my years at university, I was really interested in feminism, sexual orientation, and gender identity, so I took multiple courses in these fields.

I was enveloped in the concept of how gender is a social construct, how certain sexual orientations have been scrutinized and demonized, and the utopian ideal of equality for all.

Where I still believe that our identities are social constructs and that ideally we could all have the same opportunities, I now believe that the labels we acquire, have a lot of weight to them.

When we label ourselves, we take on the judgments, perspectives, and points of view from the collective, related to these labels.

We limit who we are when we try to define ourselves.

For example, if I call myself a feminist, I take on the collective unconscious beliefs around what a feminist is. Feminism has become so distorted that it doesn’t only mean equal opportunities for all. I’ve seen many so called feminists hate men, and I personally am not for that, so why would I call myself a feminist?

We have to be careful when we take on a whole identity, because we carry the energy of everyone who’s also labeled themselves as such.

If I label myself as woman, I connect to the collective unconscious of every person who’s identified as a woman. I feel every woman’s pain.

What if I’m simply me, without having to label or define myself?

We might share experiences, but every story and person is unique.

Whenever I walk through spaces that are lavish, luxurious, and opulent, I ask to receive the energy of the space and the objects.

I ask them how can I receive more of them and what consciousness I can be to allow myself to receive more of them.

Last year, my purpose was to be happy and to have fun. This year, it is to be surrounded by beautiful, elegant, and opulent things, as well as being happy and having fun.

Sometimes I’ll just go have a coffee or glass of wine in a beautiful and luxurious space. Today I went to a museum and walked by an exhibition with tableware used by royals.

How much energy are you willing to receive from objects and spaces that signify opulence and abundance? 🥂👑

Personally, I started studying different holistic methods and witchy stuff since 2016. It wasn’t until 2020 that my business actually kicked off. Four years of studying and working jobs that had absolutely nothing with what I’m currently doing.

For years, I wanted to do what I’m currently doing, but if I would’ve stopped studying and putting myself out there, I’d have all of my talents locked up in a closet. I now know that I needed to dedicate the time to perfecting my practice, I simply wasn’t ready to be where I am throughout those four years.

I continue to learn things and I know my sessions have evolved and morphed into things that are completely different from how I started out. I’m currently trying to venture out into something new, which has made me revisit how I felt when I started my business.

It can be really scary to put yourself out there when you don’t feel good enough, but hiding will get you nowhere.

As someone who’s moved around her entire life, I’m no stranger to the feeling of losing someone each time I have to separate from a loved one.

This past week, my best friend came to visit me. We lived together in NY for four years and we try to see each other at least once a year.

Whenever we’re together my heart feels so full and it aches whenever we have to say goodbye.

I find the capacity to connect so profoundly with someone, one of the most beautiful aspects of our existence, even when it hurts to not be always be able to be with the people we love.

If you’ve been having weird dreams these past days…

The full moon in cancer (yesterday) heightened our emotions. Our dreams allow us to access our subconscious, so the dreams you’ve been having, have probably been triggering emotions you’ve been ignoring.

For me personally, this moon felt a bit like an eclipse. Not as intense as eclipses, but I definitely felt a wave of emotions I hadn’t felt in a long time.

To heal the emotional body, you can’t really do it through the mind. You need to dive into the emotion and give the emotional body what it needs.

What percentage of that emotion is yours and what percentage belongs to someone else?

Where do you feel the emotion in your body?

If you were to go into the emotion, what do you perceive?

What does that emotion need?

One of my clients asked for help regarding their relationship with food. I chose to share this post, because I know there are many social events around this time involving food, which can be very triggering for some.

This year, my focus was to have fun. I realized how many perspectives and points of view I had about what fun meant and how I was limiting my ability to have fun, because I had concluded what fun was.

I thought fun meant that I had to go out and have some sort of climax at some point in the night, for the night to have been successful. I thought fun meant hanging out with friends and laughing uncontrollably. I thought fun meant going on an amazing trip. I didn’t realize I could have fun by just walking outside or making myself a cup of coffee.

This year, I chose to stay in the question, “How can today/tonight be anymore fun?” I realized how much I’d been limiting my ability to have fun, because whenever I didn’t experience what I had concluded as fun, I couldn’t realize how much fun I was actually having.

This year I had the most fun I’ve had, ever since I can remember.

Next year, I want to keep having fun… and also joy, ease, and glory.

How can today be anymore joyful?
How can I have more ease throughout the day?
How can today be anymore glorious?

The importance of spending time in your own energy.

For months, I’ve been feeling like I’m going to feel alone and disconnected during the first weeks of December.

I wasn’t sure why I was going to feel this way, so I tried to justify it by finding reasons why I could possibly feel alone and disconnected. I ended up concluding that I would feel this way, because I’m going to be in a city where most of my friends are going to leave to go back home.

This isn’t entirely true. I have other friends who will stay here and I’ll even have family members in the same city, so why have I been feeling this upcoming loneliness?

I just saw a video by who spoke about how she feels an upcoming shadow in the collective, around feeling disconnected.

I hadn’t considered that what I was feeling was something collective…

I had gone into conclusion instead of asking what I was truly perceiving.

When we conclude, we limit the amount of awareness we can receive from something. When we stay in the question: “What is the truth behind this that I’m not perceiving?” we can connect to our awareness.

In my sessions, one of the main questions I’m asked is, “What is my purpose in life?”

I believe many of us have the idea that we’re sent here with a specific mission and that if we don’t fulfill it, we have somehow failed.

What if the purpose of life is just to live it fully?

Being fully immersed in the experience.

Creating the life you truly desire and allowing yourself to enjoy everything it brings.

How can you incorporate more pleasure?

How can you incorporate more fun?

How can you incorporate more joy?

Start with the basics. Begin your day by asking, “How can today be anymore fun/ joyful/ expansive/ creative/ exciting?”