Abyss of Love
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To my old self,
I'm sorry for allowing people to hurt you so many times. I'm sorry for all the wrong decisions that you've made because you were not wise enough before. I hope you'll learn to forgive yourself someday. I hope you'll heal from all your trauma. And I hope you've learned from all the mistakes that you've made in the past.
Someday, I hope you'll learn to love yourself after all the heartbreaks that you've been through. I know sometimes it's hard to forget the painful things that happened to you, but it takes time to heal. I hope one day you'll learn to find your worth again. You were too hard on yourself, and you forgot that you were worth it too. One day, I hope you find the happiness that you always deserve.
I want you to know that your past mistakes and traumas don't define who you are. You are more than your wounds and scars. You are more than the number of your heartbreaks. And I hope you always remember that I am so proud of you for being brave enough to stay alive. You are loved, and you are always enough.
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"I choose to love you in silence
for in silence I find no rejection,
I choose to love you in lonelinessโฆ
for in loneliness no one owns you but me,
I choose to adore you from a distanceโฆ
for distance will shield me from pain,
I choose to kiss you in the windโฆ
for the wind is gentler than my lips,
I choose to hold you in my dreamsโฆ
for in my dreams, you have no end.."
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I promised myself that I would be alright after I walked away from a situation that I did not deserve. I promised myself that I would be happy again after I walked away from someone who keeps hurting me. But what I didn't know was that love can conquer anything. Even against the deepest pain and sadness in my heart, love always wins. I never knew that I could love like thisโ selfless and infinite. I have been loving someone who doesn't even realize how worthy I am to be loved. I kept loving him even after I left. I thought I would be free from pain the moment I turned my back on someone who couldn't value me. But my heart cries every second, knowing that even if I try to run away, I will always look back and love him, even from afar.
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I hope you never get tired of loving me. No matter what happens to us, I hope you still choose to stay with me. I know that I am not perfect. I'm sorry for all the times that I hurt you unintentionally. But I want you to know that I never want to lose you. I still love you even though there are so many times where you break my heart and make me sad. I hope one day you'll finally realize how much you mean to me. I want you to know that even if you hate me sometimes, I will still love you with all my heart. I cannot promise you that things will get better soon, but I will try my best to make you feel loved and valued.
We've come to a point where we want to give up on each other, but I silently wish that you would still hold me tight and never let me go. I'm sorry for giving you reasons to hate me. I hope you still find love in your heart and choose to fight for me. But if one day you finally decide to give up on me, I hope you will still remember how much I love you. I hope you will still remember how much I hold onto you just so I can never lose you. If one day you finally leave me, I want to say sorry for not being enough for you. I'm sorry if I fail to make you stay.
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This is why she's single.
She is saving herself for someone who has genuine intentions with her from the very first conversation.
She does crave love and affection, but she is at the point in her life where she isn't going to let temporary people touch her mind, body or soul.
She is done having shallow conversations with people who didn't deserve her precious time in the first place.
Throughout the years, she has experienced trauma that has taken an unfortunate toll on her mental health, and she will never settle for someone who will make her question her own selfworth ever again.
She knows how valuable her life is, and she isn't afraid to continue on this journey alone because she is done with false fronts from people with hidden agendas.
The truth is ......
She's the true definition of an anomaly in this generation, and her elegant heart has more love to give than the number of synapses in the human brain, and let's not forget her soul....
Her soul reaches beyond the stars into galaxies that will be unknown for centuries to come.
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I want to make myself proud someday. I want to see myself happy after all the heartaches that I've been through. Nobody knows how much pain I've suffered, and nobody knows how many times I cried at night just because I was too lonely. After all that I've been through, I know that I deserve to forget all the pain that I have received from people. I deserve to be happy after being sad for how many years, and I deserve to sleep at night with a peaceful mind.
I'll make myself proud by surviving my silent battles. Even though I don't talk about my pain to anyone, I would show everyone that I am a strong person who never gives up. Someday, I will find happiness, and no one can ever stop me. I know that I deserve it. I've been really kind to people, and there is no reason for me to deserve all the heartbreak and sadness that I've received. I want to claim what I deserve. I don't want to settle for the misery of life. And that is why I will do everything to be okay. Even if it's hard, and even if I am still hurting right now, I'm going to tell myself that it's okay. Someday, everything will be alrightโ and that includes me.
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This is not losing, it's actually winning. God moves away people with bad intentions from your path to replace them with people who know your worth ( permanent, honest and real) ones so when someone walks away from us it's not because we're somehow imperfect, not at all, it's because they didn't manage earning us the way we deserve to be earned ๐๐ฆ
๐ฌ๐ผ๐ ๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ปโ๐ ๐ฐ๐ตรจ๐ฎ๐ ๐ผ๐ป ๐๐ผ๐บ๐ฒ๐ผ๐ป๐ฒ ๐๐ผ๐ ๐๐ฟ๐๐น๐ ๐น๐ผ๐๐ฒ. ๐ฌ๐ผ๐ ๐ท๐๐๐ ๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ปโ๐. ๐ฌ๐ผ๐ ๐๐ผ๐ปโ๐. ๐ฌ๐ผ๐ ๐๐ผ๐ปโ๐ ๐ฒ๐๐ฒ๐ป ๐ฐ๐ผ๐ป๐๐ถ๐ฑ๐ฒ๐ฟ ๐ฑ๐ผ๐ถ๐ป๐ด ๐ถ๐. ๐ฌ๐ผ๐ ๐๐ผ๐ปโ๐ ๐ฏ๐ฒ ๐ฑ๐ผ๐ถ๐ป๐ด ๐๐ต๐ถ๐ป๐ด๐ ๐๐ต๐ฎ๐ ๐๐ผ๐ ๐ธ๐ป๐ผ๐ ๐๐ถ๐น๐น ๐ฐ๐ฎ๐๐๐ฒ ๐๐ต๐ฒ๐บ ๐ฝ๐ฎ๐ถ๐ป. ๐๐ผ๐ปโ๐ ๐ฏ๐ฟ๐ฒ๐ฎ๐ธ ๐๐ผ๐บ๐ฒ๐ผ๐ป๐ฒโ๐ ๐๐ผ๐๐น. ๐๐ณ ๐๐ผ๐โ๐ฟ๐ฒ ๐ป๐ผ ๐น๐ผ๐ป๐ด๐ฒ๐ฟ ๐ต๐ฎ๐ฝ๐ฝ๐, ๐ท๐๐๐ ๐น๐ฒ๐ฎ๐๐ฒ. ๐๐ณ ๐๐ผ๐ ๐ฐ๐ตรจ๐ฎ๐ ๐ผ๐ป ๐๐ผ๐บ๐ฒ๐ผ๐ป๐ฒ ๐๐ผ๐ ๐ฐ๐น๐ฎ๐ถ๐บ ๐๐ผ ๐น๐ผ๐๐ฒ, ๐๐ผ๐ ๐ฑ๐ผ๐ปโ๐ ๐ฟ๐ฒ๐ฎ๐น๐น๐ ๐น๐ผ๐๐ฒ ๐๐ต๐ฒ๐บ...๐
Let people you love go, if it is the right thing to do. You have to give space to a flower in order for it to grow better; and often it needs not just cutting bushes but also some of its branches.
You have to cut some people out of your life if they hinder your growth. Even if they are dearest to you; and it is the hardest thing to do. You will feel the wounds after the trimmings; you will carry the scars and remember the people that were once attached to you; you will grieve that you did not choose them to stay.
After all the cutting of warped branches you will realize, many better things grow: greener leaves come out, more colorful blooms spring, stronger stems shoot.
You will meet new people, find greater opportunities and grow taller, deeper and firmer. Plot twist: all the things that were taken from you remained down your shade โ the branches grew on its own, the people you have lost now become better on their own.
It is you who can decide to connect to them once again, because you are now ready and prepared to settle things the way you know about; to invest time and effort to the right places; and to love once more or find a new one that can bear you more fruits.
Grow, and grow where, when, and who you can grow better with.
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I thought you would always be the one I could count on that would stand up for me when things got though.
Iโd always believed you would fight for me because of how you felt about me.
Turns out, I was wrong.
While I know weโd had some rough times of late, our relationship had a lot of truly beautiful moments too..
Or had you forgotten those, too?
When I needed you most, when things were the hardest..you just turned your back on me.
I donโt think Iโve ever been so hurt in my life.
I just couldnโt believe the one person that I thought would always be there..wasnโt.
You just chose to walk away rather than fight for me, for us?
I ask myself a million questions trying to understand how you could do that..and honestly, I donโt know.
I may never know.
Maybe you didnโt feel as strongly about me as you claimed, maybe something changed..or maybe you just fed me some words to make me believe we were the real thing.
I donโt know. Iโm just so hurt-Iโm beyond pain, Iโm numb.
I donโt know where to turn or what to think, Iโm completely lost.
This wasnโt supposed to be how things were meant to turnout.
Part of me has always believed you were the one and that my search was over..
And now Iโm just feeling dumb as you left me holding pieces of my broken heart..
But when everything came crashing down around me , you were nowhere to be found..
So, I did what I never thought I could do and stood up for myself..
I fought for me when I didnโt even think I had that strength in me.
Sometimes, your story doesnโt give you a choice and thatโs exactly where you walked out on me..
So, I did whatever I had to do to survive.
Itโs hard, Iโm not going to lie -thereโs so many days that I want to quit, but Iโd rather be out here struggling by myself than depending on someone who walks out when things get hard.
Iโm done with that.
Iโm sure you have your reasons and what you told everyone else, but you never even bothered to explain it to me..
The one person you should have told first, you didnโt even think I was worth the effort.
I guess itโs better to find out now than many years down the road, but it still hurts all the same.
I know Iโll be fine eventually, because your cowardice reminded me of strength I didnโt know I had.
Iโm strong enough, brave enough and courageous enough to pull through this with my head held high.
Maybe you walked out when the going got tough,
But the tough just made me get going.
I guess I should thank you for showing me the way back home to myself, but I donโt know that Iโll ever forgive you for what you did to me.
Doesnโt really matter, because Iโm in a better place now.
Where you once left a girl to fend for herself without a thought to how sheโd make it.
There now stands a strong woman..
With a heart of gold and a fiery spirit.
Some warriors are born..
This one was forged in the fire.
I was made for this..
Strong, beautiful and finally free.
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I know it hurts.
Itโs a very strange feeling how someone can be in your life for months or even years and then one day ... all of a sudden not be there anymore.
Maybe the relationship ended on good terms.... or maybe it was completely catastrophic.
Either way .... itโs so bizarre how relationships can change so vast and rapidly.
And you know what .... you may not be at peace with what happened between the two of you ... and thats perfectly fine.
Sometimes the end of a relationship can literally be one of the hardest things we go through in life.
I want you to know itโs okay that your heart still hurts because of what happened.
You have made alot of memories with this person.
And these memories that you have made is something you canโt erase no matter how hard you try.
Whether you like it or not, they are a part of your story.
I know looking on these memories can be hard, and you may wish you could forget them.
But instead of forgetting, maybe we should try to focus on what came from the relationship.
You two joined paths for a particular reason.
Maybe you walked through some of the hardest times together.
Maybe you understood each other in a way no one else ever did.
Maybe you encouraged one another to be strong or to embrace who you genuinely were as a person.
Or maybe your relationship with them opened your eyes to what you truly needed in your life.
Regardless of what the reasoning was, itโs okay to acknowledge that .... that person meant a lot to you.
And it's okay if they still do.
Itโs also okay that they arenโt in your life anymore.
What alot of people dont understand is, not every relationship we encounter will last a lifetime.
You shouldn't be lingering in the past questioning why everything happened the way it did.
What you need to do. is to take what you've learned from that relationship and move forward in your life.
Knowing there are other relationships that will give you exactly what you've always dreamed of and more.
I need you to know that you're not going to feel this way forever.
You will continue to move forward and you will continue to grow with everyday that passes.
Take my advice and remember.
Sometimes the people you wanted as part of your story, are only meant to be a chapter.
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Dear couples:
When you're in a relationship you're going to argue You're going to have trust issues, jealousy, break-ups& even make-ups.
Yes, you're going to cry, fight have haters, & even people that's trying break you up !!!
Ex's calling saying they want you back boring conversations and heated arguments & hurtful words being said that you don't even mean.
But no matter what you go through, no matter what people think or say about you, always be there for each other, loving, caring, understanding, communicating and forgiving each other's wrong doings above All Put God first and ask for directions through prayers.
Cause true love isn't easy & easy love isn't true..๐ฉต
Do you ever miss me
As I miss u?
Do you even think of me
Like the way you used to?
Are you also broken
And yearn to be together
Just Like I do?
Or have you moved on
Without even caring to look back, have you?
Was it lies when u told me you cared
Or that you missed me when I wasnโt there
I donโt know what to do anymore with myself
Iโm so lost in pain and despair
I hope you were not using me like I felt you did
To fill a void when no one was around instead
I really thought we were meant for each other
Until you showed me your true colors
What started with deep conversations
Ended in small talk
I never could understand
What really drove us apart
I finally snapped trying to make it work
I guess I chose my sanity and peace over your quirks
You donโt know how much you meant to me to get thru the day
Now, Iโm so empty , I just wish you would have stayed
You were the only one to give me joy, as well as sadness
How I wish to get out of this madness!
Now, I have nothing but hope to lean on
And memories of you.. now that you are gone
I hope we will be together some day
Even if it is never meant to be.. Iโd still stay
I long to hear a word from you
SayingโBabe, I miss you too
Can we leave the past and be together again?
Cos life without you
Is never the same againโ
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Thank you ๐
All posts come straight from the heart of someone that is always willing to forgive, forget, and truly love again. ๐ฉท