Dead at 40
Songwriter/Musician
09/07/2022
Evo takva mi je po prilici bila godina (odmalena ih brojim od jeseni do jeseni, još sam u školskom điru): čekaonice i rast svijesti (a ne samo nečega u meni).
Kad mi je na pamet palo ime "Dead at 40", odmah sam si pomislila: "nemoj, ženo, 'nomen est omen', pokopat ćeš se" i kad su se u nekom trenutku malo zaredali problemi, odmah sam pomislila "to je to, sjebala sam se!" Jest da sam ja u imenu našla i dublje značenje i zato ga ostavila takvog kakvog je, ali majke mi da samo čekam da prođe ta 40-a, baš mi visi ko mač nad glavom :D
Ali dobro sam. Ili ću biti. Nebitno :) Ljudi prolaze i kroz puno gore stvari. No javljam se zato da se vidi da ipak još nisam umrla (imam još mjesec i 20 dana fore) i da malo objasnim što se zbiva. Morala sam se opet malo povući i neizmjerno sam zahvalna svim suradnicima koji trpe tu moju igru povuci, potegni, malo bi, malo ne bi...
No sve se uvijek događa s razlogom - jer u međuvremenu sam postala 5 p**a sigurnija u pjevanju, a na jesen krećem i na Complete Vocal Institute (ako će me htjeti :D) i veselim se novim avanturama.
U međuvremenu, čekirajte tu na fejsu blog s pjesmama koji sam pokrenula, možda vam se koja dopadne. https://www.facebook.com/40.dana.posta
Odoh sad dovršiti instrumentale :))
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I think this pretty much sums up my year so far (I always count them from September to September 😁): waiting rooms and becoming aware.
When I came up with “Dead at 40", my immediate thought was "nomen est omen" - don't do that, what if you actually manifest this into real life 😅 Well, I sort of managed to do that, although I did find much deeper and more important meaning in that name which I explained earlier.
I am OK and will be OK. I know people go through much more difficult things in life, but so many little things have accumulated in me due to stress and unhealthy living that I just need(ed) time to go back to myself, whatever that means.
So this is why I'm silent again and not much progress in the project is showing.
Hopefully, summer will bring much needed ease and, self-love and self-care and I will be able to finish this as I imagined. With a little help of my friends. 💜