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My heart has been so heavy...
(yes, this is going to be a long one)

I am behind. Like incredibly behind on the weddings I shot this year and delivering these completed galleries.

I always give myself a safe buffer when editing weddings but I've surpassed the timeline I originally gave myself and the anxiety I have about it is crippling.

I'm disappointed in myself. I'm sad for the couples that are waiting on me for their photos. I can't say sorry enough.

I try to edit in chronological order and do big photo dumps at a time but I've gone through some fairly large personal changes this summer that have changed my "free time" and availability drastically.

Then, just as I thought I could get a handle on things, my worst fear came true.

One of my SD cards corrupted. And for the first time ever, I lost photos from a wedding day.

To say that I was devastated would be an understatement.

I sent the card away and even downloaded my own software to locate the missing photos but to no avail. It sent me into a spiral.

I've let my inbox fill with messages. I've abandoned my photography social media and I decided to walk away from photography.

I couldn't handle the feelings I carried knowing that I had lost a part of someone's special day and that I had failed them.

I will say that I am beyond blessed with the most sweet, patient and understanding friends and couples who have handled me and this process with more grace than I deserve.

To the couples:

Natalie and Ben, Tristan and Jeff, Andrew and Leslie, Patricia and Chris & Cheyenne and Tom... you trusting me to be a part of your special days meant and MEAN the entire world to me.

Please know that I am staying up until the late hours of the morning every chance I have. I'm trying so hard to get your beautiful photos done for you and not miss a single moment captured. They are coming. I promise.

If you've messaged me and haven't gotten a response, I'm so sorry. I will eventually respond but please don't take it personally. I'm not taking on any additional projects until these galleries are in the hands of the beautiful couples and complete.

I'm not entirely sure how to end this post... just wanted to share something that's been weighing heavily on my heart for obvious reasons.

Sending you love ❤️

-LB

If you follow me on Instagram you may or may not have seen that I'm closing my books for the time being 💛

Photography has always been my passion project- but when life starts going a million miles a minute and I'm unable to take the time I need for outstanding galleries- the responsible thing is to hit ✨️pause✨️ until what I've promised can be delivered.

Call it catching up, call it taking a breather. All I know is I've got to pause, breathe, repair my universe, then proceed.

Every waking moment that's not spent working- I'm editing my little fingers off, trust me on that!

Sometimes I'm the mess, sometimes I'm the broom. Going forward some days I'll have to be both 😅

But as ALWAYS I thank you from the bottom of my heart for your everlasting support and belief in my little biz. It truly means the world and I'm honored to have a place to share it with you all 📸

-LB

It is finally time to introduce this little sweet pea to the feed ✨️

🌸️ Little Lady Lydia 🌸

"Her little hands stole my heart, her little feet ran away with it."

No matter how much I say I love you, I always love you more than that.

There's only one thing more precious than our time and that's who we spend it with.

Be grateful for every second of every day you get to spend with the people you love 💛

"One day you will meet someone who will see the universe that was knitted into your bones, and the embers of the galaxies glow to life in your eyes. And you will finally know what love is supposed to feel like." -Nikita Gill

Imposter Syndrome.

Something I've been struggling with a lot lately.

“What am I doing here?”
“I don’t belong.”
“I’m a total fraud, and sooner or later, everyone’s going to find out.”

All things I battle with internally each day. Which then pushes me to hold myself to an even higher standard that I'll never be able to truly measure up to.

And with that, working harder to be and do better, doesn't do much to change how I perceive myself.

Perfection only feeds into your impostor syndrome. When you feel like you're not good enough, it's usually because you're comparing yourself to some *perfect* outcome that's either impossible or unrealistic.

For myself, a lot of pressure comes from watching follower counts, seeing others post on social media about all of the jobs they're getting, business they're receiving and local relationships they are building.

So how do we combat imposter syndrome?

Honestly I'm still working on that and don't have the best answer just yet.

But some things I've come to learn over my time doing what I do...the things that some LOVE about you are going to be the reasons others DONT... and that's something you just have to be okay with.

The relationships you started with in this space may not be the relationships you have now- and that is called life.

The things I may consider weaknesses about myself are things others may see as strengths.

Find the people that see the best in you, regardless of social status, occupation or success and hold them close.

It's taken some time for me to realize that what works about me for some- may not work for others. But for now, the camera in my hand brings me joy.

This is my long winded way of saying that I'll forever be a work in progress. But thank you to those who have stood by me and an even bigger thank you to those who have chose to walk away.

"One of the happiest moments in life is when you find the courage to let go of what you can't change."

This warm weather has me FEELING a type of way ☀️

Sometimes within the waves of change we find our true direction.

"The ocean stirs the heart, inspired the imagination and brings eternal joy to the soul." -Robert Wyland

Sky above, sand below, peace within 💛

Weddings currently on the go:
Brett & Megan
Ben & Natalie
Andrew & Leslie
Jeff & Tristan

Stay tuned 👀

If you carry joy in your heart, you can heal any moment.

Find joy in discovering what makes your soul happy!

The more the heart is sated with joy, the more it becomes insatiable 💕

"Then one day, when you least expect it, the great adventure finds you." -Ewan McGregor

Just when you think you know love, something little comes along to remind you just how big it really is.

For all the things my hands have held, the best by far is you.

☀️🌱💛

Shooting my first wedding of the year tomorrow- and it has me reflecting on the state of weddings this time last year 🤍

Things looked... different.

People were different.
Places were different.
Interactions were different.

You know what wasn't different? Love.

The love for the people who helped celebrate in any capacity they could.
The love for the places and venues willing to bend over backwards to accommodate the special day.
The love the bride and groom had for each other and everyone they interacted with.

Love isn't everything but sometimes it's the most important thing.

Honoured, excited and filled with gratitude that I get to spend another year doing what I love while simultaneously capturing others.

Thank you.

Stop waiting to do the things you want to do. Today is a great day to JUST GOT FOR IT 🎉

Push your limits daily and your future self will thank you.

"The beautiful thing about learning is nobody can take it away from you." -B.B. King

Make mistakes.
Learn the lessons.
Set new goals.

Remember that you're amazing! Everything will be fine. You are enough. Progression over perfection!

✨️ You can do anything ✨️