Hante.

Hey,
It’s been a minute… And I think it’s time to give you some updates!
First of all (because my post is gonna be long and I know lots of people won’t read till the end), there will be a 50% discount on all my Bandcamp during June, starting today!
And well… so much happened those last months! To summarize, I moved closer to nature (what a life changer). I got a failed surgery (back to square one after a painful recovery). I got married (😱😁).
I started trying different alternative medicines to ease the tinnitus and hyperacusis but didn’t find anything that works yet.
My musician life seems so far away now and I admit that it’s not easy for me to go on Instagram and watch posts and videos that look so familiar but also from another reality. It’s bittersweet and I’m sorry that I’m not answering the messages anymore but I need to protect myself to be able to move on.
And as surprising as it sounds, I’m happier than I’ve ever been. It’s a tough journey but it is so worth it. I’m exploring new paths I never imagined I would love and I’m so excited about the future 😊
I’m not closing the music door (yet) as it still is a very important part of my life, helping me to focus on something else than the violent sounds in my head. I still love to compose deep dark melodies on my piano and still feel the beauty and the emotions in music even if I’ll be grieving the loss of stereo forever 😅
I wish you to find unexpected things that will bring joy in your life and to focus on what makes you feel happy instead of what brings you down. You’re enough 💪❤️

This was it.
Saturday night was my last time on a stage!
I know it will be a shock for some of you. The truth is: I don’t enjoy being on a stage anymore. And actually the whole experience around it. It became a struggle, a bitter reminder of what’s wrong with me. And there’s absolutely no point to continue to endure that.
The reality is that I’m half deaf, with a huge tinnitus that noisy environments and tiredness trigger even more until becoming unbearable sometimes, and with an inner ear not functioning. Clubs are the worst place to be in my situation. I see my condition deteriorating week after week and it’s scary.

Of course it seems extremely sad but I’m in peace with this decision. Please be happy for me, it’s such a relief!

I just can’t wait to enjoy the “silence” and the quietness of a new life I desperately need!

Please continue to support and Amandine! (I love U bae, you’ve got this! 💪). The shows are not cancelled!
The project is not dead, neither am I 🐉

Thanks so much to each and everyone of you for your love and endless support, it’s been a f****** wild ride 🤍
Now it is time to move on!

📸
1. Rare pictures of me and Amandine’s teeth 😁
2. Much love
3. Intense synth by Cybermind Photography
4. LA’s show backstage 💐
5. Very rainy day at Niagara Falls
6. Torch was not working in Phoenix so I improvised 😂
7. Proud babes
8. New meaningful tattoo by
9. That moment at Trabendo in Paris was our proper goodbyes, our only hug and tears on stage 💔❤️‍🔥

This week I will be back on stage with , first show since what happened to me in April. And I think it is time to give you some news.
First of all, let me be clearer on my situation, because people have been asking: I didn’t loose some of my left hearing, I lost all of it. Also I don’t have some weakness in my left inner ear, the organ doesn’t respond anymore and it will f**k my balance and my head for life.
That said 😅, let’s talk about the new challenges I will be facing on stage. I’m not gonna lie, rehearsals have been harsh.
First of all, because I’m half deaf and that I need to protect my last ear, the music I hear on stage is like it is from another room or like I am under water. The other issue is that I’m simply not able to move like I used to, with my hair and everything, and trying to dance a bit without wanting to throw up is now a new battle.
So why am I putting myself in this very uncomfortable position you would ask? 😅 First of all, I took some engagements a few months ago and to be honest, I never thought I would be in this state in September. I am still processing my new situation and realizing it will take a lot of times. Now it’s just too late, I don’t want to put people in a bad situation… Because we also simply can’t afford to loose more money than we already did. As independent artists, we were already trying to survive since 2020. And having to cancel many gigs the last months has put us in a difficult situation. We have an album coming out in November and we need to promote it on stage, it’s as simple as that. The timing is bad, I surely needed more time. But we don’t have this time, so I will stay as strong as I can be and will just do it. Also, I’m really hoping that week after week, it will become easier! Let’s see.

So please don’t be mad if I’m not super chatty after the shows, I will be exhausted + I may not hear you properly 😔
Thanks for your continuous support and your understanding 🤍

A NEW ME 🐉

As you already know, I got complications from Covid and my left inner ear doesn’t work anymore. Which means my brain has to relearn how to function with only one inner ear. And it is a long road.

But the thing that I didn’t mention until now is that I also lost my left hearing in the battle. It will never come back. Tinnitus is the only new sound that comes from this side.

This obviously changes a lot of things and music will never be the same to me. It is hard to process what the lost of an hearing will change in my life.

But I am ok, as strange as it sounds, I am ok. I discovered myself in a way I would maybe never have without this disease. I’ve been strong, focused, resilient. I see this as an opportunity to become a better version of myself, maybe a happier one, even being half deaf.

Now, is there a future for Hante? To be honest, it’s a question I can’t answer yet. If I can’t mix and master my own tracks anymore, will it still be Hante?

But many things are planned for this year and I’m doing my very best to be ready for the exciting things to come after the summer: our US tour in October and our album release in November!

This is the beginning of a new me. I just need to figure out what this means.

🌞

📷 by

Bandcamp is donating 100% of their share to the NAACP Legal Defense Fund today so this is the perfect occasion to put the 21 very last copies I’ve kept from the sold out “No Hard Feelings”!
The original sleeves are missing but I prepared some personalized ones, they are all signed and numbered 🤍

Getting my life back very slowly 🐉

I lost some things on the way but gained so much more 🌞

I will tell you more about this soon, thanks again for all your thoughtful messages 🤍

It’s been more than a month now since my last picture.
That day, what I didn’t know was that my life was about to stop. Now I’m in limbo, waiting to be back.
For those who didn’t see my stories, I tested positive to Covid that day and it went down pretty fast due to unfortunate series of events👌 To resume, it destroyed my left inner ear and now I have to relearn how to move without feeling trapped in a rocking boat. After huge treatments at the hospital, I just started my re-education 💪
It’s gonna be a long road so bear with me 🤍

Today is Bandcamp Friday again! If you were thinking about adding a Hante. or albums to your collection, or get some merch, now would be absolutely perfect 😁🙏
And to thank you for your support, you can use the code “Spring2022” to get 20% off on all the catalogue!
(Swipe right to see a little selection of what is still available)

With all my gratitude ❤️‍🩹

Still alive 🦂

I’m not giving lots of news lately because I’m super busy cooking a new album for 💪

Also it’s Bandcamp Friday and we just released a remix edition of our EP “Don’t Run From The Fire” featuring the 4 original tracks + 4 amazing remixes from & ❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥
There are three beautiful colored vinyls on Bandcamp, any support on my projects is very very appreciated 🤍

https://minuitmachine.bandcamp.com

Artwork by .grienenberger ✨

40 is the new 30 ✨
Thanks so much for all the Birthday wishes! And for thinking of me during those hard times 💙💛

Blast from the past 🐺
Bandcamp Friday is back 🔥

Lost and found rare items from Hante & are available on Bandcamp today!
Along with two new colors of our SAINTE RAVE vinyl + the very first digipack CD edition!

https://synthreligion.bandcamp.com/merch

📸 from my Fall tour in 2019, couldn’t find from where or from who so don’t hesitate to claim a credit 😅

Happy New Year! ✨
And bye 2021 👋
Thanks for your amazing support this year 🤍 I released my proudest work to date “Morning Tsunami”, and your response to it has been truly overwhelming!
But the music industry is a really complicated machine that can be felt as unfair sometimes and mixed with bad lucks, it can pull you very down. That’s why I will be taking a break from Hante. in 2022. I need to listen to the signs and follow what feels right. And while it’s been so hard to handle my solo project with no help and many disappointments, the stars seem to align for my other project 𝙈𝙄𝙉𝙐𝙄𝙏 𝙈𝘼𝘾𝙃𝙄𝙉𝙀], and I want to focus on the positive. I don’t have the energy to fight anymore.
This is not a farewell but a simple goodbye and you’ll be hearing from me again as I’m not entirely done yet and still have a few things to offer.
If you want to continue to support me, please follow 𝙈𝙄𝙉𝙐𝙄𝙏 𝙈𝘼𝘾𝙃𝙄𝙉𝙀] because it’s gonna be a crazy busy year with lots of shows and new music (hopefully, if Covid can let us be). And also, because I’m sharing all this with the most amazing babe and without her, I would have no hopes left ❤️‍🔥