Ren Patrick

merry christmas ft. mr. pickles butt 😇🎄❤️

Another Ren Fest down in the books! ❤️

Happy 30th birthday to my love! ❤️ the sweetest guy in all the lands. I love you, Kristopher! 🥰

I could cry thinking about how many memories we have made growing up together 🥹 I love you so much, and I hope you have the best birthday ever! Very glad that you moved to Texas and that we had choir together in 8th grade ❤️ I love you forever! You are an angel woman.

Ren Fest part 2 ❤️🥰 I adore these ladies and I also always love coming here to celebrate miss

Ren Fest part 1 ❤️🥰

I had Buffalo wings in Buffalo so you know I’m out here really living

best mom in the world ❤️

Celebrating birthday!!! ❤️

happy birthday mom!!! you are my best friend, and I’m so lucky to be able to say that. ❤️ thank you for being you and for making me who I am. Love you so much!! Everybody go wish my mom a happy birthday!!!

having the best time celebrating our lil beaver loving sexy baby !!!! We love you dearly ❤️

I’m trying really hard to not write a caption apologizing for being so sappy and posting a million versions of the same picture of me smooching Kris’s face. 😋 but still… forgive me… I am full of sap. ❤️

my happiest place— even tho I was not very keen on getting my picture taken from this specific angle 🤪😂

my partner in crime 😈

✨you with the dark curls, you with the watercolor eyes✨

Big cheesy smile for how great this past week in Colorado was. The views, the wedding, the food and most of all, the company was all lovely. I lucked out when it comes to my boyfriend’s family ❤️🥰

Riley McKenna, (did y’all know I named my sister???) I cannot believe you are 20 years old! Having a sister that’s a decade younger than me has been the biggest blessing of my life. Our relationship has taught me so much about the world and myself, and I’m so thankful to be a big sister. You have made me a better person and I will be there for you no matter what, and you will always be my absolute favorite ❤️ I’m incredibly proud of the woman you’ve turned out to be, and even tho it’s hard to see my ✨baby✨ grow up, it’s also really incredible to have had the opportunity to watch you age into this super caring, sensitively sweet, thoughtful, sentimental, smart and goofy adult woman that becomes more and more gorgeous every single day!!!!! Enjoy this year because 20 is a good one 🥰🥳

had an awesome time celebrating Anna and Zack in Colorado! ❤️

what a view 🥰😍

no filter kinda day 🥰

gonna miss my boys this weekend while I’m in Illinois and Wisconsin!

let’s just be honest… let’s just ✨B-REAL✨ I am so incredibly lucky to have someone like Meiling Zelahy as a mother. The ways in which she cares for the people she loves is an art form in and of itself. Her name is a verb for getting sh*T DONE. (And doing it right— the Virgo way!) She is the first person I call when I’m upset, and luckily also the number one person I wanna call when I get good news, too. The older I get the more I realize how similar we really are. I find myself caring about the things she cares about, or doing things the way I know she would do it. And it’s hard to explain bc I think all angsty teens joke about never growing up to be their parents, but dang. I feel more and more lucky every day that I find new qualities in myself that remind me of my mom. She lights up a room. Making people laugh is so natural to her. Making new friends and staying connected with old friends is something she doesn’t even have to try at. She’s a lover, and she’s a fighter. She protects. Fiercely. She cares. Deeply. She loves. Actively. And she does all of those things intentionally. Is she annoying sometimes when she tells me to stop spending my money on sushi?? Yes. Is she a little hypocritical when she texts me multiple times a week asking to get sushi with me? Yes. But we LOVE IT. And WE LOVE HER!!!!! I love you, mom! You are the worlds best and I’m blessed to have ya ❤️ HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!!!!

once upon a time the planets and the fates and all the stars aligned, and I ended up in the same room at the same time ✨

had so much fun celebrating today! Her birthday is tomorrow, and if you’ve ever met Kim, even briefly, you know what an incredible gem of a person she truly is! No one is more genuine and kind. She radiates love and light in the most authentic way. I’ve known her for half of my life at this point, and have watched her grow into the most amazing person and mother, all while keeping that fun, goofy, hilarious personality that made me first want to be her friend back in High School! ❤️ She’s gorgeous, smart, witty, etc. I can’t say enough good things about her!!! I love me some Keyumburleigh! 🥰🥳 happy birthday (tomorrow!) 😭❤️

had such a good 30th birthday being surrounded by family and my best friends! I feel so special and lucky to have these people in my life. I can’t wait to see what this new decade brings! ❤️

HEY IT’S MY BIRTHDAY AND I’M 30!!!! 🥰❤️

spontaneous beach day with my boys 🥰

weird being in love with someone who lifts me up to walk on mountains instead of being tripped over eggshells, but here I am…weirdly in love with the most patient, sweetie-pie, angel boy. Maybe people wonder why I still talk about my past abuse sometimes. It’s because it’s still a part of me. And it might always be. Survivors of abuse know that some wounds might never fully go away. Our brains want to remember so that we can make sure it doesn’t happen again to protect ourselves. But what I’m learning is that being loved the right way CAN rewire your brain. No, it doesn’t get rid of the trauma. But you can create a new normal for yourself and day by day, you’ll see yourself feeling braver, safer, and stronger…. And with that, more confidence!!! If you’ve been hurt before and you’re scared to let love in again, I understand. I didn’t let myself truly date or let someone get to really know me again for years after I left my ex. I took time to begin to heal myself. But I’m so glad I gave love a chance again, because even though being with the wrong person can make you feel like “all men or people are evil or bad”, that isn’t true. We already let our abusers take years of our lives. Let’s not let them take anymore by letting their shadows still scare us out of giving other people chances after we were brave enough to get out. Raise your standards. Don’t ignore red flags. Know your worth. And be surprised that there are men out there who won’t scream in your face or punch walls. Or fight for the upper hand. Or use fear to control you. You deserve to know what safe love feels like. Love where you don’t feel forced into staying. A love that feels so good that you WANT to choose it every day. You DESERVE that at the BARE MINIMUM!!!!!

after having my catalytic converter stolen for a second time since the summer, I’ve decided to let my little red prius go. This car seems to have some bad luck, and I think it’s time for a fresh start. I have mixed feelings about the closing of this chapter. This is the car that I drove from California to Texas in when I left my abusive ex. The one I filled to the brim with whatever parts of my life that I wanted to keep from the past to start over with. Me and my dog. It’s a car that I have a countless amount of memories being abused by my ex in. A car that has heard me cry, scream, and sing at the top of my lungs. But I also look back fondly on so many memories I have had with Sister Mary Clarence. (Yes, that was her name). Like all of the road-trips that I’ve taken in it with my little sister. The thick layer of dog fur from all the times Mr. Pickles and I would go on adventures or to dog parks. The stains from spilt Starbucks drinks on the upholstery, and lost French fries in between the cracks of the seats. The cheapest gas EVER. This car has been through it with me. And I’m excited to have sold it, and look forward to the future. I now live in an apartment that I’ve never been yelled at or abused in, and I’m about to get a brand new car that I can say the same thing about. ❤️ it’s a nice feeling.

happy new year! ❤️