Jovial face of seraphs in midst of nowhere

Envious thought of the seraphs

I was in that phase na I always wondered what if my life is the same with the other teenager? What if my mental health was not messed up like the others? What if I have the loving, understanding and caring parents of others. I'm always stuck in this phase and it's like a platitude situation to me. Because I envied other teenagers who can enjoy their life to the fullest, who can be genuinely happy. Who are close to their parents, and can rants to their parents. I always have this thought na I hope kagaya rin ako ng other teens na walang family problems and, their only problem is acads, I always wish I am like them because despite of my jovial face, I always endured the pain alone, and I always cry in silent... I always bear the burden of having a fvcked up family. How can I enjoy if my mind was messed up, knowing that I lived in a cruel place and I know even how much I cried and beg... The world will never be fair.