Beth Clayton

To Motherhood.

The most brutiful journey I’ve ever taken. God, I’m so in love with my lil humans. And wow, is the journey the wildest, most intense, soul expanding, waves crashing your face into the sand so you can hardly breath, heart fluttering to the ether and back, monotonous, boring, gorgeous, fun, terrifying, tender, confusing, where is the book for this moment, no one told me this is what it would feel like, how do women do this? moment, clarifying, awful, so much sickness, nostalgic, wait, did I miss it?, blissful, adorable, disgusting, messy, hilarious, stunning, gross, doubt inducing, wondrous, hand your values in at the door, I would choose it over and over again, but not that part, painful, humbling, glorious journey.

And that’s when you have immense privilege, help, a partner, and the money one needs to not be in survival mode. And Mothers deserve so so so much better.

I don’t know how we do it. How mothers do it. How primary caretakers do it. It is impossible for quite a long time, to remain intact without your seams completely torn to bits. And maybe that’s the beauty of it.

But maybe it doesn’t need to do that either. If we were set up differently. And I suppose maybe that desire and then demand for thriving gets to start in us first. The ones who have the privilege enough to demand that for the ones who don’t have the energy or time or money or space.

I feel very grateful these days. One of my kids has been sick for a week, but they are such loving humans. Looks what they made me. I have a partner who supports me. I’m safe, I’m fed, I’m resourced. But even with those things, motherhood has brought me to my knees on more than one occasion.

And today, I’m thinking of those that do not have safety, resources, supportive partnership. I’m the daughter of a single Mom, who held the world on her shoulders. I could see the cost.

We deserve better. All of us do, but especially those in the struggle. The weeds. The active, front line, duty.

Mamas, please give yourself grace, and breath, and tenderness. The brutiful moment is a moment. In the gratitude and the pain of it, I see you❤️

Motherhood is brutiful.

Are you right for my newest program Embodied Emergence?

If you deeply resonate with this post, if it creates a flutter or a pull in your belly or a yearning pulling up through your heart.

That is how I always know. Because my body usually knows long before my brain fully gets it.

I joke my brain usually gets on board within 6 months, but sometimes it takes a couple years.

In Embodied Emergence, I join coaching and to help you Break the Good Girl Rules and Embrace your Inner Rebel to save you years (if not a decade) of unnecessary struggle in reclaiming your life-force, authentic expressions and big dreams.

This is a 4 month immersive program. We meet twice a week so we go deep fast as Emergence is designed for a fast birth.

If you feel called, DM me and I’m happy to share a Brochure with almost any detail you can imagine & can also answer any questions.

It’s important we connect to make sure this is the right fit for you (whether over messenger or in a Clarity Call) ✨

Early enrollment ends Wed (you save money & get a curated gift from me) 🦋



“There is one thing that’s eternal
That cannot be torn apart
There is one thing that remains forever true
Past the thinking, past the breathing
Past the beating of my heart
It will all fade away but you”

—It All Fades Away,
The Bridges of Madison County

10 years ago I married my person. My Josh. And we got together 9 years before that around this time of year, in first year of our MFA program at Rutgers.

So, really it is 19 years.

We were 22 when we found each other. And even though it would be a year from first meeting that anything romantic would happen, I had a strong remembering the moment I saw him.

A visceral response that at the time I had no idea how to categorize. But now I do…it was a remembering him.

And today I feel lucky bc who gets to marry the first person they fall in love with?

When you get together that young though, in the years where at least, I know now, I was a walking coping mechanism. I had no experience in relationships like this.

But somehow this person chose me anyway, saw through the cracks, saw my light, my beauty, my playful side, my vulnerable side, my power. He never didn’t see me.

And though I don’t take much about my marriage on these platforms (Josh is very private and our stuff feels too close to my beating heart).

It feels like one of the gifts life gave me to help me feel so seen and chosen that I started to learn how to love myself.

And anyone who knows Josh knows he is a force of nature. There is nothing he can’t do. And he is fiery and loves big and if he chooses you, you are in for life. His heart is bigger than any man’s I have ever encountered. He is so moved by life, that I am moved watching him take life in. He has had my back and protected me in ways I had never experienced.

And my God, we have been through so much as we grew up together.

We have our frictions, and honestly I’m just now learning how to communicate effectively for the first time in my life. In a way that opens the people I love instead of shutting them down.

And it’s so humbling. To learn how to love better.

It brings up all our wounds, and rooms that feel so scary to open, and body memories and it takes everything to stay in our body without defending, and protecting and attacking.

But the love I have in my life is so worth it, and the life and humans we have co-created.

It has been beyond my wildest imagining.

To 50 more years, my love ❤️

Break the Good Girl Rules with your Time, Energy & Money. Heal the patterns in your body around your self-worth, power, money and love.
It’s an act of resistance and rebellion..that also has the side effect of helping you align more fully with your life, force, authenticity and dreams.

Emerge starts in June 🦋

DM me “intrigued” to get the full program Brochure
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Break the Good Girl Rules with your Time, Energy & Money. Heal the patterns in your body around your self-worth, power, money and love.
It’s an act of resistance and rebellion..that also has the side effect of helping you align more fully with your life, force, authenticity and dreams.

Emerge starts in June 🦋

DM me “intrigued” to get the full program Brochure and save $$ before May 15th.
🔥✨❤️🦋🐍

Okay, here is the nitty gritty behind the scenes…

The reason I am able to help the folks who work with me to identify the root issue, the Good Girl pattern that is showing up, and in seconds see all the dots connect with what needs healing and reframing— is not just from working with hundreds of humans over the last 15 years.

It is because I live with my inner Good Girl everyday. While I am typing, she is next to me in the velour chair I bought for my office.

And lately, she has been super present, as I’m on a massive growth edge. Things are rapidly and magically aligning with my purpose, I’m generating more revenue that I ever have, and I’m building a business & offers that can create massive change, faster.

And my Good Girl is not like a sweet, fawning, kind most of the time.

She is evasive. She hides things to avoid confrontation . She freezes. She thinks she doesn’t deserve what she has, and she is waiting to be punished. She’s defensive as Hell. She bends herself into pretzels trying to meet her needs and wants w/o upsetting anyone.

And eventually, it’s impossible, and she gets pi**ed. Really pi**ed, but then she is spinning in drama it’s impossible to see what the actual issue is.

Can you relate?

Gratefully, I have practice, tools & support. I can find my footing fast.

In the biggest money year I will likely have in my life to date, I’ve never seen my patterns with money so painfully & clearly (ain’t that the rub).

Something is going on when you start sobbing talking about making quarterly payments for your LLC incorrectly.

Which is why I hired my own money coach. To help me see & feel what it’s hard to confront alone.

The patterns formed out of my past experiences, but they were also born long before that. Passed down over and over again.

Our intergenerational survival patterns were planted in the soil of patriarchy & strengthened over generations.

These patterns stem from millennia of patriarchal trauma & keep us obeying the unwritten rules.

And breaking them & healing them is the answer to a life trajectory beyond what we ever thought possible.

Enter Emergence🦋

My newest group mentorship.

Check her out.

Some of my fave posts from the week that spoke to m’soul and felt like…yup, that’s it. Well swum, Swan 🦢

Kudos

Emergence is emerging today 🦋

This program has been whispering to me for months but made herself FULLY known on the weekend of the Eclipse when I realized in conversation w Tracy (creator of ) that women get to wake up faster.

Their full juice, resourcing, life-force, genius and power coming online are deeply needed right now & for what is ahead.

That their best life is directly correlated with how good it gets for all living things, beings and the Earth.

Emergence is designed to create a deep, immersive rebirth for women in creating in their full alignment and out of their FULL selves.

Comment or DM me intrigued to get a full brochure that goes over all the deets and 99% of the questions you may have.

It’s time to go deep to go high.

On a mind, body and soul level.

Emergence is here 🦋

Are you having this fun thought?

“I am not qualified to do this”

Just reminding you…this stems from Good Girl Rules.

100% brought to you by patriarchy, colonization, industrialization & capitalism.

The systems responsible for so much of the dumpster fire we see around us.

The same system that puts “qualifications” that cost a lot of time & money, and are not always accessible or available to people who may actually be exactly the perfect ones to offer their medicine.

I’m all about integrity.

Am I in an embodied relationship with what I am teaching, creating, sharing, utilizing?

Are there specific qualifications/education that I’m supposed to have legally or ethically that I don’t?

How could I create harm inadvertently?

But for many of our pursuits, our journey and creativity and wisdom are more than enough to open the gate.

I was listening to a podcast episode from .grace.seol and I am currently learning from and they both share this idea of our or creative offerings (including business and purpose) having a spirit or soul. Our muse.

And the muse chose you, as you are.
YOU being YOU IS the offering, love.

The soul of my path chose me. ADHD, reverent, provocative, open-hearted, sometimes bitchy and a loner, loves being seen, storyteller, performer Beth. Who can create sacred spaces and move people out of thin air. With my unique wounds and vulnerabilities and weaknesses.

I learned that if I expect myself to be perfect, it’s because I think my masked self is better than my human,, true, risking, honest, deeply feeling human self.

I promise you it’s not.

If you want life to get really fu***ng good, it is tied with how honest, unapologetic, and real you are willing to be.

You are the gift. Right now. As you. In your full humanity.

And if you don’t fully believe that, it’s time to come work with me. Seriously. It doesn’t have to be like this.

I see you. It can get so magical. The women who work with me know ✨

Stop fu***ng around. I say that with a flirty wink.

Emergence drops later today 🦋

You wanna know the first Good Girl Rule rule I teach women to break?

God, this one gets me all fired up.

That you need to try to be Good.

That it requires you to change and better yourself. And prove your goodness (especially to other women equally entrenched in this BS).

It’s true. Screw it.

Focus on being truer to yourself instead.

Allowing more of your authentic self to see the light of day. Your sadness, rage, power, magic, joy, reverence, delight.

Proving your goodness and purity, and separating a woman from her body, full humanity, s*xuality, pleasure and full emotional life was a patriarchal strategy for dominance. And then baked into religious law.

Sacrificing your life force does not make you a good person, just exhausted and disconnected.

It’s okay to focus on filling your cup first.

I promise this only helps you love others better.

It’s loving to focus on your healing, and dreams, and coming alive again before being of “service.”

Be of service. God. Servicing.

I know how many most women believe their job is to be good, to be pure of heart, and chaste, and focusing on others, and if they do anything for themselves…it better be able to pass the “good person” test. The “being of service test.”

And it find everything desire down. It pours water on the fire. You are allowed to feel GOOD…not just servicing others.

Yes I want this thing but how do I do it in a way where I’m a good person and everyone thinks so, too.

The more a woman heals, the more she claims her authentic, essential self, the more she goes after what brings her alive and pleasure..

Being of serving extends from their healing, not from their depletion.

When women are healing from patriarchy, it ripples out.

When they thrive, everyone thrives.

Including men and boys. They deserve healing, too.

But you, love, it’s okay for you to go first.

To put yourself first. To resource yourself.

So…it’s okay to screw the rules, be bad, heal, do the taboo thing, be selfish.

To fully ground and come fully alive. It will bring those around you alive, too.

Details for Emergence drop this week 🦋

I saw this post by yesterday and it affirmed something that I have deeply known for a long time. A paradigm for world that I’m deeply devoted to doing my part to create. Even if I never see it.

To do the work of dismantling patriarchy in my own mind and body, in ways that help me remember myself, and what power actually is. What love can do. What is possible for us as a human family.

I love the work I get to do with women. I often put my hand on my heart in deep gratitude for the path I’m in, even when it’s really challenging, salty, tender, clunky, confronting. I love witnessing their remembering, rebellion, and expansion as they rise in their authentic expression. It’s so good. And it’s so much bigger than just us.

It’s every human they touch. They give permission to. It’s the gifts they share because they have found themselves again. It’s the impact they make, and the ripple we create.

We are all part of the butterfly effect here 🦋

And it starts either each of us doing the work within to shift our ways if being externally, to show others it’s possible, and that this is in the highest service of all, including cis men. No one is left out of how good it can get. We all need the healing.

No one can do this for us.

And I start with the women & non-binary folks, because they are already remembering in droves. They are waking up because they are starting the feel their pain more willingly.

Breaking the Good Girl Rules with our time, energy and money opens the gate to a deeper journey. Healing the patterns in our body around self-worth, power and love are also crucial. How much we are able to do this is directly correlated to how much freedom, authenticity, joy, adventure, impact, intimacy and magic we experience in our lives.

Life gets to get so good. You are allowed to want more. And you thriving is ONLY good for the people you touch and love.

Are you ready to save years of claiming a life and purpose that is beyond your wildest imagining? That you put your hand on your heart in gratitude for.

My new program, Emergence, opens next week🦋

It’s time to break the Good Girl Rules & stretch out your wings.

We start next Wednesday. 2 slots left.

Join the magic ✨

DM me magic to learn more.

My favorites if the last week and change on IG. So much goodness and wisdom here 🔥✨❤️

Are you ready to truly understand why you are playing by so many of the Good Girl/Woman rules?

The history ain’t pretty.

I have been putting the finishing touches on the intensive that I’m facilitating on Fri with and man, did I get lit up digging in again to why we follow these agreements in our lives.

Have you signed up yet? Because if you are a creative woman with big ole dreams and ambitions. This is for you, love.

And the patterns that exist in us that are begging to be required. In our bodies. In our brains. In our behavior.

It’s chilling how efficient it is to separate woman from her body, wisdom, spiritual center, community and safety. How efficient it is to make her the perpetrator, judge and jury.

How we have learned to hold ourselves back.

Patriarchy runs so deep. And it is so deeply connected to colonization and collective trauma, domination, exploitation and the atrocities we are witnessing in real time.

And until we can shift the rules WE are following in our relationships, lives, creative pursuits, businesses and families…how can we expect it to change on a global scale?

I’ll start with this. You are allowed to want more—on every level. You are allowed to create a life you deeply love. You are allowed to be all of you and express however you want as loud as you want. You are allowed to dance however you want. You are allowed to love as openly as you want. Use your voice how you want. Make as much damn money as you want. Have the s*x you want. Live in a way that is completely you and come alive in ways you are still dreaming about.

It starts with breaking the rules you didn’t even know you were following.

So you can reclaim what was lost, and shift how you are relating to your body, time, energy and money.

This intensive can save you years in how you are creating.

And will give you so much permission to break the rules, with fire in your heart and a smirk on your lips, for you and for the rebalancing of how we live as humans.

It’s time. Hope to see you Friday 10-4. Only $97
(Link in bio)

This event is named after a moment with my 6 year old daughter. She walked in on me dancing in meditative movement, and was enthralled.

Later that evening she looked at me and said “ Mama, do you know when you are most beautiful?”

“When, baby?”

“When you dance like you were born wild.”

I just about died. My jaw hit the floor.

This week, that same girl (at 6) started worrying that she is fat. I’ve caught her sucking in and turning sideways to scrutinize her shape.

And again, I just about died. But not in a good way. To watch the loss of freedom in her body so young.

But I know I’m going to do everything to foster the continuing of her deep wisdom and wild and freedom and connection to her deepest self through her body.

I know I’m going to keep teaching her exactly what I am teaching my women…how to break the Good Girl rules we are all indoctrinated into. How to value her authenticity, her standards, her energy, her joy, her feeling good, her power, her body as the source of how she creates.

And I’m glad I have her early.

Because there is so much I can influence.

With the women mostly in their 30s, 40s and sometimes 50s who come to me, there is a lot more to dismantle, heal and claim.

But when they give themselves this gift, their life starts to shift into alignment so much faster, and they wake up and start living in different vibrancy if color, they start showing up way more powerfully and create big outcomes in their purpose, creativity, business, leadership that they had been stalling with for years, even decades.

It starts with us shifting now we think. It starts with us healing these Good Girl patterns in our nervous system, too.

On Feb 16th, my and my colleague (aka the Magical Money Witch) will take you deep into breaking the Good Girl agreements in Time, Energy & Money so you can align and deliver so much faster on what matters to you most.

All the deets are in my bio✨

Register today. Let’s start to break through rules together 🔥🔥🔥

There are patterns I see everyday as a coach.

Patterns that stop women in their tracks from building the life and dreams that bring them fully aliveness. That leave them majorly settling.

And what I have come to realize with startling clarity, especially after reading “On Our Best Behavior” by , how the patterns we have all adopted into our thinking and nervous system that stop us from accessing our life force, magic, genius, power and potential…are not random.

Separating a woman from all of this was intentional and strategic, and has laid the foundation for so much of what is not working in our world.

The Good Girl Rules are unwritten agreements that we have all been indoctrinated into, both in our psychology and our nervous systems.

And until we are able to understand, dismantle and heal the patterns themselves will own how we live, how we create and how we use and view the resources available to us; Time, Energy & Money.

And these deeply affect how we build, create and manifest, and the legacy we leave here.

That is why I’m coming together with my bad-ass friend and colleague, (aka the magical money witch) to help the women in our communities understand how to break ties with these rules and shift the paradigm in what is possible, both personally and collectively.

This is for you if you are DONE with:
☑️ Over-functioning, burn-out and carrying the load for others
☑️ Perfectionism & Comparison with other women
☑️ People-Pleasing
☑️ Imposter Syndrome
☑️ Guilt, shame, and scarcity around finances
☑️ Disconnection from pleasure, s*xuality and creativity
☑️ Fear of being criticized or challenged
☑️ Hiding parts of yourself because you don’t think your communities can handle it

If you desire:

☑️ More ease, pleasure and ground in your daily experience
☑️ Authentic Expression: You feel safe to be ALL of you
☑️ Deep confidence in who you are
☑️ Deeper community and intimacy with other women
☑️ Feeling deeply connected to your life force, s*xuality & sensuality
☑️ Freedom and Safety with Money

Join us for a 1-day Immersive Workshop & Coaching Experience where we teach you to break the rules🔥

(Link in bio)

What is embodiment?? I know. Like manifestation, authenticity and vulnerability…this term can seem trendy and hard to define.

But if you are like most creative, sensitive women I work with, entering into a path of embodiment can be one of the most profound, healing and soul-affirming paths you have tread on.

And likely you have been drawn to embodiment through your art, your music, your coaching, your body of work. You desired to find your way deeper bc a part of you knew.

A part of you knew that the magic is not outside, it’s just buried (or guarded) deeper within. And when you experienced that magic in moments, you couldn’t get enough. And you thought that pursuing your art or performing skills or building your practice or achieving and getting the trophies and permission was the way to feel more of it.

You forgot you don’t need permission. You forgot it’s not out there. It’s just beneath the armor of your self-protective patterns. Your unprocessed body memories. The ways you have learned to hop out when things felt scary.

You forgot & that’s okay. We all do.

But I invite you back in. Because there is magic here and when you work with the wisdom of your body AND retrain your mind….whole worlds become available. Portals open. Time bends. The external reality you thought was the answer arrives in unexpected ways bc the internal world started to match those experiences.

If you are new to …I highly recommend this book by about how embodiment is the answer to so much of what is not working in our world.

For the first time in Feb, Im offering an Embodiment Journey: 12 week group (Body Alchemy & Body Trinity) to revolutionize your relationship with your body, rewire your nervous system and transform how create (that can save you years if not decades on your healing and dreams)

And you join in a 1:1 Embody Your Vision Mentorship track at the same time, you will receive this included as a part of your journey with me.

Body Alchemy starts Feb 28th (six spots available) and 3 spots left for 1:1 Coaching Mentorship.

DM me MAGIC to learn more more ✨

I don’t actually believe purpose is something you find.

I believe purpose finds you.

And when you heal the protective patterns in your body, when they no longer run your life with your conditioning riding shot gone—purpose emerges like a 3D image out of a 2D image.

Once you stop trying (proving yourself) and soften your gaze (focus on healing your body and relationship with self), you start to receive the knowing.

And I don’t believe we ever arrive. I believe as we grow, the expression of our souls work here will go through their own death and rebirth cycle.

I also believe everything from our past sets us up brilliantly. Including every path we were drawn to. Every dream we had contained clues, patterns, were the water beneath the ship.

I am so grateful to the Beth who embraced theater with such unwavering knowing, who trained at Rutgers with people who were not just artists, but seers. Stewards of approaching life through the depth of whole being—embodied, curious, dancing on the ashes of right and wrong and entering into human complexity.

For the Beth who jumped from theater contract to theater contract, so broke, for the better part of 12 years but lived in soul dollar wealth.

Performing was my soul work for so long. And I still have the sense memory in my cells. I can still smell the theater and feel the electricity.

And everything that brought that version of myself closer to herself has set me up brilliantly for the roles I play now—as mother, partner, coach, healer, leader, teacher and always-student.

What ever you think your soul work is, if you think you have arrived, I invite you into the ever expanding slip and slide that is purpose work. This is not the end destination. It is just the beginning.

Your purpose is a never ending intuition to unfold.

As Maya Angelou said “You have no idea what your legacy is”

And there is honestly nothing better I have found that the continual honing, shifting, changing, and accepting of new invitations.

It is love giving, affirming and makes everything about life better.

Welcome to the Mystery School of Purpose Alignment.

If you are looking for a guide, I may just be your woman🔥

Day 2-3 were all the feels. But when I pulled Kali-Liberation & Freedom, I knew we were in for a ride.

There is so much power in this group I thought my computer would short out when they starting moving
and dancing.

Especially with the New Moon in Capricorn and Pluto being a part of the mix (reckoning with shadow and the underworld).

I pulled 2 cards before the retreat & one each day.

So, putting those all together. It is time to Liberate and free yourself, loves. And the path to do this is through your soul, through your light and generosity. Being in your generosity. Give from the light, because the light has no end. We listen for the distinct and embrace the similarity. We look for the ways that our union enriches what already is, while creating something new and unexpected. It’s time to release the past and prepare for a powerful rebirth, whta is meant for and to move forward with an open, trusting heart. The way to do this is to enter into forgiveness for yourself or others and set yourself free from the seeds of resentment. Now is the time.

Thank you for the fantastic meme & for for her workshop on Decolonozing our Soul Work, and for blowing our minds with how to work with rhetorical Chakras to amplify our impact.

This was a powerful start, loves.

To infinity & beyond!!! 🔥🔥🔥

Day 2 of Embodied Rise Opening Virtual Retreat. The New Moon in Capricorn is supporting some really magical unfolding.

Yesterday we started to name the deep truths, crack open our hearts with one another and slip into the deep water of what this experience will be. Then we were expanded by the wisdom of with how to work with Earth energy, balancing our chakras and she gave us all such incredible wisdom and insight through her intuitive reads with how to work our unique blocks. I had so many full body chills as she is so on point to the issue every time. And understanding all of this is so helpful when working directly with our movement practices.

Today we are working with around understanding privilege and decolonization on our soul work paths, and going deeper into the magic of our bodies in uncovering new information around purpose with my sister in the mission 💫

Today will no doubt bring more up, down, strange, charmed, beauty and truth into the picture for all of us.

I love watching it all unfold and supporting what arises. This is so much bigger than me but I delight in my support role in each persons rise and growth.

Let’s do this Day 2 🔥💫❤️

I have been deep in prep for the opening retreat for the second round of Embodied Rise Mastermind following every sickness and disruption in our family; Covid, ear infections, stomach stuff, ruptured ear drums! Every year I am surprised (you thought I would have learned by now).

But I’ve stayed up some nights much later than normal deep dreaming about this round and the incredible humans who joined—artists, performers, classical musicians, somatic therapists, intuitives, healers, poets, writers, mothers, innovators, teachers, activists and influencers.

They answered the call because they know their healing and expansion and return back to their bodies and selves isn’t just about them. It’s about all of us & the world we are building together.

And that our joy and play and magic and aliveness and gifts are not in separate boxes from our pain and grief and the valleys we have walked on our journey.

So, we are rising and learning and expanding together as we reckon with our own triggers and shadow and light that emerges when we date to reach higher.

Twelve humans are starting tomorrow on 1/11, the New Moon in Capricorn. All about long term vision, integrity, courage, alignment, and uncovering our gifts. And on Friday, we go conjunct with Pluto (which represents the underworld) and the three year cycle we have been in since 2020.

Which was the year I started having visions for this program. Flashes. Snapshots.

And the card I pulled was Kali, Liberation & Freedom. Oof. The women I have been working with know this is an invitation. They have already started remembering and waking up. The liberation of their authenticity, truth, expression and how their soul is showing up to serve and create is inevitable.

We have our concrete 3-D goals of course, but I know deep in my bones, this is bigger than that.

To the continued waking up, for me, for them, and for their unique medicine to reach the people who need it the most.

Embodied Rise 2024. Liberation. Here. We. Go. 🔥🔥🔥