Freedom with Fenda

I love the smell of books 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍yummmmmmmmmmm

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After every deep phase comes a re-emerging of a more authentic version of our love and joy 🙌🏽That in between place of who we thought we had to be and the person we truly know we are…this ebb and flow seems to happen many times 🙏🏻I’m currently about to reconnect with my joy 🎶what part of you is re-emerging now? 💕

New hair, new glasses…..old me?😂🎶

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Freedom
The Spirit of the Future Epoch

This is one of the most thought provoking, revolutionary and prophetic pieces of writing you will ever read. It concerns the current changes humanity is moving through and where we are heading as a species. Filled with idealism and poetic metaphor, but balanced with down-to-earth psychological and social insight, this is a transmission straight from the source.

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Freedom: A Love Song It's feeling connected to the truth that is true always, yet tuned into the truth that changes...and being ok with all of it. It's allowing the full range of emotions and seeing beauty, power and purpose in all of them. It's being unafraid of your pain and fear, willing to feel it all and love yours...

Found this cool t-shirt the other day at vinnies 👌 now I’m just looking for one that says “your worthy” and I’ll have t-shirts for all of my core wounds 🧐😂

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Living The Purpose Of The Heart Its been a long while since I've posted anything here on my website. 2023 has been another hell of a year. And 2024 feels...well more of the same...perhaps more intense. For those of you who are on this path of awakening and transformation, maybe you have been feeling the same. This sense of un-rele...

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My name is Fenda Ashworth and I am a fellow awakener, healer, transformational guide and divine being doing her best in her human experience :)

My website is part journal, part guidance and a lot of authentic expressions of what it' s like to truly heal at the deepest level and choose to love yourself unconditionally. This is a path that is full of ups and downs, in's and out's, with days of freedom and bliss to experiences of fear and and thoughts of....am I losing my damn mind?

Yes this is all so normal and you are not alone.

Those of us who have chosen massive paths of deep transformation are here to lead others from and in heart-based consciousness. We are assisting the collective to heal and let go of outdated beliefs and paradigms of which we begin with ourselves. Embodying our true nature as genuine loving, free and powerful beings will be and is the greatest gift we can bring to this hugely transformational time.

It is my greatest authentic joy to assist you on this journey through my writings, sharings, podcast and one on one sessions. Welcome to Freedom With Fenda!

Spiritual Awakening, Healing & Transformation | Freedom With Fenda Discover the purpose and power of loving and understanding your emotions and align with your true self! Freedom with Fenda is about awakening freedom within, connecting to authentic unconditional self-love and knowing your true power to transform anything in your life. Fenda is a certified practitio...

When it’s hard to love, it’s time for freedom…loves expansive companion.

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‎Freedom With Fenda: Facing fears: two perspectives I use for healing fear on Apple Podcasts ‎Show Freedom With Fenda, Ep Facing fears: two perspectives I use for healing fear - 29 Dec 2023

Reading, listening to jazz on a rainy day. This is my pleasure 🙌

I don't want to do anything.

There Ive said it.

This is my deepest truth right now. I DON'T WANT TO DO ANYTHING.

There is nothing in me that is telling me which way to go, what to do. I have no authentic desire for movement forward or toward anything.

Ive been judging myself hard for this...for awhile. And I was making myself feel wrong about it. It was actually making me feel sick.

I was afraid of facing and admitting that my truth is this simple and this shameful.

I don't want to do anything.

I was not respecting this authentic desire at all. I was trying to run from it, hide it, distract from it, cover it up with something else.

Why? Because of the judgement.

Its bad and wrong to want to do nothing. You CANT want to do nothing ( and for this long ). Ohh I feel it my tummy right now. The wrongness is churning me up.

You have to do something! You have no money! Yeah thats even worse isn't it? Im on the dole, but I don't want to do anything.

Im a dole bludger. Oh and I feel that. The resentment of other people working hard and Im doing NOTHING. Feels like my childhood.

But you know what? Its not really that I want to do nothing. I just don't want to do whats being pressured and asked of me right now. I don't want to do what I don't want to do.

And thats all I know right now. I was resisting this so much for the last couple of weeks that I manifested chronic fatigue! The moment I got real about what I truly want and need right now...I felt that just lift off.

It feels so good to feel my truth. It feels so friggin good.

And i Just wanna love that so much. I wanna love this part of me that wants to do nothing. I want to be proud of doing nothing. I wanna love and accept the s**t out of this right now.

Im gonna do nothing with so much love and joy.

Turns out.... doing nothing reveals everything!

💗💗💗some days it’s super easy, some days challenging 🤯

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About | Freedom With Fenda Heal your deepest challenges and emotional pain with unconditional self-love. Fenda is a certified Unconditional Love Healing practitioner, podcast host and writer.

Wendy’s secret garden😌had a beautiful arvo bevy and catch up with one of my fav people😎. I always get inspired when I visit Lavender Bay. On the train ride home as I was going over the harbour bridge, reading my book, I had an epiphany that was fuelled by the conversations I had with my friend around authenticity and being your true self. It dawned on me that being yourself and “nailing” your authenticity in each moment is sooo powerful and “enough”. I sensed how I wasn’t trusting just how vibrationally powerful that is! I felt this deep knowing that everything I need and want will be drawn to me if I just trusted how enough I am. Just living my joy…whatever that is…whether it’s seen or not, big or small…as long as I’m true…that’s all that matters…It all just finally made sense. 🙌💗

I was asked this question this morning and its a good one.

In short and in my experience...yes they can be.

But, like everything....its a process of finding out the truth of your desires and your relationship to desire itself.

There's a lot of perspectives out there that desire is something we need to "transcend" (and I totally get why).But I disagree. Like all things...like all states of being, it needs to be welcomed, felt and understood.

From my personal experience and from an unconditionally loving perspective desire can be a powerful and loving experience.
Because like everything....it can be filtered through the lens of fear or of love. (side note....fear is a powerful tool)

Back in the day, before I started healing and transforming....I felt like a victim to my desires. They hurt. Because I could never seem to fulfil them. They caused me incredible pain. But once I got really ok with my emotions....and understood that I had negative beliefs about my desires (and myself)....they started to show me that they were, in fact, the gateway to my true souls intentions for my life. Through a really deep process of refining and releasing.....my desires were (and still are) leading me on my soul's path. I just had to have the courage to sit with them, get real honest about them...and then ask...why?

Why do I desire that particular thing? And how do I feel about it? What negative beliefs and judgements do I have about this desire? And more importantly....if I had this desire fulfilled...what experience am I imagining it will give me that I believe I don't or can't have right now?

That last question was the most powerful one. Because for me....most things I was desiring (they were all material and superficial..no judgement on that tho!) were pretty much gonna give me one or both of these things....Freedom and Love.

Once I clued onto that.... I realised that all of my "human" desires were just variations of what my soul wanted as an energetic "theme" for my life. And within that is A LOT of freedom. Because now I can trust that this desire is always being fulfilled...I just need to let go of what I think it will look like.

So really..desire can take you to the deepest alignment of your soul.

So take a look at each of your desires. Get really curious. Be ready to feel everything you have around that desire.

Why do you want that desire in particular? What is it going to make you feel? Try and feel it right down to the essence of the feeling you think you will have...

Now ask yourself...what is stopping me from feeling that now?

Im going to guess that if you whittle it down to the essential experience...it will be one or all of these things (they are interconnected).

You will feel powerful, connected, loved or free.

Well...guess what....thats YOU.

You want to feel YOURSELF.

And once you can embody that.....all of your desires will be fulfilled in the best way possible...and probably better than you imagined.

(ps a really great track to listen to is Desire by Anna Calvi....she's an amazing singer and guitarist...its a great track to process your stuff to around desire)

(pss if you wanna start empowering yourself with unconditional love and be free....message me about sessions)

This blog post has been brewing for a few days.
Feeling super grateful for the beautiful souls who have been a huge part of my journey.
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How My Self-love Created Connection For these last few days I've been deeply reflecting on intimacy and connection. In a few days time it will be the anniversary of the death of my soul mate, the love of my life. Im always wary of this time. I never know what will come up for me. Its been four years, and it still aches to think about....

Releasing the power to judge by loving it

For the last couple of days I’ve been going deep into the theme of judgement.

It’s been a huge theme in my life and I’m aware that I carry this pretty deep inside.

For years I felt like a victim to other peoples judgements (and I still do sometimes), but the most powerful realisation has been knowing that all the judgement I feel is self inflicted.

About a year ago I received a healing that was a huge breakthrough in owning my power and within that healing was a very clear voice of inner guidance that asked me if I was ready to let go of using my power to judge. And I was all like “but I’m the one being judged!” And feeling deeper into that I realised that I was using MY power to judge…and if I didn’t want to experience any judgement at all in my life, I needed to (and had to WANT to) let go of using that power completely.

Meaning…no more judgy pants towards others😱

And I had to be honest with myself…I knew I was not ready to let go of it. Because it protected me in some weird way. And if I let that go then I’m exposed! My defences are down! How will I cope with moving about in the world!

But these last couple of days have really brought that up again.

Judgement really holds me back because I’m terrified of it. I’m terrified of what I will be judged for. Especially as I allow myself to be more authentic and true.

But here’s the irony (well kinda)….whenever I judge…I’m judging what’s not being authentic 😳…I judge it in myself and I judge this in the world.

So effectively…I’m judging what I truly want. Who I truly am. And I’m not being honest about it.

And when I judge others I’m basically saying “well if I can’t have it…then you can’t have it! Hmmmf🤨

I thought I could heal judgement in one huge swoop. But I realise I need to work with each one individually because they are like little gifts of my truth…all been split off and hidden within my “stuff”.

Each judgement will teach me about

- what I truly want and value
- a belief of why I can’t be or have it
- and what I’m judging as bad or wrong therefore creating a limitation on myself, my experience and my love that wants to flow into the world.

And an extra thing, I see it will also teach me to be more compassionate and that I can have what I prefer to have in life….because I’ll release the need to make anyone else’s choices invalid or “wrong”.

That’s what I noticed with judgement as well.

It’s like you’re saying “I don’t like that! It’s wrong” and focusing on it whilst trying to choose what you prefer. And I can’t have it because….🤷🏽‍♀️ I’m literally blocking myself!

I can see that I can’t create what I want in an easy flowing way, if I’m judging everything that’s not that around it! 🤣

Ahhh. What a gift judgement contains!

Also it can be super tricky if you judge judgement itself 🤣

I had that for a loooonnng time.

For me that meant that my judgement power was extra potent 🤣and now I see why 🙌

It contains an abundance of gifts!

How do you respond and deal with judgement?

Can you see it’s loving power?

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Unco love for thé inner judge! 💗💗💗